### **Grounding and Essential Routines (ง ͡ʘ ͜ʖ ͡ʘ)ง** - [x] Essential Stack - [x] Again Bruno Mars++ - [x] DLPA prep - [x] MCT oil - [ ] HIIT - [ ] Meditation 15m - [ ] Another meditation session 15m - [x] Practice rap sing-along to get fluid juices flowing - [x] Iron - [ ] Preworkout **Take with fat sources:** - [x] Omega-3 breakfast - [ ] Omega-3 lunch - [ ] Omega-3 dinner - [ ] Magnesium + Glycine b4 sleep ### Hermeneutics/Semiotics/Psychophysics/Puso’y Tres ⛰️ 1. What is a mother? Mom. Mama. Mommy. Ma. Mammy. Mamita. Momma. Mudra. Mudrakels. Mamata. Mammatus cloud. Mammatocumulus. Ermats. Madonna. 2. Why isn’t Rashidun “Rightly Guided” included in the Palestine flag? (Potential for Philippines to insert themselves as Silver-Gray Horse now) 1. Short answer: the **Rashidun Caliphate didn’t have a distinct dynastic color**, so there was nothing concrete to encode into later symbolism. The Palestinian flag isn’t a complete checklist of early Islamic history; it’s a **political symbol descended from a much later moment**. 2. Now the longer, more interesting version 🧠✨ 3. The Palestinian flag uses the **Pan-Arab colors**: black, white, green, and red. These weren’t chosen arbitrarily, nor were they designed as a perfect genealogy of all Islamic polities. They come directly from the **Arab Revolt flag**, which was created during World War I as a rallying symbol against Ottoman rule. 4. Each color was _retrospectively_ associated with a famous Arab or Islamic dynasty to give the flag historical depth: 1. **Black** → Abbasid Caliphate 2. **White** → Umayyad Caliphate 3. **Green** → Fatimid Caliphate 4. **Red** → Hashemites 5. So where’s the Rashidun? 1. **No dynastic color to reference** 1. The **Rashidun Caliphate** (the “Rightly Guided” caliphs) predates the whole idea of **dynastic branding**. They didn’t rule under a color-coded banner system. Their legitimacy was moral and communal, not heraldic. No black standard, no white flag, no signature hue. You can’t put “absence of symbolism” on a flag. 2. **Pan-Arabism wasn’t trying to be complete** 3. Pan-Arab symbolism emerged in the **20th century**, not as a museum exhibit but as a **modern nationalist language**. It emphasized: 1. Arab identity 2. Political continuity 3. Anti-imperial unity 4. The Rashidun period, while sacred in Islamic theology, wasn’t especially useful for **modern Arab nationalism**, because it: 1. Was pan-Islamic rather than distinctly Arab-political 2. Predated the dynastic states Arabs later remembered as “golden ages” 3. Offered ideals, not symbols 4. Flags love symbols. Ideals are harder to stitch into fabric 🪡. 5. **Religious neutrality mattered** 1. Invoking the Rashidun too explicitly could tilt the symbolism **toward religious authority**, which pan-Arab movements often tried to avoid. The Pan-Arab colors balance Islamic history _without_ privileging a theologically loaded era that different sects interpret differently. 4. **Palestine inherited the system—it didn’t redesign it** 1. The **Flag of Palestine** is part of a larger family of Arab flags (Jordan, Kuwait, UAE, Iraq). Palestine didn’t sit down and say, “Let’s add everyone.” It adopted an already-established symbolic grammar. 5. If anything, the Rashidun are the **gravitational center** of Islamic history—so foundational they disappear into the background, like oxygen. You don’t paint oxygen on a flag; you assume it’s already there. 6. In other words: The Rashidun aren’t excluded because they’re unimportant. They’re excluded because they came **before flags started talking in color-coded dynasties**. History has layers. Flags only get four colors 🎏 3. You know, since I’m “Wolfgang” “The Way” “Drag Path” and all, we can be Rashidun spiritually, “Rightly Guided” now. Rashidun undergirding all of the colors. There was something special about that horse figurine in my deceased grandparents’ room. It was silver-gray. The medal I won in ISC—2nd place. ### Neon Gray Horse ♞ ### Dreams 🧫 1. National Student Convention vibe. I was looking at pictures and there was this vibe of Maphile Canencia + Eileen Zayas (my sister’s classmate in Shekinah) I think. Overall, just a “red” gestalt where it seemed like a Chinese festival pictorial. I dreamt I was seething because my dad and sister were emotionally bonding without me. 1. 