### Dreams 🧫 1. I had a slew of dreams last night. Some of them I forgot already. Sorry, God. 1. My emotional attachment to Mark Wahlberg guy was that like Vico Sotto 1. He slept with three women before marrying Behati Prinsloo. I saw his 15 inch penis and all. I was traumatized and then his rival who looks like a skinny paler Christian Bale x Rick Astley confesses to me that he has been in love with me and I debate whether to talk to him (I was also kind of in love with him like my past affection for Jeffrey) to calm him down while he acted like my only savior from the betrayal. I attempt to get away from him for reasons I forgot (I was tricked into going inside this room with him) and then he threatened me that I would lose favor with God and age and experience death and I rushed out the door and got almost trapped by it from escaping. Then I ran out screaming into the night as I aged instantly but then realized how futile to be scared. And then I half-realized I was dreaming. 2. The guy also morphed from Mark Wahlberg to a random handsome Asian guy I have no idea who. 1. The name **Mark** is a strong, traditional masculine name of **Latin origin**. It translates to **"dedicated to Mars"** or **"warlike,"** derived from the Roman god of war. [[1](https://www.parents.com/mark-name-meaning-origin-popularity-8664034), [2](https://www.mamanatural.com/baby-names/boys/mark/)] 2. The surname **Wahlberg** is predominantly of Swedish origin and translates to **"pasture hill" or "grassy bank mountain"**. It is an ornamental or topographic name combining the root word _vall_ (meaning grassy field or pasture) with _berg_ (meaning mountain or hill). [[1](https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/Walberg), [2](https://www.wisdomlib.org/names/wahlberg)] 3. The name **Behati** is a beautiful and melodic name of primarily Afrikaans and Latin origin, meaning **"blessed"** or **"she who brings happiness"**. [[1](https://kiindred.co/baby-name/behati-f/), [2](https://parentingpatch.com/baby-names/Behati/)] 4. The Prinsloo surname is a **topographic and habitational name of Dutch and Afrikaans origin**. It is composed of two linguistic elements: [[1](https://lastnames.myheritage.com/last-name/prinsloo)] • **"Prins"**: Meaning "prince". • **"Loo"**: From Middle Dutch, referring to a "wood" or "clearing in a woods". [[1](https://lastnames.myheritage.com/last-name/human_prinsloo), [2](https://www.wisdomlib.org/names/prinsloo), [3](https://www.houseofnames.com/prinsloo-family-crest)]**Etymology and History** • **Royal Forest Clearing**: The combination signifies "clearing in the forest" associated with a prince. Historically, it was likely borne by someone employed on royal or noble lands, or someone who lived near a royal forest. 5. The surname **Bale** primarily has **English and French origins**, with a few different historical meanings: [[1](https://www.familysearch.org/en/surname?surname=bale), [2](https://www.thebump.com/b/bale-baby-name), [3](https://lastnames.myheritage.com/last-name/bale), [4](https://en.geneanet.org/surnames/Bale), [5](https://www.wisdomlib.org/names/bale)] • **Occupational:** Derived from the Old French word _baille_ (enclosure or a large wrapped bundle), it was used for someone who dealt in, made, or packed bales of goods (like wool or hay), or for someone who worked as a bailiff. • **Topographical:** It served as a geographic name for someone who lived near the outer wall or bailey of a castle or medieval palace. • **Habitational:** It can also be a locational name for someone from the village of Bale in Norfolk, England, which stems from an Old English term meaning "woodland clearing". [[1](https://www.familysearch.org/en/surname?surname=bale), [2](https://www.wisdomlib.org/names/bale), [3](https://www.houseofnames.com/bale-family-crest), [4](https://www.thebump.com/b/bale-baby-name)] 6. The name **Rick** is primarily a masculine given name of English and German origin. It means **"brave ruler"** or **"strong, powerful leader"**. [[1](https://www.thebump.com/b/rick-baby-name), [2](https://www.sheknows.com/baby-names/name/rick/), [3](https://www.wisdomlib.org/names/rick)] 7. The name **Astley** is of Old English origin, translating to **"east meadow" or "eastern woodland clearing"**. It is derived from the Old English words _ēast_ (east) and _lēah_ (clearing, meadow, or wood). [[1](https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/Astley), [2](https://www.wisdomlib.org/names/astley)]**Origins and History** • **Habitational Surname:** It originally served as a habitational surname for people living near an east-facing clearing or village. 