### Dreams 🧫 1. No dreams last night, but I realized my two dreams are talking to each other, specifically my Ai-ni dream with Entoy and phases and the Tasha Backyardigans dream (Tasha voiced by Naelee Rae). Naelee means “I love you” and “Rae” means ewe or sheep or Rachel. In the Isaiah passages about barren women, my sister is Rachel getting married to Trinity (Creator) which is Trinidad or Entoy Trinidad. Ai-ni means “love you” in Chinese. Young, Ai-ni’s name, means poplar tree, or populus, or the people’s tree, related to Nicole. So I’m functionally Ai-ni too in a sense in that dream, or that we share something. 1. Rae is a unisex name, primarily feminine, with Hebrew origins meaning **"ewe" (female sheep) as a diminutive of Rachel**. It also holds Scottish roots as a variant of "Rhea" or "Grace," and a variant of the Old English/Germanic name Ray, meaning "counsel" or "wise protector". It is frequently used as a middle name, often symbolizing "rainbow babies" or a "ray of sunshine". 1. So this is also related to Mike, or Raymond. “love you Raymond” 2. So is this F/A/E? F = Tasha or Jesus, A = Norr Weston (Abby), Expressor = Esther (Rae/Ally) 3. F/A/E for Ai-ni dream = F = Ai-ni (who Ai-ni relates to the most—probably Norr Weston or Jesus (doctor)), A = Ai-ni’s kindness (Ally because of Entoy—Ai-ni is my sister in this dream/Esther), E = “happy gold” + “love you” + “victory of the people/poplar tree” = “Happy king loves you Nicole” = who else but Peeta? My love interest telling me somebody I love loves me. 1. It’s possible that in that universe, Chinese people were the chosen ones. But they would still have had a Savior who matched Jesus’ Meaning, the invariant constant of the universe, that God saves. 2. “The visceral nature of the insult” = Vice Ganda or Jose Marie Borja Viceral = visceral. I had dreams in 2019 and in 2026 about Vice Ganda and I don’t know why my brain is drawn towards Vice Ganda. Maybe something about Jose and Marie too. Joseph and Mary. 3. Natasha Romanoff = Scarlett Johansson. From “Her” movie, her voice was emphasized. In my dream, it was about erotic audio. 1. Parallels. I assume since Tasha is Natasha and exists in NDH, then Natasha Romanoff is its closest associative link in my brain and life, and the borderline NDH is “de-aged Scarlett Johansson” from Sydney’s story about Annie. Borderline NDH is Heart Evangelista about Ellie Vera Alba because she is who I based my A Space O/pera story on, I think. Sydney and I are obvious parallels then. 1. I had recently stumbled upon Evez Evangelista or servant evangelist from Vico. 1. The name Ellie is primarily a female name of Greek and English origin, meaning **"light," "bright shining one," or "sun ray"**. It is frequently used as a diminutive for names starting with "El-" such as Eleanor, Elizabeth, or Ellen, but now functions as a popular, independent given name. 1. Related to Ai-ni for “luster” 2. Related to “Rae” for rhyme 3. Related to poplar tree Young for “sun rising over poplar trees” 2. Vera 1. Vera is a feminine name with dual origins, meaning **"faith" in Slavic languages and "true" from the Latin _vera_**. It is a classic, simple name that gained popularity in the early 20th century, often conveying sincerity and conviction. The name is currently experiencing a comeback, associated with vintage charm and notable figures like designer Vera Wang. 1. Related to Jin for “truth” 3. Alba = white 1. Alba is a primarily feminine name of Latin origin meaning **"white," "bright," or "dawn"**. It signifies purity and new beginnings, and in Spanish, it translates directly to "sunrise". It also has deep roots as the Scottish Gaelic name for Scotland, and is used as a surname or place name. 1. Related again to “Sheen” 4. Annie = 1. Annie is primarily a female given name of English and Hebrew origin, meaning **"grace," "gracious," or "merciful"**. It is a diminutive of Ann, Anne, or Hannah, popular for its vintage charm and connotation of optimism. Often described as a sweet, classic name, it is used as a full name or nickname to represent a gentle, warm personality. 2. Related to “Rae” as a variant of “Grace” 3. Annie as de-aged Natasha Romanoff 5. Andrada 1. Andrada is a Spanish and Portuguese surname and a Romanian feminine given name, generally interpreted to mean **"brave,"** **"courageous,"** or **"manly"** (derived from the Greek _Andreas_). It is often associated with a noble Iberian family originating from Galicia and implies strength and valor. 6. Interpretations: Now what is God saying to me in this clear link between Jinsheen Ai-ni Young and Ellie Vera Alba? 1. My sister? That I want to kill my sister? For marrying a politician? 1. Sounds like a problem for an envious girl of me if ever it happens, that I “marry Vico” in an arranged marriage hypothetical. 