Note: 1. Assertion 1: name meanings are important to destiny, dreams, and telos because angels in the Bible told various people in history to name their kid a specific name, like Mary and Joseph with Jesus, Zechariah and Elizabeth with John the Baptist, Hagar with Ishmael, Manoah and his wife with Samson, and Abraham and Sarah with Isaac. 2. Assertion 2: The angels speak through synchronicities in name meanings, whether it be a person, a place, or an object. I talk more about its implications in my paper: [[The Logos, Names, and Dreams--Almost Everything You Need to Know]]. 3. Assertion 3: If you have John, or "God's grace" or "God is gracious" in your name, you are possibly really lucky and have a charmed life of sorts. John the "beloved disciple" was spared a martyr's death precisely because his name shielded him from God's wrath. I talk more about "John" and other special names in [[John--What's So Special About Him?]] 4. Even if all of this sounds like hogwash or nonsense, synchronicity, or the acausal or non-causal lining up of things in a patterned way, is important to God exactly because They see the world through patterns. Not out of my own hand or might, but that God really allowed me to be raised in Nazareth too just like Jesus, and our shared heritage means something incredibly important to both our identities, separated as we are by time, space, and with different goals, priorities, and destinies. It means that God sees Jesus when They look upon my life, because by our very resonances through names and events in our lives lining up almost to the letter, we share something profoundly permanent and stable despite the world's chaos and disorder. --- My dad's name is Richard. The name Richard means **"brave ruler" or "strong king,"** originating from Germanic elements _ric_ (ruler, power) and _hard_ (brave, strong) and introduced to England by the Normans, becoming popular with figures like [Richard the Lionheart](https://www.google.com/search?q=Richard+the+Lionheart&sca_esv=5bb9be823fc6d962&sxsrf=AE3TifMJ6gcmZL4TLujoe-K8Ovj4P57nJw%3A1767524792091&ei=uElaaZGkBc6D2roP8ajN0Qk&ved=2ahUKEwj7neyN3_GRAxVuzjQHHYmWNL0QgK4QegYIAAgAEAQ&uact=5&oq=richard+name+meaning&gs_lp=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&sclient=gws-wiz-serp). It symbolizes leadership, strength, and fearlessness, with nicknames like Rick, Richie, and Rich. My dad's middle name is Valledor. The name **Valledor** is of Spanish origin, meaning **"of the valley" or "from the valley,"** combining [_valle_](https://www.google.com/search?q=valle&sca_esv=5bb9be823fc6d962&sxsrf=AE3TifP2lKDTIaRgApUjm__sQgR8FP3S-Q%3A1767524831799&ei=30laabuyMO6c0-kPia3S6Qs&ved=2ahUKEwivnfWT3_GRAxVNrlYBHR3xEicQgK4QegQIARAC&uact=5&oq=valledor+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFXZhbGxlZG9yIG5hbWUgbWVhbmluZzIHECEYoAEYCjIHECEYoAEYCkiiHVD8BljNHHAEeAGQAQGYAbUCoAG4HqoBCDAuMTUuNC4xuAEDyAEA-AEBmAIXoALhHMICChAAGLADGNYEGEfCAg0QABiABBiwAxhDGIoFwgINECMY8AUYgAQYJxiKBcICChAjGIAEGCcYigXCAgoQABiABBhDGIoFwgIEECMYJ8ICCxAAGIAEGJECGIoFwgINEAAYgAQYsQMYQxiKBcICERAuGIAEGLEDGIMBGMcBGK8BwgIJEC4YgAQYChgLwgIJEAAYgAQYChgLwgIPEC4YgAQYxwEYChgLGK8BwgIYEC4YgAQYChgLGJcFGNwEGN4EGOAE2AEBwgIFEAAYgATCAgUQLhiABMICCxAuGIAEGMcBGK8BwgIHEAAYgAQYCsICERAuGIAEGMcBGJgFGJkFGK8BwgIIEAAYgAQYogTCAggQABiiBBiJBcICBhAAGBYYHsICCBAAGBYYChgewgIFEAAY7wXCAgUQIRigAZgDAIgGAZAGCroGBggBEAEYFJIHBjQuMTQuNaAH_psBsgcGMC4xNC41uAfPHMIHBzEuMTEuMTHIB0GACAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp&mstk=AUtExfBJtK3xSW2aLrn0NoUzrzbGcgQMVxvbTvI7coQ13895nBpai5aKYoiBAOdoIt9n8xVWFPHSd00rTKEjjrDiabQGtssCLEtXjqHBuJo2r31una1t6nnJffFX4FoBNEatElood9yETOSYy-GUsx5YY2BzUcfOJ13KaCeToNvj7s0wQLqOxVQDUrDds6zZUR_KFcNgi61DGO23OPwS4Z8YrDhdRIKiuS2v42DdIh6kIwmpkvXWnkV4czBnXtpv10ZLXDWGvGg6hhusrro6190lAWBy&csui=3) (valley) with