8. Interpretations: a lot of clearings here. Prinsloo, Astley, Bale. SUCH NEATNESS!!!! I LOVE IT!!! But why, though? 1. A clearing is **a natural or man-made open space within a forest where trees and large bushes are absent, allowing sunlight to reach the ground**. These spaces are vital ecosystems in their own right, increasing local biodiversity by providing crucial habitats for various wildlife, foraging areas, and wildflowers. [[1](https://www.vocabulary.com/dictionary/clearing), [2](https://www.collinsdictionary.com/dictionary/english/forest-clearing), [3](https://www.quora.com/What-is-a-small-clearing-in-the-forest-called), [4](https://habitatrestoration.com/clear-natural-areas-in-winter/), [5](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Land_clearing_in_Australia)] 2. Why attach them to Vico and Jeffrey and my dad and Paolo? I have no clue. What about clearings? I associate Vico with “hill” because that’s his high school’s name, Brent. 2. Ray Dalio something (but with the looks of Satanist character from Silicon Valley) points out “error” of bukenya or bukanya as “vagina hole” in my draft when he thought I didn’t intend it. Thought him a Satan figure. I had to convince him somehow to look at priesthood to get to me and God. He made the hint that the mall I set it in had yellow tiles but then in the middle I’d switched to fake grass. Compromise was made on half. Entrance had yellow tiles, church area had fake grass. 1. **Bukenya** is a **traditional Luganda surname originating from the Buganda region of Uganda**. [[1](https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bukenya), [2](https://www.wisdomlib.org/names/bukenya)]Linguistically, the name roughly translates to "cleverness," "wisdom," or "intelligence." In Ugandan culture, it is traditionally given to—or assumed by—families and individuals recognized for their strategic thinking, intellectual capabilities, and resourcefulness. [[1](https://www.wisdomlib.org/names/bukenya)] 2. In Indonesian and Malay, the word **"bukannya"** translates to **"it is not that..."** or **"rather..."**. It is used at the beginning of a clause to correct a misunderstanding, clarify your intentions, or express that something is not the case. [[1](https://en.bab.la/dictionary/indonesian-english/bukannya), [2](https://hinative.com/questions/15523137), [3](https://www.reddit.com/r/indonesian/comments/1kqa4mi/is_the_explanation_of_bukan_here_correct_and_is/)]Common usage examples include: • **Clarifying an intention:** _"Bukan**nya_ saya tidak mau, tetapi saya tidak punya uang."_(Translation: "It is not that I don't want to, but I don't have the money.")_ • **Highlighting an unexpected turn of events:** _"Dia **bukannya** istirahat, malah main game 12 jam."(Translation: "Instead of resting, he ended up playing video games for 12 hours.")_ 3. The name **Ray** is of English and Germanic origin and has several meanings depending on its root, most commonly translating to **"beam of light"** or **"wise protector"**. [[1](https://uk.momcozy.com/blogs/baby-names/ray), [2](https://nameberry.com/b/boy-baby-name-ray)] 4. The name **Dalio** is **primarily a surname with Italian and Jewish (Ashkenazi) origins**. It can also function as a rare masculine given name. [[1](https://lastnames.myheritage.com/last-name/dalio), [2](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dalio), [3](https://www.name-doctor.com/meaning/dalio), [4](https://actacroatica.com/en/name/Dalio/)]The exact meaning varies depending on its root: • **Italian Origin:** As an Italian surname (often rooted in the Veneto and Friuli-Venezia regions), Dalio is frequently a shortened, medieval version of Germanic names like _Ubaldo_ (meaning "heart, mind, spirit" and "bold") or _Rodaldo_ (meaning "fame" and "rule"). It is also occasionally linked to the Italian word _dalia_, translating to the **dahlia flower**, symbolizing elegance and beauty. • **Hebrew Origin:** When used as a given name, Dalio has Hebrew roots derived from _delâyâh_, which translates to **"Yahweh has drawn"** or **"God has drawn"**. 