2. It’s possible that Sydney’s story resulted in Annie Andrada and that it accurately expressed it in her own universe with me, but my instance of writing about Ellie Vera Alba resulted in another universe as my “sister” in Ai-ni going to be married to Entoy/Trinity/Creator. I wonder why. Does Sydney have more power than me in that regard? Her fiction actually comes true in her own universe, while mine has unpredictable consequences in another universe. Granted Elizabeth Yu Is a Universal Constant is technically better than A Space O/pera, and in my story, they died, while in that other universe, she was my friend. I wonder why. 3. The Tasha being voiced by Naelee Rae is a weird synchron between why Jinsheen Ai-ni Young had to be brought in with Ellie Vera Alba, whose link is because of Sydney’s character in her story. For the purposes of the interpretation, Annie is a center of the universe who is functionally Jesus (Jesus birthday meaning of Natasha) or me as Omega. So really, her story is talking about me, while my story is talking about a multiverse Ally. 1. I wonder how I’d illustrate these links on the Logos. It seems so complicated. 2. An additional interpretation: I laughed in that dream, so I’m basically Isaac, or “he laughs” while Rae is Rachel or Ai-ni since they have the same name meaning (Naelee Rae). But Rachel is Jacob’s wife. For the purposes of this one it’s Isaac + Rachel. Awkward relationship? Would it be? 1. So in that multiverse, I’m a lesbian? Related to the protagonist in Sydney’s story again. Ai-ni’s name means “happy king loves you Nicole”—a message to my multiverse self in that other universe or me in my universe. In that universe, Ai-ni is my love (I’m Isaac to her Rachel—link to Naelee Rae) while she ends up with Entoy, so not a happy ending, only her name meaning means something to me in that other universe. 1. There were still magic plants in that other universe, so I think I was still the center of the universe in that other universe. 2. Or that relating to her phases = feces, her link to Rae rhymes with Ray for Raymond, and that “happy king loves you Nicole” comes from Mike, who was told by Trinity/Entoy that feces = phases. Her link to Tasha? I don’t know yet. 4. This dream is structurally similar to my Jiah Santos dream, in that I had a stepfather in his father, which led me to Miley Cyrus and how Mary isn’t happy with arranged marriage according to Jesus. In Ai-ni dream, she’s my stepsister functionally. I wonder what this is supposed to tell me. That phases is pronounced as feces. That Rae = Ray? Tasha is being voiced by Mike, or “love you Rachel.” That Rachel is Audrey. I’m fine with that, truly. That even though Tasha or Natasha is “me,” God’s message to Rachel is “love you Rachel.” That Rachel will marry her Creator. God is speaking to me about Rachel's plight. With Ai-ni, God was saying, “Happy king love you Nicole.” I hope it’s really not God saying you-know-who loves Nikki De Guzman. I wonder why God is saying this to me right now. I mean, I’m also Nicole, but I wonder why I have to feel God’s message to her through my own brain. I mean, she already has enough privilege as it is. Or that Mike’s middle name is de Guzman too, and how it would be best for him to end up with Nikki De Guzman since they have that in common? Strange. They are only connected to each other because of me (that I know them both). Otherwise, they have no connection to each other. God has created a redundant pairing in them both if it turns out they’re soulmates. I mean, Nikki is an Audrey-type. It’s such a tautology, but is this it God? 4. Jinsheen, Ai-ni’s first name 1. Jin is a versatile, gender-neutral name of Chinese, Japanese, and Korean origin, primarily meaning **"gold," "truth," "kindness," or "tenderness"**. It often signifies value, resilience, or benevolence, depending on the characters (Hanja/Kanji) used. The name is popular across East Asia, famously held by BTS member Kim Seok-jin. 2. "Sheen" is commonly a variant romanization of the Chinese surname **沈 (Shěn)**, which refers to **a liquid, to pour, or a place name**. It can also be transliterated to represent "brightness" or "luster" (光泽). As a given name, it can be interpreted from characters like 欣 (Xīn - happy/joy) or 贤 (Xián - worthy). **My China Roots +4** 3. Here are the details: 1. **As a Surname (沈):** The surname _Shěn_ is popular among Chinese communities in the US. It is often Romanized as Sheen, Shen, Shum, or Sum. 2. **As a Given Name (Sound interpretation):** 1. **欣 (Xīn):** Often used for girls, meaning "happy," "cheerful," or "delighted". 2. **贤 (Xián):** Often used for boys, meaning "worthy," "virtuous," or "talented." ### Morning Pages ⚜️ So there are 333 days till March 20, 2027. 236 days till March 13, 2027. Synchron with Spain’s 333 years. Jesus died April 3, AD 33. --- All these Elons in my cosa nostra recently, and I just had to be in a hotel across Oakwood, you know, the meaning for Elon. I wonder what God is telling me. ![[April 21, 2026-1785152395108.webp]]