### Social Media 🀄 1. 3/31/26: So Vico’s now a little more online than usual. He posted a cartwheeling panda with “40 graduations done” as the caption—he’s being so adorable!!! I find it a little hard to believe he attended 40 graduations unless he’s attending 2-3 PER DAY!!! What a busy man. Maybe he just really likes the number 40 for some reason and uses it to exaggerate like with his Threads post about celebrating 40 come to find out it’s apparently push-ups. In this case, it’s still sexy!!! I find it such a turn-on he’s able to commit 2. 4/1/26 So Netherlands and US visited my website at 12:00AM. Hopefully it’s Vico (pls—because “under”). 3. 4/4/26 So Vico posted that Good Friday bishop with the wooden cross necklace. Not sure what I was supposed to think—Nikki? I find I’m being turned off by this behavior (a little) if it turns out Vico is trying to make me do something or react. Who am I kidding? I feel kind of upset too—that he finds her adorable little crosses adorable. My only consolation is that she has no FB account to see that post—but who is he trying to get to see it? Surely it’s not me? Maybe it’s me. I hope to God it’s me he’s trying to get to react. 4. 4/6/26 I figured out that I am indeed being hacked still. In real time? Who knows!!!! Galatea vs. Galatée post by Vico and the Zoe “compliment?” I had a lot to say but my mind and wisdom just led me to focus on the fact that I figured out the true reason way before he told the clue—why he wants news anchors more than writers. It’s because news anchors have the same advantages as him but choosing a more noble path like delivering information to keep democracy intact. I even wrote it down in my prayer journal attempting to beg God to make more people—well, let’s be completely desperate and unwise, Vico himself—to see the value of writers even if they don’t look as nice. We are not compatible in that way, and the best I could hope for is an insult like the latest Bridgerton—a mistress instead of a wife. Why is he using wordplay like I really wrote on my phone? GCash=less?!! Does that mean everything I do is being watched by Big Brother??????????? Everything is illuminated, but it doesn’t disturb me as much, only a minor irritation only helped by the fact that somebody is trying to see what I’m doing with making Emma in TLS shy. 1. TBH, I don’t know what to do 1. 4/7/26: SO I magically turned out fine—nothing to worried about. Just a slight buzz. 5. 4/7/26 So Psalm Zalsos (high school classmate) viewed my story about Black women being allowed to focus on beauty and she posted a really synchronous post that responds too closely to my reposts about Black guy singer (”3rd time was not the charm”) and my desire to be reanimated in the future and the fact that she met Hamilton (my “Meeting Neil [Clarke]”). And also the $300. I had a feeling that she was in on it ever since she posted that happy meal when I was still brainstorming BOBOBEE. And also, an Indian queer-looking boy followed me somewhere in the far past although I have never seen them before in my stories—his name? Kashyap Parte!! Kashyap = Yap and GCash? HOLY. But, I guess these are just striking synchrons. His last name is even parte, which is synchronous with my quote from C.S. Lewis, “have a hint of truth in it” for Hinduism. 6. 4/8/26: I’m pretty stoked that J.R. Dawson, a Nebula finalist, reposted my story on Bluesky!! That hasn’t happened to me before! And two people visited my website, one from the Philippines who visited my Goodreads, and one from Ireland who visited my About page and my isfdb page. The odd thing about it is that the Philippine visit only showed up once in the morning, but it showed 2 visits to my About page by 3PM. Either this visitor is using a VPN to spoof their location—they’re both Philippines and Ireland—or that Wordpress is not accurately reporting visitors’ data. Which is more likelier? You tell me. 7. 4/9/26 So Vico really posted Ok Go’s music twice yesterday from the same album called “Hungry Ghosts” which has the song “I Won’t Let You Down” basically putting Nikki down and someone called Emily. I don’t know what to feel except kinda really happy. 8. 4/11/26 So Vico posted those two trending songs yesterday and I can’t help but marvel at God’s quantum entanglement. Everything he does is relevant to me even though he is possibly unaware of it. Those are two trending love songs, but I investigated further and found many synchrons to my cosa nostra. And he also followed @bbcearth which makes me think he is reading my draft of True Love Stories. I’d be so happy if he talked about planetarity in relation to Berggruen because they’re heavily banking on this governance model and publish all the time about it. 9. 