### **Grounding and Essential Routines (ง ͡ʘ ͜ʖ ͡ʘ)ง** - [x] Essential Stack - [ ] Again Bruno Mars - [x] DLPA prep - [x] MCT oil - [ ] HIIT - [ ] Meditation 15m - [ ] Another meditation session 15m - [ ] Practice rap sing-along to get fluid juices flowing - [x] Iron - [ ] Preworkout **Take with fat sources:** - [x] Omega-3 breakfast - [x] Omega-3 lunch - [ ] Omega-3 dinner - [ ] Magnesium + Glycine b4 sleep ### Dreams 🧫 1. Not a time travel dream. I was really looking at a young version of myself on Shekinah grounds (or maybe it was a time travel dream) looking at people playing basketball. I was supposed to throw a ball and it didn’t end up in the basket, another person caught the ball and it still didn’t end up in the basket even though he was nearer (Bruce Alano). I had another vague dream about being in a theater scene and being a “postcolonial wife” and it somehow leaked into the childhood Shekinah dream, like “You’re a postcolonial wife (somebody really told me this—vague Cathlyn Rea popular girl gestalt)—what are you doing being back here in Shekinah?” 1. Bruce—from the willowlands. Japan knows willows as a place haunted by ghosts. 2. Alano—**Origin:** The name has multiple roots, including Old German (meaning "precious" or "noble"), Spanish, and Italian origins. 3. Cathlyn—noble, pure. 4. Rea—from the river/island. 2. A bunch of nobles in my dreams. Wonder why. It must be from Norr West then, telling me I’m a “postcolonial wife” but look where I am now. I’m guessing They hate me or are my frenemy? Seems a bit like Their personality anyway, the Young Face of Justine Concha (the 17-year-old), not Norr West. The theater dream happened in an OCGS theater-type when I was 16. Oh yeah, “you’re from OCGS now, what are you doing back in Shekinah?” I had another one of these panic dreams before, where I was stripped of my wealth and sent back from whence I came—the relatively shithole school Shekinah (no offense, but PACEs are outdated, and they badly need a better budget). So not the first time this has happened. This is the continuation of those dreams. 3. Checking out The Willowlands the band. Synchronous “You Were My Brother” song. I really like the melody. It has “river” and “brother” in it. Love. Pity they only have 24 monthly listeners. I’m an instant fan. Looks like I resonated to this song too, my Composer/Musician title shining brightly last night. Norr West’s song for Jesus. Also, Stella Undécima’s song for Jesus. 1. AND OMG???? “That’s All For Now” song where “Your” and “Home” is capitalized!!!!!! That is a clear sign that the Kneel astral projection is the last vision for me, _for now_. 1. It’s literally in Spanish, Es Todo Por Ahora. Place of many streams = Madrid!!!!! That’s all for now in English. WHAT A WAY TO CLOSE THIS LOOP FOR CLOSURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ### Ruminations 🩻 1. Since Elaiza and Cathlyn were BFFs in Shekinah, I suppose it’s logical I ended up dreaming about Cathlyn. I don’t know why I keep dreaming of Bruce Alano. He was known as a “short king” because he was handsome but short. He was my sister’s classmate. Why am I dreaming of my sister’s classmates? Seems odd, I was never _this_ interested in them anyway. Erika, and now Bruce. Maybe this has something to do with “short MVP” Allen Iverson a few days ago. Seems right. Short and basketball linked in my dream. Strange but natural. “The answer” is Bruce. Willowland “ghostly Japan” and “noble precious.” WHAT ABOUT GHOSTS??????? “You were my ghost” in Interstellar? The Holy Spirit? Ghost vs. Tongues of Fire versus Speaking in Tongues? This is where I become (to ghost) in ALL_GO, the unconscious Waldo in the middle of nowhere with clear glasses, who Wolfgang Iser found behind the shelves. The dad in Interstellar being the “ghost of his children.” I am supposed to work on implied_author now. Implied_Author as in, the breath of life, as in Holy Spirit too. Something about “ghost sex” too. Maybe something about dreams I’m missing. Basketball? Being pleasured by disembodied ghosts? Other humans’ spirits/astral bodies with their “desires” penetrating me? That is so weird, but ok. Somehow this is also about Anatomy of a Ghost. Divorce in the Philippines. I suppose all my Philippine ideas for development would go there, like the hidden chemical Lanthanein, but I have to finish Unreal Image. ### Catchy Wordplay/Puns/Copy/Bursts & Spritz 👑 1. Effin’ Love Birds. 