# Jan 8: Thursday OOOOOOOP I GOT GRADE FOR MY LIT REVIEW!!!!! 82 = atomic number for Lead (Pb)? Also, I really felt on fire on Jan 7. There are heaps of papers on my table that are probably gibberish. OMG. Now that I think about it, how exactly is my discovery going to be relevant? Apparently the thing that I am thinking is possible somehow. Maybe it’ll have other uses. Hmmm. Mechanical pencil? OOOOOMMGGGGGGGG AN INC FOR CW 198!!!!!! That was close. I wonder if Ma’am Kwe is going to give me that too. I mean, I did the grunt work of the outline already but I didn’t do the critical essay outline yet. My delusion is actually not stopping. Vico posted the captured heads of state a few days ago I think. I googled who Emilio Aguinaldo was and found he designed the PH FLAG!!!!! He also helped execute Andres Bonifacio. I don’t know how this is relevant to my dream about the early 1900s with my sister’s best friend. Maybe it’s the PH-America War? It’s from 1899-1902 anyway, smack dab in the middle of that. That’s just synchronic. I don’t even know anything about this part of history. Somehow I only googled the name meanings today. > Emilio is a masculine name of Latin origin, derived from the Roman family name _Aemilius_, meaning **"rival," "industrious," "eager," or "to strive to excel"**. Popular in Spanish, Italian, and Portuguese-speaking cultures, it carries connotations of ambition, competition, and ancient Roman prestige, linked to the influential Aemilius patrician family. > Aguinaldo (from Spanish) means a Christmas gift, bonus, or carol, referring to money or presents given during the holidays, especially to children or as an extra payment for workers in Latin America and the Philippines, and also to specific Christmas songs or masses. It's deeply ingrained in Filipino culture, often given as cash during caroling (mamanasko) and linked to the Misa de Aguinaldo, the dawn masses before Christmas. > The last name **Famy** is uncommon, potentially a variation of names like Fatima (Arabic for "captivating") or Stephanie (Greek for "crown"), suggesting **charm or royalty**; it could also stem from German short forms (like [Rämi](https://www.google.com/search?q=R%C3%A4mi&sca_esv=2abb81a9f80b289a&sxsrf=AE3TifMOZMpY3-1hk_jPWQj11G0C9JV-MA%3A1767810646803&ei=VqZeaY_dMOrf2roPh_C6sQo&ved=2ahUKEwjB2v2LiPqRAxVRqFYBHQtYAxwQgK4QegQIARAC&uact=5&oq=famy+last+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFmZhbXkgbGFzdCBuYW1lIG1lYW5pbmdIAFAAWABwAHgAkAEAmAEAoAEAqgEAuAEDyAEAmAIAoAIAmAMAkgcAoAcAsgcAuAcAwgcAyAcAgAgA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp&mstk=AUtExfAY0kRQob8fcjDA2kDe9p1iYUUXbh3wfIQG26mT2eI3F0JaVevvAzbpKywkY5B9wLm9cGfpBTGL2xhRtJChDZmGgPquKFXN6jxKa_c260uqaXUXcD3ywkdTfxjPHGyE7iq66O6-6vi-TaCic77qRhBXrmDCtpaQa3SH-sMwmBYb0zMa1o6rWBuuzpvkG8VKIxT7JQD2Vxiw8pWrsCPP4ptun7VpCDa_o-tzmjAvT6yJFlYJVmk_ayhRJ5dFM85GspzK7agt3V9sFvwFu-DF0kMP&csui=3) for [Remigius](https://www.google.com/search?q=Remigius&sca_esv=2abb81a9f80b289a&sxsrf=AE3TifMOZMpY3-1hk_jPWQj11G0C9JV-MA%3A1767810646803&ei=VqZeaY_dMOrf2roPh_C6sQo&ved=2ahUKEwjB2v2LiPqRAxVRqFYBHQtYAxwQgK4QegQIARAD&uact=5&oq=famy+last+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFmZhbXkgbGFzdCBuYW1lIG1lYW5pbmdIAFAAWABwAHgAkAEAmAEAoAEAqgEAuAEDyAEAmAIAoAIAmAMAkgcAoAcAsgcAuAcAwgcAyAcAgAgA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp&mstk=AUtExfAY0kRQob8fcjDA2kDe9p1iYUUXbh3wfIQG26mT2eI3F0JaVevvAzbpKywkY5B9wLm9cGfpBTGL2xhRtJChDZmGgPquKFXN6jxKa_c260uqaXUXcD3ywkdTfxjPHGyE7iq66O6-6vi-TaCic77qRhBXrmDCtpaQa3SH-sMwmBYb0zMa1o6rWBuuzpvkG8VKIxT7JQD2Vxiw8pWrsCPP4ptun7VpCDa_o-tzmjAvT6yJFlYJVmk_ayhRJ5dFM85GspzK7agt3V9sFvwFu-DF0kMP&csui=3)), Italian place names (Rami), or Albanian Muslim names (like Ramazan). Other origins point to Chinese (meaning "model") or variations of names like **Fay** (fairy, beech tree, or loyalty) or **Fami**, making its meaning dependent on specific family history and geographic roots. > **Possible Origins & Meanings:** > **Arabic:** From Fatima, meaning "captivating" or "charming," or Rāmī meaning "archer". > **German:** A short form of Remigius or Sophia, relating to "crown" or "wreath". > **Italian:** A patronymic from Ramo or a habitational name from places like Rami. > **Albanian:** A short form of Ramadan/Ramazan (Muslim names). > **Chinese:** Transliteration meaning "pattern," "model," or "example". > **English (Fay/Faye):** From _faie_ (fairy/witch) or _fei_ (loyalty/trust), or a place name from "beech tree" (Latin _fagus_). > Andres (or Andrés) is a male name of Greek origin, meaning "**manly, strong, courageous, or warrior**," derived from the Greek word _andreios_. It's a Spanish and Portuguese variation of Andrew, popular due to Saint Andrew the Apostle, and carries connotations of bravery and masculinity. > The name Bonifacio means "**good fate**, " "[good fortune](https://www.google.com/search?q=good+fortune&sca_esv=2abb81a9f80b289a&sxsrf=AE3TifOaA7uiG7KDkeABk2soS-V-TKom3A%3A1767810774936&ei=1qZeabXvOMOi2roP56TP6AM&ved=2ahUKEwjmirqviPqRAxWvk1YBHdycO9IQgK4QegYIAAgAEAM&uact=5&oq=bonifacio+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFmJvbmlmYWNpbyBuYW1lIG1lYW5pbmcyCxAAGIAEGJECGIoFMgYQABgWGB4yBhAAGBYYHjILEAAYgAQYhgMYigUyCxAAGIAEGIYDGIoFMggQABiABBiiBDIIEAAYgAQYogQyCBAAGIAEGKIESPEdUL8EWIMdcAV4AZABAJgB2QGgAZkeqgEGMC4yMi4xuAEDyAEA-AEBmAIcoAKSH8ICChAAGLADGNYEGEfCAg0QABiABBiwAxhDGIoFwgIKECMYgAQYJxiKBcICBBAjGCfCAgoQABiABBhDGIoFwgIOEAAYgAQYsQMYgwEYigXCAgYQABgDGArCAgoQLhiABBhDGIoFwgIOEC4YgAQYkQIYsQMYigXCAg0QABiABBixAxhDGIoFwgIIEAAYgAQYsQPCAgUQABiABMICCxAuGIAEGMcBGK8BwgIHEAAYgAQYDcICBhAAGA0YHsICCBAAGAUYDRgemAMAiAYBkAYKkgcGNS4yMi4xoAfA2AGyBwYwLjIyLjG4B_sewgcHMC4xMi4xNsgHWoAIAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp)," or "**doer of good deeds**," derived from the Latin [_Bonifatius_](https://www.google.com/search?q=Bonifatius&sca_esv=2abb81a9f80b289a&sxsrf=AE3TifOaA7uiG7KDkeABk2soS-V-TKom3A%3A1767810774936&ei=1qZeabXvOMOi2roP56TP6AM&ved=2ahUKEwjmirqviPqRAxWvk1YBHdycO9IQgK4QegYIAAgAEAQ&uact=5&oq=bonifacio+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFmJvbmlmYWNpbyBuYW1lIG1lYW5pbmcyCxAAGIAEGJECGIoFMgYQABgWGB4yBhAAGBYYHjILEAAYgAQYhgMYigUyCxAAGIAEGIYDGIoFMggQABiABBiiBDIIEAAYgAQYogQyCBAAGIAEGKIESPEdUL8EWIMdcAV4AZABAJgB2QGgAZkeqgEGMC4yMi4xuAEDyAEA-AEBmAIcoAKSH8ICChAAGLADGNYEGEfCAg0QABiABBiwAxhDGIoFwgIKECMYgAQYJxiKBcICBBAjGCfCAgoQABiABBhDGIoFwgIOEAAYgAQYsQMYgwEYigXCAgYQABgDGArCAgoQLhiABBhDGIoFwgIOEC4YgAQYkQIYsQMYigXCAg0QABiABBixAxhDGIoFwgIIEAAYgAQYsQPCAgUQABiABMICCxAuGIAEGMcBGK8BwgIHEAAYgAQYDcICBhAAGA0YHsICCBAAGAUYDRgemAMAiAYBkAYKkgcGNS4yMi4xoAfA2AGyBwYwLjIyLjG4B_sewgcHMC4xMi4xNsgHWoAIAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp), combining [_bonum_](https://www.google.com/search?q=bonum&sca_esv=2abb81a9f80b289a&sxsrf=AE3TifOaA7uiG7KDkeABk2soS-V-TKom3A%3A1767810774936&ei=1qZeabXvOMOi2roP56TP6AM&ved=2ahUKEwjmirqviPqRAxWvk1YBHdycO9IQgK4QegYIAAgAEAU&uact=5&oq=bonifacio+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFmJvbmlmYWNpbyBuYW1lIG1lYW5pbmcyCxAAGIAEGJECGIoFMgYQABgWGB4yBhAAGBYYHjILEAAYgAQYhgMYigUyCxAAGIAEGIYDGIoFMggQABiABBiiBDIIEAAYgAQYogQyCBAAGIAEGKIESPEdUL8EWIMdcAV4AZABAJgB2QGgAZkeqgEGMC4yMi4xuAEDyAEA-AEBmAIcoAKSH8ICChAAGLADGNYEGEfCAg0QABiABBiwAxhDGIoFwgIKECMYgAQYJxiKBcICBBAjGCfCAgoQABiABBhDGIoFwgIOEAAYgAQYsQMYgwEYigXCAgYQABgDGArCAgoQLhiABBhDGIoFwgIOEC4YgAQYkQIYsQMYigXCAg0QABiABBixAxhDGIoFwgIIEAAYgAQYsQPCAgUQABiABMICCxAuGIAEGMcBGK8BwgIHEAAYgAQYDcICBhAAGA0YHsICCBAAGAUYDRgemAMAiAYBkAYKkgcGNS4yMi4xoAfA2AGyBwYwLjIyLjG4B_sewgcHMC4xMi4xNsgHWoAIAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp) (good) and [_fatum_](https://www.google.com/search?q=fatum&sca_esv=2abb81a9f80b289a&sxsrf=AE3TifOaA7uiG7KDkeABk2soS-V-TKom3A%3A1767810774936&ei=1qZeabXvOMOi2roP56TP6AM&ved=2ahUKEwjmirqviPqRAxWvk1YBHdycO9IQgK4QegYIAAgAEAY&uact=5&oq=bonifacio+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFmJvbmlmYWNpbyBuYW1lIG1lYW5pbmcyCxAAGIAEGJECGIoFMgYQABgWGB4yBhAAGBYYHjILEAAYgAQYhgMYigUyCxAAGIAEGIYDGIoFMggQABiABBiiBDIIEAAYgAQYogQyCBAAGIAEGKIESPEdUL8EWIMdcAV4AZABAJgB2QGgAZkeqgEGMC4yMi4xuAEDyAEA-AEBmAIcoAKSH8ICChAAGLADGNYEGEfCAg0QABiABBiwAxhDGIoFwgIKECMYgAQYJxiKBcICBBAjGCfCAgoQABiABBhDGIoFwgIOEAAYgAQYsQMYgwEYigXCAgYQABgDGArCAgoQLhiABBhDGIoFwgIOEC4YgAQYkQIYsQMYigXCAg0QABiABBixAxhDGIoFwgIIEAAYgAQYsQPCAgUQABiABMICCxAuGIAEGMcBGK8BwgIHEAAYgAQYDcICBhAAGA0YHsICCBAAGAUYDRgemAMAiAYBkAYKkgcGNS4yMi4xoAfA2AGyBwYwLjIyLjG4B_sewgcHMC4xMi4xNsgHWoAIAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp) (fate/destiny). It's popular in Spanish, Italian, and Portuguese cultures, known for its dignified sound and historical ties to saints and figures like the Philippine revolutionary hero, [Andrés Bonifacio](https://www.google.com/search?q=Andr%C3%A9s+Bonifacio&sca_esv=2abb81a9f80b289a&sxsrf=AE3TifOaA7uiG7KDkeABk2soS-V-TKom3A%3A1767810774936&ei=1qZeabXvOMOi2roP56TP6AM&ved=2ahUKEwjmirqviPqRAxWvk1YBHdycO9IQgK4QegYIAAgAEAc&uact=5&oq=bonifacio+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFmJvbmlmYWNpbyBuYW1lIG1lYW5pbmcyCxAAGIAEGJECGIoFMgYQABgWGB4yBhAAGBYYHjILEAAYgAQYhgMYigUyCxAAGIAEGIYDGIoFMggQABiABBiiBDIIEAAYgAQYogQyCBAAGIAEGKIESPEdUL8EWIMdcAV4AZABAJgB2QGgAZkeqgEGMC4yMi4xuAEDyAEA-AEBmAIcoAKSH8ICChAAGLADGNYEGEfCAg0QABiABBiwAxhDGIoFwgIKECMYgAQYJxiKBcICBBAjGCfCAgoQABiABBhDGIoFwgIOEAAYgAQYsQMYgwEYigXCAgYQABgDGArCAgoQLhiABBhDGIoFwgIOEC4YgAQYkQIYsQMYigXCAg0QABiABBixAxhDGIoFwgIIEAAYgAQYsQPCAgUQABiABMICCxAuGIAEGMcBGK8BwgIHEAAYgAQYDcICBhAAGA0YHsICCBAAGAUYDRgemAMAiAYBkAYKkgcGNS4yMi4xoAfA2AGyBwYwLjIyLjG4B_sewgcHMC4xMi4xNsgHWoAIAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp). > "De Castro" (or Decastro) is a Spanish/Portuguese surname meaning **"from the castle" or "of the fortress,"** a [toponymic name](https://www.google.com/search?sca_esv=2abb81a9f80b289a&sxsrf=AE3TifNxHdaQEZvY1hlYwLg39nmfq_TJMg%3A1767810811079&q=toponymic+name&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwiruLK7iPqRAxUmslYBHamHADoQxccNegQIMRAC&mstk=AUtExfDlxuL_mt5ljkPG5X7AEiq_KDPAT84nqVa1gVntYUGI8FTcyQIO5lAYwhRGShYw0UualkKrL1zwtHlLTcN6g70dOPF2SRB2lXy_fs8mIGqNqJ8CtnJjaBk4wnulr0PA036njNL62S5CFeMNYxRoCwr7hsHPlqWt_IXkAau6qUsKJddAOjAYsFxPCV86C2abfA2Si-F-aArlnMCBoXBlJn-XkOgEi9i12ES6MUcqvt-kGahh8uV_IYYBBeg_TfleeNVmQzJlfvNDO7-5VMU1yQsp&csui=3) for someone from a place called Castro (fortified place), derived from the Latin castrum. It's common in Iberian cultures and signifies origin from a notable castle or settlement, with historical roots in Christian fortifications during the Iberian Reconquista, and is prevalent in Spanish, Portuguese, and Filipino communities. These names are suggestive of something. Rivals? Tito Sotto, his uncle I think, is called “castle” too for “Castelo.” Me as Enya? OMG WE ARE ENEMIES????? OMG IF VICO IS INDEED EVER involved in this why is he being so suggestive???? French-style pubic trimming, Frenching, landing strip and objectophilia - woman who is “sexually attracted” to planes. Hmmm. Ciara Sotto is Tito Sotto’s daughter = cousin-profing? That is very tempting. I am so not ready for that at all. I’m not a normal person who can just go do that. solar lights = green asphalt patching = black trimming = pubic hair???? red???? OMG. FIRE BUSH. general concerns = white EH???? OMG, why does that bean mascot look kind of like a tiny betlog/penis. Cute. So if ever, he knows the keyword betlog or that I am somehow fascinated with penises? But I have never seen a real penis though, they are very abstract in my mind. Hmmmm. Oddly resonating with my profile pic on FB with a cat on top of my Bondee avatar’s head. Currently listening to 1901 by Phoenix. I wonder why I dreamt that war dream with Trisha/Erika. Why did my dream compress PH-America War and Yap/Abilaine/Jacob? Again, obsession with Vico. But again, I don’t even know about name meanings that much. Maybe I indeed am tapping into a storehouse of meaning somewhere in the Logos. That is so fucking cool. There is a plane of objective-subjective-dynamic meaning made out of words then? Passed down from history to the present? And it somehow includes the internet? And/or