### Hermeneutics/Semiotics/Psychophysics/Puso’y Dos Tres ⛰️ FEB. 8 IS A VERY SPECIAL DAY. I figured out the barebones framework of the GODHEAD First Family finally to rein them in together to integrate Satan into it, resonating with the Wolf Path, to end predation and violence and coexist peacefully with ALL creatures, with a remaining irredeemable few as the True Satan and True Hell (their Final Destination, ba dum tss). I still landed here despite not understanding any of my dreams last night. See more in GOD First Family, The Eyedea: that I am Divine too? My heart is beating so fast not because of anxiety but I’m actually giddy and excited these ideas could really become “whole” or all-around applicable. I want to make the GODHEAD customizable to other people’s conceptualizations but I don’t know how open it could become to become universal in a sense. Like a template. ### Dreams 🧫 My dreams are ramping up in complexity and I cannot recall them. F. 11:53PM: I remember my dream now more clearly. It was a dream about Angelo again, about how I found many more synchronicities I discovered. This is just GODHEAD probably reassuring me after I really revisited my notebook for the Holy Spirit theories again today, finding that they haven’t lost context but they’re awfully not that complex as I thought. It was just funny to me because I really had to reference some penises again I found in the Lore. ### Ruminations 🩻 1. I’d be so happy if people drew my 3-2-1-2-3 as a satellite. 2. There has to be a good reason why The Willowlands’ songs are inspired by grief/bereavement and miscarriage. Also, The Willowlands is a “place-name.” Is this why Vico posted the map on his story? 3. The playlist name Puso’y Dos Tres is nth relevant again because it’s Third Way. First was Thesis, then Antithesis, then Synthesis. YAY!!!! 4. OMG MY HUNCHES ARE POSSIBLY 80% RIGHT TOO ABOUT THE HOLY SPIRIT’S RELATION TO EGG AND SPERM!!!!!! I’m reading about eggs and sperms and fertilization today. It’s so interesting, especially “Cryptic Female Choice” by eggs and how the egg actually chooses sperm and rejects others. Just like women and men in real life. It is sexual dynamics playing out inside the body in miniature!!!!! This is so cool!!!!! Even about rape too! Or the possibility of rape: 1. **Co-evolution of Sexual Conflict:** The different selective pressures on eggs (to prevent improper fertilization) and sperm (to force fertilization) lead to rapid evolution in reproductive genes, where the egg may change to select better sperm, and sperm evolve to match that change. 2. It just proves that rape is wrong and so evil for sperm to do!!! And the female always chooses. This finding was only released in 2020, a full 6 years before I could discover my role in the entire thing. 1. **14** For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father’s family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position **for such a time as this**?” 1. **For such a time as this, indeed.** 2. Why on Earth would GODHEAD pick a female incel to be the implied_author purveyor!!! This is why!!!!!!! It was to solve the Real Problem of not only Beauty and Grace, but also to help contribute to the ideas behind Female Sexual Cryptic Choice and Grace and Luck related to this area. 1. This is also why North West appeared to me first, I think. North West is Janis Ian singing “At 17” being a lonely female incel on March 1, 1975. “Dream about me” from “Anthems For a Seventeen Year-Old Girl” is now coincidentally synchronous with this song too. Even the album name “Between the Lines.” 2. **HOLY SHIT. JANIS MEANS GOD IS GRACIOUS TOO!!!!!** 1. The name Janis is primarily of Hebrew origin, meaning **"[God is gracious](https://www.google.com/search?q=God+is+gracious&sca_esv=cf1eceaa70d19ffa&sxsrf=ANbL-n633P3bDNGYaaVzFjCkerqnxYzZBw%3A1770524484783&ei=RA-IaaHCL7KXvr0Pxp2AkQ8&biw=1274&bih=776&ved=2ahUKEwiw4uPohcmSAxXHna8BHaEGDygQgK4QegQIARAC&uact=5&oq=janis+name+meaning&gs_lp=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&sclient=gws-wiz-serp&mstk=AUtExfBjFpzxb5mvvUsh_oYfb5cIrDxFFfDWLrFyEosSalkxnpm17EanJxh_XklnzKxf-YuU75mRasrTGlKNdy6jB7q5HqGnAO2AE80WeGZbQUJ51XC_Hf39Js0Afe2cqQJAYOu4t5PoXRCA-r36UYtrQsMfBh5LjwTlrvNOOrA_yrZMhOFAu7HoQ02ip8Bu1JC3Ao2KMyOE4IbZPAJsSCxIf5myXzA8ykQ6wVst1IQvwg5oOh_JYy0GHSzcf1LArBoGihH3sCL4zi8t_VkBVBPUzwnV&csui=3)" or "[gift from God](https://www.google.com/search?q=gift+from+God&sca_esv=cf1eceaa70d19ffa&sxsrf=ANbL-n633P3bDNGYaaVzFjCkerqnxYzZBw%3A1770524484783&ei=RA-IaaHCL7KXvr0Pxp2AkQ8&biw=1274&bih=776&ved=2ahUKEwiw4uPohcmSAxXHna8BHaEGDygQgK4QegQIARAD&uact=5&oq=janis+name+meaning&gs_lp=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&sclient=gws-wiz-serp&mstk=AUtExfBjFpzxb5mvvUsh_oYfb5cIrDxFFfDWLrFyEosSalkxnpm17EanJxh_XklnzKxf-YuU75mRasrTGlKNdy6jB7q5HqGnAO2AE80WeGZbQUJ51XC_Hf39Js0Afe2cqQJAYOu4t5PoXRCA-r36UYtrQsMfBh5LjwTlrvNOOrA_yrZMhOFAu7HoQ02ip8Bu1JC3Ao2KMyOE4IbZPAJsSCxIf5myXzA8ykQ6wVst1IQvwg5oOh_JYy0GHSzcf1LArBoGihH3sCL4zi8t_VkBVBPUzwnV&csui=3)"**. It is a feminine variant of the name Jane or John, derived from the Hebrew name _Yochanan_. It is also used as a masculine name in Latvian (spelled Jānis). 