the suffix [_dor_](https://www.google.com/search?q=dor&sca_esv=5bb9be823fc6d962&sxsrf=AE3TifP2lKDTIaRgApUjm__sQgR8FP3S-Q%3A1767524831799&ei=30laabuyMO6c0-kPia3S6Qs&ved=2ahUKEwivnfWT3_GRAxVNrlYBHR3xEicQgK4QegQIARAD&uact=5&oq=valledor+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFXZhbGxlZG9yIG5hbWUgbWVhbmluZzIHECEYoAEYCjIHECEYoAEYCkiiHVD8BljNHHAEeAGQAQGYAbUCoAG4HqoBCDAuMTUuNC4xuAEDyAEA-AEBmAIXoALhHMICChAAGLADGNYEGEfCAg0QABiABBiwAxhDGIoFwgINECMY8AUYgAQYJxiKBcICChAjGIAEGCcYigXCAgoQABiABBhDGIoFwgIEECMYJ8ICCxAAGIAEGJECGIoFwgINEAAYgAQYsQMYQxiKBcICERAuGIAEGLEDGIMBGMcBGK8BwgIJEC4YgAQYChgLwgIJEAAYgAQYChgLwgIPEC4YgAQYxwEYChgLGK8BwgIYEC4YgAQYChgLGJcFGNwEGN4EGOAE2AEBwgIFEAAYgATCAgUQLhiABMICCxAuGIAEGMcBGK8BwgIHEAAYgAQYCsICERAuGIAEGMcBGJgFGJkFGK8BwgIIEAAYgAQYogTCAggQABiiBBiJBcICBhAAGBYYHsICCBAAGBYYChgewgIFEAAY7wXCAgUQIRigAZgDAIgGAZAGCroGBggBEAEYFJIHBjQuMTQuNaAH_psBsgcGMC4xNC41uAfPHMIHBzEuMTEuMTHIB0GACAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp&mstk=AUtExfBJtK3xSW2aLrn0NoUzrzbGcgQMVxvbTvI7coQ13895nBpai5aKYoiBAOdoIt9n8xVWFPHSd00rTKEjjrDiabQGtssCLEtXjqHBuJo2r31una1t6nnJffFX4FoBNEatElood9yETOSYy-GUsx5YY2BzUcfOJ13KaCeToNvj7s0wQLqOxVQDUrDds6zZUR_KFcNgi61DGO23OPwS4Z8YrDhdRIKiuS2v42DdIh6kIwmpkvXWnkV4czBnXtpv10ZLXDWGvGg6hhusrro6190lAWBy&csui=3), indicating a geographical connection to a valley area, suggesting someone who lived in or was associated with such a place in Spain. It's a [topographic surname](https://www.google.com/search?q=topographic+surname&sca_esv=5bb9be823fc6d962&sxsrf=AE3TifP2lKDTIaRgApUjm__sQgR8FP3S-Q%3A1767524831799&ei=30laabuyMO6c0-kPia3S6Qs&ved=2ahUKEwivnfWT3_GRAxVNrlYBHR3xEicQgK4QegQIARAE&uact=5&oq=valledor+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFXZhbGxlZG9yIG5hbWUgbWVhbmluZzIHECEYoAEYCjIHECEYoAEYCkiiHVD8BljNHHAEeAGQAQGYAbUCoAG4HqoBCDAuMTUuNC4xuAEDyAEA-AEBmAIXoALhHMICChAAGLADGNYEGEfCAg0QABiABBiwAxhDGIoFwgINECMY8AUYgAQYJxiKBcICChAjGIAEGCcYigXCAgoQABiABBhDGIoFwgIEECMYJ8ICCxAAGIAEGJECGIoFwgINEAAYgAQYsQMYQxiKBcICERAuGIAEGLEDGIMBGMcBGK8BwgIJEC4YgAQYChgLwgIJEAAYgAQYChgLwgIPEC4YgAQYxwEYChgLGK8BwgIYEC4YgAQYChgLGJcFGNwEGN4EGOAE2AEBwgIFEAAYgATCAgUQLhiABMICCxAuGIAEGMcBGK8BwgIHEAAYgAQYCsICERAuGIAEGMcBGJgFGJkFGK8BwgIIEAAYgAQYogTCAggQABiiBBiJBcICBhAAGBYYHsICCBAAGBYYChgewgIFEAAY7wXCAgUQIRigAZgDAIgGAZAGCroGBggBEAEYFJIHBjQuMTQuNaAH_psBsgcGMC4xNC41uAfPHMIHBzEuMTEuMTHIB0GACAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp&mstk=AUtExfBJtK3xSW2aLrn0NoUzrzbGcgQMVxvbTvI7coQ13895nBpai5aKYoiBAOdoIt9n8xVWFPHSd00rTKEjjrDiabQGtssCLEtXjqHBuJo2r31una1t6nnJffFX4FoBNEatElood9yETOSYy-GUsx5YY2BzUcfOJ13KaCeToNvj7s0wQLqOxVQDUrDds6zZUR_KFcNgi61DGO23OPwS4Z8YrDhdRIKiuS2v42DdIh6kIwmpkvXWnkV4czBnXtpv10ZLXDWGvGg6hhusrro6190lAWBy&csui=3), common in Spain and Latin America, pointing to a specific place of origin. Guadalope, my middle name or my mom's maiden name, is synchronous with my dad’s middle name “Valledor” because it is also related to valleys “river/valley of the wolves.” What about it? Cagayan Valley too? My middle name Guadalope meaning "Valley and River.” When I literally live in a “River” too i.e. Cagayan. Two rivers in my line/birthplace being connected by 2 valleys? My mom is a river/valley and my dad is a valley who lives in a river (CDO). Why would this not mean anything other than doubles? And the fact that Guadalupe is a title of Mary the mother of Jesus in Mexico? (My mom is resonant with Mary now.) Now that we have “Cagayan Valley” and “Cagayan de Oro.” Maybe my [[military