something about my behavior finding out the name meanings in the future. I currently don’t know what to research about this yet. Maybe I really need to formalize the Logos or something. There is a real plane where these things have weight and that something extends beyond materiality that gets resonated within dreams through a mechanism I don’t understand. How can that be? Fields that are invisible carrying information across space and time? It is so exciting. Language exists in a dynamic ever-evolving plane, and that this somehow gets expressed in brains through dreams. Dreams are not just the brain digesting information from the day. Dream last night. My dad adjusting the chains off the chain barrier outside the building. The bike rider was “arrested” or something but my dad was not. We also have a tiny chain barrier outside our house. I suppose it’s a mundane dream. Or maybe not. I forgot the dream about two women in a bar. Two white women. French kissing and tongue and breath. Landing strip. Him gripping and fondling my thighs and me sucking on his “lollipop” or fumbling with his zipper hurriedly and giving him a frisky handjob, exploring his skin all slick and warm. I cannot get the images out of my mind. OMG red-brown haired girl????????? OMG many more synchronicities. My grandma’s name is Ludivina Valledor Yee, my grandfather’s name is Ramon Wong Yee. His grandfather is Marcelino Antonio Ojeda Sotto and his grandmother is Herminia Castelo-Sotto. Ojeda is Ojeda river valley. Marcelino means “young warrior” “little warrior” “devoted to Mars.” Herminia is a feminine name of [Greek/Latin](https://www.google.com/search?q=Greek%2FLatin&sca_esv=5de84945538fbbc7&sxsrf=AE3TifPSFJ68pg0wsatn-mTxE7YvtmwszQ%3A1767814372507&ei=5LReaanaHqLn1e8PnvSf-AY&ved=2ahUKEwjllajrlfqRAxUYoa8BHWMfIt4QgK4QegYIAQgAEAM&uact=5&oq=herminia+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFWhlcm1pbmlhIG5hbWUgbWVhbmluZzIKECMYgAQYJxiKBTIFEAAYgAQyCxAAGIAEGIYDGIoFMgsQABiABBiGAxiKBTILEAAYgAQYhgMYigUyCBAAGIAEGKIEMggQABiABBiiBDIIEAAYgAQYogQyCBAAGKIEGIkFSM0VUPsDWP8UcAN4AZABAJgB1QGgAdsZqgEGMC4xOC4xuAEDyAEA-AEBmAIWoAKvGsICChAAGLADGNYEGEfCAgsQABiABBiRAhiKBcICCBAAGIAEGLEDwgIKEAAYgAQYQxiKBcICChAAGIAEGBQYhwLCAg0QABiABBixAxhDGIoFwgINEC4YgAQYsQMYQxiKBcICCxAAGIAEGLEDGIMBwgIKEC4YgAQYQxiKBcICBRAuGIAEwgIGEAAYFhgewgIIEAAYFhgKGB6YAwCIBgGQBgiSBwYzLjE3LjKgB4vXAbIHBjAuMTcuMrgHohrCBwYwLjEzLjnIBz-ACAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp) origin, often meaning "**messenger, interpreter, or earthly**," linked to the god [Hermes](https://www.google.com/search?q=Hermes&sca_esv=5de84945538fbbc7&sxsrf=AE3TifPSFJ68pg0wsatn-mTxE7YvtmwszQ%3A1767814372507&ei=5LReaanaHqLn1e8PnvSf-AY&ved=2ahUKEwjllajrlfqRAxUYoa8BHWMfIt4QgK4QegYIAQgAEAU&uact=5&oq=herminia+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFWhlcm1pbmlhIG5hbWUgbWVhbmluZzIKECMYgAQYJxiKBTIFEAAYgAQyCxAAGIAEGIYDGIoFMgsQABiABBiGAxiKBTILEAAYgAQYhgMYigUyCBAAGIAEGKIEMggQABiABBiiBDIIEAAYgAQYogQyCBAAGKIEGIkFSM0VUPsDWP8UcAN4AZABAJgB1QGgAdsZqgEGMC4xOC4xuAEDyAEA-AEBmAIWoAKvGsICChAAGLADGNYEGEfCAgsQABiABBiRAhiKBcICCBAAGIAEGLEDwgIKEAAYgAQYQxiKBcICChAAGIAEGBQYhwLCAg0QABiABBixAxhDGIoFwgINEC4YgAQYsQMYQxiKBcICCxAAGIAEGLEDGIMBwgIKEC4YgAQYQxiKBcICBRAuGIAEwgIGEAAYFhgewgIIEAAYFhgKGB6YAwCIBgGQBgiSBwYzLjE3LjKgB4vXAbIHBjAuMTcuMrgHohrCBwYwLjEzLjnIBz-ACAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp), or from Germanic roots meaning "**soldier/warrior**," and also signifies "lady of the earth" or "dedicated to God," appearing in literature and popular in Spanish/Portuguese cultures. WARRIORS???? The name Ludivina is a feminine name of Germanic origin, meaning **"famous friend" or "friend of the people,"** derived from the elements _hlud_ (famous) and _win_ (friend). It's a variation of Ludivine, often linked to Saint Ludivina of Schiedam, a Dutch mystic, and is popular in Spanish-speaking countries and the Philippines, carrying connotations of joy and loyalty. Ramon is a Spanish name, the form of [Raymond](https://www.google.com/search?q=Raymond&sca_esv=5de84945538fbbc7&sxsrf=AE3TifP5-xtqvl4d6cTaFSXUo0jDtk_q4g%3A1767814424276&ei=GLVeaYHHEM6ivr0P6cqDmA8&ved=2ahUKEwjngO_8lfqRAxX3k68BHViFENAQgK4QegYIAQgAEAM&uact=5&oq=ramon+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiEnJhbW9uIG5hbWUgbWVhbmluZzILEAAYgAQYkQIYigUyBRAAGIAEMgUQABiABDIGEAAYFhgeMgYQABgWGB4yBhAAGBYYHjIGEAAYFhgeMgsQABiABBiGAxiKBTILEAAYgAQYhgMYigUyCxAAGIAEGIYDGIoFSMceUJwQWPUdcAN4AZABAJgBxwGgAbMWqgEEMC4xNrgBA8gBAPgBAZgCE6AChxfCAgoQABiwAxjWBBhHwgIKECMYgAQYJxiKBcICCxAuGIAEGLEDGIMBwgIREC4YgAQYsQMY0QMYgwEYxwHCAggQABiABBixA8ICDxAjGIAEGCcYigUYRhj5AcICChAAGIAEGEMYigXCAicQABiABBiKBRhGGPkBGJcFGIwFGN0EGEYY-QEY9AMY9QMY9gPYAQHCAgQQIxgnwgIQEAAYgAQYsQMYQxiDARiKBcICDhAAGIAEGLEDGIMBGIoFwgINEC4YgAQYsQMYQxiKBcICCBAuGIAEGLEDwgIOEC4YgAQYkQIYsQMYigXCAhAQLhiABBixAxhDGIMBGIoFwgINEAAYgAQYsQMYQxiKBcICBRAuGIAEwgIHEC4YgAQYCpgDAIgGAZAGAroGBggBEAEYE5IHBjMuMTMuM6AH-a8BsgcGMC4xMy4zuAf_FsIHCDAuMTAuOC4xyAdBgAgA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp), derived from Germanic elements meaning **"counsel/advice" and "protector/protection," translating to "wise protector" or "counsel protector"**. It's popular in Hispanic cultures, historically linked to figures like Saint Raymond Nonnatus, and carries connotations of wisdom, strength, and guidance. The name "Wong" is a common Chinese surname, primarily a Cantonese romanization for two main surnames: **王 (Wáng) meaning "king" or "monarch," and 黃 (Huáng) meaning "yellow"**. It can also represent other rare surnames like 汪 (wong1) meaning "vast expanse of water" or 翁 (Weng/Wong) meaning "elderly man," but the "king" and "yellow" meanings are the most prevalent. OMG KING AGAIN!!!!!! I wonder if my name meanings have any bearing on anything. They are certainly are all chained together in a way. Maybe it’s just my obsession resonating with the Logos. If I don’t get to meet Vico at all, then that may still be a discovery all on its own. My brain apparently found these things. Kings, castles, warriors, valleys, rivers, our last names being polar opposites, the fact that my brain landed on so many parallels in this lifetime from Shawntel/Stanley, Angelo/Angela, the Emilio Aguinaldo 1900s, the Yap/Yee. Why is it so important for my brain to notice these? Is this a compass of some sort? A brain compass? I am not yet smart enough to think of all of the implications of my hunches. It’s just so surreal and yet I feel like I’m stumbling into something bigger than myself. Why Cagayan Valley? I wonder if my Biblical hunches are making sense to people. And the flags thing. And the horses. Philippines is literally meaning the horses, so there must be something there related to Revelation. Bible is related to God as the Word. Maybe Logos = Word. I cannot fathom tapping into the greatness of God and the Word. I literally wrote myself into the Logos by resonating with Qahluqulu’s/Jesus’ sacrifice and now the military/higher dimension/Logos’ Gaze/higher beings are noticing me!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH. I suppose this is because my thoughts are really porous now because if I am right about being hacked, they are looking at my innermost thoughts too, and now they have locked onto me and magnifying me in their heads so I get more “volume” or real estate in the Logos simply because they are accessing the “Real” part of me compared to other people only going off other people’s public words and spoken information and assumptions instead of honest inner speech and thought? What does this mean? People lying or not quite telling the truth in their speech in real life? Pretending and masking? Why am I suddenly bigger and noticeable that I’m accessing something like name meanings too? Maybe Logos really has something to do with the “Truth” or meaning or something. Consensus of last names meaning certain words agreed by a large amount of people so that it’s relatively stable. AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! This is a real structure of