1:31PM: OMG WHAT!!!!!! I posted a Mockingjay pin 3 days ago on my IG—a bird!!!!! Eileen means “beautiful bird” and Zayas means “guard or watchman” (Gregorio my grandfather “watchful” association). B. Velasco a few days ago. Little raven or “vigilant” or “wolf or young ruler.” I think Vico’s post about online gambling had a bird too (GPerya logo) with that wingspread pose. BIRDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOGOS shenanigans again breaking through my brain. I’m not currently smart enough to figure out why it happened in the way it did. Why Chinese red? Why birds? Specifically yellow/gold birds too. There was also this Grand Caprice vibe (Lim Ket Kai mall restaurant in CDO where we held our OCGS prom once). 2. In Chinese culture, red (**红**, _hóng_) is the most auspicious color, symbolizing **luck, joy, happiness, prosperity, and vitality**. It is heavily used in festivals, weddings, and to ward off evil spirits. Red also signifies revolutionary passion, while being considered taboo at funerals. 3. **The Phoenix (Egyptian/Greek Mythology):** Often described as having brilliant scarlet and gold plumage, the phoenix is a bird associated with the sun and immortality. It is not a maker of gold, but rather a creature that consumes itself in fire and is reborn from the ashes. 1. WOLFGANG AMADEUS PHOENIX TALKING TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! “1901” song with the “overrated Eiffel Tower.” 2. AND OMG??????????? BIRDY HAS A VERSION OF 1901 that is my favorite!!!!!! It’s a “hushed” version close to my heart. BIRDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BIRB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 3. WOLFGANG—>THE WAY—>PATH—>Going in the right direction hopefully. Red and gold lucky auspicious bird. Something about my “Goner/Serotonin Off Switch” story too, about “spraying crimson on gold (giant sunflowers).” 1. Serotonin Off Switch = S.O.S. = A story about a hermit survivor of an unnamed plague that lives underground in his self-sufficient bunker. His wife died of the disease and was immediately cryopreserved by her parents, only giving him an account to follow updates about her body’s condition. One day, after twenty-something years, she finally shows up “new and improved,” almost too perfect and even better than her previous body. Then he finds out that the underclass bombed the cryopreservation facility, destroying most of the bodies, but they only managed to save some DNA to reconstruct a body from the wife, who is now a cyborg of some sort. They have a sweet reunion, but then she goes missing the next day. The man is crushed, and he contemplates killing himself wondering if it was just a waking dream of finding her again in real life. Then he actually kills himself, “spraying red on gold (her favorite giant sunflowers)” but then the wife-cyborg shows up a few days/weeks later with a baby in tow, to surprise him supposedly, because they calculated that he would still wait (based on how long he has waited—20 years), because she harvested his sperm to create a baby in the cryopreservation facility. 1. I know, fucked up Romeo and Juliet. But it was all I knew how to write at the time in 2017. 4. **The Three-Legged Crow (Chinese Mythology):** Known as the _Sanzuwu_ or "Golden Crow," this bird lives in the sun and represents it. It is a symbol of power and, in some contexts, is depicted on gold ornaments. 5. The "Midas touch" refers to an uncanny, consistent ability to succeed in any venture, particularly in generating financial profit, akin to the mythological King Midas who turned everything he touched into gold. It is used as a compliment for someone whose actions or investments yield high success. 6. **Key Aspects of the Midas Touch:** 1. **Origin:** Derived from the Greek myth of King Midas, who was granted a wish by Dionysus to turn everything he touched into gold. 2. **Modern Usage:** It describes individuals with a Midas touch as having an extraordinary knack for business, investment, or achievement. 7. I remember adding “(They Long To Be) Close To You” by Carpenters. I heard it on The Simpsons. Birds suddenly appear every time you are near. Below entry written Jan. 28, 2026 2:32PM. Edited nought (correct: naught). <aside> 🤩 I think I did this to myself. I really went ahead and bought 5 Mockingjay emblems—2 necklaces (one with my mom right now), 2 keychains, and 1 brooch/pin. 5 birds. Clearly, the things I do in real life have a perceptible effect on the people who surface in my dreams. Eileen. “Bright shining light” “strength” “desired” “little bird.” Only I don’t see how clearly the meaning was able to penetrate my brain. Birds = Eileen. There is a veritable link here to people in real life with physical bodies holding meaning from their names and people constantly associating them with the name along with everyone else on Earth with that name, repeated countless times over their lifetimes, spoken in the air, spoken like an incantation, repeated with emotion and intention and direction and heart, that weight must be so big now, that it’s inevitable that it’s going to show up in my dreams. 