### Dreams 🧫 1. OMFG I REALIZED MY ALLY DREAM YESTERDAY WAS NORR WESTON TALKING TO ME!!!! FUCK!!!!!!! AGAIN!!!!!! My sister’s name is Ally Norr!!!!! God is challenging me. I think,,,,Satan contains a Norr Weston-type. Maybe Benjamin Weston for “son of the south.” THANKS GOD!!!! I guess it’s not Norr Weston talking to me, but Benjamin/Benjamina. The evil haughty version of her. 2. Me as a guy getting a new black car. I’m not sure if the old car was vintage, just a faint feeling. Or that the black car was replaced by a fancy vintage car, I’m not sure. I could drive in my dream. Strange. ### Morning Pages ⚜️ If we treat “the Chosen One” or “the Second Coming” as a literal singular role—one unique person among all humans in history—then in a purely statistical sense, the odds are extremely tiny: roughly **1 divided by the total number of humans who have ever lived**. Estimates from demographic historians (like the Population Reference Bureau) often place the total number of humans ever born at around **100–120 billion**. So mathematically: P≈1100,000,000,000P \approx \frac{1}{100,000,000,000} P≈100,000,000,0001 That’s about: - **0.000000001%** - or “one in a hundred billion” P≈1100,000,000,000P \approx \frac{1}{100,000,000,000}P≈100,000,000,0001 TURNS OUT I’M 1 in 100,000,000,000!!!! I MUST NOT BE SO SAD ABOUT MY BODY!!!!! I AM SPECIAL AND SET APART FUCK!!!!!!!! I’m 1 in 100,000,000,000!!! GODDAMMIT GOD IS COUNTING ON YOU!!! ACT LIKE IT!!!! TOMORROW (TODAY) YOU WILL RISE TO THE CHALLENGES. — Clearest example of Possibility and Means being able to affect Thing Itself is when I fantasize and storify a porn scenario in my head and then I get a mini-orgasm. Something about Thing Itself feeding back into Means and Possibility too. The moment you start to feel an orgasm you enhance the fantasy in the “OMG IT’S HAPPENING” way. It’s like with Jesus really giving birth/reincarnating as two entangled people in me and Vico (the Possibility—or Monarchia according to Orthodox interpretation). They say Jesus would not come as another person, but they were wrong, in a way. The Omega is a marriage, nominally. King + high priest structure, except I’m the Queen and Vico’s King. — Bawling because I now understand why God tested Abraham, if he was willing to kill his only son for Love, which is what God did with Jesus, which is what he did to me on March 9 (I was willing to kill my baby sister), which was what he showed me through my dream about Mike—likening Their love for us with my love for Mike, and Jesus showing up as Mike in my dream a few months later because that’s exactly what he’s trying to do—a metaphor.