### **Grounding and Essential Routines (ง ͡ʘ ͜ʖ ͡ʘ)ง** - [x] Essential Stack - [x] Again Bruno Mars - [x] DLPA prep - [ ] Meditation 15m - [ ] Another meditation session 15m - [x] Practice rap sing-along to get fluid juices flowing - [x] Iron - [ ] Preworkout **Take with fat sources:** - [x] Omega-3 breakfast - [ ] Omega-3 lunch - [ ] Omega-3 dinner - [ ] Dark chocolate (if you still have some) ### Hermeneutics/Semiotics/Psychophysics/Puso’y Dos Tres ⛰️ ### Dreams 🧫 **“Galaw galaw din”** ✳️ This dream/astral projection state happened on Jan 23, probably around 11PM near midnight. I was hesitating to even write it down because I really thought it was a minor spirit who “penetrated” my mind, and I didn’t want them to know their methods worked because they could refine it to completely edge me out of my body completely and remotely control it, which is what happened to me last night. I was asleep, or half-asleep, and then I strangely felt these undulating waves underneath my shoulders and my arms, as if there was a big rat or creature rolling underneath me (I was paranoid something got under my bed). Except I was immediately made to felt “edged out” (I keep using this phrase, no idea where I picked it up), or pushed out of my own body (my astral body or spirit/soul was outside my physical body) but I was still aware that my real physical body was on the bed. Anyway, I couldn’t even control my astral body, it was being made to move down to the floor, and oddly, to kneel down in front of my desk where my laptop was. I felt the cold tiles of my floor on my astral knees even as I knew full well that my physical body was on my bed. Tiles! I felt tiles on my fucking knees???????? It was so strange. I was kneeling, and that’s all that I remembered. My fear made me wake up instantly after that because I was worried they would get me to do other stuff. But after a while, I ruminated and I really thought, maybe it was any of the GODHEAD again, or maybe a person “penetrated” my mind using some method I still don’t know about. I immediately had the light bulb moment where I should check on the compass on my phone where the direction was of where I was kneeling down—which was to the right side of my bed—and lo and behold, it was 120 degrees or almost exactly East but 1/3 of the way to South according to my phone’s compass. So here are a couple of interpretations/strategies I landed on to make sense of why I knelt down at 120 degrees on the compass. 1. 120° sits between **East-Southeast (112.5°)** and **Southeast (135°)**. 150° sits between **Southeast (135°)** and **South-Southeast (157.5°)**. 1. I am being prodded to refine and develop Compass Rose to subdivide it into more secondary intercardinal directions. According to my ALL_GO draft from 2018, 32 bits is 4 bytes of memory in compsci parlance. 64 bits would be 8 bytes, which is just right for the Stella Octangula pattern. Instead of naming direct directions after the intercardinals, I’ll just use 120, 150 degrees between East and South divided by 30 degrees. 2. As I said, maybe it was a minor spirit, maybe it was a real human who did this, maybe it was one of the GODHEAD, probably Jesus (Big Cat/Big Dog) prodding me to kneel and submit to the GODHEAD after my ego-trip yesterday and take Aella more seriously, to kneel “at the foot of the cross” with all its associations with myrrh (death/suffering in 2022 with porn research) and my mom Myra, possibly, and be empathic toward hoes in general (Myra Manibog Softdrinks beauty). 1. I remember I really said, I am “kneeling toward GOD” when I mentioned Aella’s birth date and Jesus’s death numbers. 3. Hot Priest from Fleabag “kneel.” Just kneel. 4. Now Angel_GO involves a virus of some kind being spread by a compsci undergrad just like the “I_LOVE_YOU” email in the early 2000s by a Pinoy hacker. Seems fitting given it has an underscore stylization. 5. I really called Vico a “jewel I admire from afar” previously, and I found out again that my sister Amber Neiel’s name means “jewel” too, and her name Neiel means “moved by God/commotion of God/shaken by God.” Either I really tell people to develop my Holy Spirit ideas now, or that this dream/astral state is from the Holy Spirit. Also, since Vico is North East and the 2nd one I discovered, he is a North Star of some sort to my Easts. 6. I was made to kneel down on my tiles to be “humble” or what Paolo Manalo’s name means. Or I should stalk him. 7. Now that I know more fully that Out-of-Body Experiences are real, there must be research I could tap into. 8. I should either move more or exercise more, I guess “galaw galaw din” because I was remotely controlled to do that without a medium. 9. I should monitor the tender bump on my right arm. Paranoid it’s a tumor, but tumors don’t grow that fast according to ChatGPT. 