1. **Delayah** is a rare baby name of Hebrew and American origin, meaning **"Jehovah has drawn,"** **"God has raised,"** or **"freed by Jehovah"**. [[1](https://www.biblestudytools.com/lexicons/hebrew/nas/delayah.html), [2](https://christiananswers.net/dictionary/delaiah.html), [3](https://www.ancestry.com/first-name-meaning/delaiah)]It can also act as a melodic or modern variation of the name Delilah, carrying meanings of being **"delicate" or "gentle"**. [[1](https://zodii.in/baby-names/name/delayah)] 1. OMG Lakan just posted a song on her story called, “Pongamos que hablo de Madrid (”let’s say I’m talking about Madrid”)” by Joaquin Sabina. 1. Joaquin means “raised by God” too. 2. Vaguely familiar with Sabine. I need to read my previous entries to find out what it means. 1. “of one’s own.” 2. Rape of the Sabine Women leading to unity among some people I forgot. 3. Spain - rabbit - Coney. Madrid = mother of streams! 4. Picture of Maribel Verdu to go with the audio. I have no idea who she is. 1. Maribel = “star of the sea,” “bitterness,” “beloved,” “beautiful.” 2. Verdu = Green 3. John Green reference? 5. Silicon Valley character—Bertram Gilfoyle 1. The name **Bertram** is of Old Germanic origin, meaning **"bright raven"** or **"glorious raven"**. It is a compound of two ancient roots: _berht_ (meaning bright or famous) and _hraban_ (meaning raven). [[1](https://www.familysearch.org/en/surname?surname=BERTRAM), [2](https://harryhoot.com.au/babynames//German-babynames/boys/Bertram.html?srsltid=AfmBOoqPADwdgKPZfnl2yH3wPuebhbde57akYRuzRD2cf6NrSw5xoRKT), [3](https://www.wisdomlib.org/names/bertram)]**Origin & History** • **Root Roots:** In ancient Germanic and Norse mythology, ravens were sacred to Odin, the king of the gods, and were highly regarded as symbols of wisdom, intelligence, and prophecy. • **Spread:** The name was brought to England by the Normans following the Conquest of 1066 and gained widespread popularity throughout medieval Europe. [[1](https://www.houseofnames.com/bertram-family-crest), [2](https://www.familysearch.org/en/surname?surname=BERTRAM), [3](https://www.wisdomlib.org/names/bertram)]**Cultural Significance** • **Literature:** Bertram is famous as a character in William Shakespeare’s play _All's Well That Ends Well_. It is also the full name of Bertie Wooster (Bertram Wilberforce Wooster), the iconic, lighthearted protagonist in P.G. Wodehouse's _Jeeves_ stories. • **Notable Figures:** Historically borne by figures like Admiral Sir Bertram Ramsay, who masterminded the Dunkirk evacuation, and Nobel Prize-winning Canadian physicist Bertram Brockhouse. 2. The surname Gilfoyle is an Anglicized form of the ancient Irish Gaelic name _Mac Giolla Phóil_, which translates to **"son of the servant" or "devotee of Saint Paul"**. [[1](https://lastnames.myheritage.com/last-name/gilfoyle), [2](https://www.ancestry.co.uk/last-name-meaning/guilfoyle?srsltid=AfmBOooMQ8kbD4oXnBvl9zTgb14ZENSm_ZkBT-b_AeDe75csj29L_SoB), [3](https://surnamedb.com/Surname/gilfoyle)]**History and Origin** • **Gaelic Roots:** The prefix _Mac_ means "son," while _giolla_ means "youth," "servant," or "follower". Combined with _Phóil_ (the genitive form of Paul), it signifies a family's historical religious devotion. • **Regional Roots:** The family was historically a prominent clan based in County Offaly (formerly known as King's County) in Ireland. • **Pop Culture:** If you are asking about the brilliant, sarcastic hacker Bertrams Gilfoyle from the HBO comedy series _Silicon Valley_, his last name perfectly fits his dark, rebellious, and fiercely independent personality—which has made it a favorite piece of trivia among fans. 3. Interpretations: is God confirming to me that “ANNE MCCRUM” who complimented me through my professional email with her email “[email protected]” is really Sir Paolo??????? OMG!!!!!!! Or Sydney. I remember noticing “lion and the lamb” was a misremembered line from Isaiah, but it turns out to be right because Jesus identified as a lion too, of Judah. And evil becoming neutralized from wolf to lion now. Wolf is not Jesus? Norr Weston is the wolf? I don’t know, but yeah. Maybe wolf will be my lion since Wolfgang Iser and Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart talked to me. 1. IT’S SO COOL I’M DREAMING IN UGANDAN AND INDONESIAN AND MALAY!!!! 