Note 7/8/26: I no longer think of Kate Tumala as a Satan-type. Not a lot of humans are truly Satanic, but just wounded in the wrong ways too. --- ### Dreams 🧫 Time travel (joke) but I felt like I was transported to a high school headspace all over again. 1. Green stain on Issa Corrales’s face—I was asked whether her face was okay, did not answer at first, pretended not to see it, then I feigned looking closer and then pointed it out. 1. Isabella is a feminine name of Hebrew, Spanish, and Italian origin, meaning **"pledged to God" or "God is my oath"**. Derived from the Hebrew name _Elisheba_ (Elizabeth), it is a classic, royal name with high, long-lasting popularity in the US, often associated with the, Twilight character Bella Swan. 2. Loreen is a primarily feminine name of Latin origin, meaning **"[laurel](https://www.google.com/search?q=laurel&biw=1274&bih=776&sca_esv=206cd4dd954885db&sxsrf=ANbL-n5cdUZPZ9MndVtmXMYWHcI4Bd0jCA%3A1772011706488&ei=usCeaYjGHcKWvr0PrLiLyAc&ved=2ahUKEwjQ256NqvSSAxX0hq8BHWEtAe0QgK4QegQIARAC&uact=5&oq=loreen+name+meaning&gs_lp=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&sclient=gws-wiz-serp)" or "[laurel tree](https://www.google.com/search?q=laurel+tree&biw=1274&bih=776&sca_esv=206cd4dd954885db&sxsrf=ANbL-n5cdUZPZ9MndVtmXMYWHcI4Bd0jCA%3A1772011706488&ei=usCeaYjGHcKWvr0PrLiLyAc&ved=2ahUKEwjQ256NqvSSAxX0hq8BHWEtAe0QgK4QegQIARAD&uact=5&oq=loreen+name+meaning&gs_lp=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&sclient=gws-wiz-serp)"**. Derived from _laurus_ or _laurea_, it symbolizes victory, honor, and triumph, rooted in the ancient Roman tradition of crowning victors with laurel wreaths. It is a variant of [Laura](https://www.google.com/search?q=Laura&biw=1274&bih=776&sca_esv=206cd4dd954885db&sxsrf=ANbL-n5cdUZPZ9MndVtmXMYWHcI4Bd0jCA%3A1772011706488&ei=usCeaYjGHcKWvr0PrLiLyAc&ved=2ahUKEwjQ256NqvSSAxX0hq8BHWEtAe0QgK4QegQIARAE&uact=5&oq=loreen+name+meaning&gs_lp=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&sclient=gws-wiz-serp) or [Lauren](https://www.google.com/search?q=Lauren&biw=1274&bih=776&sca_esv=206cd4dd954885db&sxsrf=ANbL-n5cdUZPZ9MndVtmXMYWHcI4Bd0jCA%3A1772011706488&ei=usCeaYjGHcKWvr0PrLiLyAc&ved=2ahUKEwjQ256NqvSSAxX0hq8BHWEtAe0QgK4QegQIARAF&uact=5&oq=loreen+name+meaning&gs_lp=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&sclient=gws-wiz-serp) with a vintage, lyrical feel. 3. Biñan, a city in Laguna, Philippines, is traditionally believed to derive its name from "**Binyagan**," a Tagalog word meaning **"baptismal place" or "place for baptized Christians"**. This name originates from the early Spanish colonial period, where missionaries baptized native residents, according to local [**historical accounts**](https://experiencebinan.com/about-binan/binans-beginnings/). 4. Second: Mixed with “Viña” (Vineyard) to form Viñan 1. It could be a blend of: 1. Place name (Biñan) 2. Spanish word (viña/vine) 2. “True vine” from Risa Hontiveros name a few days ago i.e. Isabella is a Jesus/Daughter-type for real. So she is really Norr Weston instantiated too. 5. The surname Corrales is of Spanish origin, derived from the plural of "corral," meaning **"enclosures," "yards," or "pens"**. It originated as a topographic name for someone who lived near livestock pens or an occupational name for someone who managed them. The name is common in Spain and Latin America. 1. Interesting synchronicity from Bettina Rayos del Sol the other day. That it really penetrated my mind to the point it filched a similar name from the ether. 2. Face = Isabella as Norr Weston (rich black woman) because Isabella is rich. Her name somehow relates to Liza (beautiful woman in my Lore) so Esther too. 3. Act = Abby as Annie/Clarita (sensitive to beauty/looks issue re: incels) [priority is the human’s lore in relation to God who can relate] 4. Expressor = Peeta (”Turning Page” song connected to Bella Swan), Marivic (”Turning Page song” connected to Bella Swan again) singing to Maryjo. The lore in the “Turning Page” song itself is poignant—”with a whisper, we will tame the vicious seas, like a feather, bringing kingdoms to their knees.” It’s about being tactful about pointing out flaws/mistakes/errors. 