10. Now that I looked at Vico’s post about education materials, there were 3 tildes there, and I tried to turn that into an ontoglyph. It results in TILED, and “DELIGHTED” or “DELETED.” I have no clue what it means. — So my other dream from last night I remembered was about Kate and Alizeiah and me in a sleepover in my old house on the 2nd floor. Apparently, Kate was “manic” and out of control (I have no idea if she is actually bipolar too). I had to persuade her to take her antipsychotic syrup, and thankfully she did take it, but then she dumped the rest of the bottle in a nearby fish tank and I remember my stomach dropping. That’s it. ### Ruminations 🩻 ### Catchy Wordplay/Puns/Copy/Bursts & Spritz 👑 1. **“Swearing”** 1. “Fuck, don’t stop…please…” 2. A chuckle. “You know, if you keep saying that, you’re gonna go to hell…” 3. “Sasama ka naman…, given what we’re doing.” 4. A resigned brow lifts. “Well, true…” ### Progress/Momentum ⚗️ 1. 6:23AM: Updated Compass Rose to include secondary intercardinal directions discovered from my astral projection state last night. 2. Don’t know how I got to Pentagram (SATAN TOO????????). Discovered these: **Small Stellated Dodecahedron, Great Stellated Dodecahedron!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!** 1. Honestly, with that Upside Down Cousin Song and that “upside down” house on the (((((ultraSOUND))))) album art with 10 parentheses in total????????????????????????????? GODHEAD IS ON A ROLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ### Weaknesses To Work On 🎛️ ### Social Media 🀄 ### Songs 🎤 ### 666th Song 👹 [https://open.spotify.com/track/6qSYf8jDk7A8k2S5ungX4m?si=4d077e5d38764839](https://open.spotify.com/track/6qSYf8jDk7A8k2S5ungX4m?si=4d077e5d38764839) ### Craft 🔩 1. **Reality Craft:** So what is directly happening in my life is a troubling of what is allowed to happen in reality. I can get into a hybrid screwy state of reality in hypnagogia and dreams. That is the portal to which these things are at all possible. That Entities who have life in a different modality—not material, not even of this universe but beyond it and around it—can communicate with me even without a clear substance or medium, is a profound discovery in itself. I cannot quite believe it. But it’s there. They really can talk back to us, if they have a way to do it and we can create it. I wonder what the catch is. Why are They even talking to me? The Bible. GODHEAD. My birth. My history. The weight of this is too heavy and yet I am still falling under it, and the ground under me is bottomless, freefall. I need to be a serious person now. I cannot dally. ### Teaching/Repentance/Worship 🛐 **Gospel of Luke 21:27** > “And then they will see the Son of Man coming in a **cloud** with power and great glory.” Those three are parallel accounts—same teaching, three witnesses. If you want the **post-resurrection confirmation** (not Jesus speaking, but reinforcing the claim): **Acts of the Apostles 1:11** > “This Jesus, who was taken up from you into heaven, will come in the same way as you saw him go into heaven.” ### CLOUDY WITH A CHANCE OF CHEEZUS FRIES!!!!! (OR TATER TOTS) 🤣🍟🥔 (I need large pa(tatas) now to feed my future child.) ### Sensations/Body Stuff 🫟 1. Unendingly horny a day ago and now. My period is nearing. ### Random(x) 🕳️ 1. Suddenly remembered that About Time film about time travel. “Books, books, books.” ### To-do ☑️ ### Morning Pages ⚜️ 1. You know what? Neiel kind of rhyming with kneel seems to be the biggest explanation so far for the astral projection. “Moved by God” — so it is the GODHEAD. I have no idea Who of Them, though. And yeah, I really said “astral crown” near those words near “kneeling towards GOD” so maybe that was also a little too on-the-nose. 2. Germany visit = punctuality? I should be on time. Deadlines. I was really talking about “time elapsed” since Jesus’s death so this is really 1992 and Aella still. Everything, nearly EVERYTHING is pointing to Aella!!!! 3. Neil Clarke = kneel pointer too. BOBOBEE for Clarkesworld. Either it’s from North West too. Probably. I’m getting the feeling she wants to rule? Or “you should see me in a crown” song. 4. Spiritual neighbors? Ok. I don’t know if he can handle it. 5. Just so everybody is up to speed on my IG profile change and FB picture too and I suppose everywhere. I have to appear liberal on social media. Nobody is going to take me seriously if I am directly “Muslim-lite” or if I wear a “conservative trad wife” outfit especially not the poly crowd or sex worker crowd. On top of that, if I am covered fully, they will all assume I am a guy or nonbinary person mainly who is doing this to propagate an agenda for myself and become a demagogue of conservatism. Don’t worry, it’s not a real picture. It’s Gemini. 