### Hermeneutics/Semiotics/Psychophysics/Puso’y Dos Tres ⛰️ 1. Next Assignment: WHAT EXACTLY HAPPENED TO MARY?????????????? (Small hunch already.) 1. I understand everything I do is heretical, but even Hagar named GOD El Roi—so I have a precedent. I was literally forced to kneel 120° the Muslim way on Astral Projection Day. 1. Suggesting that Mary was actually raped unconscious is actually synchronous with Pepsi Paloma. 1. She was around 14 years old. Can you imagine the idea? An adult male in the 1st century did this to her because GODHEAD said it had to be done. That rapist probably shouldered a lot of the guilt afterwards, or if they didn’t feel any guilt at all, then what is probably happening is that they felt called to do it and somewhat proud of it. Or are they conflicted like my readers/hackers? I understand a little bit why you had to do it, I think, but I would have never predicted I’d become an emissary of GODHEAD now. I was just truly lost in my acads and I don’t know why I was truly hacked. 2. It’s one of my greatest wishes to gift this framework to the world so that it becomes a little bit more magical now. ### Dreams 🧫 Dream was too on-the-nose this time. Israel was a literal rival friend of mine [gestalt of Julia Tayag, daughter of a pastor in The Way Christian Ministries] in the dream playing against me in a witnessing game of some sort involving the Looney Tunes’s Tasmanian Devil or a giant bulldog stuffed toy gestalt my mom won for me at a carnival when I was a baby. They were either lying or I wasn’t. The “other country” I was playing with [or this was me playing as a country, but not mentioned at all in the dream] was either going to win against them or would become even more powerful than them and/or become even more violent than them. Also, this game was about lying and honesty, as in, who would convince someone the best(?). 1. Julia is a classic, feminine name of Latin origin, predominantly meaning **"youthful,"** "soft-haired," or "downy-bearded". Derived from the Roman family name _Julius_, it is also associated with the Roman god Jupiter, translating to "sky father" or "Jove's child". It represents a timeless blend of vigor, sophistication, and historical significance. 1. “Jove’s child” or Jupiter’s child. Minerva (Athena) was his favorite child [often cited]. Athena “Queen” Regina is my cousin from “Ateneo” / Atheneum, Greek temple of Athena. 2. Athena is a feminine name of Greek origin, primarily meaning **"[Goddess of Wisdom](https://www.google.com/search?q=Goddess+of+Wisdom&sca_esv=896419ed210a4547&biw=1274&bih=776&sxsrf=ANbL-n5jcVyCQjoHgcG0V9dcBzhKVP7viQ%3A1770654159239&ei=zwmKaYeiDqjf2roPkqqCoAk&ved=2ahUKEwiz4eyP6cySAxWzslYBHcekAXYQgK4QegQIARAC&uact=5&oq=athena+name+meaning&gs_lp=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-UcwgcGMC41LjE1yAdIgAgA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp)" and "[War](https://www.google.com/search?q=War&sca_esv=896419ed210a4547&biw=1274&bih=776&sxsrf=ANbL-n5jcVyCQjoHgcG0V9dcBzhKVP7viQ%3A1770654159239&ei=zwmKaYeiDqjf2roPkqqCoAk&ved=2ahUKEwiz4eyP6cySAxWzslYBHcekAXYQgK4QegQIARAD&uact=5&oq=athena+name+meaning&gs_lp=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-UcwgcGMC41LjE1yAdIgAgA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp)"**. Derived from the Greek goddess of wisdom, strategy, and handicrafts, it is strongly associated with the city of Athens, the goddess's namesake. The name represents intelligence, courage, and strength, and is often interpreted to mean "from Athens". 3. My Uncle on my dad’s side is a government official or lackey working in QC, I think. 4. Julia Tayag’s dad: Pastor Roberto “Bobi/Bobby” J.