1. “Fuck you,” he grins. 2. “Fuck me? Yes, please.” 3. “You’re like a battery, you know.” 4. “Yeah? So fuck me like you mean it.” 5. “Sure thing, sweetheart.” 2. Maiba naman. ✨ Romance ✨ I call it, “Black Hole Fall” charot. 1. “I’m so happy you’re alive.” 2. A sweet smile spreads. “It’s you.” 3. “What?” 4. “You’re my endgame.” What if I get an online MA at University of Edinburgh? What if... ### **Philosophy, Cosmology, and Consciousness Scholarships** Through the generosity of Philosophy, Cosmology, and Consciousness faculty, students, and alumni, the program offers three scholarships of $5,000 each, which are awarded in fall semester. Newly admitted and current Philosophy, Cosmology, and Consciousness students with financial need are eligible to apply. **Eligibility Requirements:** Newly admitted and current Philosophy, Cosmology, and Consciousness students with financial need **Application Deadline:** February 15 ### **Richard G. 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Even though I’m applying once again using a novel excerpt. Please!!!!! I cannot write BOBOBEE in 13 days (deadline of application). 3. Auspicious idea with BOBOBEE, a Latin-like three-word maxim I’ve got to come up with once I do more research into that paper about Catholic something something gay people paper. Also, this paper by UPD Prof. Atienza: Strange Technology: Fictocriticism and the Cyborg. 1. FOUND IT: Contesting Unfreedom: To be Queer and Christian in the Philippines by Cornelio and Dagle. 4. 6:22PM: OMG!!!!! I CAME UP WITH THE ENDING OF BOBOBEE!!!! IT’S BRILLIANT IN MY OPINION!!!!!!! IT’S A SECRET THOUGH. UNLESS…YA’LL HACKED MY ENTIRE COMPUTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ### Weaknesses To Work On 🎛️ 1. Forgetting my missions: Aella_WIP. Unreal Image. My schoolwork. Theory. Getting Clear on Derrida and what he really meant by Logos and non-Myth, or was that another person. Aella and Palestine actually, if I take it to mean Kneel Astral Projection is saying that. Which is just Angel_GO and Unreal Image anyway, to negotiate our (Palestine and Philippines) spots in GODHEAD’s hearts. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2. 3:39PM: YOU WILL NEVER GET ANYTHING DONE AT THIS RATE!!!! UNREAL IMAGE IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE DREADFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why am I like this? Anxiety over high standard people. Anxiety over failing to convince GODHEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STOP AVOIDING IT. YOU WILL BE FORCED TO WORK ON IT ANYWAY. MIGHT AS WELL START NOW!!!! ### Social Media 🀄 1. Germany visit at 6PM on Jan. 30. 180°? Going South. Opposite = Antichrist? 1. Also, 180 is divisible by 12 = 15. Judaism says 15 is written as “6” and “9” because 10 and 5 refer to God’s names or something. 😅 2. Ivana Alawi = Ali ibn Abi Talib. Search up the meanings ya’ll. Ally is my sister’s name, I’m father seeker of knowledge now. Synchronous with concerns recently. I try to search Ivana Love but Ivana Alawi is #1 on search, except there is an artist from USA who is called Ivana de Love, whose father died. What is this saying actually, “Ally my descendant will be Abby student/seeker of knowledge.” Daughter/granddaughter premonition if I somehow find myself married in the future. 