### Hermeneutics/Semiotics/Psychophysics/Puso’y Dos Tres ⛰️ 1. **YA’LL WON’T BELIEVE THIS. ACTUALLY YOU WILL. NESSA BARRETT of “High on Heaven” perfection = VANESSA (”pure” “holy) + BARRETT. Our Bigo Live helper’s name was Vanessa Something. I forgot her last name. This is Stella Undécima’s #1 hitmaker song. Either her last name starts with D or P.** 1. 7:28PM: It could easily be either D or P… 2. Edit: 2/3/26 12:13PM: you know, casually deciding to learn Hiligaynon for the sing-song quality of their voices and words and to make the motto in BOBOBEE triply effective. Let’s see, English, Filipino or Bisaya, German, French, Hiligaynon, Latin, (I want to add Chinese too just because it was a childhood dream, the gibberish). 3. 4:40PM: I believe we need to unite with Arabs/Black people now. Fusion = Two (Three) Is Better Than One. Arabs have the colors, we have the literal “lover of horses,” Black people have the Title of the 1st communication link with the GODHEAD flowing in my “white” brain in a Filipino-Chinese body (maybe in a long while?). ### Things to ask AI/Or not 📎 2:50AM: How to complete a novel and a short story in 3 weeks without tapping into you? 3:20AM: How much brain damage sustained in obstructed labor? (supposed to be born on October 7, born instead on October 9…) 4:33AM: How to accurately measure my clitoris? 8:48PM: What is the fastest language by amount of the combination of meaning and content and form that is “fast” to say and still coherent and audible? ### Teaching/Repentance/Worship 🛐 This is the Annual Planner I use by @thinklikeagirlboss (At 10:13 you can see the habit tracker fully). [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GjBHLpmOu2U](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GjBHLpmOu2U) ### Sensations/Body Stuff 🫟 1. 2:51AM: I took Glycine 5 minutes ago. I tried. At least I was able to read some of Mockingjay. ### Morning Pages ⚜️ Obligatory _HOLY G!OTEN TAG I WAS A DAY EARLY._ Discovered “emo girl” by Willow and mgk released February 4, 2022. I was obsessed with mgk for a while (receipts in Unreal Image original playlist up on my Spotify). 02/04/22= One 4, two 0s, and three 2s. **402**? My high school math subject vague memory? HIGH SCHOOL. ANITA LOVE LIKE SABBY SO I WOULD HAVE BEEN SAVED. **Tagalog = taga-ilog. Bisaya = native = A native = Anita if you squint your mouth again.** The term Hiligaynon is derived from the root word [_**ilig**_](https://www.google.com/search?q=ilig&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&mstk=AUtExfAw8ZOpnFTPOMXI6QDLVwl-5-suTNTYt6UwMZBC_XwlYdj1InReQ7xjsq8MCSJaJoYdJiwRqZrzLyTtfshZfGpeG5SuxIdti3SgEVD9TYdMb-QGoNqYr6XdZGlI3AIbw1SrUnESVIenhNH3u1MzOL4qJdMUaERwQnD43ZIZVt94Uxo&csui=3&ved=2ahUKEwiz1JGQ97ySAxUym68BHdobAGcQgK4QegQIARAB), which means **"to flow" or "to go downstream"**. It stems from Spanish terms like _Yliguenes_, which referred to coastal-dwelling people, or _Iligan_/_Iliganon_, signifying "people of the river" or "people of the coast" in Panay, [**Philippines**](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hiligaynon_people). - **Core Meaning:** The root _ilig_ signifies a flowing river in Iloilo, connecting the people to the river-oriented culture of early Panay. **ERGO: A native | taga-ilog | goes downstream. Going South. We get a sunrise though, don’t worry. Downstream effects? Research what the differences are.** # NOSE IS THE KEY = GNOSIS THE KEY [Chorus: J. Cole, J. Cole & Amber Coffman] And she knows, she knows And I know she knows, and I know she knows And deep down, she knows, she knows And I know she knows, and I know she knows Well, alright, oh, I, oh, I, I, I I can't be what you want from me, well, alright Oh, I, oh, I, I, I I can't be what you want from me, well, alright # GODHEAD If YA’LL can hear me right now (my typing must be sending electrospooky waves in the pleroma), I wish, hope, and want to know if there are truly two Main Satan figures that are related to superfecundation. This seems like the most obvious answer, yet I am not sure. There are so many pairs to rank on Earth right now, who knows where I or Vico really stand. Or if we stand a chance at all to defeat them. I haven’t really slept at all since last night. It’s 5:06PM and I’m trying to get through an online stream of Deathly Hallows Part 2. I watched parts of Half-Blood Prince earlier. There was a