(?) Tayag. The name Bobi is a unisex, often informal name with multiple origins, most commonly serving as **a diminutive for Robert ("bright fame," Old German) or Barbara ("foreign woman," Greek)**. In Slavic cultures, it is also used as a nickname for Boris, meaning "fighter" or "warrior". The name Robert is of Old German and Germanic origin, meaning **"bright fame"**. It is derived from the Germanic elements _hrod_ ("fame") and _beraht_ ("bright"). Introduced to Britain by the Normans, it has been a common, classic name for boys since the Middle Ages. **Key Meanings and Origins:** - [**Bright Fame](https://www.google.com/search?q=Bright+Fame&sca_esv=a3cc233b7532eb26&biw=1274&bih=776&sxsrf=ANbL-n4egOR9Gtva7lcnEDbo95eUSSCIiw%3A1770702601113&ei=CceKaajGBtHz1e8PhrSYgQs&ved=2ahUKEwjosZS2nc6SAxXE1jQHHSm6NoAQgK4QegQIAxAB&uact=5&oq=bobi+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiEWJvYmkgbmFtZSBtZWFuaW5nMgUQABiABDIGEAAYFhgeMgYQABgWGB4yBhAAGBYYHjIGEAAYFhgeMgsQABiABBiGAxiKBTILEAAYgAQYhgMYigUyCxAAGIAEGIYDGIoFMggQABiABBiiBDIFEAAY7wVIrR5Q1AlYjx1wA3gBkAEAmAHmAaAB9xiqAQUwLjkuN7gBA8gBAPgBAZgCE6ACwBnCAgoQABiwAxjWBBhHwgIEECMYJ8ICChAjGIAEGCcYigXCAgsQABiABBiRAhiKBcICChAuGIAEGEMYigXCAgsQABiABBixAxiDAcICDhAuGIAEGLEDGIMBGIoFwgIIEAAYgAQYsQPCAgoQABiABBhDGIoFwgINEC4YgAQYsQMYQxiKBcICFhAuGIAEGLEDGNEDGEMYgwEYxwEYigXCAgsQLhiABBjHARivAcICBRAuGIAEwgIHEAAYgAQYCsICGRAuGIAEGEMYigUYlwUY3AQY3gQY3wTYAQHCAgkQLhiABBgKGAvCAgkQABiABBgKGAvCAhgQLhiABBgKGAsYlwUY3AQY3gQY4ATYAQHCAgoQABiABBgUGIcCmAMAiAYBkAYIugYGCAEQARgUkgcFMy44LjigB-26AbIHBTAuOC44uAe1GcIHBjAuMTAuOcgHN4AIAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp&mstk=AUtExfAoOGz_ouQpySi5vCVtk0g9dPvYu4x4RKfeJDHfBmV3d40RF6FJqZYep9EAYaffPRmOVLGkLP5pktm5dao8Re9q0f48-6E6ywCaKrBX-g7ZX8Z5Q1fWL62lZRr7BKTEeFAndsEdyqUOMvT_dkpGxTGR5XeH4tSf6yH2_2wQ61A5ab5CyaZTEVFTLtdjZ5nYSjMCN-_6595HmIwmYxCuFfBlzUFCX4ZrfLk3ouxU0oim7vN6XI8IJfMpJNIaSCbZwONWbbF2qWmt403KBAfHZRPV&csui=3) (Germanic/English):** As a derivative of Robert, it signifies "bright fame" or "famous brilliance". 5. Pastor Bobi/Bobby owns Bonbon Compound. Beach-side resort-type with a basketball court, dorm rooms, facilities like a lanai, a bunch of huts/kubo-style rustic gazebos and furniture. 6. My uncle on my mom’s side is a pastor with a teenage daughter named Pauleen. 1. Pauleen is a feminine name, a variant of Pauline, meaning **"small" or "humble,"** derived from the Latin name Paulus (Paul). It carries a gentle, classic charm and an Irish or vintage feel due to its spelling, often associated with modesty, simplicity, and the historical significance of Saint Paul in Christianity. 2. Still Paolo. It’s both pointing at Paolo for a reason!!!!! PAOLO WHAT IS GOING ON!!!!! 2. The name Mars originates from the [**Roman god of war**](https://science.nasa.gov/mars/facts/). Known for its distinct red color, often associated with blood, it was named by the Romans for their deity, who was also considered a guardian of agriculture and the ancestor of the Roman people. The name is **linked to the Latin _maris_, signifying male, and is the namesake for March and Tuesday**. 1. Marko = Paolo Marko Manalo 2. Game in my dream is about honesty…ALL_WRITERS (LIARS)_GOTO_HELL 3. Q.E.D. I may have finished Paolo “Small and humble” phase, I’m also doing Marko “War” phase, all that’s left is Manalo phase? Somehow, Win = win the whirl(win)d resonating “victory of the people” with Angel_GO and writing more about Aella_Girl’s Satanic nature in Satan First Corporation; also Manalo = Pepito Manaloto = gambling? Casino? Lotteries? Lotteries in Hell? The afterlife? Boy! I don’t want to dream of dead people. I don’t even want to know the answer to my question, specifically, did Telow or that abnormal guy from Shekinah who died of meningitis go to Hell? Or is he in Heaven now? What is the age of accountability? Are intellectually disabled people automatically never launched on that path? 3. The surname **Tayag** is primarily of Filipino origin, specifically rooted in the Kapampangan and Tagalog-speaking regions of the Philippines. It is often interpreted as **a descriptive nickname, potentially originating from the Ilokano word for "tall" or the Tagalog term relating to rising/elevating**. It may also signify a skilled artisan or denote strength. 