### Hermeneutics/Semiotics/Psychophysics/Puso’y Dos Tres ⛰️ 1. I just realized I may not be a Jesus instantiation at all. I only have Norr Weston. 2nd Jesus is possibly my descendant only. I have to accept that I’m not Jesus. Not officially anyway. Just like Jacob being an ancestor of Jesus eventually. 2. The only way to release my ideas is if somehow Philippines becomes powerful enough to battle Israel. So the way to do that is to develop time travel ideas first so we become a powerful First World country. 3. Update at 2:20AM: Going pretty well that I prayed about Holy Ghost out in the open air, and I really almost immediately received an answer again. I can’t believe it. Like 10-15 minutes later when I started working on it, I started receiving some guidance. 4. OMG SO I REALLY DID IT!!! I closed the loop of the “dual brain” insight in GOD First Family by bringing in relational stuff because I remember dreaming about Perfect Mike which was really Clovis materialized in my dream. So I put the relational labels on all of them now. They all have a purpose now! Personalized to my life and times. 1. Now it’s customizable depending on who your emotional gravity wells are on this Earth! Just pick a relationship/s you have that is important to you whether for good or for worse/worst. You don’t even have to fill up all of Them, but you can try to contact all of Them. At least, in my cosmology/conception, there are 12 of Them. I even made Celia Frank the Holy Spirit into Muse + Artist because that’s personally what I think of Them, expressed in my own life. They are my “Ultimate Ghost” or the One I run to when I need guidance in my artistic expression or my writing. 5. 1:21PM: Done creating playlists for all of Them of the GODHEAD. Some of Them have songs in common, which they share with each other in Their personal relationship with each other. I think I will update and delete or add more to be more accurate as I grow in my faith. 6. Done creating Satan First Corporation page easily filled up with really evil people (lol). Some things copied over from REAL SATAN page: ### **MONEY** **1 Timothy 6:10:** “For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs.” Substitute money with art or porn, and you have virtually the same thing LOL. Even if coins and money now represent currency or value because of our conversion from bartering and trading to paper representations to eventually digital representations of money, we have to integrate money too. So I really have to read a Money book like Freakonomics or something. What will Late Stage Capitalism look like 5, 10 years from now? Who knows? That will be 2031, or 2036. ### **CAUSE VS. EFFECT** Art is not a cause—it’s only an effect. What actually caused art to exist in the world? What happened in human brains—or was this always inherent? The ability to visualize things always was possible in a brain that could potentially dream in color and visuals. This is why They—the Duodenity—sent the Holy Spirit after all, so your dreams finally make sense after Jesus came down to Earth, so that the LOGOS could be built on something other than Words after all that was said and done about visualization and all kinds of artistic production throughout the ages. In the sense that schizophrenic people could always or almost always get the spooky feeling of seeing things, they do not need to draw what they see or make representations of it to remember what they saw unless they wanted to remember again. Meanwhile, probably in the early years of humanity, people who saw visions or visual hallucinations would have wanted a way to record what they saw and remember it, so they drew stuff to remember. The desire to remember is the reason why, partly, we have art. We need to memorialize something through art by mimicking qualities of a thing and compressing them down to a 2D representation on paper, usually. Much in the same way that maybe the first Adams or the first Eves were lonely too, and who did not have access to GODHEAD at all, or who did not feel GODHEAD’s presence all the time, those who felt lonely or detached from their loved ones or GODs would draw who they miss and want to spend time with, to remember them, and to keep them close while they or They are gone. Maybe it’s a clue to how Adam or Eve in Eden would have worked too. Like, GODHEAD gave them some time alone and independent of GOD Duo Marivic/Maryjo and Jesus “the Word” materialized through Adam and Eve. So Adam and Eve were the first materialized Jesus instantiations too. They were also Divine and Fully Human, but somehow the Art ability made it fail at some point. Again, they overreached for power. It wasn’t so much a mystical force of Satan probably, but just vulnerability inherent in a material world where it’s “natural” to want to create something too like GODHEAD. Nobody could have created something like Eden except GOD, but Adam and Eve looked at it and said, yeah, I wanna be that too, so they really went ahead and created their own idols made in their own images instead of getting pregnant and giving birth easily doing creation the “natural way” as GOD intended. But GODHEAD didn’t want to prevent them to