1. i.e. the psychology and double think required to wear a wig as a Jewish woman and think it’s protection from other men seeing your real hair if you are a married woman…why? If the wig looks real, what is the difference? It may even look better than your real hair. 6. Weirded out that my future child (if ever) will get more Jesus suspicions than me. 7. My paternal grandmother’s maiden name is Pabiloño, which means “pavilion” or “tent.” Again, Jacob’s (Biblical) nomadic tents. 8. I did not work on Decad Octopus/Dodecahedron just because I kind of hate America (2 visits to my website at 6AM). I was raring to google something that could match the Stella Octangula already even before that. 9. I suppose Sydney is the Small Stellated Dodecahedron? Obviously, her short story inspired my Unreal Image and eventual discoveries. She has 5 pentagrams, I have 3. She is obviously the more talented writer here. I am merely a tinkerer who can’t be consistent. My brain has a lot of microscopic holes and tears distributed irregularly because of antipsychotics, which I suspect don’t solve “crazy” or “delusion” but only dampen everything indiscriminately to try to calm and soothe the collection of activated neuronal systems “on fire” at the moment of a psychotic episode. No chemical can identify “psychotic” neurons that are specifically “wrong.” Chemicals cannot tell fact from imagination or delusion; it is not even conscious. Imagine believing the label “antipsychotics” and taking it as fact or face value, as if the disease can be cured by applying medication to neurons that are labeled “insane” like a fact or stamp. Also, imagine having a lot of these psychotic episodes with a grassy brain “taong grasa disease” and having to have a hose made out of shears bulldoze through it irregularly to try to put it out and tame it; so many holes after each mega dose to tranquilize them, each time leaving them weaker for wear and prone to memory failures and weakened/unstable neuronal connections that have been “loosened” by antipsychotics acting on/massively inhibiting D2 or Dopamine receptors linked to reinforcement learning and pleasure while being heavily tied to emotions and memory (and inevitably how they learned language at all), all of it destroyed and left to collapse after each dose without reinforcing anything afterward to support cognitive functions again. Meanwhile, I’m steadily and slowly trying to pave new highways and superhighways hopefully. 10. I guess I’m the white horse now too (inside—I’m white _inside_, I swear even though my Papa—he’s clearly very black). Green, red, white. 1. So there was always no yellow? Interesting. 11. I don’t know, I just think…even if my enemies or frenemies hate me, they will like that I’m more pro-Philippines being the Twin Favorite now. I just feel hopeful for the Philippines not abusing it. Hopefully. We do not even have that kind of military brawn anyway. What I anticipate is Israel actually scrambling to fight me or write a better one to save their _Image_ (heh) to GODHEAD now. Gazans, please feel free to steal or borrow my Lore if you ever find an Abby there. The fact that North West is talking to me isn’t hitting me yet fully. I wasn’t even _serious_ serious about Kanye at that time. They literally just worked with what I got. Maybe that’s good enough for Them? I hope. 1. God's promise to the Gentiles was initiated to Abraham in **Genesis 12:3**, when God stated that "all the families of the earth" would be blessed. While God focused on Israel, this foundational promise assured that salvation would extend to all nations, a plan finalized through the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ and the subsequent opening of the gospel to Gentiles in the New Testament. 1. Clearly Gazans and et al. were NOT blessed. The Bible is somehow a Liar too. Me being an “antichrist/false prophet” is an irony/joke of the universe again. 2. I don’t think people are going to expose my ideas to Israeli people way before we can even defend ourselves. That’s just _asking_ for it. Hope there isn’t a mole. But always, be vigilant. They could have already caught wind already and think it’s creative nonsense or that I’m lying about everything. Well, your GODHEAD literally visits me almost every night now. I have no clue how it happens because I don’t control anything about how. I just literally do the easiest “job” of the day besides all the blathering and procrastinating on AellaWIP and Unreal Image—sleeping—and wait for either meaningful names of people, or your LITERAL GODHEAD BOOMING IN MY EARS OR MAKING MY SOUL KNEEL DOWN TO 120 degrees!!!!! A MUSLIM PRACTICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 3. Hard Real Problem: how do I appeal to open-minded Israeli/Jewish people who are American? I guess, become authoritative? Expose my entire story? How