### **Grounding and Essential Routines (ง ͡ʘ ͜ʖ ͡ʘ)ง** - [x] Essential Stack - [ ] Again Bruno Mars++ - [x] DLPA prep - [x] MCT oil - [ ] HIIT - [ ] Meditation 15m - [ ] Another meditation session 15m - [x] Practice rap sing-along to get fluid juices flowing - [x] Iron - [ ] Preworkout **Take with fat sources:** - [x] Omega-3 breakfast - [x] Omega-3 lunch - [x] Omega-3 dinner - [ ] Magnesium + Glycine b4 sleep ### Hermeneutics/Semiotics/Psychophysics/Puso’y Tres ⛰️ 1. Just going by my theories of “Implied_Author” and human “implied_authors,” there’s a chance Samuel Kurt, my dead brother from an ectopic pregnancy actually exists somewhere in Heaven/heaven. If all went well, maybe he would have become like Stanley Sayson, a valedictorian/summa cum laude civil engineering student in UPD who could have looked conventionally attractive like my dad (my dad took up civil engineering too before he shifted to biology to eventually become a doctor to meet my mom), which is why I’m linking him to Kyle De Luna+Sam Alonto combo in the GODHEAD. He was conceived, maybe that’s enough to have the breath of life (just don’t tell this to the pro-abortion/pro-choice people). I suppose aborting a baby is “murder” in the sense that we cannot see its babyhood yet, but it’s already got the “start” of a really short “implied_author” inside the womb, its purposes seemingly tracking the state of the mother while she was pregnant, as it’s got nothing going on for it yet, with all its (eventually stalled) potential. 2. Came upon a name for the 12th Person from my old work from “Seasons of Mourning” (”Gideon”), the farmer-type who suffered Yolanda+guilt from being too upright, and Otep/Andrew from _Keeping Up With You_, the morally compromised heartthrob coder (stand-in for who now? not quite Stanley, but the other minor crushes I had in compsci). So it’s now Andrew Otep [”Joseph”] Gideon, in backwards order of production+editing+name change. 3. 7:19AM: So we really became **Stella Octangula** when 3 became 8. We became **Small/Great Stellated Dodecahedrons** when I pushed past 8 to 10, and we became **Great Icosahedron** when I pushed it even further to 12. 200 years after 1609, **Louis Poinsot (1809) allowed "star faces" and discovered two new regular star polyhedra: the great icosahedron and great dodecahedron, while the great dodecahedron is a dual polyhedron of the small stellated dodecahedron, which is just right to close that loop after 8 became 9-10. Somehow Aunt-Nephew (10th Person) is related to Helper-Royal/Pauper-Old Maids (11th Person), or that Uncle-Niece is related to the Utosan-Engineer (9th and 12th People).** 1. It’s just so synchronous that 3 looks visually like an 8 but scratched or chipped off, like it was always meant to be extended and restored. 4. Palestine flag colors 1. Hashemite — oldest ruling family dynasty [red] 1. They are the **second-oldest** ruling dynasty in the world. 1. The **Imperial House of Japan** (the Yamato Dynasty) is the world's oldest continuous hereditary monarchy, with historical evidence dating back at least to the 6th century (and traditional origins claimed as far back as 660 BCE). 2. However, the Hashemites are recognized for other significant "oldest" titles as of 2026: 1. **Oldest Ruling Dynasty in the Muslim World:** They have continuously ruled in some capacity for over a millennium, specifically governing the holy city of Mecca for over 700 years (roughly 10th century to 1925) before establishing their modern reign in Jordan. 2. **Oldest Continuous Monarchy in the Arab World:** Their rule in [**Jordan**](https://www.alhussein.jo/en/the-hashemites/history-hashemites), which began as an emirate in 1921, is the longest-standing continuous monarchy in the modern Arab world. 2. **[Rashidun Caliphate** (632–661)] — not on their flag 3. **Umayyad Caliphate** (661–750) [white] 4. **Abbasid Caliphate** (750–1258) [black] 5. **Fatimid Caliphate** (909–1171) [green] 6. I suppose Japan is a Grand Pointer too. I really cried when I watched that play about comfort women because they used the diaries as one of their motifs and I just remembered the “vaginal erosion” part being part of the physical trauma of being forcibly penetrated by hundreds of men per day without rest. I watched it in Wilfrido Ma. Guerrero Theater at AS/Palma Hall. GUERRERO. SYDNEY. 1. Wilfrido is a masculine name of Germanic origin, primarily used as a Spanish and Italian variant of Wilfred. Derived from elements meaning "will" or "desire" (wilw i l𝑤𝑖𝑙) and "peace" (friðf r i ð𝑓𝑟𝑖ð), it translates to **"desiring peace,"** **"willful peace,"** or **"resolute protector"**. The name signifies a gentle, harmonious nature and is common in Hispanic, Italian, and Filipino cultures. 2. MARIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 3. This is a Real Problem for after Unreal Image hopefully. Lore of Paloma and now comfort women accreting faster than I can say “denial.” ### Dreams 🧫 No dreams that I can recall. ✨ a n x i e t y ✨ over the possibility that the “kneel” was Their last vision for me until I complete Angel_GO and/or Unreal Image. Soul has been empty lately. Or that I sleep irregular hours and wake up “correctly” on the light sleep phase instead of REM/NREM. ### Ruminations 🩻 ### Catchy Wordplay/Puns/Copy/Bursts & Spritz 👑 ### Things to ask AI/Or not 📎 ### Personal Best/Personal Record 🎖️ ### Goal/Motivation/Fuel 🛢️ 1. Cannot wait for Saturday, Bupropion start. 2. A hankering to get the Big Ideas Simply Explained series of books, specifically the Sherlock, the Bible, the Philosophy, the Physics, the Law, the Economics, the Crime, the Science, the Shakespeare, and the Mythology one. I already have the Movie Book, I just wish I spent my voiceover money on those books instead of beauty stuff. ### Progress/Momentum ⚗️ 1. Woke up really early 5:15AM to get more time in the day. 2. 5:20AM: Accurately remembered and linked name meanings x3 3. Learned a better mechanistic model of my problems with focus and execution. It’s control/reuptake, valuation, and activation. I realize being a writer is inherently poised to encounter the “valuation + activation” problems stacked together, because so much of a writer’s effort is actually rejected based on subjective factors that take all the fun out of it, and the activation part—well, it’s hard to portion energy on something your brain has learned doesn’t work, or only works very rarely. Why keep trying? Why keep trying indeed to break through when nothing seems to work? Only the most determined and persevering writers make it through their procrastination, to trust in their instincts and work with the knowledge that their work WILL LAND at some point. It takes time and effort to persist despite not seeing any immediate reward at all, and I’m working against time and the baggage of short-form media consumption and general anhedonia anyway. Anhedonia was never my problem in high school because I kept getting into the honor roll anyway since practically birth, and when it didn’t happen once, my anger and rage took care of the rest. Not to mention the fact that I don’t find reading inherently rewarding, not like…let’s see, what do I even like these days? Nothing, short of sexual stimuli. I’m such a braindead meathead. I like tinkering, there’s that. I like exploring my ideas and landing somewhere novel, I suppose there’s that too, novelty and newness and excitement of discovering something that puts things in a new light. Lean into that when nothing gives you joy. 1. Make writing BOBOBEE fun and novel again #ClarkesworldQueen #BOBOBEEHAPPY 1. It’s been so long… I actually miss my 2017 days in Kamia Residence Hall writing “You Look Like Death” and even “Human Studies 401” even though that place was a shithole of shitholes. The blue light from my lamp, the mild powdery scent of Neutrogena toner that matches its color perfectly, that periwinkle blue. 1. My parents had no business making me and my sister stay in Kamia Residence Hall. I even encountered Joslyn Mae Real “the Royal” Asuncion looking at me with hostility when I attempted to collect the water payments and they told me somebody already did claim their money. I must have looked suspicious. Imagine talking with a Southern conyo twang and being forced to stay in a dilapidated dorm for actual poor students, they must have thought, “Wow, hard luck.” I’m somebody they are aspiring to be, someone with a MacBook of all things, but apparently, what it looked like, my parents “lost our wealth” because my sister and I had been staying at Kamia then, with its 150/month lodging and no aircon and creaky flimsy bedframes and slimy CR floors. ### Weaknesses To Work On 🎛️ ### Social Media 🀄 1. D’OH. Like, in the “Every Morning” song by Sugar Ray, if he’s the “girlfriend with a four-poster bed” he’s not “an angel” in bed? 😅 Also, borrowed glory or something. I did mention the halo effect, I think. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ### Songs 🎤 It’s my dad’s birthday today AND it’s Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart’s birthday too!!!!!! Thankfully my dad got over his casino algorithm special interest so now I’m putting this song for the universe to see (Sydney’s Magic Flute—”Elizabeth Yu Is a Universal Constant”). [https://open.spotify.com/track/6KDi5XMkVPpkGEr4nGABNE?si=a21fbbcd308c4708](https://open.spotify.com/track/6KDi5XMkVPpkGEr4nGABNE?si=a21fbbcd308c4708) ### Craft 🔩 Behold, the **Syntopicon**, a cheaper option for those balking at the $300 price of Ideaverse Pro. It’s only $15.00, which is much more budget-friendly. It’s also built for Notion, for those who want to copy me. I have a craving to try it out to harvest its strengths for my eventual Ideaverse Pro exploration. [https://www.rcwaldun.com/your-syntopicon](https://www.rcwaldun.com/your-syntopicon) ### Teaching/Repentance/Worship 