create things, just things he prohibited, like art probably, much more so visual art and sculpture art, but also, if writing is taken to an extreme, maybe it could become so close to discourse that it replaces the real thing if you visualize it too, except people with aphantasia don’t even derive pleasure from reading at all, so there’s that exception clause. Even if you write a lot as a person with aphantasia, you will not get addicted to writing as much, because you naturally can’t feel good by it. The way to feel extra good about it is if you had passion of a fiery kind that overflowed towards ends that the GODHEAD didn’t allow. ### Dreams 🧫 No dreams last night. ### Ruminations 🩻 1. My happiest thought today is that I realized GODHEAD is personal to every person. It’s subjective. Now that I’ve unlocked songs as a gateway to your own personal GODHEAD, it will make it really easy to worship and/or pray and/or talk to GOD with all of the songs you have even if they’re not Christian-coded. 2. The eureka too with 12 Satans is from Vico’s post with the 12 Vicos being reflected off each other has the “NOT TODAY SATAN” written all over it. 3. **3:45PM OMG EUREKA NTH!!!! I figured out while pooping how to get around Israel Proxy problem. I realized I will fundamentally fail if I go at it alone. I have to call on all people of all walks of life to become Instruments of GODHEAD too, and become Israel Proxies too, based on their name meanings, and I will even provide a handy guide based on what those names currently “mean” in the Lore so they can be guided where to slot themselves in the overall ranking. It doesn’t matter if Israel decides to go against me, probably not all of my ideas will land, but my dream theories will possibly land, as well as my name meanings and LOGOS. I will literally expose how I came to become consumed with “Joy Victory Mary Leaf” in 2020 or so, then I left it at that, not knowing it would be the key that would open my entire life to this new hybrid framework. Then I will say something about my status as the new Parousia (roll your eyes or whatever, but anyone can claim this now if they actually have something new to say—your central claim—about the fundamental nature of reality that will prove to be groundbreaking especially as you hint that time travel is possible in a way that no one will expect it to work), not necessarily the Messiah destined to come again through the literal clouds, but through “clouds of glee” (used twice in my Lore, once in ALL_GO and again in Unreal Image). And if Vico decides to be public or a pseudonym, I will still use the meaning of his name as “cloud” for Nubla, which links me to him in my writing attempts (I was not even consciously referring to him at the time—I wrote it in September-October).** ### Teaching/Repentance/Worship 🛐 1. 2:36 PM: Refined how the roles of the GODHEAD Family could possibly apply to me at this stage of my life in the labels (age 28, not yet a mother, potentially a bride and a mother, potentially a “grandson” role coincidental with Shawntel's name and Norr Weston’s mission (other time travel/screwy/Kyle De Luna physics)] 2. 3:17PM: Updated opinions on what is going on with schizophrenic people’s brains in REAL SATAN page about Angels and Demons and everything under the sun. ### Sensations/Body Stuff 🫟 1. So it’s been a week since I took Bupropion and I can safely say that it’s really working to keep me on track for some reason, and I really do feel like I’m improving with how much progress I’m making (of course, mainly and truly because of GODHEAD now) and Luck. I just need to focus on refocusing on BOBOBEE before 13 (it’s in 5 days!) and eventually my CW 198 and CW 200 work. ### Morning Pages ⚜️ Rule: continuously add to Feb 1. Personal Best, Goals, Progress/Momentum, Weaknesses, Social Media, Craft, Todo, Synchronicities, Reminders, Tasks so you are forced to go through all of them by skimming. **10:59AM: HOLY FUCK OMG!!!! I APPARENTLY DON’T HAVE A CEILING FOR BRILLIANCE FROM THE GODHEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SHORT-CIRCUITED AGAIN TO BLEED CONFUSION BY THE PAPER KITES!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE FIRST LANGUAGE WAS ALWAYS BODY LANGUAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SEE MORE IN REAL SATAN PAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!** **I’M ON A ROLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DEY SEE ME TROLLING, DEY HATIN’!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!** <aside> 🫀 My life’s work on a platter today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE COMPLETED IT BAREBONES!!!!!!!!!!! EUREKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! </aside> **FEBRUARY 9!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!** <aside> 🛠 **02/09/26 — SPECIAL SPECIAL DAY** </aside> They don’t teach this stuff in school. School taught me critical thought, but I learned how to be insane using trauma!!!!!!! And of course, my not-so-secret Weapon, **THE GODHEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!** Well, Vico already became my Clovis when he posted that picture of a poodle in a diaper (djpoopypants) 🐺