1. MORE PROOF THAT I AM GOING SOMEWHERE WITH HOLY SPIRIT NAME MEANINGS!!!!!!! HUZZZAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is probably my greatest accidental discovery ever!!!!!!! Like how they discovered microwave technology with chocolate melting in their pocket!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2. More clues about Wolfgang. I really said, “It’s Wolfgang’s birthday” yesterday, hoping to talk to him. Now They bring me birds. I really said something about Chloe and Paris yesterday. Eiffel Tower. Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix song, 1901. Phoenixes as in rising from the ashes. A gold-red bird. GOLD AND RED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 3. I haven’t named my Holy Spirit yet. It has something to do with red hair. Now the other pair is naturally gold. Scarlet and gold. WOWZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FIVE (5) “sword and shields” from my A*Star profile picture in 2019. Five Mockingjays. PARALLELS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 4. “Golden” song by KPop Demon Hunters singer EJAE and et al. EJAE, as in Elaiza Jae Zayas, Eileen Zayas’s sister. My classmate. 1. The name Elaiza is of Hebrew and Spanish origin, commonly meaning **"God is my oath,"** **"pledged to God,"** or **"joyful"**. It is a variant of Elizabeth or Eliza and is often associated with strength, sophistication, and a,graceful nature. The name is also considered a derivative of Eloisa. 2. Referring to my Eloisa dream about “assigning my traits to other people” to look at it objectively. 3. You know who else is named “God is my oath?” Liza Diño wife if Ice Seguerra, someone who I also talked about yesterday. Why has this got so many things to do with what I talked about yesterday? It’s so weird. 4. Layers and layers of name meanings I need to draw on paper to see the overall shape of this iceberg/diagram of meaning. 5. The name Jae is a primarily gender-neutral name with significant roots in Korean culture, typically meaning **"talent," "ability," "wealth," or "riches"**. It is also used as a modern, short, or variant spelling of names like Jay, Jason, or James in English-speaking regions. 5. Maphile Canencia again. 1. Canencia is a small municipality in the Sierra Norte de Madrid, within the Community of Madrid, Spain, situated in a north-oriented valley at an altitude of 1,150 meters and covering an area of 52.7 square kilometers.[1][2] 2. Sierra Norte = Northern Mountain Range. 1. Mountains again. North Mountains. 5 mountains currently for 8 Octangula. 7 mountains for 12 Dodecahedron. 5 Mockingjays mean 5 sword and shields mean 7 from the 1 bird from Vico, 1 picture of the Mockingjay on IG from me with the quote. 1. Faint whiff of Big Bad Wolf trauma = Chicken Little. Chickens are birds too. Wolves again. Path. 6. I’m on the cusp of a big breakthrough, I can feel it. I wonder if this will lead to actual material results. I’m too short-sighted to see what the Real World effects of this would be. Let’s see, material decisions of people being influenced by what they dream about and the names they pick for their children. More careful, more aware of meaning in general, more open to literature and wordplay, hopefully a better world where people read more, read deeper, work harder on intention and meaning now that we know intention, desire, attunement, and emotion go a long way into the meaningful Grand Structure of Reality. Words truly have weight now. It is not all for naught. Truth be told, I am just in awe about it. I cannot stop marveling at it. The Words of the GODHEAD underlie all of the materials we see. It is not at all arbitrary. That is the Grand Fact. I could single-handedly (lol, as if) take down poststructuralism. 1. I call it “Main Authors Play Dead” instead of “Death of the Author” 1. **The "Death of the Author":** Roland Barthes argued that an author's intended meaning is not definitive; rather, the reader creates meaning, allowing for multiple, valid interpretations. 2. On the contrary, the Main Authors have been with us all along, they have just been whispering these clues hiding in plain sight but we were too asleep to hear them. We are finally beginning to catch up. THANK HEAVENS! </aside> ### Catchy Wordplay/Puns/Copy/Bursts & Spritz 👑 1. Andaming A(dam/tom)ic Mygad ### Personal Best/Personal Record 🎖️ 1. 