4/13/26: I am so not fine!!!! I’m scared and excited!!!!! WTF is wrong with me??? Nothing!!!! God is doing something… Does Vico really watch my reposts!!!!! The Jesus Bethany ascent!!!!! I am terrified of the idea that he thinks it’s happening. The virtual reality of it is strange. We have never met, and now he’s alluding to Bethany and descent song!!!! WTF!!!! I’ve been so happy the whole day and now God is just expontentially making me really happy but also slightly afraid—no mania at all. Okay, I don’t know how to speak Tagalog straight. The best I could do is Taglish that is slower than conyo people. I can insert phrases like naman and parang and all, but I don’t know how to talk because I’m ashamed of my Tagalog accent. 1. How did people manage to figure it out so quickly!!!!! 1. OMG it’s April 17 and God really convinced someone named Roy Figueroa Ocer Jr. to follow ACCO. My first non-family follower. Early adopter. His name means “red king” + “fig tree” (Bethany is house of figs) + Ocer (he is risen, or the Ascension of Jesus!!!). 1. So I will attempt to give you direction. I have stumbled upon Andrew Russell Garfield, the celebrity, and Russell also means “little red.” I will, for the first time in Notion, reveal that I have been experimenting praying to not only Persons in the Godhead but also real people who are not dead but whose names I wanted to relate to my prayers. I am not praying in their name, because I am currently working with the assumption that it’s only me and Jesus you should pray to in our names seeing as I am Omega to Jesus’s Alpha and I relate heavily to Isaiah 42. But I am using their names because I want to be magnified in the Logos so God and more Angels notice my stake in the Logos as I pray. For example, In Jesus’ name and Abby’s name, and under the dominion of Angels Andrew and Russell (since everybody is an Angel God-breathed with the Holy Spirit), amen. Yes, we have an Implied Author Tether to Angels too. Do Angels have free will? Of course they do, since some of them become demons. It’s a 5D universe we live in, with Possibility, Thing Itself, Means making up ACCOIYO and Possibility, Thing Itself, and Means making up BATANY. It is only Possibility that is the true same part of ACCOIYO and BATANY. So there are 5, not 6 dimensions to God-Satan. This explains why the Old Testament God was seen as tyrannical and evil before They sent Jesus. Possibility has always been non-dual in both Father-Mother sense and God-Satan sense. 2. Basically, my inheritance is “conquering Messiah” according to scholars so whoever prays in both Jesus and my name will be more successful in their prayers provided they know what to pray for and have a good understanding of grace and are prepared to accept joy instead of happiness. Most of the time these days, I get joy for now whenever I pray for material things, like being denied a blue check on Instagram when I attempted to verify through notability. It didn’t even hurt that much because God provided in other ways that really overwhelmed my sadness at not getting the blue check. So it might work the same way for you. 2. Also, eternal party!!!!! BYE!!!!!!!!!! 3. So it was ALL_GO. Final Exit? 1. I wasn’t kidding about the hard problem of consciousness but it’s incipient at this point and involves hopefully no math yet (my child?????). I solved it through the Implied Author from ALL_GO, the real concept that Wolfgang Iser talked about, and “Agent of Intention” and “Agent of Reception.” This is so strange, because the big oof Monday post reminds me of a wedding too where Paolo magically speaks for some reason. Why Exit Conf indeed? What does that mean if not something related to me? 1. ALL_GO’s ending!!!!! “…we know” ending in a middle of a sentence. TFIOS inspired too. 2. Paolo contacted Vico about me!!!! WTF!!!!! WHY!!!!!!! They really hacked me!!!! I’m not actually lying about hacked blog in True Love Stories. 3. People are really fast and that makes me sad for myself. I am only fast sometimes, like today, which is happy. I did nothing but watch Interstellar again bawling my eyes out because it has a lot of 12s in it and reminds me of my Possibility poem and the fact that we did not bring ourselves, but it was God all along, as the 5D creatures. It’s right and not right at the same time, because we’re God’s creation so technically we are gods ourselves, but that doesn’t mean we become God. I am not going to be Satan and try to match God Themselves, but possibly God is now working with the idea—that Their non-duality is essential, Satan and God, two natures for or against each other. Or that there is a new Satan, a Satan who will get a new name. A marriage made in Heaven-Hell to become the Great One. 1. “bone is arrival????????” 