5. Holy Spirit relation: so belatedly, as if one cue, on February 25, I found out I’m the Human Instantiation of the Holy Spirit too. I’m Celia Frank, HOLY SHIT. Isabella’s middle name is “baptism”-related too like Angelo Gabriel Bautista Llamas. I had a separate dream where her sister Monique whose name meanings are the following: 1. Monique is a predominantly French feminine name derived from the Latin _Monica_ or _Monnica_, directly translating to **"advisor," "counselor,"** or **"one who advises"**. It is often associated with wisdom, elegance, and, due to its Greek roots (_monos_), "unique" or "solitary". The name gained historical prominence through Saint Monica. = **THE HOLY SPIRIT AS THE COUNSELOR. AND SHE ALSO HAS BAPTIST (Viñan) IN HER NAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!** 1. The Holy Spirit acts as the "Counselor" (or Helper/Advocate, from the Greek [_Parakletos_](https://www.google.com/search?q=Parakletos&biw=1274&bih=776&sca_esv=206cd4dd954885db&sxsrf=ANbL-n4I4-Vty2zI2Iv0IQnn2eAhcnQH-w%3A1772011987395&ei=08Gead7nF4advr0PhbWgwA0&ved=2ahUKEwj_-J6Wq_SSAxUHbPUHHfipHAoQgK4QegQIARAB&uact=5&oq=holy+spirit+as+the+counselor&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiHGhvbHkgc3Bpcml0IGFzIHRoZSBjb3Vuc2Vsb3IyBRAAGIAEMgYQABgWGB4yBhAAGBYYHjIGEAAYFhgeMgYQABgWGB4yBhAAGBYYHjIGEAAYFhgeMgYQABgWGB4yBhAAGBYYHjIGEAAYFhgeSLGQAVCNcViTjwFwB3gBkAEAmAHgAaABnimqAQYwLjIwLji4AQPIAQD4AQGYAiOgArAqwgIKEAAYsAMY1gQYR8ICDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigXCAgoQIxiABBgnGIoFwgIKEAAYgAQYQxiKBcICDhAAGIAEGLEDGIMBGIoFwgILEAAYgAQYsQMYgwHCAgUQLhiABMICEBAAGIAEGLEDGEMYgwEYigXCAg0QABiABBixAxhDGIoFwgIKEAAYgAQYFBiHAsICCBAAGIAEGLEDwgILEAAYgAQYkQIYigXCAhAQLhiABBhDGMcBGIoFGK8BwgIEECMYJ8ICCBAuGIAEGLEDwgILEC4YgAQYxwEYrwHCAhoQLhiABBjHARivARiXBRjcBBjeBBjgBNgBAZgDAIgGAZAGCroGBggBEAEYFJIHBjcuMjAuOKAH-OsBsgcGMC4yMC44uAeXKsIHBzAuMTQuMjHIB2-ACAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp&mstk=AUtExfBxp8QxYaI8SNAm4AQ9R_FpUJ1T4_L8_Bn_blFiDUz0gmj-YifiXK_p0bjYjBs-6IMKu1RoH7Su5G0e2NFtGSEWMQIcOI4OLd1yRUEn42LsJuW0WDPW7pFUewYvYx12JZdY9LK_hLKREiF7dLuC72KaM-FTHkTkUSzlkEGqyzjq-WNwJu31-u1co0xsobmpMHhc0ovOcvRK1QgJmr7IAsD8odlGw0DM2iKL_yTq6MgjRMzqC0aWcHbM_FOIbXv6JEVGCaNwlUgmt_GJXjbnx2XN&csui=3)) **promised by Jesus to guide, teach, comfort, and empower believers, living within them to provide wisdom, conviction, and intimate companionship**. As a constant spiritual presence, He helps in weaknesses, intercedes in prayer, and reveals God's truth. 2. My dream about her is about an alternate universe where she is my sister, and I had to take care of my little sister, Amber, while she was sleeping around with this guy in a hotel room. I felt really bad because I had the feeling that we had no parents, and she was dicking around with some guy while I had to watch my sister. Anyway, this just makes me think that in the dream, she is the Divine Feminine Choice Proxy, “having sex” with a sperm, while I get to reap the consequences of taking care of my disabled sister. While in reality, I am acting as my own Holy Spirit because I had to create it—the entire concept—from scratch and find out my roles through Angelo Gabriel Bautista Llamas and Shawntel Nieto. It’s because I wasn’t gifted the Holy Spirit, because I am the Holy Spirit human instantiation. The rest of the Christians in all of history had a Proxy Holy Spirit that didn’t exist yet as a human, but only unexpressed yet still eternal. I had to be born to realize that identity too. I’m being a Holy Spirit Divine Feminine Choice Proxy because I am a naked eye who can see all the sperms around me, and it terrorizes me, but somehow I have to match people to each other too like what I’m doing in here, selecting partners for them, so I’m living that out in a small way already. I also really am living out the “convict people of their sins” in a violent way too, in 2018, in 2022, and somehow, with my parents recently, because I cannot stand contradictions and hypocrisy. So now I’m really adding my own name under Celia Frank. On People