12:19PM: Apparent improvement with rap skills with Venom by Eminem. I think my performance was 95% accurate with rhythm and timing. Without Dihexa!!!! ### Goal/Motivation/Fuel 🛢️ 1. SOUR PATCH KIDS CANDY ARRIVED TODAY!!!!!! 🍬 2. Imagine if you sell BOBOBEE, a 10k-word story hopefully. That’s $1400, which is 80,000 pesos. Imagine? Just think of Ideaverse Pro, money to buy medication like Dihexa and Bupropion and Omega-3. DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! ### Progress/Momentum ⚗️ 1. 4:24PM: Did a thing on Compass Rose. Creative diversion or brilliant idea to make it into a relativity clock a la Interstellar and Catching Fire. 2. I looked at my body and realized it’s not _that_ bad, after all. Another person wouldn’t be _that_ harsh to me. It just needs a little work. 3. 7:15PM: Forced myself to work out for just 5 minutes. I didn’t die. I feel more alert. You will always benefit from a little movement. Cannot wait to repeat in an hour, and the hour after that, and the hour after that. 20 minutes in no time. 4. I think I figured out a puzzling problem with Compass Rose. My logical mind for numbers is improving. Even if it’s technically not useful. Why is it so important to me to know the time? I don’t know yet. I just had a hit of inspiration. Maybe it could be useful like how Marivic was a random name that came to me a month ago. ### Weaknesses To Work On 🎛️ 1. It’s not worth it. Joining Young Creatives Challenge is a timesink because it will give you no material skills to use in the future. It is a long long shot. You do not know their judges. You have literally 3 days left. No, just no. 2. So you should focus on focusing. Completely watch 10 YouTube videos today, take notes, and call it a day. Pick wisely. 3. So you ideally get 500 words done out of the 10,000 you projected for BOBOBEE. Just 500, but make sure you have an arc and outline set up beforehand. ### Social Media 🀄 1. Dolch 2. Madrid is the capital and largest city of Spain, with its name most widely believed to derive from the Arabic _magerit_ or _mayrit_, meaning **"place of abundant water," "water channel," or "stream"**. This refers to the numerous streams and springs present in the area when the city was founded in the 9th century. 1. Well, “Tres” is also Bisaya for Three. 2. I suppose it’s my paternal grandma being the Jacob Valley Friend of the People. 3. That’s 300+ years of weight attached to Balingasag (fishnet + crab or alternative meaning “place of many rivers”) by sheer luck. 3. I have now just figured out why I forgot why “deleted” from 3 tildes didn’t make me think of porn. I don’t know why exactly. Brain fart? Deeper OSDD problem? I don’t want to think about it. 4. So now Mary = Justine Concha? and Eve = Impostor Justine? Interesting. Accidental Biblical weight again. I keep forgetting that my adviser really sent my draft to everybody. 5. calmlings emotional support cutiepies 🥹 6. It boggles the mind sometimes that there really was a person named Zandro Yuchengco who followed/added me a few days ago. If that was incidental, then it’s really odd that he’d add me out of the blue. No idea where he came from. But his last name means “abundance.” ### Craft 🔩 1. You really need to get neck deep into who your major characters are. 3-4 background scenes for each character. Flesh them out: flaw, misbelief, greatest fear, what happened to them that it took root through time? When did it happen? 2. Something has to sustain that thread of tension. An unexpected revelation, a twist, a slight change or destabilizing force that forces characters to think through something, act, make a decision, change their mind, react badly, pretend not to react, or something else. ### Sensations/Body Stuff 🫟 1. Took atomoxetine 2:15PM. 2. My eyesight is not so great today. ### Morning Pages ⚜️ Slow morning. It’s 10:13AM. I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Took too long to get ready. There is a gray-silver horse figurine in the renovated room of my deceased grandparents where I first heard “werewolf werewolf werewolf.” It’s about 10 inches in height. I assume it’s an heirloom piece. It’s kind of heavy. Gray horse? Pale shadow? Death? ### PROMPTS FOR TOMORROW Your primary assumption is that a GOD functions dually, just like our brains and sex. How do interrelationships work within the dually-acting GOD? Central question. Central