### **Grounding and Essential Routines (ง ͡ʘ ͜ʖ ͡ʘ)ง** - [x] Essential Stack - [x] Again+Drag Path+Turning Page+The Scientist - [x] DLPA prep - [x] MCT oil - [x] HIIT - [ ] Meditation 15m - [ ] Another meditation session 15m - [x] Practice rap sing-along to get fluid juices flowing - [x] Iron - [x] Preworkout **Take with fat sources:** - [x] Omega-3 breakfast - [x] Omega-3 lunch - [ ] Omega-3 dinner - [ ] Magnesium L-threonate + Glycine before sleep ### Hermeneutics/Semiotics/Psychophysics/Puso’y Tres ⛰️ 1. GRAND Synchronicity again. I was literally asleep and after I had these sets of thoughts that were chained to each other, I realized I had a Grand Epiphany and that I should add an emoji for each of the GODHEAD now. GOD the Father-Mother Marivic is just going to be the Eyes that vaguely remind us of Eyes, not EYES. So I realized all that in 4-5 minutes I think, because I probably woke up at 2:02AM today after realizing something I don’t remember anymore. That means 2:02=202 = 101 from CW 101. Important. I as the “eye” or “i” or “implied_author” become positive today aside from negative? 1/26/26. Interesting. 2. 11th Person Wonder. I wonder, wonder, wonder. Exciting. Something that collapses _Main_ Main to Main and unite them all. 3. 11:55AM: 12th Person discovery. Boy. These are 30-year-old++ Abby problems. ### Dreams 🧫 1. Shekinah grade school dream in grade 2 classroom with the classroom dividers opened so I could see all of the classrooms, but not time travel I think. I was hiding crouched on the floor underneath a table or near a cubicle waiting for other children to come back into the classrooms. That’s it. I was also a male child or the feeling that I was a male child. It was a pleasant dream. ### Ruminations 🩻 1. 2:38PM. Feeling more numb than usual. None of my songs are hitting it. Maybe work will save me. Reward receptors are fried. I’m not particularly expecting anything. I just can’t wait to get Ideaverse Pro and get to my yellow pad and pink and greens. And backread all my notes these past few days. ### Goal/Motivation/Fuel 🛢️ 1. Officially ran out of Dihexa today after 18 days. Hopefully I will buy 1-2 grams again for about 11,200 pesos. 2. New Dong-A My-Gel Pens!!!! SWEET JUICY SMOOTH GEL PENS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 3. Finally get Concerta in February/March hopefully. ### Progress/Momentum ⚗️ 1. 12:20PM. Mildly upset nothing is done. 2. Realized I have 1.2 hours left to submit to Nightmare. Eh. 1:49PM. In time to notice I am running out of time. 3. 2:24PM: Made some brilliant tweaks and edits on Flowers!, five poems, and Vision flash story and submitted in the nick of time to Nightmare Magazine. #recyclingbin 1. Information stream/design in Flowers, Max, and Lucky! was just accidentally brilliant again. Hand of GOD? You were a natural in 2022. (_big sigh)_ 4. I identified very nicely the 11th Person of the GODHEAD who is Stella Undécima the Concubine. I wonder who is going to be the 12th Person. Probably an Engineer-Architect type who is the “Prime Grammatron” or Demiurge. Materiality-Spirit Bridge. I have no idea who to base it on yet. They are likely the combination of engineers+lowly workers who work with the material world closely and have no time for abstract stuff like character formation, values, superego, highbrow literature. The GOD of entertainment too. The most slapstick clown shit because they aren’t sophisticated anyway. Just really direct and unsubtle—>explains their material mastery. 5. There is no name yet for 12th Person. I have outlined who They are but I am stumped as to the name. I am tempted to “pin-the-tail-on-the-donkey” to get it over with. 6. Perfectly sang/rapped along to “Empire State of Mind” earlier. Still got it yizzzzz!!!!!!!!! 7. Physical fatigue improving with preworkout and MCT oil. Feels like clean energy. The only trouble now is redirecting this energy to work. Cannot force myself. It’s resistance. 8. 6:55PM: Managed to squeeze in 5m of HIIT. ### Weaknesses To Work On 🎛️ 1. Apathetic towards work. Mom said I can’t start Bupropion yet until I taper armodafinil. F. Bro’s not gonna make it this week I feel </3 2. Cannot do bare minimum to function. Needs to be done by 8:00AM. 8:30AM at the latest. ### Social Media 🀄 1. Mike posted about laziness/sloth and Acedia. He also followed Emma Webb/Trimble (”universal/whole/entire” + “weaver of cloth”/“strong hill”) ### Songs 🎤 So I made a Just Marivic Spotify playlist public. [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7bpqZNu1O3RkIO4dj1zTfY?si=oY2gIkggQe-iRcqfZCYv9g](https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7bpqZNu1O3RkIO4dj1zTfY?si=oY2gIkggQe-iRcqfZCYv9g) Samuel Kurt the Cousin Spotify playlist: [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/31UiMJRPqnmtXtjTINVWkc?si=zfXFEzszTkyX3Kfggru5dg](https://open.spotify.com/playlist/31UiMJRPqnmtXtjTINVWkc?si=zfXFEzszTkyX3Kfggru5dg) ### Sensations/Body Stuff 🫟 1. It is definitely the MCT oil that is making me queasy and gassy and that generally unpleasant feeling in my guts. Such a wild effect just by 3 tablespoons. 2. At around 8PM I started becoming extremely cold inside without aircon and I became really sleepy too. I haven’t used aircon since 3PM or 4PM earlier.