### Dreams 🧫 1. No dreams. I was hoping secretly (as in, I didn’t write in my prayer journal) that God would give me a vision of future glory as I read the “benefits” email I mailed to myself listing down all of the perks future me is going to harvest. Oh well. I guess God wants to save it for later!!!! It’s going to taste better that way probably that I even wondered how this would apply to premarital sex. I hazard a guess that foreplay is allowed but that’s it. Maybe even dry humping, but penetration and oral and all of that should be reserved for marriage. I think. I don’t know anything. It’s a matter of conviction and how sure you are of marrying that person you’re with. Can’t completely stay in the dark about sexuality while you’re in courtship otherwise you won’t know if you’re compatible, so really, what is God’s will with regards to this issue? I need more wisdom about it, God. My flesh makes me want to consecrate fingering and mutual masturbation for courtship, ideally three months in you can try it and determine whether you can please each other without all the bells and whistles of real sex. Oral is for after engagement. Penetration is for marriage. ### Ruminations 🩻 1. I’m so creeped out and scared of E. “Torch” Tablizo. There, I said it God. She is neck deep in Bible revelations too, and she thinks it’s her. What a situation!!!!! She is wrong and right but mostly wrong about it. I feel so bad for her but I’m scared she’s going to take seriously that threat she made with the knife emoji about fighting whoever Vico Sotto ends up with, because she’s entitled to him because of the Bible, allegedly. Sorry, God. I’m not angling for anything but signs that it’s me, and I’m mostly just tempted to think it’s me because how can I not at this point with all of the name meanings and the iceberg of synchronicities You have bestowed on me. I wonder if she knows who I am. She really said, “Who is better looking, Isay or Ako?” WHO IS ISAY!!!!! ISA!!!! OMG!!!!! She said she was studying Revelation last night, or accused Vico of studying Revelation last night (I wonder how she knows he is studying something!!!??? That’s the craziest part!!! WHERE IS SHE GETTING THIS INFORMATION!!!!), because really, if I’m right, he was interested in my gopher post and “Monkey Diana” Brill article I shared. I really wonder if demons are feeding her information through synchronicity too. How could she have intuited or assumed heavily that Vico is studying the Bible???????????? FUCK!!!!! THAT IS SO UNCANNY IN A MAGICAL CREEPY WAY!!!! I sometimes think I’m not living in Real World when something like this happens, like today, when my dad called mom talking about aliens being declassified in America and relating it to the Bible too, something about demons too. Everyone around me is talking about the Bible!! BUT WHO IS RIGHT!!!! I have to swallow my pride every time because I can’t correct them and they’re getting really annoying but also entertaining. Is this how a small Earth god is supposed to feel? Exasperated and entertained????? LOL!!!! 1. Tablizo even said something about “Life Changing HIGH TECHNOLOGY” WTF!!!! WTF!!!!!!