assumption. Even North West doesn’t seem to be dual yet to you, and yet They showed up. They have always functioned as They in a dual way too—no clear gender but with feminine/masculine/neutral names (stop thinking of them as gendered, but it’s just a shortcut)—and no singular identity. They work together just like how two hemispheres keep in sync, and how people actually have sex. Something to do with that. Friction and tension and synchronization. Build up and release. Somehow, bipolar also has something to do with this. Mania and depression. Two extremes in one body. Polarity. Make their personalities jive and not jive at the same time. Something triggers something. Find exactly what triggers manic or depressive episodes. A few more things: 1. When you speak to Norr West (just decided to change her name to Norr West after my sister’s to avoid North West lawsuit in the future lol—still means North), you speak to the Young and the Old Face at the same time. Faces, that’s it. These two work in concert but They are also two sides that handle specific functions, just like the brain. They are essentially a two-personality hivemind. The Young and Old Face commune together in a discourse like a hivemind does (ask specifically how this could work, you know nothing about it yet). When I think about my own life, it has always been that the teenage self has been the strongest motivation source and the salience of my formative experiences coming from this period. 2. When you pray to a GOD, you are praying to a 2-person hivemind, constantly arguing/synchronizing/inhibiting/correcting/enriching/supporting each other and taking your input in as a debate. 3. **1. The corpus callosum: the great fiber highway** 1. This is the big one. A thick bundle of ~200 million nerve fibers connecting left and right. It ferries sensory data, motor plans, language cues, emotional context—basically a nonstop courier service. When it’s cut (rare surgeries, severe epilepsy cases), you get the famous “split-brain” effects where each hemisphere can act on its own knowledge. The weirdness proves the rule: normally, they are constantly synced. 4. **Functional specialization with mandatory cross-talk** 1. The hemispheres do lean different ways. The left often handles fine-grained sequencing, language syntax, and precise motor control. The right often handles spatial relationships, prosody (tone of speech), faces, and global patterns. 2. But here’s the key: almost no real task stays on one side. Speaking requires left-hemisphere grammar _and_ right-hemisphere tone and context. Catching a ball needs left-side timing _and_ right-side spatial prediction. Division of labor only works because the notes are shared. 5. **Inhibitory balance (not just cooperation, but restraint)** 1. They don’t only excite each other—they also suppress each other when needed. This mutual inhibition prevents redundancy and conflict. When one hemisphere takes the lead, it gently tells the other: “Stand by.” 2. This is why strokes or lesions can cause odd effects like neglect (ignoring half of space): one hemisphere loses the ability to counterbalance the other. 6. **Synchronized rhythms** 1. Neurons oscillate—literally. Brain waves (alpha, beta, gamma, etc.) often synchronize across hemispheres during tasks. This timing alignment is crucial. Even if both sides know _what_ to do, doing it at the same millisecond matters. Think of it as musicians agreeing on tempo before playing the same song 🎶. 7. **Bilateral sensory integration** 1. Your senses arrive split but leave unified. Vision is divided by visual fields, hearing arrives at both ears with microsecond differences, touch is mapped side-to-side. The hemispheres exchange this information so you experience _one_ world, not two half-movies awkwardly stitched together. 8. **Developmental wiring and plasticity** 1. Early in life, the hemispheres massively overconnect. Experience then sculpts which pathways stay strong. If one hemisphere is damaged early, the other can often take over surprising functions. Cooperation isn’t just hardwired—it’s trained. 9. **The punchline** 1. The hemispheres aren’t “logical vs creative” or “language vs art.” That’s a cartoon. They’re two highly specialized processors locked in permanent conversation, correcting, inhibiting, synchronizing, and enriching each other. Conscious experience emerges not from either side alone, but from the _argument and agreement between them_. 2. The brain, in other words, is not a duet—it’s a debate that somehow feels like a single voice 🧠✨