🛐 **Revelation Chapter 9** **9** The fifth angel sounded his trumpet, and I saw a star that had fallen from the sky to the earth. The star was given the key to the shaft of the Abyss. **2** When he opened the Abyss, smoke rose from it like the smoke from a gigantic furnace. The sun and sky were darkened by the smoke from the Abyss. **3** And out of the smoke locusts came down on the earth and were given power like that of scorpions of the earth. **4** They were told not to harm the grass of the earth or any plant or tree, but only those people who did not have the seal of God on their foreheads. **5** They were not allowed to kill them but only to torture them for five months. And the agony they suffered was like that of the sting of a scorpion when it strikes. **6** During those days people will seek death but will not find it; they will long to die, but death will elude them. **7** The locusts looked like horses prepared for battle. On their heads they wore something like crowns of gold, and their faces resembled human faces. **8** Their hair was like women’s hair, and their teeth were like lions’ teeth. **9** They had breastplates like breastplates of iron, and the sound of their wings was like the thundering of many horses and chariots rushing into battle. **10** They had tails with stingers, like scorpions, and in their tails they had power to torment people for five months. **11** They had as king over them the angel of the Abyss, whose name in Hebrew is Abaddon and in Greek is Apollyon (that is, Destroyer). **12** The first woe is past; two other woes are yet to come. **13** The sixth angel sounded his trumpet, and I heard a voice coming from the four horns of the golden altar that is before God. **14** It said to the sixth angel who had the trumpet, “Release the four angels who are bound at the great river Euphrates.” **15** And the four angels who had been kept ready for this very hour and day and month and year were released to kill a third of mankind. **16** The number of the mounted troops was twice ten thousand times ten thousand. I heard their number. **17** The horses and riders I saw in my vision looked like this: Their breastplates were fiery red, dark blue, and yellow as sulfur. The heads of the horses resembled the heads of lions, and out of their mouths came fire, smoke and sulfur. **18** A third of mankind was killed by the three plagues of fire, smoke and sulfur that came out of their mouths. **19** The power of the horses was in their mouths and in their tails; for their tails were like snakes, having heads with which they inflict injury. **20** The rest of mankind who were not killed by these plagues still did not repent of the work of their hands; they did not stop worshiping demons, and idols of gold, silver, bronze, stone and wood—idols that cannot see or hear or walk. **21** Nor did they repent of their murders, their magic arts, their sexual immorality or their thefts. ### **The Mighty Angel with the Little Book - Revelation 10** **10** I saw still another mighty angel coming down from heaven, clothed with a cloud. And a rainbow _was_ on his head, his face _was_ like the sun, and his feet like pillars of fire. **2** He had a little book open in his hand. And he set his right foot on the sea and _his_ left _foot_ on the land, **3** and cried with a loud voice, as _when_ a lion roars. When he cried out, seven thunders uttered their voices. **4** Now when the seven thunders [[a](https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Revelation%2010&version=NKJV#fen-NKJV-30866a)]uttered their voices, I was about to write; but I heard a voice from heaven saying [[b](https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Revelation%2010&version=NKJV#fen-NKJV-30866b)]to me, “Seal up the things which the seven thunders uttered, and do not write them.” **5** The angel whom I saw standing on the sea and on the land raised up his [[c](https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Revelation%2010&version=NKJV#fen-NKJV-30867c)]hand to heaven **6** and swore by Him who lives forever and ever, who created heaven and the things that are in it, the earth and the things that are in it, and the sea and the things that are in it, that there should be delay no longer, **7** but in the days of the sounding of the seventh angel, when he is about to sound, the mystery of God would be finished, as He declared to His servants the prophets. ### **John Eats the Little Book** **8** Then the voice which I heard from heaven spoke to me again and said, “Go, take the little book which is open in the hand of the angel who stands on the sea and on the earth.” **9** So I went to the angel and said to him, “Give me the little book.” And he said to me, “Take and eat it; and it will make your stomach bitter, but it will be as sweet as honey in your mouth.” **10** Then I took the little book out of the angel’s hand and ate it, and