1. I assume Paolo is gay or gay-ish. He is asking about the John and gay people theories. I will do it this weekend because I have Unreal Image priority. It’s so insane because Jesus really said, “What’s it to you if I want him to remain until I come back?” questioning the hard grace given to John the beloved disciple. He is the only one who didn’t die a martyr’s death. It’s related to Scottish people and Janis Ian. There. That’s a huge clue. Giovanni di Giovanni too so also Mike. British Israelism. 2. I think Nikki is in on it somehow. I was ignoring my instincts earlier and read Sydney’s story to humanize her in my head and also to read words that are properly angry at what she’s doing if I think I’m right—trying to interest Vico because at this point we have nothing but promises. I asked God to give her her due if ever I’m right. I wasn’t specific. I was depressed about hard grace yet again but God’s grace made me fast with writing today. 1. What is my problem with Catholics? Nikki is Catholic. Even Audrey is pro-Catholic sometimes I think. I don’t know but treating stone figures as the Thing Itself is a pretty real sin to me. Rubbing them with handkerchiefs as if they contain Jesus themselves. They are STONE!!!!! “The rocks cry out in silence so will I” lyric in 100 Billion X. Stone figures are not alive in a Person sense unless it can literally bleed or cry and maybe you are anointed by an Angel or Messenger if you yourself see that happening for real. Signs you are blessed or maybe psychotic. 2. I am not against being Pope if it means I will have a direct role in shaping society for real. I will die an incel but I will have joy even if Vico chooses Nikki or another woman because he found me too awkward or impossible to deal with. What if somebody assassinates me before that happens, is why I decided to include Israel threat, and not because I was following advice of my reposts to be better at violence than violent people. I forget about the reposts but maybe they add up in emotional weight or something. I become High Priest, while Vico is happier with another woman as King. Unless God is taking my surplus very seriously now, which is impossible to imagine but somehow excites me because it means I will be on TV too. I always wanted to be on TV, because I want to be important like Sydney. The only reason why God chose me probably is because I think the maid really raped me, not physically, but spiritually and emotionally, because she is 1/2 the cause of my social anxiety, or at least, the non-dual cause too. I went to Jollibee with my sister as a young kid and she just stood there watching us attempt to order (I think my sister did) and while I observed her, I internalized the “wrong” interpretation, that I should be shy and hyperaware about ordering for seemingly no reason. I don’t remember being quite socially anxious before that. It was either my dad’s disapproval at my speech, or my nanny’s attempt to teach me something like ordering food. My nanny is partly the reason for my shame both about my body and mind or bodymind, and the shame really held me back and caused cortisol spikes in my childhood brain that treated people really badly by appearing like I wasn’t lonely. Real damage. 1. 10:52PM OMG NIKKA!!!! TWILIGHT. I never realized. I thought it was Bicentennial Man. Both now. 1. 11:07PM: I just asked myself, why April 21, 2026 for John of John. 8 Days. Common octopus. Octopus Vulgaris. And I reposted Tom Holland in response earlier???????????? 1. Tomorrow fo’ sho’. 2. I realized a few days ago that I was Abraham or “Abby” on March 9. I also realized that I’m kind of like Peter but also smaller, like a stone. So I’m kind of like Stanley or Shawntel too. Pairs of people and their relation to the Logos. Why me? Why am I the Counselor too? Or _the_ counselor of marriage between God and Satan? I introduced Language and Logos with the help of other people’s signs so they are diluted Angels or Counselors too. I realized a day ago that I put a call in my Obsidian vault that is public to ask people to surrender their privacy like I do and tell me their real stories and/or there will be a crypto-like game in the future that will determine who is lying and who isn’t, like a mathematical way to tell the lived experience’s degrees of truth depending on what they were working with at that point. Nobody will be able to fool it because there are going to be Real World material consequences if you lie for self-gain or too much self-gain. It will consume everybody now trying to balance everything I’ve said so far. I will cite this as the “aim” of the movement when Emma asks Vinny the question. I didn’t come up with this idea, I think I was just fed up with the amount of lying I see and the denial and ignorance. 