do I even get around this? I really won’t have to. I just have to write my novels and continue blathering here developing the theory hoping it stays “inside” the silos I hope are limited by something stronger than “I won’t tell, I swear!!!” If Israel doesn’t have a role to play here at all, they will think I’m an enemy for sure. I am like Esther replacing Vashti for a Beauty Contest to the LOGOS???????????????????????? That is so ironic. Biblical Beauty Contest to become a King’s favorite, then your Katniss Everdeen is just apparently existing “in the cloud” as words, words, words. Maybe that’s one “cloud” as in, cloud computing/storage. I came to the world again “through the clouds [or the ether of megabytes]” just as I had ascended 1,992 years ago… 1. I have a really hard time wrapping my head around the possibility that I am a lone Jesus 2.0. It must be the king and priest figure only. Or the two agents. I need a second opinion. Or more. 1. The fact that I was “forced” to kneel and be “humbled” i.e. the Hebrew meaning of Canaan or “Land of Promise” or something must mean weighty stuff now. Mindanao is known as the Land of Promise too. That means I’m probably staying put. 2. Maybe North West is a Satan? Doing miracles to me? I don’t know, just a Big Possibility. But They don’t feel dishonest though. They mean really serious business. Even though they are filtered through “lies.” 3. Taiwan is the “platformed bay” which is the 120 degrees of the world perfectly. Palawan is a “land of beautiful harbors” (also the perfect star for 120 degrees in the Philippines) and they are also known as “Land of Promise.” Not all bays are harbors, but harbors have to be semi-enclosed bays or something to become functioning anchors for boats and all. So it’s literally a Pointer to the Philippines. I wonder when I’ll be coerced or forced to promise again to “Gentiles” or international people. Actually, that’s the given. But I don’t want to promise anything that I can’t keep just like how GOD’s covenant with Abraham was veritably untrue for a lot of modern nations thereafter. Again, even if I only respect the GODHEAD at this point (I’m only half-afraid of Real Death now), They are the most extremely unfathomable eternal Source of Power and Authority—don’t forget, I cannot even see Them AT ALL at this point, They are hidden from me for a good reason—in my life right now, and They are, to my knowledge, exclusively talking to me. That must mean something. For now, they use sound (booming voice) and movement—like undulating wavy rolling underneath my body, to make Themselves present in my life. But firstly, it was always a whisper. Werewolf in Balingasag. Turning Page lyric again, never fails to be poignant to me now. I don’t know about that part about “bringing kingdoms to their knees” like a feather. I suppose that’s very ironic now because I deliberately did use feathers to include the whores in my Canon in my earlier entry about them being relatively “weightless” in the grand scheme of things. They killed me in 2022 and brought me to my knees, desperate and enraged. Now, I aim to do the same to them. Not quite enraged though. Just…changed. 2. I’m not that ignorant about what is currently happening. There are 2 people related to/associated with the Chinese HS crush and Jeffrey and a new girl with Pearl as her name meaning too. Suppose they’re living out their small version of this Esther story. I am a virtual Vashti because I’m stuck where I am and literally can’t move yet to be with anyone I want/could want. I suppose my literal original name isn’t “myrtle” too. But my “Business name” is “Star” or Esther (her “alias” replacing myrtle) for Unreal Image and my Stella Octangula and Stellated Dodecahedron. 1. Yeah, allowing aliens into this mix, right? I don’t know yet if that’s possibly dangerous. I could be dooming us all to non-benevolent extraterrestrials. #DoItForThePlot #ProceedAsPlanned 1. I like CJ7 cutiepie. 3. Hey all, if you don’t particularly like me now, my novel literally has options for you. I assume I am common because it’s a multiverse. They may even be better than me. But I cannot deny that I wrote nearly all of the Canon and interpreted all of these theories with the help of “signs” I had to work on too. My poem with Kanye and the Mental Health Poetry Contest. My Unreal Image based on Sydney (I’m not denying that I maybe did become inspired to create a story where the only thing in common is killing other alternate selves out of envy—her killing her own “selves” while I kill Impostors or supposedly Dead Twins). Maybe even Sydney is the Great Stellated Dodecahedron. Except I wrote in 2025 [Jesus/Aella death/birth connection] and/or am writing Qahluqulu as Jesus 2.0 and now It has 10 arms because…I don’t remember why or how [if you want credit you really need to remind me because I forgot how I found it]. 