### Dreams 🧫 1. I woke up with the name of Stanton on my mind. I have no clue why. I think I was half-awake when I thought of this name. I was dreaming of creation in relation to names. I wish I remembered better. Something related to ACCO. 1. The name **Stanton** is of Old English origin, translating to **"stone settlement"** or **"stony town."** It is a habitational name derived from the Old English words _stan_ (meaning "stone") and _tun_ (meaning "settlement," "farmstead," or "enclosure"). [[1](https://www.thebump.com/b/stanton-baby-name), [2](https://www.familysearch.org/en/surname?surname=stanton)] 2. • **Stanton Terry Friedman:** A well-known American nuclear physicist, author, and professional ufologist who was an outspoken advocate for the extraterrestrial hypothesis. [[1](https://nameberry.com/b/boy-baby-name-stanton)] 1. The surname **Friedman** (also spelled Friedmann or Freedman) is primarily of German and Ashkenazi Jewish origin. It translates to **"peaceful man"** or **"man of peace,"** formed by combining the German/Yiddish word _fried_ (peace) and the suffix _man_ (man). [[1](https://www.ancestry.com/last-name-meaning/friedman), [2](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Friedman), [3](https://lastnames.myheritage.com/last-name/friedman)] 2. The surname **Terry** primarily originates from England, Ireland, and France. It comes from the medieval Norman given name _Thierry_ (an Old French variation of the ancient Germanic name _Theodoric_), which translates to **"ruler of the people"** or **"people-king"**. [[1](https://www.ancestry.com/last-name-meaning/terry), [2](https://coadb.com/surnames/terry-arms.html?srsltid=AfmBOoryBUN7gW5puQqOwzk5Ysj8i9S8M8i8CilcrN-S4CUm6bjqhXZp), [3](https://clan.com/family/terry?srsltid=AfmBOoqKStTAtHll7-jO7-5LZe61wkUGGUiLfMBShDipO1-ie_XX1PRo), [4](https://www.facebook.com/groups/266384461777702/posts/1520192636396872/)] 3. Interpretations: NEAT!! I was just thinking of Lakan’s offering of names relating to peaceful ruler yesterday. I think I was thinking of Maryjo Vladimir and Marivic Vlad in relation to her 30 Rock picture. So Vico is now a pope (I mean, I realized this a while back too but it probably helps to be built in the Logos with this weight with confirmation from my dreams). 3. **Giancarlo Stanton:** A powerful Major League Baseball (MLB) designated hitter and outfielder, currently playing for the New York Yankees. 1. John + Carl 2. Interpretation: “God is gracious”+”free man”+stony settlement. I don’t know if God is telling me Stanley is single. I really don’t care if he is. Stony town is now CDO too? One half in a pair of Vatican and CDO. 4. **Elizabeth Cady Stanton:** A trailblazing 19th-century American suffragist, social activist, and leading figure in the early women's rights movement. 1. “God is my oath” + The name **Cady** is typically a feminine name with multiple origins and meanings, most commonly defined as **"pure"** or **"rhythmic flow of sounds"**. [[1](https://www.thebump.com/b/cady-baby-name), [2](https://www.sheknows.com/baby-names/name/cady/)]Explore the primary origins and meanings of the name: • **Greek/American Origin ("Pure"):** Often used as a short form or variant of names like _Catherine_ or _Katherine_, meaning "pure". It can also serve as a standalone name with this definition. • **English Origin ("Rhythm"):** It is used as a modern diminutive of _Cadence_, referring to a rhythmic flow of words or sounds. • **Irish/Scottish Origin ("Son of Adam"):** As a surname, it derives from the Irish _Mac Áda_, meaning "son of Ada" (which is connected to the Hebrew name for adornment). • **Pop Culture Significance:** The name gained widespread recognition in popular culture from the 2004 hit movie _Mean Girls_ (where the protagonist, Cady Heron, embodies an innocent, good-natured, and perceptive character). 