3. Kate’s full name: Rajjirine Kate Malacon Tumala. King + Pure + Zircon Mineral/Seawall + Tomorrow/Afterlife. ### Songs 🎤 ### Craft 🔩 ### Teaching/Repentance/Worship 🛐 > I seem to have been only like a boy playing on the sea-shore, and diverting myself in now and then finding a smoother pebble or a prettier shell than ordinary, whilst the great ocean of truth lay all undiscovered before me. —Isaac Newton (1643-1727) > The greatest thing a human soul ever does in this world is to see something, and tell what it saw in a plain way…To see clearly is poetry, prophecy, and religion—all in one. —John Ruskin (1819-1900) — 1. Universal Grammar concept by Chomsky. All human languages share a common underlying structural basis despite their superficial differences. Humans must be born with pre-programmed parameters that get “switched on” based on the linguistic input they receive from their environment, ensuring that the fundamental architecture of syntax remains remarkably consistent across the globe. 2. Deep Structure vs. Surface Structure: “The cat chased the mouse” and “The mouse was chased by the cat” have different surface structures but share the same deep structure. Transformational rules allow us to convert the abstract deep structure into various surface forms. ### Sensations/Body Stuff 🫟 1. Where are all these baby ants coming from?! Sorry for snuffing you out, you younglings. One of them bit my thigh and another my finger. 2. Took Bupropion and caffeine at around 6:30AM. Please do not be sleepy. PLEASE!!! 3. My Real Body is emotionally drooling for Swedish candy, specifically the Blueberry Licorice Slices. UUUGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! Pity there were only 2 in that baggie I bought from Swedies last year. My body is also craving Dihexa but we take what we can get. 4. Google says BPM under 100 is normal. Parents say mine is high even though it’s just 99/100+. It’s upper range, all right. Somebody tell me I’m normal or I get more tachycardic. 5. Took Atomoxetine 12:40PM. 6. Less sleepy today 2:35PM. Completed my sister’s birthday poster editing. ### Random(x) 🕳️ 1. Last day of the month today. Wew. What a month of blathering. There are 70k words here now. 2. How the hell did salvage get a whole new meaning in Filipino LMAO. It’s “wild/feral” in Spanish: salvaje. Salbahis in Cebuano/Bisaya though, I always lol because of the way it’s said. Salbahis kaayo, mao! LMAO. Salbahe too in Tagalog. ### To-do ☑️ (Use Jan. 30’s) - [ ] Unreal Image “background” scene or monologuing for each character. - [ ] Strange Technology: Fictocriticism and the Cyborg - [ ] Contesting Unfreedom: To be Queer and Christian in the Philippines by Cornelio and Dagle. - [ ] Get crystal clear on Semiotic Square Logos and non-Myth. - [ ] Find Derrida reading about union and non-union? online - [ ] Find Claude Levi-Strauss reading online - [ ] West Bank and Gaza Strip research HOLY HELL!!!! GAZA STRIP IS BORDERED BY ISRAEL (IT’S NORTH/EAST), WHILE WEST BANK IS BORDERED BY ISRAEL (SOUTH, WEST, NORTH)!!!!!!! I have June 1967 in my ALL_GO, with the line, “a blindingly steep slope to 1967” in the poem/illustration with the dicks graph. BETLOG IN UNREAL IMAGE!!!!! 1967 is when Israel/IDF occupied GAZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My downleftUP and UPRIGHT weren’t unfounded!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Such a random fortuitous thought though, that belated eureka. - [ ] Come up with your own diegesis methods/maps based on real ones to systematize ### Morning Pages ⚜️ Physics Building @ UPD. Remember, this was only a dream once. Do your best (Einstein second from the right). ![[IMG_1228.JPG.webp]] ### SYNCHRONICITIES 🥹 1. GAZA AND WEST BANK. ISRAEL’S RELATIVE LOCATIONS TO THEM!!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!! WE REALLY ARE _THE_OTHER_TWIN_ NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!