Power Day too! 2. Kate the menacing flirt at the bank + me in loose/tight jeans trying to hide—she was sitting in this really weird position where her leg was stretched out on the chair’s arms and her foot with nail polish stood out to me. I was wearing a kind of cover/long skirt over my tight jeans and attempted to hide my legs. 1. Touching an idiot bully guy’s disgusting foot at the bank in anger at him loudly insulting me + scarred feet insult 2. Then this guy sits beside me trying to hide and notices my feet that has scars—looked kind of surgical or just regular cuts—and he lets his inner monologue out about my feet being disgusting. Then I chewed him out and hurt his foot by squeezing it—his foot was apparently on his lap. This is a random guy I don’t know. 3. How do I know this dream is somehow about psychology and antipsychotics? I am getting the meaning that her side—psychiatry—is more appealing to society, and that my side—anti-psychiatry when it comes to schizophrenia and bipolar—is very unappealing and might even get me heckled. So this is somehow about Stella too, for mental illness. How do I fight for people like her/others like her when I’m running against “incels” who have every reason to hate anti-psychiatry too? They are trolls who have no empathy for schizophrenic people, when schizophrenic people are so unappealing and violent in their minds, too alien and unfathomable to the general public to even conceive of. 1. Face = Kate as Esther (beautiful woman); her names are obviously also pointing at Esther. 1. The name [**Rajji**](https://www.google.com/search?q=Rajji&sca_esv=206cd4dd954885db&sxsrf=ANbL-n5db6Rg2sZA5PJUazIhLkan5XCG9Q%3A1772011568311&ei=MMCeaffaErK1vr0Pi8ymiQg&biw=1274&bih=776&ved=2ahUKEwj_zITHqfSSAxWZdfUHHeqcJqIQgK4QegQIARAB&uact=5&oq=rajji+name+meaning&gs_lp=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&sclient=gws-wiz-serp) is primarily a diminutive or familiar nickname derived from the Sanskrit root "_Raj_," meaning **"king," "rule," or "royalty"**. It signifies leadership, power, and noble qualities. It is often used as a term of endearment in India, closely associated with names like Raj, Raja, Rajan, or Rani. 2. Kate is a feminine name of Greek and English origin, commonly meaning **"pure"** or **"clear"**. It originated as a diminutive of Katherine (derived from the Greek _katharos_) and has been a popular, classic name since the Middle Ages. It is often associated with intelligence, beauty, and strength. 3. The name Malacon has several distinct origins depending on context: it is a variant of the Spanish surname _Malagon_ (often linked to Mediterranean/Arabic roots meaning **"angel" or nobility**), a geological term for a brown altered [zircon](https://www.google.com/search?q=zircon&biw=1274&bih=776&sca_esv=206cd4dd954885db&sxsrf=ANbL-n5-p-bu_Yd4B61qIBc7ZS7AaqV4CA%3A1772011601649&ei=UcCeaYCnJ967vr0P5eL_iAk&ved=2ahUKEwjF1IDUqfSSAxVggq8BHSWzDTAQgK4QegQIARAC&uact=5&oq=malacon+name+meaning&gs_lp=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&sclient=gws-wiz-serp), or a variation of the Scottish name Malcolm. It also shares roots with the Spanish [_malecón_](https://www.google.com/search?q=malec%C3%B3n&biw=1274&bih=776&sca_esv=206cd4dd954885db&sxsrf=ANbL-n5-p-bu_Yd4B61qIBc7ZS7AaqV4CA%3A1772011601649&ei=UcCeaYCnJ967vr0P5eL_iAk&ved=2ahUKEwjF1IDUqfSSAxVggq8BHSWzDTAQgK4QegQIARAD&uact=5&oq=malacon+name+meaning&gs_lp=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&sclient=gws-wiz-serp) (waterfront). 4. The name **Tumala** has multiple, distinct origins and meanings depending on the cultural context. It often appears as a surname rooted in the Philippines (signifying connections to local, indigenous, or natural, possibly related to, or variations of, [**Tumalad**](https://lastnames.myheritage.com/last-name/tumalad)) or as a [**Chinook Wawa**](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tumala_Mountain) word for **"tomorrow" or "afterlife"**. 