dream]] really is about an alternate universe. If it is possible “over there” to have sleepwalkers in military training, then maybe they are training her [my novel's protagonist] for something important even if she wasn’t allowed to sleepwalk to the edges. Something about her sleep habits or dreams. Which is indirectly or not happening to me too, even if I am the only one who is experiencing all these synchronicities. I am also still writing about dreams in [[Unreal Image]]. This is very meta right now. Guadalupe in Nahuatl also means "she who crushes the serpent." Although Guadalope is the spelling of my name, it's still a variation. I was born in Cagayan de Oro Medical Center III at Philam Life Insurance, Nacalaban Street Corner, Tiano Brothers St. Jesus was born in Bethlehem, or "house of bread/meat." Tiano is a multifaceted name, primarily acting as an Italian masculine name and a southern Italian occupational surname for a potter, meaning =="saucepan"==. It is often a diminutive of "Cristiano" (Christian) or "Bastiano" (Sebastian), carrying connotations of religious devotion or geographic origin (from Teano, Italy). The surname Nacalaban originates from the Philippines, commonly rooted in Tagalog-speaking regions, and often refers to a =="former opponent" or "one who fought," potentially indicating a description of an ancestor's role or character==. It is a rare Filipino surname often found in historical records related to the archipelago. You know what else about valleys? Maybe I was mis-birthed in CDO? I am a false “king.” My names/birthplace have both rivers and valleys so maybe I was supposed to be born in Cagayan Valley. But I was born in Cagayan de Oro or "River of Gold" for some reason. Or maybe that means something else. I do not deserve it? Or that the title of “gold” is given specifically to me as a gift or stewardship? That is very poignant because the whole Bible says that we did not deserve grace, but God still gave it to us. > “We did not deserve grace" **reflects a common religious sentiment, particularly in Christianity, recognizing that [grace](https://www.google.com/search?q=grace&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&mstk=AUtExfBRajgOVB8tsd3kQ2AkXv6d7Gvbcq0VO7mMWg-K_vDUfaLyaahWbaMcD76pFlSwOVRvuCo58peSUIZOHXMTKLtTKMyUjP9eGx56AFlsxVDjTETV-E73qWJZKCP2qDctdniP4D2E3KoB-jO97K8XxoiM3ltuTNFpTNsbNrB6C4aA60bDXD_M9HHSm7HSLKExf71eN5ia3Chufqi83p7zw6aOZd_Gfh59xDEc5s4PchpVavd8064q9uhel1Wpl2_Ch9uHjdpDmZ5EoKlk-FCmL5LC&csui=3&ved=2ahUKEwiYheDW4fGRAxVa1jQHHdVFGmEQgK4QegQIARAC) is God's unearned, undeserved favor, kindness, or saving gift, rather than something earned by human merit or works**. This perspective highlights humanity's unworthiness (due to sin) and emphasizes God's immense love and generosity in offering salvation, forgiveness, and blessings freely through faith, exemplified in biblical figures and hymns like "Amazing Grace"” HOLY SHIT it is Arabic: • Guadalope/upe **Arabic Roots:** The name comes from Arabic words: _Wadi_ (valley/riverbed) and _al-lub_ (black gravel/wolf). I CANNOT WITH THIS ACCRETION. IT IS TOO MUCH PRESSURE. Did I really just wake up as Princess Mia from Princess Diaries at the ripe old age of 28???? Maybe the entity that whispered to me about “[[werewolf werewolf werewolf]]” was onto something about al-lub, “black gravel/wolf.” That is literally Vico Sotto: In Italian, "vico" is used in street names, typically referring to a small urban lane or alleyway, which could sometimes be a dead end. The diminutive form, _vicolo_, also means alley or alleyway. What about it? Except now the werewolf means, “Werewolf