meaning!!!!! It proves that things that are not material exist somewhere!!!! That is the thing that I have accidentally discovered!!!!!! Otherwise, why would I ever have a dream about a military compound when I literally have never dreamed about a military anything or war even. These things are oddly external and alien to me because I don’t think of myself as heavily interested in masculine stuff like war and military. I looked at my Unreal Image a day ago and I’m just thinking I’ll remove the part about the “no great art skills to boast of” because I really worked hard on the drawings anyway. I just really want to get deep into philosophy and metaphysics and ontology to get a deeper understanding of what I’m doing. This is all just so heavy right now. 82 = Lead, as in leader and leading people? OMG Tito Sotto’s middle name is Castelo = castle too. Vico really covered “ear” with that cute dancing bean… What does that mean? OMG his head and ears between my thighs??? I am so delusional today. OMG “Happy New Year” with that bean too, why? It’s January 8 already? Hmm, is that related to me (delulu lol)? That is my “name” Happy = Abby, New = ?, Year = Yee? And New Year in my Unreal Image and the betlog? Hehe OMG Ramon is a variation of Raymond!!! Mike’s real name. Why is my Brotilde and Clotilde story related to this anyway? Is it whatever I write? That is so strange? Do I even have authority to do that? Well, I _am_ an author of stories. Oh yeah = Mm-hmm UUUGGHHHHHHHHH I’m getting wet thinking about his voice again. OMG Did Vico just post a link to a business a few days ago? Is that an answer to my “asking for it” shits and giggles? OMG Wait a minute, that post about Emilio Aguinaldo being captured was posted by firstpost IG, so Vico indeed knows about Unreal Image and my dreams? The one with the war looming in the early 1900s. At least I’ve never seen him post about America before, but this one is about Emilio Aguinaldo during the PH-American War. Is this what he’s referring to? Oh wait, is he identifying with Emilio Aguinaldo? Or is he referring to me, being captured by them and being tortured? Since I designed the Four Horsemen colors. Or am I Andres Bonifacio, since he has Castro which means castle? Oh wait, his dad’s middle name is also castle. NOOOOO THEY’RE TORTURING ME!!!!!!! OMG Vico really put a dancing bean and the Happy New Year on top of his head, like the panda and phone. Or is this about the introject? like, “ginagamit and TINATAKOT” OMG he’s turning me on or possibly using my erotica to get off (uggghhhhh the image of him throwing his head back in the shower and jacking off is so intoxicating)!!! That bean looks like a micropenis anyway, and I said something about intention, so he wants me to come, like “come for me, baby?” UUUUUUGGHHHHHHH the idea of sexting him for real is so heady 😳 OMG why???? Aguinaldo means “gift” and is this about what I said about “gift and stewardship” which he relates to? And he’s captured by the US (me?) OMG did I capture him? The dream. Otherwise, it’s just feeding my narcissism and delulu thoughts. So Vico might possibly know about “betlog” and “New Year” and maybe about Clotilde (what does that mean, “Not So French” as in “not a nun”? OMG!!!!). And that bean is on the top of his head so that might be related to “top of mind” or something. PLS!!!! The idea is just so dreamy. I mean if he didn’t know a lot about me, he’d be very weirded out by those keywords given to him. I wonder how he has time to even read me if he ever does. How did my department even rope him into this? What could he possibly have at stake here? The idea of some university department emailing him about participating is just too unlikely. But all of the things that he’s posted so far are just too uncanny and too related to me, like the arf arf arf and the dog picture. How???? Is he being paid to do this? Or is he volunteering or something? Why is he interested in creative writing anyway, if he ever is referring to “betlog” and “New Year.” Unless it’s one of his friends who sent him a link then OMG!!!! One prof in my department has a connection, explains HPD’s “Business Associate GoldCorpMaxxing” post. That’s so strange though, and too unlikely. And is he referring to Alors on Danse the French song and my secret scene in my book because of the dancing micropenis? OHHHHH. The words he had on there like trimming and the French trimming landing strip referring to my “manly pubic hair” desires and wanting to hear his moan are all so suggestive anyway, so that must mean he must be reading me. I mean, WHYYYYY????????????? I did say something about “tame this man and capture his heart” and Emilio Aguinaldo the “gift” or “stewardship” being captured by the Americans and the post was from first post a.k.a. his first repost. And there was this lyric about “A major sacrifice, but clueless at the time” about me sacrificing myself? Hmmmm, it’s just too uncanny, but I could be also just insane. OMG the idea that he thinks about me is so intoxicating, but he maybe even hasn’t seen many pictures of me, or even videos. So he’s literally giving me four reasons: military dream, sexting, four horsemen, name meanings. Wait a minute, so I really said, “Somebody tell him about every day and everyday” and the erotica right underneath it. I don’t know why I really thought on that day that somebody was accessing me. Does he want to copy Mike as a great talker and the cartoon bean meaning child. I was already thinking of Vico as the Sir saying “come for me, baby” anyway when I wrote it down. So Audrey is definitely reading me. Breather means rest and I recently wrote poetry about moaning or something. I don’t think writing serious poetry is rest, but sexting and erotica is fun and relaxing. Or Vico wants to be Brotilde who saves the day? There are three people in the lone Not So French reel, two men and one woman. LOL I already think of him in a pornographic step bro way though. STOP WRITING ABOUT HIM NOW!!!!! YOU NEED TO WORK!!!! So Qahluqulu literally beams betlog inside people’s heads. Is that what I’m doing? Do people really read me (pls I really need to know). It seems like all the signs are pointing to that fact anyway. Today I’m kind of meh about it. What haven’t I written about? I don’t know if I’ll become a lawyer to expose them. I just don’t think people should do this to another person. The idea of becoming infamous again is just going to be so tiring and invasive. I think I just got really angry that people might have spread me to Shawntel already. Which I hope isn’t the case. OMG so if he wants to be Brotilde, he wants to be the priest figure? Not the king figure? Or he is a priest figure but with a king orientation. I wish he’d run for president someday. Great things are gonna happen and so much could be changed if he was in that position. Why would Shawntel be interested in hearing about me anyway, just to see what I said about her? Why? I’m irrelevant actually. That’s why the idea that Vico reading me is so preposterous that it’s probably that Jung’s Self archetype that is leading me to notice everything uncanny like our name meanings and our cities. But then the Top 10 video though, and the three commas, and the “true mission” especially. Maybe the “Not So French” means he thinks I’m not so innocent in the entire thing in 2019. Well, considering what I did in 2022, that’s probably true. My heart is fluttering for some reason. Maybe it’s Vico, maybe it’s tachycardia. OMG maybe he thinks I’m BOBOBEE and I’m the one captured. But then “my little bumblebee” AAAAAAAAHHHHHH Maybe the Duterte/Barry dream is just referring to how I would have died in the Drug War if I was poor. I really believe I ate a dud armodafinil pill. Maybe they insert one out of 10 tabs to be duds, so they save on costs or something. UUGGHHHHHHH. So there’s really no reason to put a Happy New Year in his pic with a dancing micropenis/betlog unless he’s really read my Unreal Image. Why though? Is