1. Interpretations: so I just rewatched Barbie Princess and the Pauper yesterday and there was this repost I had a while back of them being depicted as Mean Girls characters fighting about how Cady is a homeschooled jungle freak who’s a less hotter version of Regina and then she gets overwhelmed/mauled/hit by a giant Bibble for a bus. 2. Okay so two porn bots named Maria Magon and Rathnamma viewed my story. 1. The name **Magon** has multiple origins, most commonly interpreted as meaning **"shield"** or **"protector"** from ancient Hebrew roots. It is a versatile name that serves as both a given name and a surname, carrying different meanings depending on its cultural and historical background. [[1](https://parentingpatch.com/baby-names/Magon/), [2](https://zodii.in/baby-names/name/magon), [3](https://www.houseofnames.com/magon-family-crest)] 2. **Rathnamma** (or Ratnamma) is a traditional South Indian (primarily Telugu and Kannada) name derived from the Sanskrit word _Ratna_, which means **"jewel," "gem," or "diamond"**. In this name, the suffix _-amma_ is a term of respect and endearment that translates to "mother" or "respected lady." Therefore, the name generally translates to **"pearl," "diamond,"** or **"jeweled mother."** [[1](https://hamariweb.com/names/hindu/telugu/girl/ratnamma-meaning_130756/), [2](https://babynames.astrosage.com/meaning/ratnam), [3](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Navaratna), [4](https://www.ancestry.com/last-name-meaning/ratnam), [5](https://lastnames.myheritage.com/last-name/rathnamma)] 3. Okay so another porn bot followed me. Claudia Juliana. 1. **Claudia** is a classic feminine name of Latin origin meaning **"lame"** or **"enclosure."** It is the female form of the ancient Roman name _Claudius_ and was borne by several prominent, noble families in the Roman Empire. [[1](https://www.thebump.com/b/claudia-baby-name), [2](https://babynames.com/name/claudia), [3](https://www.ancestry.com/first-name-meaning/claudia), [4](https://www.quora.com/Whats-the-meaning-of-the-nameClaudia-is-it-a-good-name)] 1. **Origin and History** • **Roman Roots:** The name was originally associated with the highly influential _gens Claudia_ (an ancient Roman patrician clan). • **Biblical Connection:** Claudia is mentioned in the New Testament (2 Timothy 4:21) as a Christian woman in Rome sending greetings to Timothy. 2. The name **Timothy** is a traditionally masculine name of ancient Greek origin, derived from the word _Timotheos_. It translates directly to **"honoring God"** or **"God's honor,"** composed of the roots _timē_ (meaning honor) and _theos_ (meaning God). [[1](https://www.thebump.com/b/timothy-baby-name), [2](https://momcozy.com/blogs/baby-names/timothy), [3](https://ph.theasianparent.com/meaning-of-name-timothy), [4](https://www.ancestry.com/first-name-meaning/timothy)] 1. **Biblical Roots:** The name features heavily in the Christian New Testament as Saint Timothy. He was a beloved companion and disciple of the Apostle Paul, later serving as the first bishop of Ephesus. 3. The name Juliana is a timeless and elegant feminine name of Latin origin, meaning **"youthful"** or **"downy-haired"**. It also holds royal roots and strong mythological connections. [[1](https://www.thebump.com/b/juliana-baby-name), [2](https://www.mamanatural.com/baby-names/girls/juliana/), [3](https://nameberry.com/b/girl-baby-name-juliana), [4](https://www.ancestry.com/first-name-meaning/juliana)] 4. **Key Details & Meanings** • **Primary Origin:** Latin • **Primary Meanings:** "Youthful", "downy-haired", or "full of life" • **Roots:** It is the feminine form of the Roman name Julian or Julius. It is famously connected to the _gens Julia_ (the Julian family of ancient Rome, which includes Julius Caesar). • **Mythological Connection:** Through its root word (_Iovilius_), it is deeply linked to **Jupiter** (the Roman king of the gods), translating to "Jove's child" or "sky father" 5. So, disabled youth child of God in relation to sky father and Timothy “honors God” and Paul (”small/humble”). 