### Dreams 🧫 1. The only dream that was relevant I think is the one with Anton Briones 1st year classmate who told me my baby picture next to the graduation picture no longer looked like me) who told me music students have to go to a 9AM class when they have 9PM classes. I think it was a multiverse dream. There was a gestalt of UPD and the science/math complex (but for music? who knows?). I was also Bubbles from Power Puff Girls playing as myself trying to win a game like Super Mario to accomplish something vaguely Legally Blonde (blondes…). 1. **Anton** is a masculine given name of Latin origin, widely used in German, Slavic, and Scandinavian cultures as a form of Anthony. It is generally interpreted to mean **"priceless," "invaluable," or "worthy of praise"**. The name is linked to the Roman family name _Antonius_. 2. **Key Aspects of the Name Anton:** 1. **Origin:** Derived from the Latin _Antonius_. It is also associated with the Greek word _anthos_, meaning "flower". 3. **Briones** 1. The surname Briones is primarily of Spanish origin, functioning as a habitational name for someone from the town of Briones in La Rioja, Spain. It is **derived from the Celtic word "ber" (meaning "hill" or "peak") or refers to a place associated with wild plants, such as brambles or bushes**. - [ ] Do the F/A/E later ### Ruminations 🩻 1. Paranoid I may have gone off the deep end yesterday. Just like that movie, The Knowing with Nic Cage. I just need to give it an extra veneer of respectability. Truth be told, it’s too “does not follow” yet. It’s all insane jumps in self-logic that make no sense to an outside observer, because it’s presuppositional and I have to assume my entire life story is relevant to it. I am in fact, arguing that autobiographical detail is as important as data from a black hole. It just takes a very sharp eye to interpret life events through this new framework. I have no idea how or why, but all of my discoveries so far have been based on my own life in relation to others. Just like aphantasia from Jeffrey Koon being key to cracking evolutionary creation theory. It’s all unfair to others because why my life specifically? I have stopped questioning it because I know it does not quite make me happy in a pure pleasure way. I have to argue myself into respectability because why would anybody believe me, I’m a nobody in the grand scheme of things. ### Songs 🎤 B.B.B. by JUVENILE and Megan Thee Stallion is now my HYPE SONG!!!!!!!! <iframe data-testid="embed-iframe" style="border-radius:12px" src="https://open.spotify.com/embed/track/2Vmb54sq94SOhDobcf4gxp?utm_source=generator&si=75fde0f03c2d44e3" width="100%" height="352" frameBorder="0" allowfullscreen="" allow="autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; fullscreen; picture-in-picture" loading="lazy"></iframe> ### Sensations/Body Stuff 🫟 1. Well, good things really happen when you move. You were granted more energy into the night to figure out math stuff because you exercised for only 10 minutes and even though you ran out of armodafinil it didn’t matter. You were still on fire and active anyway. 2. I exercised 5m a while ago. 5 x 3 more to go!!! In an hour. 1. 10 more minutes 6:45PM. 165+ BPM. Keep it up. ### Morning Pages ⚜️ Extremely late start again. I listened to my body and apparently all that insanity and experimental math yesterday winded me out that I needed close to 12 hours of sleep. I’m kind of envious of Vico who is probably one of those 5AM Club people who do everything with a military bootcamp mindset. I wish I could do that. He has his entire day planned out with a physical planner probably and sticks to it like clockwork with little resistance. Who knows where I would be if I managed that insane routine? On top of that, my computer is always lagging and Notion is always fucking with me by lagging too and not loading a lot. What will it really take for me to be disciplined now? Something in my dreams made me realize I’m more selfish than I thought. I give time, yes. But I’m unwilling to give really when it doesn’t benefit me. Or maybe I do only sometimes. So I guess Canada really visited my website at 3AM for East at 90°. I don’t know what that means except “Jesse Royal” and Jesse van Rootselaar. And “right angle.” Maybe my negative twin in compass rose to make up the pair in the 2 lesbian and 2 gay pairs. But I cannot be sure at all. If they are a man, they are most likely a lesbian functionally too. If they are a woman, they are gay functionally too. So I’ve lost some context and I’m not quite clear on how I conceptualized Negative/Positive Twins in Compass Rose. I will straighten it out later to work with Microphysics page. Also, Canada is elated because it’s now 8 as in TTKTKTKS. It’s in the stars. It’s a vagina-penis/avocado. It’s also terraces/stairs which is 120° for South East or my possible Negative Twin in