it was as sweet as honey in my mouth. But when I had eaten it, my stomach became bitter. **11** And [[d](https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Revelation%2010&version=NKJV#fen-NKJV-30873d)]he said to me, “You must prophesy again about many peoples, nations, tongues, and kings.” ## KEY 🔑 **Abyss** = Bis as “King of the Abyss”—I literally made this in 2018 as a pun on my own name “Abby” = Abyss = Abby + Bis. **Star** = Me with Unreal Image given key to the Abyss (my ALL_GO in 2018 unearthed again in 2026) **Red, yellow, and blue breastplates** of 4 angels = Philippines in this case, the four angels are the FOUR HORSEMEN = RED (WAR/CONFLICT/MANIA), GREEN(YELLOW FOR LYING/PROPHECY/GREEN FOR DEATH/PLAGUE/DEPRESSION), WHITE (CONQUEST/FALSE PROPHECY/HOLY SPIRIT LANGUAGE-NAME MEANINGS/FUTURE-TELLING), BLACK (BLUE—FAMINE, ECONOMICS, LAW, THE COST OF BREAD **Interpretation:** While commonly understood as famine, some interpretations, such as [**Wikipedia's**](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Four_Horsemen_of_the_Apocalypse), link it to the economic consequences of excessive taxation during the Roman Empire, referencing historian Edward Gibbon. ) I suppose the Black/Blue Horse includes politics entirely. Not my field. **13** The sixth angel sounded his trumpet, and I heard a voice coming from the four horns of the golden altar that is before God. **14** It said to the sixth angel who had the trumpet, “Release the four angels who are bound at the great river Euphrates.” **15** And the four angels who had been kept ready for this very hour and day and month and year were released to kill a third of mankind. **16** The number of the mounted troops was twice ten thousand times ten thousand. I heard their number. **17** The horses and riders I saw in my vision looked like this: Their breastplates were fiery red, dark blue, and yellow as sulfur. **NO WHITE BREASTPLATE**, it’s a little too on-the-nose at this point, my Angel_GO is really not pure and peaceful. DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The white equilateral triangle on the Philippine flag represents **liberty, equality, and fraternity**. It is a symbol of the Katipunan, the secret society that led the revolution against Spanish rule. The white color also represents purity and peace. **Key Aspects of the White Triangle:** - **Symbolism:** It stands for the fundamental values of _liberty_, _equality_, and _fraternity_. - **Historical Significance:** Inspired by the Masonic-influenced emblems of the Katipunan (KKK). - **Design Elements:** It contains a golden sun with eight rays (representing the first eight provinces to revolt against Spain) and three five-pointed stars (representing Luzon, Visayas, and Mindanao). - **Color Meaning:** It signifies purity and peace. **SINCE CAGAYAN IS THE LONGEST RIVER IN THE PHILIPPINES, SAFE TO SAY WE ARE “BOUND AT THE VERY GREAT RIVER OF EUPHRATES”(V.14).** The Euphrates is **the longest river in Western Asia**, stretching approximately 1,730 miles (2,800 km) from the Armenian Highlands in Turkey through Syria and Iraq, where it joins the Tigris to flow into the Persian Gulf. As a vital, ancient water source for the "cradle of civilization" (Mesopotamia), it is now heavily managed by dams (such as Turkey's [Atatürk Dam](https://www.google.com/search?q=Atat%C3%BCrk+Dam&oq=river+euphrates&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&ved=2ahUKEwjpoJ7jyaqSAxW7g2MGHfotD5oQgK4QegYIAQgAEBE)) for irrigation and hydroelectric power. **EUPHRATES = YOU AFRAID OF (DIS) = YOU ARE AFRAID OF HELL/PAIN/TRAUMA (6th-9th circles of Hell in The Divine Comedy by Dante Alighieri)** ### dis /dis/ **informal** _verb_ 1. speak disrespectfully to or [criticize](https://www.google.com/search?sca_esv=41ca82403af5db06&sxsrf=ANbL-n4j_hER135hxwlstbb28PhcXZiYgg:1769477978690&q=criticize&si=AL3DRZENm3Vb5fKAKJGBSnAO98GGmt_mnh8fe2G5i77Q7G6qTx_EX-FomxzfbzQKymp9h2llcafgc3c41F7NkBqKSsFg41O4Luf6O2iN9IKv0X_gLMX74VU%3D&expnd=1&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwiZgu6Sy6qSAxWD7zgGHdDjOagQyecJegQILhAP). "I don't like her dissing my friends" _noun_ 1. [disrespectful](https://www.google.com/search?sca_esv=41ca82403af5db06&sxsrf=ANbL-n4j_hER135hxwlstbb28PhcXZiYgg:1769477978690&q=disrespectful&si=AL3DRZGLJAOrp1pRHmnp3xTOQ8sDQB0x_bNOVEKHA5VCxJA5UA1tiC4KTaxkR_x3e5VWF_79pMYLBVC3kqaVGHM2sGBMQSeXev2yDkiXl32tAk80TLiL3C0%3D&expnd=1&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwiZgu6Sy6qSAxWD7zgGHdDjOagQyecJegQILhAR) talk. "the airwaves bristle with the sexual dis of shock jocks" **Somewhat afraid of dissing from other people. I will lose a lot of shame at that point anyway.