5. Somehow, her names make me think she’s important too. Rajjirine (portmanteau of Rajji+Catherine = Rajjirine) Kate Malacon Tumala. I don’t know what yet. Maybe she’s a Holy Spirit too. Maybe she’s Norr Weston too. Maybe she’s an archangel. Maybe she’s a demon/Fallen Angel/Satan-type. So now, I’m adding her to Satan page just because she was extra mean to me because of my natural grace and she gave me hope that she would apologize to me, but never did, even after I apologized to her first (can you imagine? I felt so bad because of my private sin towards her that started really early since grade school, which I didn’t even have to apologize for because I never expressed any of it in real life; but it really felt like she relished my subconscious actions at basically being annoyed in high school that she looked more like Katniss with her thick braid than I did). She may just be the King of the Underworld. At least, her spirit, her Patterns, and not her human instantiation. 6. What a synchronicity! I never considered the fact that Satan-types could be talking to me too!!!!!!!!!!!!! I now need to update my Satan page to develop it so that I get more intel on how to read my dreams more accurately for Satan Messages and Meanings. Seems like this dream really is from a Satan-type anyway. 2. Act = Abby as Norr Weston (envy) 3. Expressor = Stella (”let it all bleed out”—since I assume Kate has never bled out in her diary—if she has any—about her feelings about her own beauty). 3. Nodame Cantabile + Chiaki elevator dream with mix of Your Name train 1. I have no idea why but there were these Nodame Cantabile clones in one elevator and another half dozen Chiaki clones in another, then the vibe was just that of the other anime, “Your Name.” 2. Name meanings: - **Noda (野田):** The surname, combining "field" (野 - _no_) and "rice paddy" (田 - _da_). - The only link to events yesterday is finding out Elizabeth von Arnim’s real name, Mary Annette Beauchamp because I googled all the historically relevant Bettinas. - Elizabeth von Arnim, born Mary Annette Beauchamp, was an English novelist. Born in Australia, she married a German aristocrat, and her earliest works are set in Germany. Her first marriage made her Countess von Arnim-Schlagenthin and her second Elizabeth Russell, Countess Russell. - The surname Beauchamp is of Norman French origin, translating to **"beautiful field" or "fair field"** from the Old French words _beau_ (handsome, fair, beautiful) and _champ_ (field). It is a locational surname, originally designating families who lived near a beautiful field,, which was brought to England after the 1066 Norman Conquest and is often associated with nobility. - I relate more to Bettina von Arnim though. - It could also relate to Ralph Mijares (Mycroft identity of Pedrito in the Godhead) - The surname Mijares is of Spanish origin, primarily functioning as a habitational name for someone from places called Mijares, particularly in Cantabria or Ávila. It is derived from _mijo_ ("millet") and _mijar_ ("millet field"), literally meaning **"millet fields"**. The name likely originated in the Middle Ages. - Is this also about Lavender Fields from Jodi Sta. Maria factoid I learned yesterday? - Face = Megumi Noda as Annie/Clarita - Act = A lot of doubles co-existing in this dream so possibly Jesus/Jes and Norr Weston - Expressor = Melancholy/nostalgia theme to me personally—reminds me of that song assigned to Jesus, “Jesus the Mexican Boy” so it’s Jesus or someone of the Godhead singing this to Jesus. Possibly Pedrito and Peeta since the singer of that song is largely male-coded to me and has the lyric “fell in love with his sister.” - **Megumi (恵):** The first name, which means "favor," "benefit," or "blessing". - Somehow related to Anita. I think Noda is also related to Anita in that her 1/3 dilution is Australian professor/(Ma’am Marby). - What about Anita is this dream saying to me? - All right. Just with the meaningful signifiers I am surfacing, it seems like it is telling me to prioritize near-miss characters like Pedrito (Ralph), fields (Beauchamp who is less prominent and glamorous than Bettina von Arnim) and Anita (Philippines?/Gaza?/Palestine?