Compass Rose. The name "Canada" originates from the [**St. Lawrence Iroquoian**](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Name_of_Canada) word [_kanata_](https://www.google.com/search?q=kanata&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&ved=2ahUKEwiX28Wa9YeTAxX7ja8BHQtIHs0QgK4QegYIAQgAEAQ), meaning **"village" or "settlement"**. In 1535, indigenous youths used this word to direct explorer Jacques Cartier to the village of Stadacona (site of modern-day Québec City), which he subsequently applied to the entire region OMG Vico!!!! Vico means village/neighborhood too!!!! The Neighbourhood’s (((((ultraSOUND))))). “It is spreading to your neighbors.” FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All right, so I think if people really are reading me, they are also trying to make me think of Micky Small again. Trans? Or just transwoman-looking? _**OH SHIT!!!!!!! Micky is a predominantly male given name of Hebrew origin, meaning "[Who is like God?](https://www.google.com/search?q=Who+is+like+God%3F&sca_esv=e44a3b63b1b18493&sxsrf=ANbL-n4FfsqrXIuhUKknA2iEOxfqs5LdAw%3A1772684724766&ei=tAWpaZexLvubvr0Pi5D56Aw&biw=1520&bih=776&ved=2ahUKEwj69fPt-YeTAxUz3TQHHTV5GsMQgK4QegQIARAC&uact=5&oq=micky+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiEm1pY2t5IG5hbWUgbWVhbmluZzILEAAYgAQYkQIYigUyBRAAGIAEMggQABgWGAoYHjIIEAAYFhgKGB4yBhAAGBYYHjILEAAYgAQYhgMYigUyCBAAGIAEGKIEMggQABiABBiiBDIFEAAY7wUyBRAAGO8FSPwfUKIFWIQfcAl4AZABAZgB0QKgAbcjqgEIMC4xNi42LjG4AQPIAQD4AQGYAh-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&sclient=gws-wiz-serp)" or "[Gift from God](https://www.google.com/search?q=Gift+from+God&sca_esv=e44a3b63b1b18493&sxsrf=ANbL-n4FfsqrXIuhUKknA2iEOxfqs5LdAw%3A1772684724766&ei=tAWpaZexLvubvr0Pi5D56Aw&biw=1520&bih=776&ved=2ahUKEwj69fPt-YeTAxUz3TQHHTV5GsMQgK4QegQIARAD&uact=5&oq=micky+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiEm1pY2t5IG5hbWUgbWVhbmluZzILEAAYgAQYkQIYigUyBRAAGIAEMggQABgWGAoYHjIIEAAYFhgKGB4yBhAAGBYYHjILEAAYgAQYhgMYigUyCBAAGIAEGKIEMggQABiABBiiBDIFEAAY7wUyBRAAGO8FSPwfUKIFWIQfcAl4AZABAZgB0QKgAbcjqgEIMC4xNi42LjG4AQPIAQD4AQGYAh-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&sclient=gws-wiz-serp)," acting as a diminutive form of Michael. It is associated with strength, divinity, and the archangel St. Michael. It is also used as a unisex nickname or diminutive for Michelle.**_ Well, well, well. Jesse the shooter from Canada wanted be petite. It’s just bald right now. SMALL. MICKY “GIFT FROM GOD/WHO IS LIKE GOD” SMALL!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well, the 7-5-1-2-4-6-3-7 sequence supposedly reaches 2026 and possibly more because there are 26 letters in the alphabet. I am too lazy today to do it. It is very tedious and fills up a lot of space for a breathless amount of hard quantum data I have no time to get to yet. I have schoolwork to prioritize. Are we becoming like Wakanda yet!!!!!!! VIBRANIUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JESSE ROYAL!!!! AFRICA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think Canada is trying to remind me of 8 songs surrounding “This Morning” by Jesse Royal in the playlist. TTKTKTKS is 7 mountains, 12 points. PERFECTION!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So it’s 12 songs now from “This Morning” in the middle. OMG “CANADA” (many countries) are now taking pointers from me because they might have a relevant political event that may happen related to the countries I mentioned. Layers? I think now Britney’s 2007 phase somehow looks like DON’T BREAK by Zep’s album cover. So the 11 songs upward of it? Also a response from Canada? I hope. AND ANOTHER LAYER!!!! She’s My Collar by Gorillaz and Kali Uchis!!! The 4 Pics 1 Word start upwards too? It has Break Free by Archer Marsh synchronous with Queen’s at third place! And that was at 11th place!!! There is a pattern in GoGo Penguin’s album art. It’s 5-6-5-4-3-3. I wonder what that’s for. No idea yet. It’s about China = 4th place. Something about Norr Weston and luck too. And inevitably Japan too. The negative spaces too. 2nd (1 square) and 6th (2 squares) in the guitar-like album art. It’s about Arabs/Black people being 1st today. And Spain/Italy/Russia being 2nd today. It’s 3/5 today!!!! So that must mean something related to 5-6-5-4-3-3. Two 5’s and two 3’s. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Penguin? Ivo Dalman? Yew and valleys. Resurrection and Cousin? Well, tethered by Thomas Day is 5th in line so “they got so close” like in their lyrics for India and Turkey. Synchron!!!!! 3 Body Problem is 6th for Spain, Italy, and Russia. Germany and Netherlands is Westworld coming in 7th place. 