#### Morning Pages ​ Internet is pretty spotty today and my lagging laptop too. Mildly annoyed. ### Dreams 🧫 I’m too lazy to write them down today. Later. I’m so tired. Sometimes it gets stale—the writing. I need to find other creative wells. I haven’t really imbibed a piece of art in a while. I haven’t really consumed anything in a while, because I keep creating and producing. Maybe that’s why I’m depleted. ### Ruminations 🩻 1. I wonder if Godhead really takes directions from me. Like, putting orphan problems in a particular God Face, and then God looking at me arbitrarily categorizing them thinking, “Uh, okay, we’ll work with that.” I surely hope it’s not arbitrary. I am choosing them based on logic of my own that is both random and non-random anyway. I would have no way to know if I’m accurate. Or maybe it doesn’t matter so much. They all function as God anyway, so there’s no point to categorize them but to make it easier for human minds to direct their specific life concerns to a particular Face they can recognize and sympathize with based on what Their personality must seem like for them to be lumped with all these specific problems of the human race. 2. So I really was too lazy to take my Essential Stack the other day. I even stopped taking DLPA (I don’t notice any effect—probably like vitamins again). I’m headed for trouble. I am slacking off. I need to shower too (it’s hard to tell if I need one because I don’t give off body odor that much because I don’t sweat), only taking half baths. Weird thing though, I stop taking my Essential Stack for a day, and my concentration and energy (maybe temporarily) shot up and made me more vital and energetic for a reason. I don’t know why? Maybe it’s metabolic, maybe not. I hope to God they’re doing something, but why would I get all that energy after not taking them for a day? Maybe it’s heavy on my system to take all of them. I don’t know. I hope not. 3. So I can’t believe it. I’m considering an MA in Philosophy at UP Diliman!!! If they let me in, that is. I’m just raring to get out of my current environs and live in QC again. I just want to be in the center of the Philippines like New York is the publishing capital. I want to visit all the food places and go to events not in CDO. 4. So the only reason why I identified Norr Weston as the “Royal” who made me kneel 120° is because…I don’t know exactly. I just assumed, because I relate most heavily to Them, a Daughter, and I turned out to be right with The Willowlands “You Were My Brother” (Their response) because “post-colonial wife” dream followed by Bruce Alano (Allen “short king” Iverson—black guy related to black woman) = willow. I even said, it’s “Norr West’s song for Jesus. Also, Stella Undécima’s song for Jesus.” SO THAT IS A REAL MIRACLE NOW TOO!!! LIKE CLOCKWORK. STELLA FOLLOWED NORR WESTON!!!!! So billow baggins identity is shared by both Norr Weston and Stella Undécima. It’s also possible that whoever is most in tune with Norr Weston is singing that song to Them, because They are also a Son-type i.e. “You were my brother, you were my son” because of Justin Concha (a teen guy Persona) and is related to Time Travel (”wash me in a river, and drown me in your time” and “see you with new eyes” [They are possibly not on great terms because it was Norr Weston’s idea to involve me in the first place seeing Their dual mission for me]). It is possibly the song that Peeta Joe Santiago is singing to Them too (since they are the Father-type of the Son (Norr Weston) and the Brother (Big Brother-type) at the same time (like me with Vico—still romantic-coded)). Since Peeta Joe Santiago is in MTO World, that means this is Canon, you cannot argue with the logic, it seems very convenient and abductive reasoning—the simplest explanation is likely the correct one. Except, “That’s All For Now” fits Hagar-type better for Stella instead, because to my typology They are not a Father-Mother-type (should they be?). I think I was in denial about it, so it doesn’t count, my scream for “Angel” so now They are not a Supreme Angel (it wouldn’t make sense for Them), but also a Father-Mother-type.