/Sydney?). I know firsthand how devastating it is to come in second place. If Sydney was even aware of what I am attempting, or if Ralph, if ever he is also aware of me, is ever regretful of not pursuing me because he feels he missed out on the experience of me, they would feel really bummed out and maybe even depressed that all this abundance was granted to me—granted, I suffered a lot too, which I don’t think any of them could have survived. Most of all, it is telling me to focus more on Norr Weston and Clotilde, women in the Godhead who are not quite as graceful as Annie/Clarita and Esther and perhaps even Stella. They are runner-ups in the Godhead for a category that I cannot locate yet—maybe it was for beauty or grace of a different nature, something that made them partitioned that way to have their own unique strengths. Most of all, this is telling me to focus on myself and my situation despite already doing that (despite already being the “Main Star”). I suppose for the sake of my younger self, who really felt like they lost more than nothing, I ought to devote time to actually solving her situation, because it could very well be many other people’s situations right now. I could have never been saved by God to do this in the first place and remained stuck where I was in 2022, suffering for an indeterminate amount of time in hells of my own making. - Chiaki (written as 千秋, 千明, or 智子) is a Japanese unisex name, more commonly used for girls, with a primary meaning of "**a thousand autumns**," symbolizing longevity. It is often interpreted as "**gathered wisdom**" or "**thousand lights**" depending on the kanji used, representing intelligence and depth. - Oddly synchronous with “Milflores” (a thousand flowers) from the other day. This just makes me think that it’s Issa being a Son-type instead of a Daughter-type. Maybe she isn’t just Norr Weston, after all. - Shinichi (しんいち) is a Japanese male given name that commonly means "truth/genuine" or "new" combined with "one/first." Often interpreted as "truthful one," "first son," or "new beginning," it symbolizes integrity, righteousness, and, in pop culture, intelligence (e.g., _Detective Conan_). - The name Taki is primarily of Japanese origin, most commonly meaning **"waterfall" or "cascade" (滝), evoking nature, strength, and flowing energy**. It is used as both a given name and a surname, often representing a,Graceful or,dynamic personality. Other potential meanings include "pious" in Arabic, or "one who is wise" in Native American contexts. - Tachibana (橘 or 立花) is a Japanese surname and rare given name derived from the _Citrus tachibana_ (wild mandarin orange tree), symbolizing **longevity, good fortune, and prosperity**. Originating from a prominent noble clan during the Heian period, it is often interpreted as "wild orange" or "standing flower". - Mitsuha Miyamizu's name from [*Your Name](https://www.google.com/search?q=Your+Name&oq=mitsuha+name+meaning&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&ved=2ahUKEwiqtIynk_SSAxUos1YBHfy_A5wQgK4QegQIARAB)* (Kimi no Na wa) is written as 三葉, meaning "[**three leaves**](https://www.google.com/search?q=three+leaves&oq=mitsuha+name+meaning&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&ved=2ahUKEwiqtIynk_SSAxUos1YBHfy_A5wQgK4QegQIARAD)" (= three, = leaf/blade). It represents her place in a generation of shrine maidens (grandmother: one leaf, mother: two leaves, sister: four leaves). It also subtly references the goddess Miduhanomenokami. - The surname Miyamizu (宮水) from _Your Name_ (Kimi no Na wa) translates to **"shrine water"** or "temple water". It is composed of the kanji 宮 (miya), meaning shrine, palace, or sacred building, and 水 (mizu), meaning water. This reflects the family’s hereditary role as guardians of the Miyamizu Shrine and their duty over sacred waters in Itomori. 4. Donnabelle Lumasag stain on shirt letting her borrow my shirt with an even bigger stain 1. Her white shirt was stained with something like sweat, my green shirt looked worse but it wasn’t apparent. I offered to let her borrow my shirt. I don’t remember what happened after. 