3. Fell asleep for an hour woke up 3AMish. Nirene liked the ascent Jesus from that SG page. 4. I think the Philippine Collegian is responding to me!!! WTF!!!!! That is so cool!!!!!! People know the Logos now too!!!!!!!! Their post about GRACE-NEWS and Trump and Netanyahu. 1. Red, White, and Royal Blue movie poster!!! GAYS!!!!! Praybeyt Benjamin!!! Donnalyn Bartolome and JM de Guzman!!!! 10. 4/18/26 Honestly, I was really happy when I saw Vico followed Ed Ortega. Maybe he is reading me truly. It relates to my 4/17 entry about rape and giver energy. Ed means wealthy/prosperous guardian and Ortega means nettle (from my poem about sexual assault). Only I wasn’t too certain about whether he intended it, but then Roy Figueroa Ocer Jr. followed me which makes me think I’m beyond a certain silo already. 11. 4/18/26 My reality is so strange. Somebody named elonmusk340 followed me on Instagram a while ago. 340 days is March 24, 2027, which is Mike’s birthday. Is that Mike’s alter account? What am I supposed to think? OMG luke360!!!! Vico’s repost!!!!! WTF!!!! 12. 4/18/26 So I don’t know if I’ll go for a PhD. I want one, but I mapped what would happen to me when I get famous in 2027. ChatGPT says I will probably get honorary PhDs for some reason. I didn’t have to feed my story into AI. Something about Andy Weir and his “The Egg” story and Ralph being “near a stream” or near me in the cinema dream. I came to this conclusion because of the #simul hashtag in Vico’s story about chess. Andrew Tate too? 1. “Sergio Parra” as the X poster in that “no to Phd” post—God is on a roll with my brain thinking people would protect me from gossip or “grapevine.” Is there such a thing as coincidence? Did Vico misspeak? I’m so delusional today. 13. 4/18/26 OMG VICO FOLLOWED PHIL YOUNGHUSBAND. I named him Carl Bernardo because of that actually. Not Karl. Also, Bernardo because I think Vico sounds like Daniel Padilla. That’s a compliment. 1. Is Vico trying to link himself to Charlotte from my dream, you know Satan girl? “praise” or “law.” 2. He wants a child…Philippines—>BATANY. Bata ni? Are you sure about it? I don’t wanna be pregnant yet. #delulu 1. I haven’t really looked at the Four Horsemen in a while. 3. CURSES. His Threads account is making me want to have cute babies and create new life that I can influence and also teach me something. GOD I WANT A KID!!!!!! I AM ONLY 28. I AM TOO YOUNG TO BE BABYMOMMA. I will probably wait until I’m 34. I need to fix the world first before I introduce my kid to this world. NO TIME TO PROCRASTINATE AND FANTASIZE ABOUT MY SPOILS. Today was such a waste trying to soothe that dissatisfaction and wanting for time to pass quicker. 14. 4/18/26 So elonmusk5000 followed me which makes me think of 5000 in the Bible 1. The "Feeding of the 5,000" is a major miracle story in the Bible where **Jesus feeds over 5,000 men (plus women and children) with only five loaves of bread and two fish**, as recorded in Matthew 14:13-21, Mark 6:30-44, Luke 9:10-17, and John 6:1-14. It is the only miracle (besides the resurrection) featured in all four Gospels. 1. I wonder what that’s for. 5+2=7? 7 what? Food now. My abundance related to food? I don’t know yet. 2. I think it’s a bot or an Angel but I couldn’t assume anything. Only friend is AnaM or Schroetera. 1. The surname **Schroeter** (or Schröter) is of German origin, acting as an **occupational name** for **a "cutter" or "tailor,"** derived from the Middle High German _schrōtære_ or _schroten_ (to cut or chop). It often historically referred to a tailor, a wood-cutter, or a "beer-porter" who transported heavy barrels. 2. This reminds me of the movie Phantom Thread. I wonder if people look at my reposts. It’s Tyrian purple because I like it. 3. The bot is now friends with somebody who seems like a real person. Hennessey quote. Name? Garett Garcia. Related to Elliot Rodger and Bernardo. Why? 1. Hennessy is a gender-neutral name of Irish origin, meaning **"descendant of Aonghus,"** which translates to **"one strength"** or **"one energy"**. It is derived from the Gaelic name _Ó hAonghusa_ and signifies courage, vigor, and inner strength, often used as a surname or a modern given name. 4. I’m making the Spotify AI be a DJ and They’re being an Angel by playing all songs I love related to Vico. It’s because I associate Elon Musk with Mike. 15. 