** The name Euphrates, originating from ancient Greek and Persian roots ([_Ufratu_](https://www.google.com/search?q=Ufratu&sca_esv=41ca82403af5db06&sxsrf=ANbL-n5HPtZNYy6DQlCCSywfr1ydppTRvA%3A1769477693026&ei=PRZ4adCYAf-P4-EP-r-VqQ4&ved=2ahUKEwi5xcuRyqqSAxXk0KACHTG2GOMQgK4QegQIARAB&uact=5&oq=euphrates+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFmV1cGhyYXRlcyBuYW1lIG1lYW5pbmcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDhAAGLADGOQCGNYE2AEBMg4QABiwAxjkAhjWBNgBATIOEAAYsAMY5AIY1gTYAQEyExAuGIAEGLADGEMYyAMYigXYAQEyExAuGIAEGLADGEMYyAMYigXYAQFI3AVQ7QFY9wRwAXgBkAEAmAG_AaABtwWqAQMwLjS4AQPIAQD4AQGYAgGgAgiYAwCIBgGQBhG6BgYIARABGAmSBwExoAeGHrIHALgHAMIHAzItMcgHBYAIAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp)), primarily means **"good to cross over" or "good flowing water"**. It is heavily associated with the Euphrates River, representing "the great river," "abundance," or "**fertility**". It is often interpreted as "that which makes fruitful". **Key Etymological Origins and Meanings:** - [**Persian](https://www.google.com/search?q=Persian&sca_esv=41ca82403af5db06&sxsrf=ANbL-n5HPtZNYy6DQlCCSywfr1ydppTRvA%3A1769477693026&ei=PRZ4adCYAf-P4-EP-r-VqQ4&ved=2ahUKEwi5xcuRyqqSAxXk0KACHTG2GOMQgK4QegQIAxAB&uact=5&oq=euphrates+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFmV1cGhyYXRlcyBuYW1lIG1lYW5pbmcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDhAAGLADGOQCGNYE2AEBMg4QABiwAxjkAhjWBNgBATIOEAAYsAMY5AIY1gTYAQEyExAuGIAEGLADGEMYyAMYigXYAQEyExAuGIAEGLADGEMYyAMYigXYAQFI3AVQ7QFY9wRwAXgBkAEAmAG_AaABtwWqAQMwLjS4AQPIAQD4AQGYAgGgAgiYAwCIBgGQBhG6BgYIARABGAmSBwExoAeGHrIHALgHAMIHAzItMcgHBYAIAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp) (Ufratu/Avestan):** Derived from _hu-perethuua_, meaning "good to cross" or a "good ford". - [**Greek](https://www.google.com/search?q=Greek&sca_esv=41ca82403af5db06&sxsrf=ANbL-n5HPtZNYy6DQlCCSywfr1ydppTRvA%3A1769477693026&ei=PRZ4adCYAf-P4-EP-r-VqQ4&ved=2ahUKEwi5xcuRyqqSAxXk0KACHTG2GOMQgK4QegQIAxAD&uact=5&oq=euphrates+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFmV1cGhyYXRlcyBuYW1lIG1lYW5pbmcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDhAAGLADGOQCGNYE2AEBMg4QABiwAxjkAhjWBNgBATIOEAAYsAMY5AIY1gTYAQEyExAuGIAEGLADGEMYyAMYigXYAQEyExAuGIAEGLADGEMYyAMYigXYAQFI3AVQ7QFY9wRwAXgBkAEAmAG_AaABtwWqAQMwLjS4AQPIAQD4AQGYAgGgAgiYAwCIBgGQBhG6BgYIARABGAmSBwExoAeGHrIHALgHAMIHAzItMcgHBYAIAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp) (Euphrates):** Often associated with "good" and "crossing" or "flowing," sometimes linked to the idea of a "sweet water" stream. - [**Sumerian/Akkadian](https://www.google.com/search?q=Sumerian%2FAkkadian&sca_esv=41ca82403af5db06&sxsrf=ANbL-n5HPtZNYy6DQlCCSywfr1ydppTRvA%3A1769477693026&ei=PRZ4adCYAf-P4-EP-r-VqQ4&ved=2ahUKEwi5xcuRyqqSAxXk0KACHTG2GOMQgK4QegQIAxAF&uact=5&oq=euphrates+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFmV1cGhyYXRlcyBuYW1lIG1lYW5pbmcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDhAAGLADGOQCGNYE2AEBMg4QABiwAxjkAhjWBNgBATIOEAAYsAMY5AIY1gTYAQEyExAuGIAEGLADGEMYyAMYigXYAQEyExAuGIAEGLADGEMYyAMYigXYAQFI3AVQ7QFY9wRwAXgBkAEAmAG_AaABtwWqAQMwLjS4AQPIAQD4AQGYAgGgAgiYAwCIBgGQBhG6BgYIARABGAmSBwExoAeGHrIHALgHAMIHAzItMcgHBYAIAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp) (Buranun/Pu-rat-tu):** The ancient, pre-Iranian name likely meaning "the river" or "the great river". - [**Kurdish](https://www.google.com/search?q=Kurdish&sca_esv=41ca82403af5db06&sxsrf=ANbL-n5HPtZNYy6DQlCCSywfr1ydppTRvA%3A1769477693026&ei=PRZ4adCYAf-P4-EP-r-VqQ4&ved=2ahUKEwi5xcuRyqqSAxXk0KACHTG2GOMQgK4QegQIAxAH&uact=5&oq=euphrates+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiFmV1cGhyYXRlcyBuYW1lIG1lYW5pbmcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyChAAGLADGNYEGEcyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDRAAGIAEGLADGEMYigUyDhAAGLADGOQCGNYE2AEBMg4QABiwAxjkAhjWBNgBATIOEAAYsAMY5AIY1gTYAQEyExAuGIAEGLADGEMYyAMYigXYAQEyExAuGIAEGLADGEMYyAMYigXYAQFI3AVQ7QFY9wRwAXgBkAEAmAG_AaABtwWqAQMwLjS4AQPIAQD4AQGYAgGgAgiYAwCIBgGQBhG6BgYIARABGAmSBwExoAeGHrIHALgHAMIHAzItMcgHBYAIAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp) (Ferat/Fırat):** Interpreted as "wide flowing water". The Euphrates is historically significant as a lifeline in Mesopotamia, the "Cradle of Civilization". The name is associated with the idea of fertility and abundance, often used in biblical contexts to represent the "great river" of Eden or the boundary of the promised land. ### Sensations/Body Stuff 🫟 1. Took 1/2 armodafinil 7:30AM. 2. Took caffeine 11AMish. ### Random(x) 🕳️ 1. I hope I’m not the only one who feels bad for minor characters who get shot and snuffed out—like, all your life spent living and having memories and values and history, only to be shot/maimed by the main character re: Thunderbolts casual violence. 2. FINALLY INSTALLED ADOBE ACROBAT PRO ON MY LAPTOP!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAAAAAAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 3. Completely forgot about military dream. Oh well. I ought to add the possibility of a multiverse too in The_Final_Assay to explore the potential of Unreal Image’s ideas. I suppose someone will write The__Final__Final_Assay. And The _Final__Final_Final_Assay. Ad infinitum like your thesis/dissertation “final version I swear” updates. LOL. Or I myself will add addendums to it after people criticize it, and then I’ll absorb and transcend their criticisms again. 