2. Names 1. The name Donnabelle is a blend of the name Donna, which has its roots in the Italian word "donna," meaning "lady" or "woman," and the French name Belle, meaning "beautiful." The combination of these elements creates a name that can be interpreted as "beautiful lady." The name Donna itself can be traced back to Latin, where it is derived from "domina," meaning "mistress" or "lady," which has been used in various forms throughout history in different cultures. The transition into English occurred through the influence of Italian and French during the Renaissance, a period marked by a revival of interest in classical languages and cultures. 2. Last name not found 3. Well, it’s a bit on the nose. Donna saw me tear up when I complained about bullies I think, and she said, “You’re not ugly.” I was hoping to hear better honestly. Donna wasn’t particularly good-looking either. She obviously had a better social standing than me, so the dream makes sense, although I don’t know what I’m supposed to get from this. That I’m willing to help people who are better off than me even if they disappoint me? I suppose I do that sometimes. 1. Or that beauty really is meaningless (no last name found). It’s just an axiom of reality. Nobody can question it. They can try to influence generations into accepting other standards, but the base will always be there, just like the ideal waist-to-hip ratio, the golden mean, the patterns, and others. 5. Going into another bigger fancier elevator(?) 1. I completely forgot this dream. It just seemed like a semi-familiar space that is fancy with orange/warm lighting. 6. Gestalt of CHK at UPD 1. No clue why I wrote this. I don’t remember this dream at all. 2. Well, it was my lavender/purple outfit that probably got brought into it. I wore that when I waited a long time to really catch a jeep at CHK to go to that park in the first place, I think, then I ended up booking a Grab anyway. …seemingly random dreams that make no sense. Will expand fully later. --- Overall interpretation: Well, I think all of my dreams from last night touched looks and beauty and tact very sharply. I don’t know if that means I should maintain what I do or become more sensitive. It certainly does reflect my character or apparent character very well. It’s a mirror and a guide. It is God reassuring me and guiding me at the same time. Thank you. ### Ruminations 🩻 1. All right. I gotta be extremely honest. None of the eurekas—yes, even the Grand ones—really felt satisfying for me. I realize God may be testing me or improving me anyhow. I am entering the headspace of a billionaire who has it too easy, and now I’m craving for that old high I used to get with piano—working really hard on something and then winning, because I know it’s my own effort. I’m starting to miss it because like billionaires probably, they feel cucked by their own processes—things just feel too easy and they feel like they’re watching their life slip by them like butter sliding off and watching people feel satisfaction from hard work—and they have a bottomless need for stimulation again, like me constantly wanting to build something of my own, perhaps learn hard mathematics. I can’t believe I have 0th World Problems now. I have too many tasks to get to and no motivation sources now because I have a fear it’s going to come too easily to me—well, it’s not “too easy” but the eurekas just don’t feel “mine” anymore. I am effortlessly doing them, coming into these eurekas, without any real effort but being an explorer and tinkerer. I somehow wish I could feel intelligent again, like I actually did something calculated to make it work (like gambling with an informed and effortful decision), because at this point, it feels beyond me and it’s _still_ not me. Not like how I felt with figuring out the permanence of the Logos because bodies die but names don’t. I somehow know too acutely that it is all Godhead and not me—but I wish I still had some autonomy and free will (even feeling that random input is important takes the fun out of it). Somehow, this is Satan working in me again. This is what got Them into trouble. They wanted Their own way, when God