origins **stem from ancient beliefs in shapeshifting, with the English term meaning "man-wolf"** (_wer_ + _wulf_).” So it’s pointing at a man who doubles as “black gravel and wolf.” I am only 50% sure they are reading me today, but if they actually are reading me, then they might be as concerned as me. This is an “arranged marriage” of some sort. I do not like it. It is very unnatural. If they actually aren’t reading me, then it’s still oddly predicted that I would get sort of addicted to Vico in December, when I think it started in October (the dream was on Nov. 1). Maybe my brain was just so consumed already with Vico on Nov. 1 that I ended up dreaming about an entity that whispered his name three times as a convoluted way to say something about my future melded with my current concerns at the time. If so, that is typical of the [[Anita Love]] dream too. And in this case, my dreams are just projections of possibilities. Which is logical. Except I cannot now shake the CDO/Cagayan Valley. I really wasn’t supposed to be born at all, because I was an accident. My parents were supposed to finish med school, but they had unprotected sex and my mom had to suffer exams while I was inside her. What does this mean? That I have royal rights? For what exactly? And no one will believe me because it is very presuppositional. Strange, my dad has the “strong ruler/king” like Vico with his Regis. Is Vico my spiritual dad now? Like Mike? Why do I need a lot of dads? Please don’t tell me this is a “you’re mother is a hoe” joke about [[Angel_Hoe]]. I mean, I would have to dig deep again into the worst of my past to really write this character. So I just got reminded again: “The gold specifically symbolized **Jesus's kingship and royalty**, a gift befitting a king, while frankincense represented his divinity (priest) and myrrh foreshadowed his suffering and death (prophet/embalming spice)” UMMM, I am a GIRL. But I sometimes identify as non-binary. I am really living out that novel now. Why would they give this kingship to a girl? Queenhood? I was recently [[given frankincense]] by my sister in December. I was born in my mother with her name Myra meaning “[[myrrh]].” My mom had to travel to CDO to give me “gold.” Am I really the Second Coming? If that is true, then my “status” is really too unfathomable. I cannot wrap my head around it. Do I really need to be Mary too? Does Jesus even get married? I need to “choose” my Mary in [[Aella]] by christening her somehow, because of her age right now, which is 33, same as when Jesus died. Clearly. I already died in my sex work research anyway and Aella seems like the culmination of this pursuit. The angels are literally telling me to do this. I am somehow Jesus and Joseph rolled into one. I was raised in Nazareth too like Jesus. Nazareth primarily means =="branch," "shoot," or "sprout" in Hebrew== (_netzer_), often interpreted as a prophetic reference to a messianic branch from the line of Jesse. It is a significant city in northern Israel, known historically as the childhood home of Jesus, and may also be interpreted as "watchtower," "guarded," or "separated". **Key Aspects of Nazareth's Meaning** - **Biblical Significance:** Known as the city where Jesus spent his youth, often called "Jesus of Nazareth". - **Etymological Roots:** - **Netzer (Branch/Sprout):** Refers to Isaiah 11:1, promising a new branch (shoot) from the stump of Jesse (King David's father). - **Natzar (Watch/Guard):** Implies a "watchtower" or a "preserved/protected" place. - **Nazar (Separate):** Implies a place that is separated or consecrated. And what's