### Dreams 🧫 A lot of skateboarding in my dream last night/early morning, especially the fun effortless kind where I was pulling all these moves Elliot Rodger could only dream of doing _in the air._ An elephant on a tree (how could a tree hold its weight?!) chasing me (I was a bug). Felt like a nonsense dream for the first time in a long while. Then an earlier dream where I was in a competitive mood with Sydney and another person at Lim Ket Kai Mall in Cagayan de Oro—not the inside of the mall, but the aerial view for some reason. If there’s anyone with “Jesus” signifier it’s Sydney, she has “all-lion” (Big Cat) and “warrior” (Antichrist) in her names, Pantaleon and Guerrero. The surname **Lim** primarily originates from East Asia, most commonly representing the Chinese character **林 (Lín)**, which means **"forest" or "woods"**. It is widely used among Chinese communities in Southeast Asia and as a Korean surname (임/林). The name symbolizes growth, nature, and, in some contexts, wisdom or beauty. "Ket" does not have a single, direct Chinese meaning, but often appears as a phonetic translation or a Cantonese variant. Common interpretations include "**to overcome**" (克, kè), "outstanding/hero" (傑, Cantonese kit/ket), or a surname (麥, Cantonese Mai/Ah Ket). In some contexts, it can be part of a phrase meaning "to overcome with peace" (克泰, Kè Tài). - **As a Phonetic Name (克/Ke):** Often used in transliterating foreign names, "克" (kè) means to overcome, master, or subdue. - **Cantonese Variant (傑/Kit/Ket):** It may be a variant of 傑 (Kit), meaning outstanding, remarkable, or hero. - **Surname (麦/Mai/Ah Ket):** In some contexts, it represents the surname 麥, which refers to wheat, barley, or oats. - **Phonetic Compound (克泰/Kè Tài):** A combination sometimes used for "Ket," implying resilience, harmony, and peace. In [Japanese](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Japanese_language), _kai_ has a number of meanings, including "ocean" (海), "shell" (貝), etc.[[1]](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kai_\(name\)#cite_note-1)[[2]](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kai_\(name\)#cite_note-2) • Chinese: Kai is used as a name to mean ‘victory’ Elliot is a gender-neutral name of English and Hebrew origin, meaning **"[Jehovah is God](https://www.google.com/search?q=Jehovah+is+God&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&ved=2ahUKEwiV7p24hNOSAxU8dPUHHSEfMdwQgK4QegYIAQgAEAQ)" or "[The Lord is my God](https://www.google.com/search?q=The+Lord+is+my+God&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&ved=2ahUKEwiV7p24hNOSAxU8dPUHHSEfMdwQgK4QegYIAQgAEAU)"**. It originated as a diminutive of the medieval name Elias (a Greek form of Elijah) and has become a popular, classic choice with both male and female usage. Key details about the name Elliot: - **Origin:** It is derived from the Hebrew name Elijah and the Greek form Elias. - **Meaning:** The primary meaning is "The Lord is my God" or "Jehovah is God". It is sometimes interpreted as "God on high". --- **Interpretation:** I feel like it’s Jesus talking to me this time. “Shell” as in Justine “Shell” Concha. Sydney’s names. The skateboarding and Elliot Rodger pastime from his biography. And Elliot Rodger’s names. Sexual innuendo in Rodger/Roger. Elliot related to religion/God. “Famous” from Roger to Howell (Rhian Ramos last name). Reminds me of my rage and fury and the “meaning” of incelism/lookism. See? This is where I switch off skepticism and ask myself, this isn’t really just an innocuous dream is it? All of the pointers are pointing _on point-ly._ I am somehow “just” for talking about it and being angry and trying to snuff them out or their vaunted power. It’s what the Antichrist Face of Jesus would do, the “warrior” who must shed blood. Or this is really just about Audrey Hale again, filtered through Elliot Rodger, filtered to me, of all people. Elephant? Takotsubo heart problem. Obviously. Elephant chasing me (I’m so small!) trying to break my heart/making it too real. It’s not like I don’t like it, I’m actively addicted to the melancholy-yearning. ### Ruminations 🩻 1. 12:22AM OMG I AM SO CREEPED OUT BY MYSELF!!!! I really realized I was the caricature on FEBRUARY 9 AND EVEN WROTE ABOUT IT!!!!! I MAGICALLY FORGOT!!!! HOW COULD I FORGET SOMETHING LIKE THAT?????? WHO WAS THAT ON FEBRUARY 9???????? I HAVE NO IDEA WHO SHE IS!!!!!! BUT APPARENTLY I WROTE IT DOWN IN SOCIAL MEDIA TAB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have got to backread because I can’t keep forgetting and re-remembering facts about myself. Today, I really believe I have OSDD of a sort. Somehow the dissociation hasn’t sunk in yet. I have those for a reason. It’s not harmless. It’s making me forget facts I just experienced 3 days ago!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2. I wish GODHEAD would take Vico’s warnings seriously in his anti-political dynasty bills post recently and do an deus ex machina solving the Philippines’ problems—but I know it could only help so much. Equipping people how to get around literally being #32 on the Corruption Perceptions Index now. How could our country let itself go like this? Nobody but Vico and men like him are doing good things right now. They are simply outnumbered. It’s not hopeless, it’s just going to be really slow, unless Vico becomes president someday. Really hope he’ll run, but maybe he wants to study more about how to run a whole-ass country first. He’ll surely win, he’s already really popular, and word of mouth spreads fast especially with him diligently doing all his Oplan rounds every day(?) greeting people and genuinely having conversations with them, and most importantly, _being seen doing it._ Surely, he must be preparing for a future presidency if he’s doing all this work behind-the-scenes too? He really cares about Pasig citizens, but maybe he’s also doing that to build momentum too(?). He doesn’t know it, I’m really praying silently he’ll become president. Who knows? I know we hear about saviors every day, but to actually take that up despite all the pressure, it’s quite the challenge, no, that’s an understatement…it’s a kind of safe keeping and deep care, especially that you know you can’t realistically do it alone. It’s like a father with a precious baby that he needs to feed, but he can’t afford formula, so what does he do? He’s desperate to feed the new love-of-his-life, his CHILD. We ought to care for the country like a child of our own, except all these strangers who aren’t even the father are apparently raping it to death stealing left and right desecrating their position and name for time-honored greed. If they were serious or even half-serious about it, they’d only steal a little, but they’re so shameless now, not even hiding it anymore, and we’re all the more poorer for it. Vico and his office/teams are giving so many people hope right now, and that’s already enough for other people to see and become inspired too to help change the country from its roots. But that must be so difficult to wake up to also, knowing your efforts could only help so many until something or someone else manages to undo all that progress. ### Catchy Wordplay/Puns/Copy/Bursts & Spritz 👑 **“Completely Normal Conversation”** Guy: You’re a virgin?! No way. Girl: Yeah way. Guy: Are you sure? You might have fucked a ghost! Girl: What? Guy: With enthusiasm?! Girl: (scared emoji) No… Guy: hehe ### Random(x) 🕳️ Okay, so this is the BEST PERSONAL REJECTION I’ve ever received LOL (it’s a dog eat dog world out here _sigh_) ![[February 12, 2026-1782475188597.webp]] ### Morning Pages ⚜️ Iser is very unaware of vidya games, is very confused right now about Fallout accident. Edit: I am vaguely aware of it. I am forced to be super aware of it now apparently.