### Dreams 🧫 1. I had a dream about Nikki being posted by Vico in his story. She was saying, “I know he acting like a stadius actum.” 1. GOOD GOD!!!! WTF!!!! I WAS FLOORED EARLIER BECAUSE WTF I AM DREAMING IN LATIN!!!!! EVEN THOUGH I KNOW NOT A LICK OF LATIN!!! 2. The surname Stadius has roots in the Low Countries (Belgium/Netherlands) and is believed to derive from the Latin word _stadius_, meaning **"steady" or "stable"**. It likely originated in the Middle Ages to describe individuals known for their reliability or steadfastness, sometimes associated with specific trades, craftsmanship, or geographical features in the region. [[1](https://lastnames.myheritage.com/last-name/stadius)]**Key Aspects of the Name Stadius:** • **Origin:** The surname has its roots in the Low Countries (modern Belgium and the Netherlands). • **Meaning:** It is connected to the Latin word for "steady" or "stable," implying a reliable or steadfast character. • **Alternative/Similar Roots:** It may sometimes appear in variations such as Stadios, Stadus, or in combination with other names. • **Related Terms:** The term is related to the Latin _stadium_ and Greek _stadion_, which referred to an ancient unit of length (about 600 Greek feet) and a running track. 3. _Actum_ is a Latin word meaning "act," "deed," "transaction," or "official record," derived from the verb _ago_ (to do or act). It is the neuter singular form of _actus_ and is commonly used in legal, historical, and philosophical contexts to refer to something already done or a completed action. [[1](https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/actum), [2](https://latin-dictionary.net/definition/658/actum-acti), [3](https://www.latin-is-simple.com/en/vocabulary/noun/731/), [4](https://dictzone.com/latin-english-dictionary/actum), [5](https://actumcoaching.com/en/about/)]**Common Uses and Meanings** • **Deed/Action:** Refers to a specific act, action, or exploit. • **Record/Document:** Used to denote a formal record, register, or document (often pluralized as _acta_). • **Legal/Proverbial:** ◦ _**Actum est de...**_: A phrase meaning "It is all over with..." or "The fate of... is sealed". ◦ _**Actum agere**_: A proverb meaning to do what has already been done (a waste of time). ◦ _**Locus regit actum**_: A legal principle meaning "the place rules the act," indicating that a transaction's form is governed by the laws of the place where it occurred. [[1](https://lsd.law/define/locus-regit-actum), [2](https://dictzone.com/latin-english-dictionary/actum), [3](https://classics.osu.edu/Undergraduate-Studies/Latin-Program/Wheelock/sententiae-unit-8), [4](https://www.latin-is-simple.com/en/vocabulary/noun/731/), [5](https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/actum)]**Grammatical Forms** • **Nominative/Accusative Neuter Singular:** _Actum_. • **Adverbial use:** Sometimes means "acutely" or "sharply" (though rare). 4. Interpretations: What does this all mean for me? Stadius actum = stat crux dum volvitur orbis? **The Cross stands steady while the world turns**. Jesus is the Answer!!!! Or maybe this has something to do with my exercise. I need to exercise and maintain a steady pace. Honestly I am just floored because I was beginning to doubt (sorry God, Your servant is trying so hard to appeal to atheists by adopting their mindsets) and now I’m dreaming in Latin!!!! 2. Jay Tortor (classmate in high school at Shekinah with a white stepfather, was buddies with Vince Gamolo a situationship I wasn’t technically in) being befriended by Apot. The feeling or lesson of “if you are not friendly you will not go to heaven.” 1. The name Jay primarily means "**blue-crested bird**" (derived from the Latin _gaius_ or Old French _jai_) or "victorious" (derived from the Sanskrit _Jaya_). It is often used as a short form for names starting with J—such as James, Jason, or John—and is associated with joy, intelligence, and liveliness. [[1](https://www.thebump.com/b/jay-baby-name), [2](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jay_\(given_name\)), [3](https://www.wisdomlib.org/names/jay)]**Key Meanings & Origins:** • **English/Latin:** Refers to the vibrant, chatterer bird, often associated with a showy or lively person. • **Sanskrit (Jai/Jaya):** Means "victory," "triumph," or "conqueror". • **Germanic:** Means "swift". • **As a Diminutive:** Used as a nickname for James (supplanter), Jason (healer), or John. 2. The surname Tortor has historical roots in Italy, deriving from the Latin word _tortor_, which means **"twister" or "torturer"**. Emerging around the 12th century, it likely originated as a descriptor for individuals in roles related to law enforcement or punishment during the feudal period. [[1](https://lastnames.myheritage.com/last-name/tortor)]**Key Details About the Tortor Surname:** • **Origin:** The name is Primarily Italian. • **Meaning:** Derived from Latin _tortor_, indicating a "twister" or "torturer". • **Historical Usage:** It often served as an occupational surname in medieval Italy, describing someone who enforced law and order. • **Variations:** The name may have variations in spelling and pronunciation, including _Tortora_ or _Tortore_, often linked to regional dialects. • **Related Surnames:** Similar names include _Sortor_, _Porter_, _Orton_, _Sartor_, and _Toro_. [[1](https://www.ancestry.com/last-name-meaning/tortor), [2](https://lastnames.myheritage.com/last-name/tortor)] 3. Interpretations: immediately off the top of my head, Mo Twister? WTF!!! I have to befriend Mo Twister of “Tangina Mo Twister” of yore!!! 3. I slept for an extra two hours after I woke up in the morning early at 6AM-ish. In a car with Nanay Mela (yes, my molester) driving in a narrow road flanked by houses on each side. She was speeding past through doors of homes closing them with the car. I also dreamt about coming home inside the family car to find all these children carrying knives (like Weapons film—murderous children—and Game of Thrones) about to kill our family. This is really disturbing because I felt happy as I realized the children killed us all. No idea why I was happy. It’s God’s evil side logic. Switched to mildly lucid scene of me imagining what if Nanay Mela was the one to die for us, sacrificing herself. 4. RR room in Shekinah Main building. Forgot everything except the feeling of a building. I wish I could still have vivid dreams again. None of my dreams recently have been complex. They’re always quick snapshots I vaguely remember. 5. I also had another dream that led me to meditate on the phrase, “Surely goodness and mercy will follow you all the days of your life, and you will dwell in the house of the Lord.” And relating it to Lydia Guinalang and Mela Bagaipo’s names, our former maids. I don’t know why. I think I relate mercy to Nanay Mela because I remember she molested me again in 2020 but then I mercifully decided to lay my hand on her forehead (her relative Mercy was watching us as she lay weakly on a sofa). Come to think of it, I don’t know if she intended to molest me, but she really grazed my boobs for seemingly no reason which could have sent me to a flying rage, but I decided to be a noblesse oblige about it. Mystery that I still want answers to, God. Did she really mean to molest me again? Is she _that_ twisted and sick that in her dying moments she decides to molest me and terrorize me for seemingly no reason but to get her last hurrah since she is dying and she thinks she will get away with it. She did look kind of guilty when I lay my hand on her forehead, giving her grace she didn’t deserve. ### Ruminations 🩻 1. I can already smell that I’ll have to amass all my talent and marshall all my creativity stores to survive these next few months since I plan to write and format a monograph correctly and query my debut novel. God help me.