### **Grounding and Essential Routines (ง ͡ʘ ͜ʖ ͡ʘ)ง** - [x] Essential Stack - [x] Again Bruno Mars - [x] DLPA prep - [x] HIIT - [x] Meditation 15m - [ ] Another meditation session 15m - [x] Practice rap sing-along to get fluid juices flowing - [x] Iron - [x] Preworkout **Take with fat sources:** - [x] Omega-3 breakfast - [x] Omega-3 lunch - [x] Omega-3 dinner - [x] Dark chocolate (if you still have some) ### Hermeneutics/Semiotics/Psychophysics/Puso Tres ⛰️ 1. Because of my dream last night, I am naming my ability **Equano** for Extrasensory Quantum Noble. ### Dreams 🧫 1. Made my Spotify playlist for Puso’y Tres public again. I had a dream that was an accretion of oddly specific names, places, people, and vibes that told me to do it. I have no choice. Or I was convinced. Now that I really think about it, the Source is GOD the Father-Mother. Somebody close to me joined an app and I was notified. I concentrated heavily on the time stamp. She “penetrated” my mind last night. I only vaguely remembered everything but I still landed somewhere spooky. Thankfully, it was a not an “in-your-face-burn-your-eyebrows-off” booming voice. My name theories are now Canon somewhere. Even if you only vaguely remember people, you remember them anyway—they are permanence—and you immediately have a link to their full name which you can google. 1. Another memory “hack” because you accrete so much meaning and associations and emotions with people instead of something like color or catchy acronyms anyway, you have a shorthand: The PAO system (Person-Action-Object) is **a powerful mnemonic technique for memorizing sequences like numbers or playing cards by assigning a unique Person, Action, and Object to each item (usually two-digit numbers 00-99) and combining them into vivid mental images**. For example, a six-digit number (e.g., 341379) becomes a narrative: the **Person** for '34' (e.g., Frank Sinatra) performing the **Action** for '13' (e.g., kicking) with the **Object** for '79' (e.g., a cape) to create "Frank Sinatra kicking a cape". ### Catchy Wordplay/Puns/Copy/Bursts & Spritz 👑 1. POTA(I)TO ### Personal Best/Personal Record 🎖️ 1. Increased effort in HIIT to speed up to 185+ BPM for a long time. ### Goal/Motivation/Fuel 🛢️ 1. I wonder what kind of environment proper ladies in the 80s were living in. Seems oddly parallel to now, except it was more binary for some reason. They were all wearing baggy clothes with baston pants and loose shirts that hid all their strengths and curves. Meanwhile, the 80s in the Philippines was a smorgasbord of orgies and drugs and adult movie theaters and red light districts even in the Philippine movie industry. How did they survive? Now that even proper women are wearing bikinis “classily” or wear miniskirts and clothes that bare their skin, there is no distinction left. Everybody is expected to be sexy even if they don’t sleep around. 1. If there is any field on earth ripe with potential for that bell curve to flatten, it’s sexual politics. Muslims tried to do it. But unfortunately, they cannot control foreign women who they crave when all their women are fully covered now. That is their biggest flaw. The only reason why Muslim women do it is to follow the Word of God. But then, the world doesn’t care about it. Their husbands do not care about it enough to stop craving foreign women who are uncovered. What do you expect, when half of their population follows rules, but then the other side is forced to betray them because nobody has figured out how to make ALL women submit to the rule. 2. Deleting pornography from history. What a dream. Time travel to finally delete the ability to take pictures and make movies and make videos and make TikTok addicts. You all opened that portal? Well, I have also portals of my own now. Who’s going to win? You people cannot even hope to see what I see and hear these days. Meanwhile, I have limitless access to your weaknesses and contradictions through the internet. Google cannot hope to hack my brain. You people try to hack organic matter, I dare you. Just sayin’. 3. You know what I figured out on my first 3:33AM Glory Day? The epiphany that it is indeed, possible, to time travel and reverse time. I don’t know how I knew through gnosis. But it is apparently possible. I will spend the rest of my life trying to make it happen. 2. I don’t need to marry anyone in this life. I am simply possessive for all the women who have tried to do their best to follow righteousness, and in the end their efforts are turned inert because other people are blind spiritually and don’t see any sense in their logic. I was always right. Never forget it. Doubt? That you are too upright? That you are a stickler to conservative clothing simply because you are too ugly and ashamed to show off? So what? Even if I magically turned beautiful and sexy inside, I will never betray my kind for a measly pleasure of being looked at by apes and monsters and predators who salivate at the thought of fucking me. I will even make myself more abrasive so you stop thinking of me in that way. ### Progress/Momentum ⚗️ 1. 