more, Balingasag (my dad's hometown) and Spain's meanings both related to rivers!!! I really didn’t believe this theory last month when I first told my parents, even though I was excited. All I had as “proof” was being from _barangay_ Nazareth (where Jesus was raised), my mom’s names Myra (an anagram of Mary) and Guadalope (a Mary title in Mexico), my name being “father’s joy. Except I am also simultaneously now the [[Yellow Horse]] (False Prophecy) and [[Red Horse]] (War/Conflict) as well as [[UP]] (Northern Mindanao/Western Visayas [my mom is from Iloilo]). This seems like too much responsibility for a [[mildly brain-damaged neurodivergent]]. Maybe I really am [[Barry Acas]]. >For more about Yellow Horse/Red Horse/UP train of thought, see: [[January 2, 2026]] Are you kidding me right now? [[Lakan Umali]]’s post about [[Nadine Hendrikka Legaspi]] from CDO = "[[Legaspi]]" primarily refers to a prominent surname and a major city in the Philippines, both linked to the Basque region of Spain; the name originates from the Basque words for "gravel/pebble" (lega) and "lower part" (azpi), meaning "**below the gravel**," and was popularized by explorer Miguel López de Legazpi. The Arabic al-lub again. And Sotto, which means “below/under" in contrast to my "surplus/abundance" for Yee. They really are reading me, aren’t they? OMG are they shipping us? We are not quite well-matched even? He is 8 years older than me. I may be kind of addicted to him but it’s just that. It is a possibility that I currently cannot afford to entertain. (Note: I was functioning with the virtual reality that I was hacked by my department and that they somehow got Vico involved because I emotionally felt like he was giving me signs through his posts that he was in on it too.) Maybe I just may be the right person to take this up as King/Queen. I am the most skeptical probably, and for all I know people are actually amenable to this? I do not even fully believe in it, short of a miracle happening. I don’t know what form it may take. I am a “doubting Thomas.” Maybe the ==[[Anita]]== dream is a bit too obvious = it’s grace/favor + love. I really do not feel “loved” in a special sense. What is this giving me but pressure? I still have brain damage. I have a lot of work I am procrastinating on. OMG my last name. It’s just too on-the-nose. Surplus/remainder. I have too many doubles and surpluses accumulating. I see doubles and possibly more everywhere. River valley. The [[3 Anita Loves]]. My Impostors in my fiction. OH HOLY SHIT: Yes, **the Cagayan River, also known as the Rio Grande de Cagayan, is indeed the longest river in the Philippines, stretching over 500 kilometers (around 314 miles) from the Caraballo Mountains to the Babuyan Channel in Luzon**, playing a vital role in agriculture, transportation, and the culture of the Cagayan Valley region. OH HOLY SHIT 2: Cagayan Valley (Region II) is **a large administrative region in northeastern Luzon, Philippines !!!! [[NORTHEAST]] AMP!!!!** HEEEEEY THAT IS ANOTHER “MIRACLE” since that is [[linked to Pasig]] now (Pasig is northeastern). That I discovered my connection to Cagayan Valley and the 2 rivers and 2 valleys in my birthplace/parents’ middle names. There are days when nothing happens, and there are days when everything happens. I really want to write a [[Chosen One story]] like [[Sydney]]. The biggest mistake of my life is surrendering my armodafinil and atomoxetine. My mom is being militant about my heart rate and it wastes a lot of time. The awareness that I have a heart/tachycardia problem makes me feel even worse physically when before