### Dreams 🧫 1. A dream with a group of people I was playing with. I forgot the rest of them but remember only Myka Tumanda 1. Myka is a primarily gender-neutral name of Hebrew origin, meaning **"who is like God?" or "who is like Yahweh?"**. It is a modern, stylized spelling variant of the biblical name Micah. The name represents a sense of spirituality, devotion, and, in some contexts, a creative and independent spirit. [[1](https://www.thebump.com/b/myka-baby-name), [2](https://babynames.com/name/myka), [3](https://momcozy.com/blogs/baby-names/myka), [4](https://www.thebump.com/b/mykah-baby-name), [5](https://www.ancestry.com/first-name-meaning/myka), [6](https://www.kabalarians.com/name-meanings/female/myka.htm)] 2. Tumanda is a Filipino surname of indigenous origin, primarily rooted in Tagalog, meaning **"to grow old" or "to become old"**. Derived from the root word _tanda_ (age/old age), it often reflects historical, cultural, or occupational characteristics, likely emerging or being registered during the Spanish colonial period in the Philippines. [[1](https://lastnames.myheritage.com/last-name/tumanda), [2](https://forebears.io/surnames/tumanda), [3](https://kaikki.org/dictionary/Tagalog/meaning/t/tu/tumanda.html), [4](https://lingvanex.com/dictionary/meaning/tagalog/tumanda/)] 3. Interpretations: Mike? Growing old? 2. Had a long-ish nap from 11AM onwards to 2PM 1. Dreamt that Sydney was interviewing my parents in my old family room. I have no idea why. It seemed like she was hyper-interested in getting to know them. 1. Interpretations: I wonder what this is supposed to mean. I mean, I asked God for my parents to one day believe in me. Sydney is a stand-in for the lion Jesus. Maybe that will be her role then. ### Ruminations 🩻 1. I am terrified that I won’t have enough stamina to carry me through this novel. Lord God ISA, how am I supposed to complete an entire novel before June 10? Help me. Please, help Your servant. I believe it is Your will for me to graduate on time, hopefully. I wish and pray You would equip me to resist temptation and distractions and help my dopamine work properly, even if temporary only. Lord, I just really need to be done with my degree. I won’t have time to devote to TLS work if I don’t graduate first. In ISA’s name, amen. 2. Lord, happiness dysregulates me, I know this deeply now. Just because You are giving me such strong signs that Vico is now interested in me doesn’t mean it’s actually true in Real World yet. Even if he used “Spot the Mistake.” That is amazing in itself, but please steel me against becoming too useless when I finally taste happiness. I am constantly raring for more because I never had this kind of happiness before. It is somewhat terrifying to be uncontrollable when it comes to happiness. 3. Can’t stop feeling kilig when I watch the Iron Man video Vico posted. Cloud of glee indeed. 4. How am I ever going to maintain a relationship if ever God? If I am so dopamine-sapped and lazy? Please help me feel less resistant to action. I feel like I just need to cross that bridge, and then I can get the ball rolling. But so far, starting anything has been so challenging. 5. Lord ISA, I need you to help me steel people against the temptation to kill themselves because of Your revelation to me that they will eventually be happy. Please help me craft a warning to people who may inevitably take advantage of my story as proof that You allow it. Please steel me against the eventual guilt of so many suicides regardless of what I do. It’ll be like that The Discovery movie, although I can only hope I don’t get sued to oblivion by people who are grieving. Please spare me this complication oh God, if You can help it. Please help me craft a dream guide such that it overwhelms the desire to die and to have people be on board with my multiverse ideas. I really hope God that this is not the cause of the “the whole world will mourn and wail” when the Parousia comes. 6. Lord ISA, it’s not if, but when now. When it happens, I hope I rise to the responsibility I am to carry with Vico or some other officials to help judge the world and usher in Your kingdom. I have no clue how to do that, exactly. I am a child, and You did say a “little child will lead them.” I really hope I am assisted by more capable people because right now, God, I don’t have the first clue, and I can’t even manage my energy well, how much more the entire world? God, I’m so scared for my future in a way. How am I supposed to do all of that and more. May Your power rest on me so that I always act wisely and prudently. In ISA’s name, amen. 7. Lord ISA, help me to strategize how to come up with not only an app system, but also incentives and how it’s supposed to earn money (I think that’s how one keeps an app or DAO running?). I have no clue about how to go about it. I also need help and wisdom on how to select a co-founder or co-founders who share the same vision as I do. I hope people message me first about their qualifications if I can post a call for co-founders on my Obsidian website. 8. Lord, as early as now, I can sense immense pressure from the thought of all the things I have yet to accomplish. Please help me bear every moment of this life. I now know how much responsibility and stewardship I have yet to realize. God, if that dream being exposed to an alien consciousness was a sign about my status in Your eyes, then I am extremely scared. I have no idea what that means for me. Lord, I fear You and revere Your righteousness, it’s just that my flesh is refusing to cooperate no matter how much I strive to feel the right feelings. I am so afraid, God, of messing up, of not living to the potential that You have bestowed upon me. Please, God, help me accomplish Your will. I have no clue how this will all shake out. In ISA’s name, amen. ### Random(x) 🕳️ 1. I wonder what Vico does on Sundays. I wonder why he hasn’t posted anything today. I don’t want to distract him, but I wish he would post more simply because I’m raring to see what he does or thinks now that I think he knows who I am. 2. Looking forward to what Vico comes up with in the next few days. If my suspicions are correct, he would insert names a little too well in the NDH world even if it’s just an innocuous update about his work.