4. Ok, so Mike Falgui’s book doesn’t have a last name for Pedrito. So Santiago it is. It’s for Saint James anyway, which is faintly Jacob. So Lauren Baldo the illustrator is a trans man! I’m half a trans man anyway who wants to look feminine on the outside, so I’m a trans woman with extra (convoluted) steps. ![[image 2.webp]] ### Morning Pages ⚜️ OH HEYO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 11:19AM MICRO-BRILLIANCE!!!! Attached Stella Undécima to the meaning of having your freedom and liberty curtailed whether imprisonment, being trapped in a wrong body, wrong circumstances you couldn’t help, and other deprived situations. Matches well with Barbie Princess and the Pauper’s Erika character arc!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BOY THIS IS A SIGN I’M GOING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. I had some doubt. But Erika in Barbie is also related to Am-is Erika from my dream about my sister in the 1900s. Something about a deified Erika-Trisha hybrid, only now it’s Erika the Pauper deified. What a PLOT TWIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I have just googled what the celebrity name meanings are in that list of 7 people. Spooked/elated they are all somehow “talking” about me/my dad a “Valley,” “Christmas Day,” a meadow/clearing = Sydney, Sebastian = venerable, Nicole, “Famous Victory,” “Rose,” something about battles again, Paz/peace = Mary association. Gold again. Etc. etc. Of course, these are just the famous examples. Survivorship bias? There must be other explanations. Why are they all (even faintly) related to the “Narrative.” Allen Iverson? Interesting. Progress with Pedrito Santiago the GOD of Lolo-Grandson bond. I really had to, I guess. — 5:06PM Spooked out that I just now realized North West is “2 Truths and a Lie” interpretation. Ya’ll. WTF. My brain “forgot” this fact? I don’t know how. It seems external. Why would my own brain structure the Divine Message in this way? 2 TRUTHS AND A LIE???????????????????????????????????????????????????? What about this phrase? LOL North West said it herself. “Groomed to be a Savior.” So Vico really is also that too? Albeit, persuaded? Huh. Spooked or kind of alarmed that 2 Truths and a Lie is an “icebreaker” as in, I wrote about Daughter Emergency on Jan 18 while he had followed Ice Seguerra with her group chat named “icebreaker” on Jan 17 I think. So, my brain did not consciously know how 2 Truths and a Lie is an icebreaker. It’s not even a “laylayan knowledge” because I had no interest in team-building social skills at that point. So it definitely did not come from my own brain. They used what I recently saw and focused on in Balingasag (BRO BEE CODE) on Jan 17/18 and then literally saw me typing here right now to increase/decrease doubt. Who knows? I’m not lying to anybody. I really did not know it was an icebreaker. I’m constantly being shocked every other day and I swear it makes me inutile. Just really numb right now. Overload. My parents do not believe me. Yeah, I told them how I became snappy at them not only because I am being curtailed of medication, but also because of this “Secret Project” that I was unwittingly part of since probably December 2025. How all my medication pursuit was an attempt to get to real work now. I know all of these shocking discoveries like they are facts, and they’re not quite surprising me anymore to make me do anything about it. Maybe this is why North West and et al. aren’t talking to me lately. They just know They’re going to make me ineffective because I’m just overwhelmed by everything. I told my parents about the Bible being a “Build-a-Bitch” (well, not bitch, I didn’t say this) where you put stuff together and build on top of it and it’s never done anyway. I even told them there are possibly more than 3 in the previous Godhead. They appeared to be shocked, mildly considered my “psychosis” and then the next day suggested that I was hearing things “not of God” or something (I told them about North West booming in my ears). I don’t know, they will never believe me. You tell them. So icebreaker, the only context I currently remember is me talking about it like, “maybe if I go get an online degree in Philosophy at U of Edinburgh it’ll give me authority and a nice icebreaker topic.” That’s it. Maybe philosophy really is my Star. Specifically philosophy of science or religion. I need to rewatch that webinar with James Read and that one about dreams or something. Yeah, “dreams.” There is a massive iceberg of context that people cannot accept about me. How am I supposed to explain this to a complete stranger? Maybe I was aware vaguely of that phrase. 