had the best way. God gets all the glory, I know, and I respect it. I even point it all to God by complaining about my problem currently. But I sometimes just feel like I should at least feel useful. I somehow know it’s because I’m not being paid materially for it yet. It’s going to take a really long time before that happens. If I get paid for it, I wouldn’t really care about the glory, so I’m somehow also not in that billionaire headspace yet, but only in my lane, with the intelligence and creativity/divergent thinking is all, and I live it out virtually. It just feels like I don’t own anything anymore. None of it feels mine, can you imagine? I’m looking at all of these Grand Ideas, but they are all not _of me,_ so my body asks, “What’s the point of this work if I can’t claim it as my own?” I suppose that’s the point. It is not my own, because I am Theirs. I should learn how to be content, but it’s still hard today. Not even entertainment can soothe me now. If I actually felt like I’m helping people or maybe if I was appreciated more in Real World, maybe it wouldn’t feel so empty. I just wish it was happier again. Everything gets old at some point. Goosebumps feel nice, I have to admit, when I feel the ghosts of a Grand Idea, but it dissipates once I realize it’s not me. It’s just random Luck from God. Why this need to be great? Why do I need this so bad? Is it because I feel like I will finally be respected if I have that? I realize it’s also my trauma affecting me to this day. I wouldn’t have such an emptiness and bottomless need for validation if people didn’t blackhole me into nothingness by disrespecting everything about me that I couldn’t do anything about. Whose approval am I really seeking? Is it God, or humans? If I get God’s approval, I am content, supposedly, and yet somehow I cannot experience the fullness of God without Real World people. This is how our loves on Earth are relational to our conception of God. It sometimes feels like I’m just talking to myself and ghosts online. None of it is really Real World in the sense that I’m moving somewhere. I really hope I’m moving the needle. 2. It’s because of my terrible memory too, actually. I would feel more in control of my life if my memory actually worked—my long-term memory at least. Seems like all the memories I surface are just too…proximal and not at all calculatedly sifted from my long-term memory. I am not consciously bringing them up, they are being massaged and brought to the surface by associative intelligence only. I cannot consciously bring up hard long-term memory or facts if I tried. Or this is just currently my view of my own memory failures and strengths. I suppose it’s a strength in some ways. But I wish I still had hippocampal strengths from high school. I wish it came easier to memorize things and have them not disappear the next day. ### Random(x) 🕳️ 1. Paid off some stuff. Great! I won’t have to worry about bills until April!!! ### Morning Pages ⚜️ 5:50PM: From working on my dream interpretations alone, I found out I’m Celia Frank’s human instantiation too. I’m also 99% sure Kate Tumala is a Satan-type. I never would have put two and two together. I never would have imagined that all three of my Shekinah friends that also transferred to Oro Christian would be Pointers to important characters in the Godhead and Satan Group. Alizeiah for Mary-type. Isabella for being a sister of a Holy Spirit-type (me) and being a Daughter/Norr Weston-type herself, and now, Kate Tumala as a Satan-type. All these people somehow being so important to my life that God really made sure I went to school with them as early as possible so I never forget them and the impact that they had on my life. I’m always discovering new things every single day I’m alive!!!!! This is so strange and weirdly awesome!!!! Although the news that Kate was always a snake to me is not making me feel good. Will she suffer in the afterlife? Who knows? I have somehow overlooked her already, and may have already half-forgiven her, although clearly not completely, when I get war flashbacks especially from high school.