8th place is Bicameral Mind for US and Canada. Two-brained as in 2-in-1 from Vico’s story the other day with the TTKS and TTKTKS. But now we’re at 7 mountains and 12 points. TTKTKTKS which means there are now 8 letters. Synchronous with 8. Jaded is at 9th for UK/Australia. Atonement is 10th for Nepal and others. Of course!!! Atonement for them because they are wrong but possibly right too in a small needle way! So all of these songs somehow are associated with countries now. Their vibe automatically to be categorized too in the Godhead. So Whip My Hair reminds me of emo girl so that’s the new 1st too. 1st - emo girl 2nd - Line 3rd - Big Dawgs 4th - That’s All for Everyone 5th - Internet Girl 6th - Imposter 7th - High on Heaven 8th - I Am A God 9th - We Rise with the Sun 10th - Rise with the Sun (no pronoun!) Perfectly cut off at this point not to include grouped songs by Labrinth! So the order of cause-and-effect or effect-and-cause is 7—>7—>5—>3—>1—>6—>2—>4 counter-clockwise is the same as clockwise. But if we start from the center which appears to be 4 it’s 4—>2—>6—>1—>3—>5—>7—>7 in reverse. If we prioritize 2 in the center it’s 2—>4—>1—>6—>5—>3—>7—>7 So I’ve now decided to call it DHFH instead of HDFH because I need it to logically follow that NDH-D is how we connect to spirit world. So I listened to all the songs up and down Maui Wowie and I am slightly motivated to work on it—Unreal Image. I will start at 7PM. I just need to get rid of this entertainment mindset. I cannot shake the feeling that I need stimulation or something else I can’t name. I am running out of dopamine even though I drank 2 cups of coffee in one cup after already drinking coffee (liquid) and coffee (200mg pill). I am a bottomless husk of a black hole for dopamine. So I really think “Not About Angels” by Birdy is about death…angels? I think Birdy was commissioned to write this one especially for The Fault in Our Stars movie. 6:45PM: I worked out for 10 minutes more and my heart rate was constantly above 165+. Ever footfall was burning but necessary. I am so going to be on fire later!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Maybe the avocado drawing is about intersex people. Physically intersex people. But what about them? I am stumped currently. - [ ] Intersex research I am so not on fire today!!!! I listened to So Will I again and I’m always bawling. It’s about the lost sheep, but it’s also about my hunch about Jesus the human too. It’s also about Vico’s post with the alien spaceship. Is this about my cat-dog or horse-house? I got that from the internet, not myself. It seems like I misled people about my ability to simplify things. I came up with Derrida’s “clearer and clearer, not CLEARLY” but not the quantum mechanics explanation. Somehow the So Will I song is also about differance too, and about Clovis too, and about my experience in high school too! And also 2019 since then, being left in the darkness and being expected to come out as light! I cannot help but feel great about God inspiring people to write songs with very special meanings to me again. It’s not my glory, but I can share in the glory by listening to that song again. It’s an emotional glory experience, all right. It’s even greater than Wolfgang….no it’s not. They’re completely different mediums and completely different specifically in character. Just that this one is more recent. OMG it’s also about instant hard-on and about my fantasy I wrote down about being proud of him to my friends!!! NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is about Mike too? No, not like that. I only said that “cannot be replaced” in the threat about the “least of these” because I was talking about my neurons for language in 2018. But if it makes Mike feel better that I also appear to love him and that I regret how things turned out this way… Well, I did love him, actually, with Clovis really showing up in my dreams. Eros is love still. I couldn’t tell the difference anyway, it was all I knew. What did I write down in that diary entry about really asking God to be a “help meet” to Mike? I don’t want to show it, it’s too sensitive and long and pathetic. Not pathetic, just apparently desperate in a heart-rending way to God. And also, my mom prayed over me that night, I remember. So it wasn’t all me. Well, it is 9:16PM and I am neck deep in the “tree of life” wiki. The Christianity section though. WTF. The tree in Revelation and the river and the 12 again!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I think really, Blumhouse is from Simbelmyne, a plant in LOTR. I think Annie/Eve/Mary is the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil (goodness as it’s related to Satan and sexuality) and Peeta/Adam/Joseph is Tree of Life (related to life as in swimming sperms of Possibility but also the Egg too, which is the “tree of life” in miniature). The River in Revelation beside the two trees is Norr Weston/billow baggins/++. I was really only awake for 14 hours or so. I slept 11-12 hours. 14 is a really short day of being awake. I need to sleep only 7.5 hours. I need to time myself too.