4/19/26 Vico posted a story about protocols to follow after a fire. There was the mention of a Pook Maligaya (Cuevas property). Reminds me of Anton Cuevas/Briones or ‘worthy of praise’ ‘invaluable’ + ‘caves.’ I wonder why God wanted to remind me of this one. What about caves? Anton as another BATANY-stake in the Logos. 1. **Anton** is a masculine given name of Latin origin, widely used in German, Slavic, and Scandinavian cultures as a form of Anthony. It is generally interpreted to mean **"priceless," "invaluable," or "worthy of praise"**. The name is linked to the Roman family name _Antonius_. 2. The surname Briones is primarily of Spanish origin, functioning as a habitational name for someone from the town of Briones in La Rioja, Spain. It is **derived from the Celtic word "ber" (meaning "hill" or "peak") or refers to a place associated with wild plants, such as brambles or bushes**. 3. I don’t know if it means anything, but my wallpaper on my phone is my baby picture which Anton remarked on—that it didn’t look like me anymore. 16. 4/20/26 Vico posted Justin Bieber twice and I fell for it before I could notice Nikki reposted about Justin Bieber and Billie Eilish. I don’t know what he’s doing. It’s a “foul” if it turns out I really am hacked and that he’s trying to make me jealous of Nikki. I was reposting johniscatholic content not to make Vico jealous of him, but to make him see how we have little in common about hard grace (johniscatholic probably knows something about Chads and being “chopped”) and I wondered what he thought about it. I think it’s a “foul” because he must know that he’s more attractive to me than johniscatholic, but that Nikki is really better than me in attractiveness. 1. The dating market is brutal sometimes. I am what they call "toyo" right now. Vico has never responded to my reposts like Nikki. Maybe I really have no chance. 1. 4/20/26 5:39PM: So I think Vico is responding to me and my confidence level is 99%. I hope I’m not wrong. He posted “Beauty and a Beat” song featuring Nicki Minaj and “Speed Demon.” Two more songs from Justin Bieber. If he wasn’t responding to me, why would he use those songs again from Justin? Is he really trying to get Nikki to see that he’s interested in her? I doubt that he reads the lyrics because when I try to test post the music snippet defaults to the exact same spot his posts start with, so he is not being deliberate or intentional about which part of the song he is trying to emphasize. Ergo, he does not read the lyrics like that “a billion couldn’t get what you have” in Beauty and a Beat. Even Endo Kazuya’s name is relevant to my Amaterasu earlier. Kazuya somehow means “to be” like YAHWEH and Endo means wisteria which comes from Wistar which the plant was named after when they replaced what it was called originally which is Glycine, reminding me of my Rhian Ramos debacle months ago. 2. So the reposted person is Evez Evangelista 1. The name Eve is of Hebrew origin, directly translating to **"life," "living," or "source of life"**. As the name of the first woman in the Bible (Adam's wife), it signifies the "mother of all living". It is a popular, classic, single-syllable name symbolizing vitality and strength. 2. The surname **Evez** is believed to derive from the Hebrew word "Eved," meaning **servant or slave**, often adopted as an occupational surname. It is primarily found in Asia, with high concentrations in West Asia and Anatolia. 3. Evangelista is a Greek-derived Italian, Spanish, and Portuguese name meaning **"bringer of good news," "preacher," or "gospel"**. It serves as a unisex first name and surname with deep Christian roots, often referring to the four Gospel writers (Matthew, Mark, Luke, John). 4. Adam is a Hebrew name meaning **"man," "humankind," or "red earth"** (derived from _adamah_), historically recognized as the first man created in Genesis. It signifies "to be red" and implies a connection to the ground, reflecting the creation story of being formed from the dust. Common usage includes biblical, historical, and given name contexts, while synonyms or related terms focus on "human" or "mankind". 