conspicuous “12” crossed out in the Potions book by Snape, to be replaced by “3.” Interesting coincidence. And also, King’s Cross Station, the “in-between” holding area, with trains (my DID-related trains theory about my life and the drivers/helpers). I still cannot remember anything. Only that I really did experience that. It wasn’t a glitch of reality. It really happened. I felt a literal presence of a Person/person and not just an object or stand or furniture. Yet I cannot throw out false accusations. It’s such a long time ago, but I know it doesn’t excuse what they (possibly) did aside from the certain ones like the female molester who really touched me down there and the other helpers influencing my formative vocabulary sources and joy. Maybe it’s a blessing I don’t remember where I learned to grab people’s nether regions, specifically their penises. How did I intuit that boys and girls have the same parts? Nobody talked to me about private parts, or at least I don’t remember anything. I really don’t remember a helper talking to me specifically about associating “oten” with “private parts” that are “funny” to touch and violate. I suppose I myself associated it with joy because it felt physically ticklish and nice. It makes me violently ill to think about. I cannot help what happened to me. I think I just got an Answer. It’s in my playlist. “It depends on how you look at it, what you measure, what you emphasize, what you prioritize, what you feel in your heart is true.” In that case, my recent additions (6 of them), not including “Mine” in the count when I first added them, are actually relevant. I will need to research more in depth about what I “meant” with that Design, surely it wasn’t ALL me. I didn’t even notice the colors being “abundance” (orange for Turning Red and Tame Impala) and “under” (blue for Tenet), never mind how they are complementary colors, eerily so. I really didn’t notice. I was looking only at Ludwig Göransson’s name and I thought, wow, I should put him “outside” the Tame Impala songs (2 songs now). No reason, no rhyme. I get blind spots sometimes, I suppose that’s a weakness GODHEAD is using for good. I hyperfocus on small detail (I’m autistic too), not the whole thing (but sometimes I am forced to focus on the whole thing). I really am “playing blind” and I am the last person to notice if people don’t bring it up. I know the message in BOBOBEE is that “we’ll all be here forever,” but please do not misunderstand this to mean everybody will be happy. Hell exists. If GODHEAD could punish humans—mere humans, more limited than Angels and Fallen Ones—then of course, They’re going to have vengeance and/or justice—the exacting kind—to make the Bad Guys pay for all the suffering they helped cause. My molester is proof. She visited me in my sleep at least twice, that I can recall. She used my language of forgiveness in a creepy way that I was coerced to concede that it was real and that she was very desperate for my forgiveness. There is Ultimate Justice, but I believe there is a Fundamental Righteousness too. You cannot _not_ measure yourself against it. I truly believe _some_ people ought not to wear sexy clothes so they stay in their privileged lane, but when I see a use case or example that is the exception, I allow it into my playlist, for example, High On Heaven by Nessa Barrett. I suppose this is how GODHEAD works too. It really is subjective and based on luck. I don’t feel attracted to them, for one, those people on my album covers currently, but maybe some people find them sexy or titillating. I wouldn’t know, and at the moment, my need to include the song is greater than my need to “not be a stumbling block” to fellow Christians trying to stay righteous. I am tapping into other people’s grace thresholds when I do that. I hope they can handle it. I suppose my patience is also high for some things now. I give grace too, or I try to. Also, one of the middle 2 songs by Tame Impala in my playlist set of 6 is “1 truth and 1 lie,” hopefully. That was probably half-conscious on my part. Not completely conscious of it, but plausibly conscious of the logic. — I haven’t started on my critical essay since January 3, which I was reminded of today after a Vico post that had the wrong date exactly a month prior. Shame. — GET USED TO THE GRIND (YOU DO LOVE GRINDING, DON’T YOU?). HEH.