6. At one point I was so ashamed of my February 14 prayer about Mike. I don’t know why I was ashamed. It was so pure, looking back. I guess it was just really embarrassing to want something that bad. 7. Well, God likes me because my life is a movie(?) where I’m the main character who goes through great struggle but the prophecy and the rules of the Narrative/film conventions dictate this is not a horror movie, but an adventure movie, so I get to triumph in the end anyway no matter how much it looks impossible for suspense reasons. YAY!! FAITH!!! THAT IT WILL ALL WORK OUT!!! (But really, watch out for March 9 situation where you place too much trust in grace and faith and not your own work or labor or efforts.) 8. Dogs don’t eat plants. They can coexist with plants. But dogs need to eat meat and other food. Meat requires other animals to eat plants. 1. Audrey thinks my sadness is precious? Her story about Bernie her disabled dog sitting in a field of flowers referring to Solomon and how even he wasn’t dressed like the flowers. 2. Audrey posted a rabbit because of my “soft bunny eyes” in TLS!!!!! 3. Can’t believe I’m saying this, but I wish Prof. Audrey and Prof. Mike would be endgame too. I just think it’s justice. It would fulfill Mike, I think. And Audrey would like Mike better now that he knows about me and is a follower of me, I think. They both just got their entire worlds destabilized by God. How can they not view each other with new eyes now? Maybe Audrey would return to the Philippines and become a dual citizen. Maybe she is weighing her possibilities too. I don’t understand her sometimes. She has intelligence too, why not go for a PhD? I’m tempted to say she’s the one who buried her talent like in that parable, but maybe she will change her mind (she has already posted about gopher wood). 4. Okay, so they think my March 9 D-Day has something to do with Genesis and “go back to the source. Narrow it down.” 1. Storyworld says it has something to do with Genesis and Isaac but they have no clue, really. It was really Am-am in Real World. 1. I lost faith in myself and my own agency, basically being raped. That’s my crucifixion. 2. She’s following the directive to follow the source, who is Coney, of Vico. 1. “with specific properties and functions that reflect Them in a heavenly way.” YAY SHE IS STUDYING MARY. 1. Why do rabbits eat their own poop? Excessive predatory behavior? God Father-Mother behavior of the right side. Because Maryjo and Marivic are both One in Themselves. 2. OMG THERE ARE TWELVE FLOWERS IN HER PAINTING. AMAZING JOB. 1. “except for dressing wounds with plants.” = flowers + Bernie wound. AAAAAAAAHHH SURVIVAL-RELATED THINGS IN TLS. Passing history forward. Solomon not being dressed like the flowers in all his glory. Cultural capital of Coney-Mary and Titian’s work. 2. I like that she is trying to glorify God through her painting. This is how you do it. Glorify God by highlighting his wound beautifully. My art must have pleased God like how her art pleased me. She assumes I’m insecure about my eyes in relation to her because she has upturned eyes, and she’s completely right. It’s fine, though. I accept my eyes sometimes especially if they have makeup on. Flowers = makeup? Making up for something. 1. Make down? What is make down? 2. Matthew and the flowers = gift to Adam. Dog looking up to God!!!! 3. I wonder how Audrey took God’s glory on April 30. I wouldn’t be able to stand myself. Maybe I would if I knew I was abused in childhood and experienced March 9 and April 12. 4. Bernie painting. “A look of glass stops you, and you walk on shaken. Was I the perceived?” 