3. Told Stanley I graduated in 2024 to get rid of the shame. Also I told him I don’t like the pope which wasn’t true. 1. Interpretations: STANLEY = STONE!!! PRIESTS!!! PETER!!! 4. Dream about Shrek wanting more than one wife (polygamy). Vague now. I recall the wives were black(?). 1. The name **Shrek** originates from the Yiddish word _shrek_ (שרעק) and the German word _schreck_, which both mean **"fear"** or **"fright"**. It was originally coined by author William Steig for his 1990 children's book _Shrek!_ to perfectly fit the titular ogre's scary, terrifying, and intimidating reputation. [[1](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shrek_\(character\)), [2](https://www.tiktok.com/@pachie23/video/7063776057840717082), [3](https://www.wisdomlib.org/names/shrek)]**The Evolution of the Name** • **Original Book Inspiration:** William Steig used the Yiddish term _shreklekh_ (meaning "terrible" or "hideous") to reflect how the character would physically appear to normal citizens in fairy tales. 2. The surname **Myers** is rich in history and has several different origins depending on ancestral roots. Primarily, it is an occupational name meaning **"steward," "overseer," or "tenant farmer"** derived from the German/Dutch word _Meyer_. [[1](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Myers), [2](https://www.thoughtco.com/myers-name-meaning-and-origin-1422575), [3](https://www.latimes.com/archives/la-xpm-1989-03-23-vw-27-story.html), [4](https://www.wisdomlib.org/names/myers), [5](https://uk.momcozy.com/blogs/baby-names/myers)] 3. Interpretations: OMG GOD IS THIS IT!!!! MIKE = FARMER FROM FALGUI!!! FALGUI IS A POLYGAMIST AND DISCONTENT WITH ONE WIFE BECAUSE OF PORN!!! Or from “Shrek” it’s just a fear. Except why bring this up to me? Is God telling me Mike is going to get married eventually? Good for him, but he’s not for me even though I really wanted him in the past. Maybe he and Audrey will have a companionate love in the future when she returns to the Philippines? 5. Dream about aliens I forgot. 6. Dream about Sheloah I also forgot. 7. Dream about priests I forgot. 8. Dream about hell that had cartoons I didn’t recognize. The person who wasn’t willing to be humiliated got sent to hell where they existed in a Zathura-house like space where they were completely alone with no one but the sky was penetrating the house so all the windows and the things inside the house were exposed without a roof. 9. Old lady trying to ride our motorela and I was dreading her catching up to our relatively slow rela. 10. Ai-ni arriving at a quaint library space I was hiding in to maybe hide from the lola? I was naked except for a bra and panties and I remember thinking it was such a homey place—not quite polished or professional library but a makeshift library with comforting chairs and tables. 1. Interpretations: from Vico’s new Pasig City Library—maybe that fed into this quaint little library in my dreams with Ai-ni “Love you” Young in it (I was naked, so something related to my body being comforting and special even though it’s not wowza levels beautiful). 11. Vague dream about Vico and “corned beef” (from Taboso 19). ### Ruminations 🩻 1. 243 DAYS LEFT!!!! UNTIL JANUARY 15, 2027!!! ### Sensations/Body Stuff 🫟 1. Lord, thank You for the food tonight. S&R garlic cheesy parmesan chicken and bacon hotdog and Caesar’s salad. I am so fucking blessed and lucky!!!! The first bite was especially orgasmic. I will never live down the fact that You gave us dignity by gifting us food.