2 Truths and a Lie. Why would my own brain talk to me again like this? Only, it doesn’t ring “icebreaker” to me. It’s a “game” to me. How would They know to attach “icebreaker” from Ice Seguerra to the associations of “game” in my head? 6:09PM: Well, Vico is literally living out my nightmare. Somebody using my Real Body to impersonate me for dark ends. I suppose there is a girl out there reading me with a 4-name combo that could match too. I mean, you do you. Whatever. I’m dead set on my knowledge pursuit anyway. I mean, it’s not a real “metaphor” in the sense that it’s still him “virtually” as in probably. If I was not smart enough in a “media literacy” way to question who it’s coming from and what they intended to happen, I would be fooled too. Who is using my data to deform it to their ends? Lumads? I care about ownership. Don’t think for a second I’m a Kumbaya Jesus. I’m not easily letting go of “my lands” under my own name. Why would I betray my family? I just made communists my enemies today. Violent people who have every reason to kill me with their arms to prevent Christian supremacy again. Those people have literally made threats to harm us if we do not stop. I suppose it’s rigged because my grandfather got there first to buy the land from other people for millions of pesos in the 70s. I literally do not even benefit and my dad is considered poor. We are a very strange family with no luxury whatsoever but with bloated bank accounts probably (I have no clue what for?). Just hoarding it by not even buying better education and software. You know what would be strange, when they actually find a girl from “the masses” themselves like Sydney’s thesis in CW 199 from Larissa Suarez to take down the “scammer.” I mean, duality. They made a way in the Bible to copy Moses, I suppose that’s possible now. Well, communists have access to me too, I guess. What don’t you know about me? You know you talked to everybody I am faintly associated with. “You remember talking to this strange Inglishera? What was she like? Is she really…”funny” or “charming” or whatever.” No, I’m not. It’s fakery all the way down. You really think I talk to people in this way in real life? No. People scare me. They’re all ego-driven and dishonest and will use you every chance they get to get something from you. Adults, basically. Social validation is just a tool to smoothen the transaction. Fake. I suppose you feel good somewhat. Otherwise, why? Friendship is somewhat like this too. You have to maintain something. Why maintain something that gives you sub-low amounts of good chemicals? Brain cannot see sense. I suppose birthing another Jesus like me would be unwise. Why would I subject another human to the curse of emotional starvation? Come to think of it, this is Terrorist Jesus speaking. Mother is extremely socially sexual and validated automatically because they’re attractive. Meanwhile, trans Jesus is just a husk of fakeness trying to mateness. I suppose the father they slept with was like this, an actual psychopath billionaire (or millionaire) who used her body but did not marry her. You know what’s really bad about my life, everything about it is like, “you could have gotten ____, you almost have it…but no.” Something I realized a while back. Being so close to beauty, money, intelligence, I suppose virtual “skills” of writing. Strange position to be in to be “virtual.” All right. Blackpill is not even hitting that hard. Something is very wrong now. It’s Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart’s birthday today, so maybe I’ll nap and hope I get to talk to him again. I suppose it really is worse to be “almost.” With the Other, they have no clue but only imagine what they’re missing unless they have rich/beautiful/smart/social friends who let them in on the benefits. I don’t have to imagine what I’m missing with the mansions and all, I was invited to Chloe Lu’s house in 4th year. I saw everything that she has. Chloe is who every girl wants to be right now, her family has stakes and shares in nearly every company in the Philippines. Quiet billionaires in CDO. I can’t believe I went to high school with her. Chloe is who every girl wants to look like too. And she studied being a chef in Paris. Like her mom. Food, beauty, money, access, culture, approximate love with similar-status people. Different problems unfathomable to me, but somehow I’m also dealing with unfathomable problems now. I have a real deadline to make it. Nothing is going to make me work, though. I’m just so empty and anhedonic. All I care about is Atomoxetine making me artificially “on.” And getting through this week alive with the dreams and all. Suppose it’s just my brain doing all of this. It’s known to me that my brain “dissociates” while dreaming and assigns some of my traits to other people I know to “talk about me” while I watch virtually. I don’t know what to make about it yet. It’s specifically choosing these people, maybe