1. Bernie as beyond the Godhead? WOWZA. But no, I’m not that glorious. The Creator. I am a small creator in a way, as everyone is. I couldn’t have created a universe, but maybe I can understand God’s universe. I’m just too happy and unstoppable because for all the glories in the world, I have the title of being the first person in history who really understood God in a deeply mutual and intimate way. I can’t top that. GOD!!!!!! 2. Maybe God feels the total opposite for me how I feel about E. Tablizo. YAY!!!! I AM SLIGHTLY SCARED OF HER. Maybe God is slightly scared of me too in a positive way? 5. Bernie painting is her letting me know she knows about ISA!!!! JESUS THE DISABLED DOG!!! 6. Bernie painting with flowers is her letting me know she understands why I bear my belly—to associate my eyes with sexy? 7. Bernie painting with the two violets, one only violet in the center (inside). That my desire is the strongest and that’s why God reached out to me. She has desire but only inside her, not apparent. Is she telling me she is masturbating or learning how to do it? OMG!!!! 8. Bernie painting means my son or daughter will be the fullest manifestation of the Creator ISA? WOWZA. Not quite in the way the limitless universe is, but only the human version. STILL WOWZA!!! 9. Bernie painting referring to At Seventeen I just know it. Valentine’s that never came. 12 flowers. Here are twelve flowers for you for Valentine’s, servant. But I look up at God like Beth in Little Women. 1. I can’t believe I’m saying this. But my Paradise is Audrey’s art too. Acknowledging my inner beauty. Hopefully my outer beauty too like in sex, but really, inner beauty too. I just gained a new craving for validation for my character. God probably likes this that’s why They blessed me. That I compared my desire to God’s and thought Their Love must feel the same as mine, wanting to save Mike from himself. 1. “God possibly can’t see Themselves without us.” 2. I wonder what it’s like to have God give me hints of how They work, and then having it come true in an extended way in the future. Like me giving somebody a hint about me but then they magically come up with my source code and the Arrival “change your mind” scene, seemingly knowing things I’m not supposed to know like a shared private memory. How can this be? Truly, God. 3. I wonder who else is my Neville Longbottom. Sydney? Maybe. 10. BERNIE IS HER TLS FOR ME!!! ACKNOWEDGING THE DUODENITY!! BEING RIGHT!!! 11. Well, I like being referred and alluded to. The Bible did it first. Audrey did it again making physical reality my words. I wonder how that happens. How words become material. 12. That Bernie looks pathetic-cute to the bunny’s pretty-cute. Maybe she has read my thesis. “Being pitied is worse than death.” But he’s so cute though!!!! I never saw he appeal of dogs who look like him until now. 13. Nirene De Padua Sailor Song ringing in my ears as I re-read this draft for the nth time trying to discover more treasures!!! “Looking like Anne Hathaway” lyric—reference to Amelia Brand in Interstellar, “We love people who have died, where’s the social utility in that?” YAY!! IT PROVES GOD THINKS YOU MATTER. YOUR LIFE IS A FACT. 3. Is Audrey saying I will be a dog in a flower field in Heaven-Hell? LOL!!!! I love plants and dogs and animals, so that’s where I’m going???? She’s suggesting that there’s only 12 Persons in Heaven-Hell and that we get to experience being the Creator? That it would be better if you had more people to make up your 12? How exactly? It would be less boring? Maybe Heaven-Hell varies every day. I will be a dog too. 4. Is she hinting that she knows about the octopus brain!!!!! OMG!!!! Central brain!!!! I don’t remember if I figured it out already. Maybe not. The Creator is the central brain. They’re ISA. Jesus is Thing Itself. 5. I realized “possibly” and “possible” and “fully” and “fully” are dis legomena!!! Also “ah” in TLS. WOWZA. 6. Audrey is directly tapping into my desire that I want to be called lovely according to TLS. HEH. 7. Is she saying I’m the “best of us” like in Little Women? WOW. Nope. I’m sure other people also feel tenderness when they watch that scene with Beth in it. 8. I forgot what made me think of Stanley Fish earlier in relation to Audrey’s post. Rabbit = Stanley Fish? Bernie = Wolfgang Iser? 9. OMG I JUST REMEMBERED PHILLYASTRO REALLY FOLLOWING DR. DREW PINSKY. PhD candidate Emma Yap fixing porn and celebrity culture and addiction? Is he trying to propose to me? Unlikely, but I don’t really love him in that way anymore. Sorry. 