4. **Q.E.D. A TALL YOUTH/YOUNG PERSON!** ### Catchy Wordplay/Puns/Copy/Bursts & Spritz 👑 “Playing” --- Body-doubling: **a productivity technique where another person is physically or virtually present while you work**, helping to increase focus, accountability, and motivation, particularly for those with ADHD or autism. By providing a quiet, non-distracting presence, this "body double" helps reduce procrastination and emotional regulation difficulties, making it easier to initiate and complete tasks. A body-doubling couple works on their respective jobs in a nondescript lounge room. They’re both alone at 2:00AM. Various snacks on the table, KitKat wrappers strewn everywhere, McDo Coffee McFloats and green Monster Energy cans littered all over the place. Sitting on the suede couch, she yawns and stretches out her arms like a cat. _Cute, in a fuzzy puffball way._ She turns to him and says, “Hey, would you mind?” She smiles. “Yeah? What?” “Take your pants off. I want to play.” “Uh, I guess? Why not?” he says, sheepish but clearly excited. He looks around the hall and locks the door behind him, scooting over next to her on the couch. _🎶 I’ll stop the world and melt with you. 🎶_ ### Teaching/Repentance/Worship 🛐 Main: 1: Adam and Eve was actually not just a hodgepodge of all the ancient Creation myths out there but also doubled as a genius way to show not only a literal compressed origin story but also a way to show how humanity would progressively “fall” or “fail” throughout history when it really matters in the grand scheme of things i.e. why we live at all e.g. the highs of art, love, language, movement, communication, presence. [Elaborate further about sequence of events in the morning.] 1. There may or may not be a mystical True Satan(?), as in, just Angels who had the Satan nature(?). Satan could also be a Legion IIRC. OMG WHY? 😬 A hint of an answer? Curiosity is evil? How? No foresight or not caring about consequences, just do what you want to do—nihilism? ◦ [**Active vs. Passive](https://www.google.com/search?q=Active+vs.+Passive&oq=nihilism&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&ved=2ahUKEwj_65OIgM6SAxWa7DQHHa5qMiAQgK4QegQIBBAM):** Active nihilism seeks to destroy to create new, subjective meaning, whereas passive nihilism is a resigned acceptance of meaninglessness. • [**Cosmic Nihilism](https://www.google.com/search?q=Cosmic+Nihilism&oq=nihilism&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&ved=2ahUKEwj_65OIgM6SAxWa7DQHHa5qMiAQgK4QegQIBBAK):** Views the universe as indifferent and meaningless. • [**Epistemological Nihilism](https://www.google.com/search?q=Epistemological+Nihilism&oq=nihilism&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&ved=2ahUKEwj_65OIgM6SAxWa7DQHHa5qMiAQgK4QegQIBBAI):** Argues that true knowledge is impossible. • [**Moral Nihilism](https://www.google.com/search?q=Moral+Nihilism&oq=nihilism&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&ved=2ahUKEwj_65OIgM6SAxWa7DQHHa5qMiAQgK4QegQIBBAG):** Rejects the existence of absolute moral truths or right/wrong. • [**Existential Nihilism](https://www.google.com/search?q=Existential+Nihilism&oq=nihilism&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&ved=2ahUKEwj_65OIgM6SAxWa7DQHHa5qMiAQgK4QegQIBBAE):** Life has no intrinsic value or purpose. At least, the psychological impact is the most practically