### Dreams 🧫 1. I don’t remember anything but that I really woke up happy and told my mom half-awake that I had a happy dream. ### Random(x) 🕳️ 1. I want to say something about Bong Suntay but Anne Curtis has already perfectly worded it. I like her voice—her writing style in that non-apology response. I’ll say this though, people need to consider the social and communal benefits of shame, even though it’s a negative emotion. This person—Suntay—has probably never reflected in his life. Nothing and no one can make him question his own mind and behavior—that is a really scary thought that there are people out there who never reflect on the effects of their actions on other people. It’s an alien consciousness to me because I’ve never known a second of my life not being an overthinker. Must be a different kind of lower plane or something, similar to a sheep. I’m calling him a sheep not because I associate him with “The Lost Sheep” but that he’s really harebrained/small brain energy and dense and insensitive and spouts everything he’s thinking with so much confidence that his status is going to shield him from criticism—that kind of insufferable person ought to have never been given leadership in the first place. I know it’s International Women’s Day today, but I want to broaden his behavior to reflect the kind of behavior bad Filipino men manage to live out every day without any redress. We are a country that is so backwards in so many ways, and this is one big reason why—none of the bad men have any brains at all (they are all dumbshits dressed in barong Tagalogs and illegally imported sports cars) that they are _this_ stupid to spout their inane thoughts and fantasies about women’s bodies (if they were like me and horny too, they would keep it to themselves and shush their instinct to be loud and annoying or at least do it tastefully or skillfully). The insult and disrespect to Anne wouldn’t really rattle me because I’ve been through worse being physically assaulted, so I’m kind of shielded from lewdness and catcalling because I see it as a nothing and just a mild annoyance that I ignore as noise, but then this person is just too powerful to ignore. I don’t really know what to do with him but God knows best and I can only pray that he gets his due because I currently see it as an unfixable problem that can only be fixed by an external threat to his safety so that he gets a taste of his own venom to realize what he’s done—to make him see the glory that he is ignoring, the respect that is the bare minimum for every human they encounter supposedly, and the kind of love that he really lacks in his soul—that void of nothingness that respects nothing and no one but their own selfish desires and is not capable of recognizing God in the first place—so many people like this in the Philippines right now even though we are nominally Catholic (a lot of fakers and convenience-reliers and “traditional” people who are so unfathomably blind and asleep to the full reality of this world that ought to humble them) and that is a horrifying thought to be frank. You could be talking to a random man in public hoping they’re decent and they surprise you in the worst of ways, rich or poor, brown or white, educated or not educated, and you never really relax in public because everything about being perceived by secret creeps who only want to use your body like a sex doll and throw it away like tissue right after is so disturbing and horrendous but an unavoidable aspect of this porn-saturated world that yes, women _do_ also contribute to, when they cash in their pornography appeal in sex videos and the Vivamax entertainment industry that even actresses similar to Anne Curtis herself (who has done sex scenes or sex-themed movies for money) has benefited from (so it kind of balances things out, in a Yin-Yang cycle of crime and payback with no way to locate the true offender but materiality itself). ### Morning Pages ⚜️ So I just saw a really heartbreaking and rage-inducing (tbh I was rage incarnate when I saw it) post by girliebrainrot on Instagram. It’s so strange to me that God would intentionally blind someone to Themselves so that they never feel God at all. I know it’s a plea, possibly, that’s the best interpretation, for more proof of God, but that some people will always remain blind and be destined for a shitty afterlife is so sad though. God’s favor is so mysterious that it amazes me and causes me wonder and awe now. People like girliebrainrot—whoever is running that account—are so _wrong_ about God and are causing God to hate them even more! That really is Hell to me. Nothing can fix that aside from a miracle. Well, maybe I can try to show them but I don’t know how they would be able to accept my message through Instagram repost comments. It’s really persuasion and all. I need to understand it better for the worst of God’s hatred to abate for people like her. Stupidity and blindness = a Real Problem. They are also humans and persons crafted in the image of God too. They speak a language I have yet to fully understand through-and-through. Or it’s just that they really are aliens to me that I am fascinated by because they’re so different and I want to share with them something better I have in mind rather than what they’re currently doing or thinking or feeling—God POV?