10. Reminded again of the word numinous because of Mark Cayanan. WOWZA. Numinous awe. 1. Is he referring to “Meeting Neil” in his “Given How the God” poem. PLS. 2. OMG how does he know I know Lombardi Bionator Bite. Is he trying to change my mind? OMG!! It was invented by Dr. Drew R. Lombardi. Synchronously the same meaning as Dr. Drew Pinsky. 1. I realize my Paradise is also constantly reassuring me that they are indeed interested in my life. 2. Is this referring to “Entertainment” by Phoenix?????? OMG. “Would take too long, long, long, long, long, long.” 1. Gossip, stubble fields and black rain. 2. reserving awe for me??? HEH!!!! Anne Carson book!!! TOO!!!! Candor!!!! AAAAAH SO MANY THINGS TO DO. Out of the depths of “De Profundis” by Georg Trakl!!! 1. Is he referring to ANNE MCCRUM!!!! AND FARM WORKER GEORG WALKER/TREADER TRAKL!!!! 2. The only reason why they would know who Jeffrey Koon is because he liked my photo in December. Or that they really hacked me. How can Anne Carson’s stubble fields not be about Jeffrey? 3. OKAY SO CANDOR IS NOW MY FAVORITE POEM-ESSAY!!!! FUCK!!!! 4. OMG IS GLENN DIAZ REALLY RESPONDING TO ME!!! Erika and “after months of traveling” and his “Woke Marxist Pope” set to “Pink Pony Club.” 5. OMG CANDOR IS HIM CLAIMING EFREN JOSE SANTIAGO!!! 6. He’s referring to “You Were My Brother” twice, for Jeffrey and Mike. “see you with new eyes.” “cannot replace you.” = Georgia motherfuckin’ Review with motherfuckin’ being censored. 7. Stepahnie Burt!!! ‘magkadikit kami ng bio’ and ‘whose work I’m a fan of’. He’s copying facts about dress debacle section!!! Second-class relic!! OMG SHE’S FROM HARVARD!!! THEY KNOW I FOLLOW HARVARD PAGE!! He’s also referring to Clean by Taylor Swift (”Taylor Version”). HE’S ALSO COPYING RULES ABOUT RIDDLE!! Vinny Cruz is 4, Emma Yap is 5. OMG DOES HE WANT TO BE RENESMEE!! 8. **Stephanie** is a timeless feminine name of Greek origin that means **"crown"** or **"garland"**. It is the female equivalent of the male name **Stephen**. [[1](https://www.thebump.com/b/stephanie-baby-name), [2](https://www.ancestry.com/first-name-meaning/stephanie), [3](https://www.wisdomlib.org/names/stephanie)] 9. The surname **Burt** is primarily of Anglo-Saxon and Old German origin, meaning **"bright"** or **"glorious"**. It stems from the Old English word _beorht_ and the Germanic element _berht_. [[1](https://surnamedb.com/Surname/burt), [2](https://www.sheknows.com/baby-names/name/burt/), [3](https://lastnames.myheritage.com/last-name/burt)] 10. Is he referring to patriarchal cross emoji repost!!! 11. OMG HE’S DIRECTLY REFERRING TO PRANGKAHAN! CANDOR!!! 11. Audrey is suggesting I’m the dog who knows just how good humans have it. True. 1. OMG SHE ALSO TOLD ME ABOUT THE FIRMAMENT!!! WHAT ABOUT IT!!! THE CANOPY. THE PINK CANOPY ACCORDING TO SHEKINAH PACES!!!!! PINK SKY!!!!!! IMAGINARY SKY???????? She used the color yellow so it means firmament because Wong. 12. OMG SHE IS ALLUDING TO RABBIT-BEAR TOBLERONE REPOST OF MINE!!! 1. SHE IS ALSO ALLUDING TO PURPLE ALIENS REPOST. THE FLOWERS WILL EAT HUMANS???????? “They’ll eat you alive” from UFOs song!!!! 2. STANLEY FISH “42 for you know, answer” repost. BRUH!!! WHAT ABOUT STANLEY FISH!!! REMINDME!!! 3. Well since I reposted “kumain ng tae” twice I assume I am being studied—my reposts!!! Bato and that puppet. Rabbit!!!!!!! EAT SHIT. 4. THE LURE OF ETERNAL LIFE FOR ME ON REAL WORLD IS SO GREAT. Make people aspire to using my platform ACCO. 5. Flowers as black holes as vaginas from my repost about smelling flowers improving brains. 