for a reason. Like “I’ll show you what this looks like objectively to another person watching you” but my own brain working out too hard to maybe compensate for the fact that my behavior in real life doesn’t quite understand how social rules work. Suppose it’s a spirit again, trying to teach me something. They just can’t deal with the secondhand embarrassment of me being so bad at something everybody has mastered by the age of ten. They’re literally helping me dream of these things, but I guess they want something back too. It’s just that something is not so clear to me sometimes. Who do I owe? Who do I even thank? Aliens. Aliens who are better at humans with the human thing. I suppose they got rid of billionaires already. That’s why they’re expanding to include our AnitaVerse by sending me Jesus signifiers through organic radio. They just know that I’ll believe in a GODHEAD really well and really true because I always was rooting for Jesus even if I got mad at God a lot. To some people, my “kind” is not going to fix ourselves by becoming philanthropists and humanitarians. They have all the reason more to make me a target to satisfy bloodlust on both sides. I mean, sure. What would that do though? Buy you time to hide in a bunker? Hoard groceries? I suppose they use “paawa” like me to garner support. Yeah, I suggest use that. Children. But do not enslave them with child labor. GOOD GOD. Don’t even have children if you can’t take care of them. This is just a cesspool again. Am I really going to tell people, “Hey, you do not have the best chances in life, so better not try at all anymore.” Well, for me it’s true. It’s a flaw. It’s what Audrey told me her flaw is too. We are people who do not bother to try anymore because somebody out there is already the best at it. I suppose you indoctrinate or teach children sooner than they can really question. But they’ll end up like me exposed to the Real World treasure hunt just bitter about it all. That’s a real problem of children’s authors. Why would you lie to children about sentimental endings that will make them bitter when they grow up a little more. I suppose it’s better than my situation of finding out too early about the natural world or “how things really are.” I was over before it began, choosing to fantasize of boys instead to avoid what they told me. Everything that happens in childhood will haunt you. I suppose, I suppose, I suppose. — 9:27PM: So I really went to the ref 3 times just to think. I don’t know, I caught myself in a loop because I’m not even hungry. Just automatically wanting to consume something but not food. — ### KING JAMES VI and I THE SAME PEOPLE IN CHARGE OF BIBLE!!!!!! AUSTRIA AS IN WOLFGANG!!!!!! _Harmonices Mundi_ (The Harmony of the World), published in 1619 by [Johannes Kepler](https://www.google.com/search?q=Johannes+Kepler&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&mstk=AUtExfCrs9kLH7BpFKicxIghps8togwhKypj7S5Tr2_gGHsozB0a-r66xicZWZFTQdgj2G7P_Ot6Z-JrHIFeURaRpzpsn__NRKSnasngX9Fo-SztfZs2Td69dOlByYMD2Pu0lM_x1R9a46nArCInMWmzdUTicgkDU2bQmpvX5CnLLRL-AnE&csui=3&ved=2ahUKEwiTpYXA9quSAxXGka8BHVeHG00QgK4QegQIARAD), is a seminal scientific work that bridges geometry, music, and astronomy. It famously details Kepler’s third law of planetary motion, establishing that the ratio a3/T2a cubed / cap T squared𝑎3/𝑇2 (orbital distance cubed over period squared) is constant for all planets. The book explores the "music of the spheres," proposing that planetary movements follow harmonic, musical ratios. **Key Aspects of _Harmonices Mundi_**  • **The Third Law:** The work introduced the, P2=a3cap P squared equals a cubed𝑃2=𝑎3 formula (where Pcap P𝑃 is orbital period in years and aa𝑎 is the semi-major axis in AU), defining the "law of harmonies". • **Structure:** The book is divided into five parts, covering regular polygons, musical harmonies, and the "harmonic" motions of the solar system. • **Goal:** Kepler aimed to prove that the cosmos was designed based on geometric and musical principles. • **Context:** It was published in Linz, Austria, and dedicated to King James VI and I. **Harmonices Mundi** was published in **1619** — and the most precise historically defensible answer is: **mid-1619, very likely July 1619**, in **Linz**. Here’s the careful, historian-approved version 🧐📐: - **Johannes Kepler** completed the manuscript earlier in 1619. - Printing and release occurred **that same year**, while Kepler was living in Linz. - **No exact day is recorded** in surviving documents. Yeah, joke’s on me now. I “fell headlong into infatuation” in July 2018 with Mike. Met him/saw him first on June 6, 2018. Explains the 6/6 in ALL_GO. I took the last exam in late July of that year wanting to give him a letter to thank him. Never gave it. Instead, I ruined his life. — I vaguely tagged “Fineshrine” by Purity Ring with that Star Movies in-between-ad with James McAvoy in it in my childhood.