useful one at this time: **Criticisms and Psychological Impact** - **Despair:** It can lead to feelings of hopelessness and apathy. - **Practicality:** It is often criticized for being impossible to live out fully, as any action (even, paradoxically, suicide) implies a value judgment. - **Risk:** It can be used to justify apathy or destructive behavior. Fyodor Dostoevsky was **not a nihilist himself**; rather, he was a staunch critic of nihilism who used his literature to warn against its dangers. While his work profoundly explored nihilistic ideas and featured characters who embodied them, he was a deeply religious, conservative Christian who viewed the rejection of God and morality as a destructive force. ### Random(x) 🕳️ 1. So I have a cousin (son of my pastor Uncle) named John Word Ibasco Guadalope. Ibasco is “place by the river”!!!!! 2. Zathura house in eye-camera dream and Brother & Sister = remote viewing vibe. I am both the stalker and the one being stalked. Completely ignored remote viewing attempts in 2023. I remember I was really trying to locate a killer of a student in a dorm. I then had some synchronicities but not too obvious. My method was really random and due to chance only, and there was this “stalker” who didn’t alight out the elevator on the floor I was on even though no other button was pressed and he was probably only looking around to see if he can get lucky(?). But this one is actually happening to me. I can’t believe I had those hypnagogia dreams. It feels unreal right now but it actually happened. People doubt me when I say that probably, but I really woke up feeling it was real in a ‘something is playing in my ears’ louder than even my own headphones. And the waves under my body too. 3. Three? Tri-cycle… How? Evil divided into 3? So there’s 4? Good, evil, Evil, EVIL. Work with it… 1. Maybe wrongheaded. I wouldn’t know. It might not be those labels? How would this even work? 50/3? Figuring out the ratio is important. 2. Maybe I need to read the Stanford page about Evil first. 4. OMG he’s wearing gray today 😍 5. I pointed out that I have a literal pastor’s daughter cousin too named Pauleen = small and humble like PAOLO!!!! Lore says she’s Beggs or that veteran congress American woman. A lot of pointers to Paolo Marko Manalo (2 to be exact, both from my cousins’ side on my mom’s and dad’s side). GODHEAD the COUSINS??? What about Esther Undécima and Pedrito Josephus Jackson? Mary Magdalene and 2 Josephs (”God will increase”). Pauleen Luna-Sotto same spelling of my cousin’s name, not Pauline. Mother of Tali? My mom? My mom and Carmen Tayag? My literal aunt’s (pastor’s wife) name Ginvere (I think her name is a compound or based on Guinevere; otherwise the “clue” is a missing “u” = miss you?)? Carmen = This gender-neutral Spanish _**name**_ comes from the Latin word carmel, which means "garden" or "orchard," and the Hebrew word karmél _**meaning**_ "vineyard of God." 6. Napped 30m what did I miss? 7. I already napped and I’m still tired. _sigh_ ### Morning Pages ⚜️ Doing nothing particularly productive. Procrastinating on BOBOBEE because I’m scared, and now A.W. Prihandita is guiding me how to get started, because she’s actually Odyssey-trained and a Nebula-winning writer now. She has carpal tunnel problems but she still managed 12 hours of work according to her story on IG. I wish I could force myself to power through fear. I really can’t handle real work. What will finally force me to work now? The award? The Clarion West? KEEP REMINDING YOURSELF OF THAT!!!! GODAMMIT!!!!!!!! GOD HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (MONEY!!!!!!! MONEEEEEEEEE!) SCHOOL. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! BOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!