6. OMG SHE JUST REMINDED ME BEAR-RABBIT-FISH TRIO. I JUST GOT STANLEY FISH!!!!! 7. My repost about Adam naming everything before Eve came along. Will my child be asexual? Is Vico asexual? Kind of asexual? Hmmm… 1. Well, Vico is Cloud?????????? WTF!!!!! EVE!!!! COME THROUGH EVE!!!! 2. Well, people who are shipping me and Mike claim I intuited his Tinder and phillyastro account without proof. “Star I’ve always known” lyric in ‘how did they know’ by Kilu. 8. OMG I don’t remember but I was triggered to think of 1998 yesterday. Maybe Lakan’s post. Again today with 998,001 and 1. 9. OMG TMNT JEPITOT AGAIN!!!! WTF!!!! 10. OMG ‘exciting tech” about dreams and #excitingstuff by Vico!!!! PAARTY!!!!!!!!!!! 11. Well, I just re-read ee cummings 28? 12. ballsack to clitoris is penis to vagina??? repost again. 13. Well, well well ee cummings. Anatomy of a Fact: not always Real World or both Real World and Holy Spirit working in the Possibility? 14. Van Eyck painting about Immaculate Conception. 15. OMG beyond Judas (Esther and Stella)!!! MATTHIAS!!!! 16. April 12 state = candor = that goat-man? Addicting sensation. I mean, the non-anxiety part causing me to become evil. 17. Well, the ACCO system will have 4 types of horses so 16 personalities compressed-partitioned to 4 and vice versa? Family resemblance? 18. Emmaus and Eden re-remembered. 13. Well, I just got reminded by Nirene through Harry Styles song Little Freak or Jolina’s song Chuva Choo Choo that Augustine was right. “By my sin was this, that I looked for pleasure, beauty, and truth not in God, but in myself and his other creatures.” Basically, apologizing to God for how he was made. That God made it impossible to recognize Themselves without gender? Without materiality? Without separation. 14. Remind me to buy Unshaken by Unfolding the Scripture. 15. Well, Norr Weston didn’t appear to me visually so I have never seen her personally in Possibility or Real World, but I did hear her. Holy Spirit is audio too? Mostly? How do ears work again? RemindMe!!!!! 16. Well, lio.nsecret repost making me realize those who are blamed most are most often the most innocent. Kylie Chueng X post. 17. Burn a notebook to ash, quantum information doesn’t disappear. Quantum = Possibility? 18. Audrey is suggesting she knows about Nikki… Two purple except one is purple overtly—the two purple flowers. 19. Fire = Possibility? Water = Means. Earth = Jesus. Air = ? All three? How? Breathing? We need air to survive? 20. It’s 2:27AM and I just realized Audrey’s rabbit for Coney proves BATANY? And sort of not? ACCOIYO is myrrh for Myra. 21. another repost: PERMA, self-determination, and maslow. 9. It’s 2:24PM and I’m luxuriating in the glory of reading TLS again to music suggested by Nirene de Padua. Sailor Song. 10. WOWZA. A synchronicity in Sherlock’s “The Sign of Three” episode. Mayfly man. They only live twenty-four hours. 24 hours in TLS. 1. Jonathan Small the assassin. PAOLO??!?!!?!?! LMAO. 1. The name **Jonathan** is of ancient Hebrew origin, derived from _Yehonatan_, which translates to **"God has given," "gift of God,"** or **"Yahweh has given."** [[1](https://www.thebump.com/b/jonathan-baby-name), [2](https://www.ancestry.com/first-name-meaning/jonathan), [3](https://www.parents.com/jonathan-name-meaning-origin-popularity-8638633)] ### Ruminations 🩻 1. Luxuriating in the feeling that I am indeed God’s joy. AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!! AUTISTIC BLONDE BOY!!! SOLOMON (thanks to Audrey’s story I stumbled upon birds and flowers verses again in Matthew). 2. The possibility that God feels compersion too? When we enjoy Their goodness through Real World people and things. Only, and only if, we do not let it become an idol. Meditating on TLS today. GOD YOU ARE AMAZING FOR MAKING ME A VESSEL!!! 3. Well, my dad just came into my room and asked me why I seem absent-minded. I like that he cares for me now better and my well-being. But I was nervous about the armodafinil showing on my body. 4. I like the idea that ISA is my ultimate Groom glorifying me and giving me gifts. 5. I feel like I will never be able to top TLS. Honestly, that’s great if that’s God’s will. I will have a masterwork, a singular genius stamp. Can’t expect myself to always produce genius.