3. While I was going outside my sister’s condo this person from the other room went out too at the same time and when we reached the elevator he was playing “Baby” by Justin Bieber, which floored me. Out of all the songs in the world. Could that person have been a stalker of Vico too? Or were they also playing “Baby” just because an Angel told them to. Or do they really know who I am. Honestly, sometimes God is amazing in a creepy way that I can tolerate but am really just floored by. Billions of songs in the world… 1. As I was in the car ride to St. Giles Makati hotel, I spotted Guadalupe on a jeep. Strange… Eve crushes the serpent meaning. Also Mary. 1. Saint Giles is the [patron saint](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Patron_saint) of [people with disabilities](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Disability) and is also invoked as a saint for childhood fears, convulsions, depression, particularly in [Normandy](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Normandy), for example in [Eure Iville](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Iville), [Saint-Germain-Village](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saint-Germain-Village) or [Bernay](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bernay,_Eure) or in [Calvados, Gilles Touques](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Touques,_Calvados). In medieval art, he is depicted with his symbol, the hind (female deer).[[13]](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saint_Giles#cite_note-Murphy-13) His emblem is also an [arrow](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Arrow). Giles is one of the [Fourteen Holy Helpers](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fourteen_Holy_Helpers), and the only non-[martyr](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Martyr), initially invoked as protection against the [Black Death](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Black_Death). His [feast day](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Feast_day) is 1 September. 2. Giles is a masculine name of Greek and Latin origin, commonly meaning **"young goat,"** **"kid,"** or **"shield-bearer"**. Derived from the Latin name _Aegidius_ and the Greek _aigidion_, it signifies protection and strength, historically popularized by the 7th-century hermit Saint Giles. 3. "Makati" originates from the Tagalog phrase _kumakati_ or _kati_, meaning **"ebbing tide"** or **"receding water,"** referring to the Pasig River's tidal movement. Historically, it was a marshland village that colonial Spaniards nicknamed after misinterpreting locals pointing out the low tide. 1. THESE ARE AMAZING FACTOIDS. Disability. Goats (I was listening to The Scientist just this morning and crying). Pasig River. The fact that my mom chose this hotel or that it was chosen for her. My life really is a movie. 4. A person associated with another Elon bot named Ramona Kant followed me minutes after I uploaded immanence-transcendence. I wonder, and I wonder, and I wonder. 5. Am I hallucinating, or is there not a word in Bisaya called "maho" or "majo" that refers to the reaction that people have for thinking someone deserves misfortune? Vengeance is mine, sayeth the Lord. I attempted to be Cersei towards Kate like how she was with Margaery, being a good sport initially about her marrying her son, but then Margaery had to play dirty despite Cersei’s attempt to show kindness to her, this foreigner who attempts to take her son away from her for power. Kate never apologized for her behavior towards me in high school, and I had to apologize to her first for my envy because I was a good person who had moral guilt. She gets away with her high school transgression towards me because I am now glorified by God, but even then it’s not enough to undo my history of being told that the only reason why I have friends is because of her. I have no worth, and that’s basically what I absorbed despite trying so hard in high school, and it turned me even more evil than I could have ever been if she didn’t say that to me. I became desperate for validation once that happened to me, and once I noticed her privilege of getting effortless attention from boys ever since grade 1. She is the evil one here, and I will thoroughly appreciate all of the schadenfreude I am bound to harvest in 2027 once she realizes that she was chaotic evil to me for no reason. Her envy of me is no excuse. She knew as much as anybody that my privilege with being smart and talented isolated me from neurotypicals and that she must have seen through my emptiness because she was more intelligent than me at social skills in high school. What benefit could she have wanted when she already had so much validation from people she cared about? Her