3. **AND HOLY FUCK!!!!! IAN IS A VARIATION OF GOD IS GRACIOUS TOO!!! JOHN JOHN OR GRACE GRACE.** 1. "Ian" is **primarily a Scottish Gaelic first name, a variant of "John" meaning "God is gracious," but it can function as a surname of Scottish origin**. As a suffix, "-ian" or "-yan" commonly signifies Armenian descent, meaning "son of". It also appears as a variant of Chinese surnames like Yan or Yin. 4. Possible clues to this cosa nostra in my 17-year-old self’s ramblings. Will find it in a bit. 5. It’s so narratively beautiful that the person they chose to write about and develop the ideas behind beauty and grace and conception/female cryptic choice is me. It’s DIVINE JUSTICE. The person with the least choice in the matter is me, especially in the past. I had no choice but to crave beauty because I was molested and ugliness disgusts me on a primal level I cannot explain, probably just like GODHEAD. I have no choice either in the mating process, no suitors to pick from, but other women, plain women, beautiful women, average women, seem to have suitors of their own they could choose from. It’s because my standards are so high for my social standing and current material assets. But GODHEAD chose me anyway to write about it probably because ugliness also disgusts them on a primal level—after all, they did create the concept of Beauty too. I am an Egg or Sophia with no sperms I like, and the collection of sperm that I was “given” by an ejaculation (the cause of Creation) did not please me enough or I didn’t please them enough, so it never happened for me. I suppose the incel problem for the female ones is worse in this way, because women by their biological nature are practically forced to be the choosers, and what would happen if you have literally no interest in all the other sperms available to you? It means you will never go past being fucked only and achieve pregnancy, ergo, no creation of new life, which is what GODHEAD is trying to model in my brain trying to see if creating humans was really the right thing to do or not, or to find a solution in my brain to solve this problem too in the process. 6. It’s just fitting indeed that my goal to write Angel_GO is about Aella, the person who stands to benefit the most from her Cryptic Female Choice, since she has a lot of suitors and men to pick from because she is polyamorous. 7. It’s all falling into place, and I am so floored by everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2. A groundbreaking study published in **June 2020** in the journal _Proceedings of the Royal Society B_ revealed that human eggs actively choose sperm by releasing chemical signals (chemoattractants) to attract specific sperm, rather than passively accepting the fastest one. This research showed that eggs can prefer sperm from certain men over others, regardless of the partner. 5. Faint suspicion that GODHEAD really recruited me to be a Member of the “Clean-up Crew,” you know, to fix his other creations with my time travel ideas? Maybe, just a hunch, for when I eventually die and become glorified in Heaven. ### Random(x) 🕳️ 1. So the music in 3 Body Problem when Saul Durand was called up to the stage to be introduced as a Wallfacer was eerily like Brother & Sister by Colin Stetson!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2. Vico’s recent post with the “paper+tissue(?)” from the AI rendition of "what does AI think you look like" with the multiverse Vicos reminded me of “bleed out” from The Willowlands’ song and also, that I should look at the books in Interstellar. I am already on it. I guess I have Flatland (I really mentioned this like a day ago, so WOW). I am raring to read Diana Gabaldon and Gravity’s Rainbow. Maybe I’ll really understand them now. 1. Chaotic good(?)/neutral for making people think he’s a horny bastard LMAO.