### Dreams 🧫 1. Half-awake state: 1. GMA now associated with Lucifer/BATANY—Gloria? GMA the network. 2. Having to go back from a play rehearsal or a sports fest into a room where we had to check if our enemies lurked. I don’t know why. The feeling that I had no underwear on beneath my dress and it was so anxiety-inducing. And I had to sneak out a piece of underwear from a cabinet. They were flesh-colored like my light orange one I’m recently wearing for my period. 3. Advising Kate, who wore a brazen white bikini in a sort of mall, to just wear a long-sleeve top while exposing her cleavage like me so it’s sexier. The contrast. Not bad advice. 4. The Hunger Games was being shot or that I was living as Katniss in the movie itself although it was a more casual setting where Jennifer Lawrence really appeared as though she was wearing the outfit Psalm Zalsos wore to tennis only it was a tube top and skirt combo that was blue and pink. I got the feeling that it was also shot from Peeta’s POV. 5. Ideal love state (I really had a dream about this—me ruminating in the dream—one of the best types of dreams I get once in a while) 1. Is Father-Daughter relationship really one of and these types of questions for Godhead: Well, the worst sexual thought that father gets is “my daughter probably washes her vagina like she is masturbating” and thinking of daughter’s sexual habits is queer thought. Leads to perversion if not ideal relationship. Leads to storge-philia love towards daughter (as all good father-daughter relationships should be) 2. Relationships in Godhead lead to love. Relationships are what ties each of the Godhead to the other. Their unity-disunity is found in the relationships humans have. Freudian inspiration. Maybe there are three types under father-daughter. 6. Interpretations: Why am I being made to focus on clothes and underwear and bras and cleavage? OH!!!! Yesterday’s sermon!!! Magic!!!! 1. **Matthew 6:25** “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? **26** Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? **27** Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[[a](https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew%206%3A25-34&version=NIV#fen-NIV-23310a)]? ### Ruminations 🩻 1. Lord I pray that my Clarkesworld gambit pays off with “Fancypants” even though it’s very light on the science fiction. But if not, then Your will be done, Lord. In ISA’s name, amen. 2. So out of 23 seens, Eleonore Stump responded—unlikely!! But her response is basically, “I’m too busy right now to really examine what you’re saying.” Meaning she’s too busy for Jesus when it hit her in the face instead of being transformed. WOWZA. If that isn’t true, she’s deceiving me somehow by appearing not to be interested in my ideas when they’re directly relevant to her life’s work. Maybe she doesn’t like the feeling of being outwitted by a young researcher from the Philippines. Hope not. This movement is beyond anyone’s ego. I hope others take it well, which I have a feeling will work out because one Filipino philosopher has at least stalked my website (not Gailyap.blog) but clicked on [gailyap.blog](http://gailyap.blog) too!! And seems highly interested in my research instead of my writing!!! Which is a good sign I’m being taken seriously!!!! Thank You God!!!! 3. So how Angels are threads? Well, humans themselves leave those patterns in literature, religion, poetry, etc. etc., but they never really do it consciously all the time. Maybe angelic realm lies in the spaces of randomness and spontaneity. We short circuit to a thread when we acutely notice a thread of Meaning especially woven for us, so that’s part of a bunched Message from an Angel, but it doesn’t fully capture the angelity of an Angel, because still, They’re beyond our understanding. 4. I’m really annoyed by pensandpoison on Instagram haranguing people about the importance of “humanism” instead of progressive “wokeness” in literature. I can almost pinpoint her frustration because again, she’s only upset at leftists for harming her family, and not out of any moral stance which she rationalizes away through her takes against leftists. But then she doesn’t realize that humanism is actually progressive woke too, just really subtle about it. Because all literature is political, even the great humanist literature she idolizes and sacralizes are “woke” only they’re skilled and subtle about it—and I think that’s what she craves—subtlety and seamlessness that the politics disappears under the tricks of the writer. You’re supposed to aim at something beyond politics of left and right when you write great literature, and I think that’s what she really wants—to be fooled well. It’s only extreme subtlety and complexity that make a great humanist novel greater than the sum of its parts—again a quantum situation. 5. Video background is a bookshelf and a lamp. 6. So I just realized that if I want to dream about something specific I have to call to God’s mind verses? Or that I listen to pastors and write about their sermons and do some effort in the process like transcribing their sermons? 7. Lord I have 8-9 months to really develop a way to make a video about the Trinity. Please give me wisdom about how to present it to mass audiences. I don’t want to be clickbait but I really need it to go viral somehow so a technique to make Trinity relatable or awe-inducing to laymen as a mystery would be amazing. Please let me discover some method or technique to present the Logos too. I feel like all my ideas need to be talked about in one long video so the stakes are really high here. Help me to separate the topics of name meanings, Trinity, Logos, Godhead, etc. etc. into bite-sized chunks so I can present it as shorts first to build momentum. No academic is likely to steal YouTube content that isn’t as prestigious yet until I win Berggruen, so I can safely expose my ideas without anybody realizing the importance until I actually state that I’ve partially solved the Trinity mystery. It’s supposed to be a teaching or information video but I really don’t know how to frame anything yet to make it informative as well as entertaining. 