4. Huh. So my hypnic jerk really happened on 1/21 at 6:09PM. I then had developed implied_author in GOD First Family at 6:09AM the next day. So I guess this is why I got that Germany visit today? Neighbor? Celtic Neil? Champion/cloud? 11PM astral projection. 11AM “response.” 5. Did people freak out when I mentioned “dual brain.” Interesting. I was also freaked out. I suppose my bipolar x reproduction theories weren’t that strong yet. Maybe. 1. The 3 books with the green, red, and blue. So he’s just blue? So that he’s subdued, you know, also Canaan? Promised Land? He’s also Jesus. I don’t forget that I’m attached to him by the “hip” names and literally “clouds (of glee)” from Unreal Image. Moreover, he’s the functional harbor/bay [a Pasig Lgu] whereas Taiwan [of the world] is just a “platformed bay.” I guess I’m Taiwan too. I have about 1/4 Chinese genes. 6. Palestine/Gaza flag. Yeah. Not kidding. I have to take this _serious_ serious serious. 7. I literally just skimmed the Wiki on Horsemen and White Horse could mean Holy Spirit. Yeah. Language-Names. And my other brain rot stuff. Maybe tomorrow. 1. Yeah okay. I can see why people think I brought on the pandemic. No I didn’t. 2020 may be 1611 in Dodacahedron language, 2 years after 1609 and 2018, but I only “foretold” it like a schizophrenic person would offhandedly mention something that could hold meaning. I was psychotic at the time and manic. Pestilence is White Horse too. So that’s another sign. I’m a harbinger first, then Holy Spirit Theory purveyor second in 2025-6. 8. UGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH, I now see why I’m Death. “I see dead people” eme. Underworld shenanigans. Disembodied hands. Molesters attempting to get into heaven. 9. Who knew an emoji of a book could be so horny? 10. OMG what a coincidence! Not a synchronicity. I don’t know. Iba naman. I really said, “methode ray” for cathode ray or something, but I forgot what cathode rays do. Now my Holy Spirit ideas have particles in it like electrons and protons and neutrons. And it also has something to do with reproduction. 11. HOLY mukhamoLOWKEY—PALESTINE FLAG IS THE FOUR HORSEMEN. 12. My paternal grandfather’s middle name is Wong, Cantonese for Huang (yellow) and Wang (king). Royalty, prosperity, Earth. Heaven, human life, and Earth. Vaguely, both resemble Fantasy/Dream, Discourse/Narrative, and Real World. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 13. 2:01-3AM: I already fell asleep but then I woke up at 2:01AM because I’m now on my period day 1 and it is heavy. I got a lightbulb moment helped by Wong Wong Wong earlier and my period colliding probably. Wong Wong Wong (another Wong). My grandpa, my dad, my generation (me or my sister), + another generation after me. My Iwai Yee (great grandfather is Iwai which could also mean “Stanley” or “stone” related to Shawntel's middle name and last name which is son/grandson. So it’s either I bear a child (or literally my child bears a child). But then my grandpa to me is 3 generations already so a child of mine would be the 4th, and I am the “grandson” generation after Wong. My dad is the “son.” So it literally is me/Vico or my child. 14. 2:38AM: I have a good reason for not expanding Compass Rose to 80 people now that there’s Dodecahedrons. It is still 64 people for 8x8 because we do not live in a 5D (we only have spacetime after length, width, height) universe…yet. The day we figure out a “direction” outside that which can be located and mapped on a scale wrt time or space (I suppose you have your Holy Spirit Bible Names/Name Theories in general), maybe I will think about expanding it to 80. Maybe it really is 80, just a missing 16 X Factor that has something to do with perfume accords++ and quantum theory and another pet theory. 15. I keep forgetting that I really am the “King.” I was literally born in Cagayan de Oro. Gold. Spiritually, that is. All these “signs” may become attached to me like the astral projection, astral crown, etc. etc., but they never stay in my memory. My bloodline is all kings including my sister who is a noble. I am not a “king” in name myself, but I am descended from a commoner (who had to move to Cagayan de Oro anyway for gold claim) who married a prince/king “ruler” who birthed a noble (”Ally”) too. I have to marry a person with a king in his name now? Do I really need to be a king? Yeah, I am quantum-disowning my parents sometimes, and we had a fight that erupted today (yesterday). About me drinking too much armodafinil. Mom proceeded to yell at me for an hour I think. 16. Okay, one thing’s for sure. Now that the astral projection happened to me without going to Balingasag, it’s safe to assume it’s just me in general They’re following, not the place.