### Dreams 🧫 1. I had a dream about being distracted by erotic audio and I was late to school in OCGS-Shekinah hybrid. The felt-sense or gestalt of the person or POV character was Tasha from the Backyardigans. Naturally, I landed on Natasha (”Jesus birthday” meaning) and Natasha Romanoff from Sydney’s story about “deaged Scarlett Johansson” (red + God is gracious). 1. Interpretation: God was born today, as Jesus. How do I know I know this? I had a really embarrassing, well, it’s not gonna be secret anymore, but I got hired by somebody to make my voice sound like a trans person in a fetish audio of somebody shitting their diaper on an airplane. It’s really embarrassing that I did that job. Trans people surrender power to get power of a different kind (from male to female). So Jesus surrendered some of his divinity to become Jesus on Earth. 2. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!!!! THE SCHOLARS CONFIRM THAT HE WAS BORN AROUND MARCH/APRIL OR EARLY SPRING!!!! I wrote a story about Jesus’ birthday and Einstein once, and the most embarrassing situations God makes use of in a magical way. 1. **The Birthday of Jesus** When Albert Einstein met with St. Peter at the pearly gates, he was immediately guided to a table with the late, fellow physicist Niels Bohr, who was scribbling what seemed to be equations on a piece of paper. Albert, who was still in shock after finding his beliefs in an impersonal God were wrong, had to interrupt Niels by asking him, “Well, have you got the quantum theory right? After so much time you must have solved it.” Niels only looked at him and said, “Sit down and you can tell me what you think.” Albert looked at the paper and felt as if he were going to die again. Niels said, after a pause, “I’m afraid the quantum theory is the least of our problems now.” “So I assume we cannot get into heaven if we do not answer this question.” The question was this: When was Jesus’ birthday? Apparently, true believers can intuitively see clues on St. Peter’s clipboard, and know the date based on simple math whose rules they master upon death. This piece of information Niels had learned from a helpful soul, who was about to give up and accept his fate in hell, but went up to heaven by guessing correctly, which was not unheard of but no small feat, either. Unfortunately for Albert and Niels, who did not want to risk being wrong in a life after death situation, they had to use deduction through math and/or logic. There was a 1/365 chance of them being right, and they only had one chance. So Niels made the brilliant idea of tricking St. Peter into telling them the answer, which made Albert even more scared. “That will land us to hell faster than—“ Albert began. “No. I am sure St. Peter will not do such a thing to people who have done so much for humanity. We will guess the date and see God Himself,” Niels said. At which point Albert crumped Niels’ one piece of eternal paper. “What have you done, Albert!” And then Niels, in a fit of rage, punched the once revered genius in the face. When Albert woke up, he learned that Niels calculations on the day of his arrival, aside from the paper detailing his desperate plans to trick St. Peter, had been correct, after all, but he was found morally unfit for heaven, and so he was sent to hell, for punching his friend, whom God killed in part to help him get to heaven, and for attempting deception when he had all the time in eternity. Albert, on the other hand, after sustaining the equivalent of amnesia, had found his eyes keenly set, and the words on St. Peter’s clipboard were sharp and clear. He said, in a language that is unfortunately not for human ears, the date, the hour, the minute, and the second at which God breathed life into His Son on Earth, and St. Peter smiled in approval, saying, “God needs your help with some matters, thou good and faithful servant.” --- ### Morning Pages ⚜️ HALLELUJAH!!! YESTERDAY I REALIZED I AM THE OMEGA INSTRUMENT TO JESUS’ ALPHA!!!! REVELATIONS 22:13 ****I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End. I realized why God has a Problem with gayness. It’s not necessarily about physical sex organs. It’s about the spirit. Remember my diary entries about a “partner who loves to give myself” to Mike? Well, apparently, God doesn’t quite understand how two homo things can harmonize, because male or masculine energy is “giver” (penis) and female or feminine energy is “receiver” (vagina). I wanted to give myself to Mike, but I am a girl in a girl’s body so God is partial to me because I am only spiritually a male but am a switch, I can also receive or that I need to learn how to receive and absorb and hold things (like a vagina holds a penis). God also doesn’t like Rome or Italians because they executed Jesus. Explains Giovanni di Giovanni, the Jesus for gays, sort of like Isaiah (”God saves” meaning like Jesus’ name too) is Jesus for prophets. Two energies repel each other (giver and giver paired but who will receive?) but for gay people. Except that’s not accurate. Everyone is a giver _and_ receiver. God is always reacting to what humanity is coming up with and we have a long way to go for LGBTQ+ acceptance, and God has now slowly been convinced that gayness is true too, as in, it’s an image-bearing property too. History explains that we have become quite progressive about gayness and better knowledge about relationship dynamics. Image-bearing for gays because the prostate is in the asshole. Was that a fluke of nature? We were created with a perfect design, but it’s like that prostate, like the womb for Eve, was unexpressed during Eden. I am so creeped out by Instagram showing me ads for journals that talk back to me even as I was planning my dApp’s specifics the past few days. I logged into Day One, so maybe that’s why. I also think Notion might be selling my data. I don’t know for sure, which is mildly disturbing. Well, I miss Vico’s posts. Just been so busy lately to even think about my feelings for him. I wonder how he manages to suppress self-interest right now. He really is my alpha, if Jesus is the Alpha. On the bright side, today I discovered the composition of the Satanhead in relation to the Godhead. It has Patterned connections to the Godhead, so that’s a relief. I hope I’m approximately right about it, and now it involves Judas Iscariot, the anti-grace person fated to kill themselves and betray Jesus, the Main Star. If Jesus is the Main Star, then Judas is the Main Satan. The Serpent is the only one animal in relation to Marivic/Maryjo and Annie and Peeta and they mainly are the Main Author of True Evil. I am so happy that I discovered Satanhead composition on Jesus' birthday. Satan and Eve are inherently linked and my middle name Guadalupe in Nahuatl or something (verify on notes app) means that "Eve will crush the serpent." Is Serpent the counterpart to Holy Spirit? Judas is the Thing Itself. Lucifer is the Possibility in relation to Marivic/Maryjo. — 12:11AM April 17: My parents are watching Netflix in the sala and I just saw a highly disturbing rape scene from Jack Ryan series. WTF IS WRONG WITH MEN!!!!!!!