it just made me feel fatigue. Maybe I need to lower my standards for what counts as a miracle. Isn’t this what you always wanted? To discover new things? Even if they are not so meaningful to other people right now. OMG I hope people don’t mind I’m using their names to make meaning out of mine. For all I know I’ll end up as obscure as [[Ivan Panin]] because nobody takes the Bible seriously (especially not science). Cagayan River = River River AMP??????????????? Ok, I'm acknowledging “post…” 1. I do not think being a virgin as a man is shameful, but some men definitely think less of another man if they are. Do people actually wonder if Vico is a virgin? I mean, you wouldn’t expect him to be innocent totally because almost no one truly is (barring edge cases like me). He is an attractive and powerful man. He has a lot of opportunities to explore that. 2. Post Malone song about “it was just the sex though?” Hmmm. I don’t know anything, so I can’t say anything about it. I don’t know, I can’t relate to the song but I really like the melody. 3. post = “focus up, baby?????????” from Audrey. I mean, talk about mixed messages… 4. The idea that he is a virgin is appealing to me because that takes a lot of discipline, much more so if a man is attractive and powerful. And also because I’m naturally selfish and envious. If I had a husband, I wouldn’t want any details about what they looked like. Maybe I’d ask about the number because this tells me if they are or were promiscuous, but I don’t want to know anything else. 5. What else does “see post” mean? It could be nothing. I am now talking to myself being a hyper-narcissist being encouraged to become even worse. 6. I mean, if Vico literally went public or lied about being a virgin, so many women would volunteer, to teach him even? OMG. 11:39PM: I have got to stop overthinking about the wrong things. I spent an entire day literally doing my “calling” and I am paying for it by failing to do school. It is now 12:04AM. I realize Lega = pebble = stone = Stanley/see page: [[Shawntel]]? Well, her name means “[[God’s grace]]” too or “stone.” So that’s support. Anita = Shawntel? 12:17AM: Yeah, I am not “hyper-emotional” today, or even envious of the possibility that I would share this with Shawntel. I wonder why? I mean, [[Stanley]] is probably taken based on his FB story. Will Shawntel actually believe me if it means it is “prophesied” that she will marry Vico? OMG. She is very Catholic, she might just support me too. And become evangelical for Vico? I wonder if she is reading me too. OMG. I don’t know what to feel about exposing people’s possible motives. For what it’s worth I think she’s truly the best person for him. I guess people have a right to trust the Nadine Hendrikka Legaspi option. She is from UP too. And she wrote about CDO in a near-totalizing way for the entire city in her collection Fireline. What’s the difference between us? I am “private.” In quotes. ### **PROGRESS / MOMENTUM** 1. 11:22AM: Got tasks in order. 2. So I guess my memory is improving, probably with NAC, because I really remembered the 3 things Vico said about Rizal even though my brain struggled to remember the first one, which was “example” and then “works” and “story.” 3. Meditation (30m 21 bring-backs). Felt too relaxed and almost felt like I was half-asleep and my mind kept opening literal internet tabs to search for things. Strange. 4. Done with essential routines but only at 2:00PMish. I need to improve. I should take care of these within 1.5 hours only. 30 minutes meditation. 5 minutes exercise. About 1 hour “allowance” for dicking around.