### Dreams 🧫 1. There was a child who had a crush on me and wanted to see the color of my bra strap so he fiddled with my jacket but he couldn’t find it. Also, I remember feeling like running away from him because now I was Mary and running away from my destiny. There was a gestalt of Sarah Magbanua (upperclassman at Shekinah). There was another dream with a kind of portal through which my mom could send me stuff in a cheap hotel-like ambiance with pee stains that my foot got mixed up with. John Bago (another upperclassman at Shekinah—classmate of Sarah) was there. I remember telling my mom to be more precise about where she was standing because I was irritated at her for something that I now forgot. She was supposed to stand closer to the farther end so that her travel towards my room would be better. 1. Sarah is a primarily feminine name of Hebrew origin meaning **"princess"** or **"noblewoman"**. It is rooted in the Hebrew word _sar_, meaning a ruler, chieftain, or prince. Biblically, Sarah was the wife of Abraham and a matriarch, with her name changed from Sarai to Sarah to signify her role as a mother of nations. 2. Magbanua is a Filipino surname originating from the Western Visayas region, derived from the Hiligaynon/Cebuano word _banwa_ ("town," "land," or "nation") and the prefix _mag-_ ("belonging to" or "associated with"). It generally means **"of the town" or "townsman,"** often implying a family with local prominence, land stewardship, or agricultural roots. 3. John is a classic masculine name of Hebrew origin ("Yohannan") meaning **"God is gracious"** or "graced by God". It has strong biblical roots, notably John the Baptist and John the Apostle, and has remained popular for centuries due to its simple, solid nature. 4. The name Bago has multiple origins, most notably referring to **a type of large tree (_Gnetum gnemon_) or a shrub** (_bago-bago_). It is commonly associated with Bago City in the Philippines, which was named after this vegetation, or in some contexts, implies "new" or a place of gathering. 5. Interpretations: trees now have something to do with portals and multiverses from my other dream about progress and Einstein. “were but a wand” from ALL_GO seeing as it’s a large tree yet also a shrub. 2. In my evening nap I dreamt I was pregnant in an immaculate conception way and was about to get an abortion where I could die, and another dream where I was practicing sexy dancing in the old family room for Jeffrey. 3. 3/29/26: 1. Math dream where I had to take a booklet test with a small math book that was full of questions—dread feeling. Also, Vico featured in the math, as in, his name was the name of a process. And I remember concentrating on these right angles trying to find the angle of something. 2. Time travel dream with Karen Cabasa in it. 1. Karen is primarily a female given name of Scandinavian origin, derived from the Danish name Katherine, meaning **"pure"** or "clear". It gained popularity in the 1950s-60s and has roots in the Greek _Aikaterine_. While traditionally associated with purity, it has also developed modern, slang usage for an entitled person. 2. The surname Cabasa generally has Iberian (Spanish) or Italian origins, often functioning as **a metonymic occupational name for a basket maker or a topographical name referring to a "low house"**. It is believed to derive from Catalan words for "basket" (cabassa) or Spanish, referencing a "head" (cabeza), indicating a person of importance or a specific trade. 3. A cabasa is **a percussion instrument, often used in Latin and jazz music**, consisting of a cylinder covered with loops of steel ball chains and attached to a long handle. It creates a metallic, rasping, or shaker-like sound, usually played by shaking or rotating it against the hand, often called an Afuche in its modern, amplified form. 3. Nanay Mela struggling to find my uniform. My hiding a seamless pink panty in my pocket. ### Morning Pages ⚜️ So I changed my mind. I decided to continue soldiering on through Stray today. I got a second wind from memorizing and studying polsci yesterday, so I’m more confident about tackling this material hopefully making sense of everything. So I’m giving myself an arbitrary non-negotiable deadline of May 5 to complete my novel and CW 198 work. Just to give my profs ample time to grade my work. I should be starting to write my novel by March 31 to April 30 and start on CW 198 work by April 10 hopefully completed by May 4. I should be done with Stray by April 7 and my critical essay by then incorporating Nikki Alfar’s essay, Putting the Science in Fiction, Save the Cat!, and checked it for plagiarism. Lord, I pray for Your abundant wisdom and creativity and tenacity to be able to craft a novelette in under 10k words for Berggruen displaying the fullest depth and breadth of your wisdom and knowledge for the new Axial Age. I aim to win this competition, and with Your help, I’ll have no doubt I’ll win!!! I called it here first. I’m already extremely blessed to have been lucky enough to have my ideas match the theme, just as I had asked for. I believe this is a sign Lord, that you want your glory to be displayed in this competition through me. Well, my gamble with Clarkesworld didn’t materialize. I got rejected after 13 days, not a bad record, considering how quickly they reply. I guess they’re not too keen on experimental work. I wish they were, and I wish Neil was more interested in religion. Otherwise, I have a hard time believing he’ll ever accept BOBOBEE this July. It’s always been a dream of mine to make society see my perspective and change their ways according to my “ideology.” I don’t know how but, if I were given authority, I could really change things too—if I was technically literate, had enough resources, and able to speak Filipino fluently.