1. Chosen Ones! Priest costume really with name meanings discussion. A wild hair color + that costume. 1. “What if names are really that important?” 2. “Names are the gears and bolts of destiny” 3. “Bible Logic 101: God’s will speaks through name meanings.” 4. “Name your kid John John for maximum luck and glory” 5. “God’s Choice and Consent: Chosen One Trope in the Very Bible” 2. How to apply the Hugot Method to get what you want in life 1. clickbait title 2. Video linked called “The Hugot Method: Tapping Into Christ’s Magic!” 1. Talking about John John, Jean Jane, Janis Ian and accidentally discovering that I am a Second Coming (or one of the first Instruments). Here’s where you mention your parents’ full name. Here’s where you also talk about how important name meanings are because of what Victoria Trumbull said about Time overflowing space. You need to be able to hammer in importance of the permanence though animations probably. 2. Talking about British Israelism and Giovanni di Giovanni and Logos 3. Talking about Mike and your visions/beatific vision. 4. Linking to a new video talking about God’s Chosen Ones in the 12-Godhead 3. The “believe it to see it” extended video where you apply it to dreams and interpretation and calling for people to email me their dreams and the people involved and as much autobiographical detail about their lives they can muster. 4. Linking to “how you discovered” name meanings are significant talking about your own name, your Parousia origins, Vico Sotto, talking about the content of TLS as a framework. “Let’s begin in December [flashback animation rewinding to December 2025]. 8. Plans in the interim: 1. Get a Circle community where you can host courses 2. Buy [acco.com](http://acco.com) domain to reserve it for Circle community 3. By the time you win Berggruen, you will have formed a tiny community in Circle ideally? But you would need to let them access the story first? 4. How do I form a community around the framework? The ACCO framework encompassing Godhead, accoiyo-batany, Logos, name meanings, Trinity, ISA Movement, Real World and other worlds, and the Hugot Method? 9. Henrietta Lacks 1. Kyle De Luna—narrow channel or strait moon—moon give me bread Stanley Fish—stone papacy fish jesus symbol loaves of bread and fish Nesserli John Salmon—knife God is gracious fish—eat of my flesh Jesus Henrietta: home ruler or estate ruler body of water/lake or salmon 2. Key to immortality and expansion? Turn a heart of stone into flesh, 5 loaves, two fish=5,000 normal math makes 7 or 10. Or 2.5 loaves and 1 fish. 5 loaves are stones. 2 fish are flesh. 2 humans. 5 stones or five evil ones? Lucifer, Judas, Rome, Serpent, Cain 3. Proverbs chapter 12 female angels A “why would you categorize this way” for Trinity 10. OMG ANGELO PEREZ VIEWED MY FB STORY!!! 11. What if I inherited my mother’s grief at being raped in her youth? What if my fear of my body not being my own and being out of control might actually source from being raped while drunk and never being able to mourn it properly. Epigenetics, I just found out, is the mechanism. Lord, please heal my mind towards better days and thoughts. Please disappear this old fear. I feel it slightly today even though I didn’t take armodafinil. In ISA’s name, amen. 12. How to do the “Comment ____ and I’ll send you the full article/breakdown” and at the end “Follow @abbynicoleyee for more 13. “Without God we cannot; without us God will not.”—St. Augustine 14. Make your spokes video HD through Vmake 9.99 USD. 15. Translate to Chinese, Spanish, English, and Hindi your videos 1 month into the upload of the video 16. TTI-101 the drug that mimics exercise!!! 17. I have no reason to be anxious today. Except my biology makes me slightly anxious. Noticing how dissociated my mouth feels. I don’t know why it has something to do with my mouth, God. Please lift my worries because I cast them all to You. In ISA’s name, amen. 18. I think I’m anxious about being anxious. Toxic cycle. I panic because I really hate the sensation of panic and panic that I might get another panic attack which feeds the devious cycle. 19. You know, I questioned my entire MA route. I don’t think I’ll be on my way to an MA, or that I need an MA from UPD but not to eventually become a tenured professor. I need to be able to have time to develop my app and found ACCO. Time to write. Time to meet with other like-minded people. So I give up my professor dreams. I can’t teach really, unless I really tried. I can make AI Avatars of myself teaching but I can never really be a professional. I’ll just have to suck it up for my conferences and meetings though, because that’s going to be the real challenge, I think. Speaking in front of a large crowd. 20. Lord, I really need You to atrophy the part of my mind’s networks that leads it to hyperfocus on my mouth sometimes. I don’t know what’s causing it except hypervigilance for signs of numbness. I don’t know if I’m deliberately stoking it by bringing it to my attention nearly every day. Please, God, I can’t really live in peace with it. But Your will be done as always. I just feel like this useless anxiety is just going to add more complication into my very complicated life. In ISA’s name, amen.