he a “researcher” or something. Come on, not everything is connected to you. But all these signs though, the list of four things faintly reminding me of my “content” on here and the French, and the idea that he’s thinking of me or he identifies as the “slum child” who can’t stop thinking of betlog, as in my work? --- **Hunger** She kneels in front of him with her arm resting atop his thigh, and her low voice teases, “Oh, hello,” her eyes fixed on his slick hardness, taking his warm cock in her hands, licking it from shaft to the dripping tip, her eyes looking up at him with a mischievous glint. He meets her devilish gaze so focused on him, and _oh God_ the intensity is melting him, and then throws his head back on the couch as her mouth works liquid magic all the way from the tip to the base of his shaft. “Oh yeah…” he moans, “ahh—fuck…very nice.” Her lips wrap around him, her head bobbing up and down excruciatingly slowly. She looks up at him once, “I’m just so fucking hungry for you, my Biko,” her hand increasingly friskier. Her sentence ended as if asking a question, perhaps challenging him, but who can even last long when it’s this good? “Yeah—?” his breath catches, his heart aflutter, “How are you liking your Biko right now?” his palm grazes her cheek, then rests near her ear as he applies slight pressure on her head, gripping her hair. Her other hand glides on his skin, squeezing his bare and moist thigh, and he lets out a quick breath, “Exceptionally delicious, my compliments to the chef,” then her lips wrap around his hardness once more, igniting his nerves, his skin electric and buzzing with desire. He whimpers, then lets out a chuckle, “The customer’s not so bad themselves.” He can feel himself almost bursting, and then suddenly he comes _so_ hard he sees stars for a moment or two, and she lets out a satisfied chuckle. Then he lifts her head to give her a kiss. “You’re the best, you know.” “For you, the world.” --- Maybe I really am insane. Even though I cognitively understand that Vico literally responded to me I think, on Jan 2., with “true mission” just a few hours after I wrote the “please tell me what you think about Aella,” I just realized that maybe nobody indeed is watching me. I feel really conflicted about it. Sometimes I actually want them to read me, but then I notice myself write strange and gross things like diarrhea and I think I really didn’t think I was being watched. I don’t know why it even varies. I could be writing about anything in here. Or wait, but literally, Lakan “posted” about me. But it’s like every day it resets. I wake up and think, “Oh, there really must be no one watching me at all.” I don’t even know why. Do I really want to know if they are reading me? If one of them gives me an unmistakable sign, maybe I’ll really believe. The idea that Vico is reading me is just too unlikely right now. I don’t even know why he would start doing so. Just because of my university? Or maybe it really has spread beyond my university. It’s just so impossible to me. I don’t know why. Did they really tell him about what they did in 2019 and told him they wanted to make him Mike? Because his latest post in OK being a “great talker” have me slightly believing that he is that person. He’s going to fool me again, and I don’t know when I would break again. What do they actually want me to do? Or even write about? Do they just like to read slice-of-life diaries? That is so strange to me. I don’t think I’d be interested in another guy’s live “private diary” link passed around in the entire Philippines? Literally, how did this even happen? Did they really intend to make me viral in an underground way? For what? To humiliate me? But then Vico wouldn’t give out those “signs” if he just read me, and he’d just go about his life. How is any of this possible? I’m just having a kind of dissociative spiral about it. It’s one of those days again when armodafinil doesn’t work. UGH. OMG WHY I am cringing at my latest erotica 🥴😬