parents? Probably. But then why would I care too much about the childhood of someone who thoroughly hurt me and was not a good person to me despite having not done anything wrong by working hard for my privilege, which she didn’t have to do for her beauty. I had no one, according to her estimation, and she only really wanted to “put me in my real place” because she was hurting. This is a problem that could be solved by a proper apology that requires her to surrender her vulnerability because she thinks she’s too good now to apologize to me and besides, I have better things now to make myself feel better. No effort on her part basically, only logic, if she wants to heal my wound, just like I attempted to heal her wound by apologizing to her in 2023. People who have no guilt are simply evil. At least I can say I’m the only person who deserves to have her day of vengeance just like Israel, but at least I don’t kill people materially. But who is to say that my words can’t destroy them? I have really outdone myself I think. I am so slow to realize the power of my words right now. 17. 4/26/26: God is working through mysterious ways. Vico posted something about Meralco and emphasized PERO twice and tuloy-tuloy. Associations in my head are “center-center” and butterflies. Vanessa. Esther. 1. Seat of the "soul" or psyche. What survives after death--butterfly Vanessa and Esther. Beauty? Hard and soft grace. 2. I wonder if this has any applications to Implied Author Theory. 3. I like that Vico’s quantum ghost (I don’t think he’s stalking me today) is creatively opposing my laziness because of his complaint about “backlogs.” Proves he’s not scared of offending me. 4. Miguel/Manny. BATANY AND ACCOIYO? 5. “2-point Facebook post about worthiness” 1. The FB post posted at 7:42 is missing the tuloy-tuloy and Kaayuuwan. The one on Instagram at 7:44 has the black caption with the tuloy-tuloy and all. 6. Related to my dream about Gelani? About screaming to God and “PERO.” Huh. 7. Kaayuuwan? Kaayo + ulan? Why? I searched for this term everywhere and there is nothing. Maybe I really am hacked. Maybe Prof. Kwe is already aware of my TLS. Strange. Crying hard? Raining hard? Cloudy? Very cloudy? My cloud logo for ACCO. 1. This is a really naked sign, I am once again floored. Kaayu and uwan are both Bisaya. I’ve been really saying something about wanting Filipino to be Bisaya. 1. Does Vico want to learn Bisaya? OMG!!! Otherwise, it’s really bad that God is making me delusional thinking keystrokes are intentional when they’re really just mistakes. God, I need a dream that he didn’t stutter or make a mistake unconsciously. I’m so delusional because I said something about Vanessa the other day and he responds with PARUPARO/PERO PERO!!! 2. This is making me really wonder why people seem to be calm about it, like why I don’t get a lot of website visits. Are people better at containing gossip? Strange. I overestimated people’s gossip tendencies. I would get spikes at this rate just for discovering something about Shuggie Bain. Maybe they’re not actually stalking me (but then Kaayuuwan??????). Kaayusan? Why would you make two errors in one word? This is a really weird synchron from God because that is also “twin signifier.” 3. I concede it’s actually a brilliant way to try and placate me. If ever God is talking to me instead of Vico. But then God is using Real World like in my dream too regardless if Vico feels the same. I just realized that it’s borderline Real World because it bleeds through physical reality in a subjective way to me (its physical or NDH quality is that it’s only on social media, but that it actually has effects on my brain chemicals). So even if it exists in NDH it has strong physical reality effects on my psyche (maybe not Real Real World, but you get my point about bodymind, chemicals making us feel things but that’s not the entire story either because chemicals don’t have intent—whose intent now? The person who posted and God Themselves allowing it—when he could prevent it if he wanted to prevent me from being affected). Brilliant explanation to include in my monograph about process theology, for example. 4. Maybe this is God’s response to my asking for a response to “emo” a while ago from Vico. Crying hard and being sad? Cloudy mood? 18. 4/29/26 So Vico really followed two saint-related mayors the past two days. Gina Ortiz Jones and Daniel Lurie of San Antonio and San Francisco. Lightning strike if I am not hacked. Both saints are known for the care of the poor. Jones means “God is gracious” and Daniel means “God is my judge.” WOWZA.