12:03PM: I have deleted all traces of pornography on my iPad. Good fucking riddance. No more crude pleasures. I have better Real Problems now. The Philippine movie industry. Sexual politics. 2. Remembered a name meaning out of thin air correctly. No idea what I did right at the time of encoding. She’s a “laylayan” factoid, not even the person I was focusing on. 3. 5:04PM: Progress with BOBOBEE brainstorming. 4. Marginally-significantly more productive today because of rage. I guess this is a passable substitute. I need to get more disciplined in general. ### Weaknesses To Work On 🎛️ 1. Self-control not to buy random candy. ### Craft 🔩 1. Reality craft. So what is directly happening in my life is a troubling of what is allowed to happen in reality. I can get into a hybrid screwy state of reality in hypnagogia and dreams. That is the portal to which these things are at all possible. That Entities who have life in a different modality—not material, not even of this universe but beyond it and around it—can communicate with me even without a clear substance or medium, is a profound discovery in itself. I cannot quite believe it. But it’s there. They really can talk back to us, if they have a way to do it and we can create it. I wonder what the catch is. Why are They even talking to me? The Bible. GODHEAD. My birth. My history. The weight of this is too heavy and yet I am still falling under it, and the ground under me is bottomless, freefall. I need to be a serious person now. I cannot dally. ### Teaching/Repentance/Worship 🛐 1. It seems very fundamental, that material bodies are rigged to crave “letting go” more than “conserving.” Being liberal is easy. Being conservative is self-control. You know you can kill them, you know you can let go, but you don’t. What I ultimately want is for the “Turn” to become easier for everyone in general. It is logical to me. It has North West Black Magic Woman irony written all over it. I am the “he” who has been groomed to be a Savior. Faint trace or word related to conservative. Why did I ever suppress this instinct to fit into liberal pendulums? They are all wrong. I now know more clearly that I am right. I am nearly always right. If somebody manages to prove me wrong, I will find a way to be stubborn again and refine my logic to absorb their criticism into my own expression. I am inevitable. People give too much grace to sexuality because it feels good. Who is looking out for people who do not have that advantage? I will be their avenger. I was always theirs. I belong to them. ### Sensations/Body Stuff 🫟 1. 2:46PM. Not gonna lie, the feeling after exercise is just bliss. I should do this more often. Unfortunately my body has been irreversibly ruined after 2023 by antipsychotics. Motor neurons can’t keep up and they get winded really easily and I feel this acutely after they start firing erroneously in the hundreds after exercise. 2. Taper armoda and atomoxetine within this week to start Bupropion. 3. 2 Rhodiola and 2 Alpha-GPC today to see what happens. 4. Finally found out why I’m euphoric and calm-sleepy with atomoxetine. It’s because I have high baseline anxiety and my brain while under it is quieting the cognitive noise. It’s too relaxing that it’s almost like bliss. Chills on my head. 5. Must have guzzled 12 capsules of Omega-3 just to compensate for the fact that it’s esterized instead of triglyceride. Glad I found out though. ### Random(x) 🕳️ 1. 4:10PM: Played chess with my dad for the first time. 2. Well, at least my brain is consolidating something. I dreamt about chess immediately after I tried to learn it with my dad. ### To-do ☑️ 1. Running out of tissue, Dihexa. 2. Buy triglyceride/phospholipid and not esterified Omega-3 (California Gold Nutrition). 1.4k for 1 month supply. 1. Brain trivia: - ~**25–30% of the fatty acids in the brain’s gray matter are DHA** - It’s embedded in **neuronal membranes**, synapses, dendrites - It controls **membrane fluidity** → how receptors move, how ion channels open, how fast signals propagate - Without enough DHA, neurons still work—but like stiff rubber instead of supple latex DHA is **not mainly a mood chemical**. It’s architecture. Mood changes from DHA happen **slowly**, because membranes remodel over **weeks to months**. ## Clean mental model (keep this) - **DHA = hardware** - neurons, synapses, membranes - long-term brain resilience & development - **EPA = software environment** - inflammation, signaling tone - mood, affect, stress reactivity Hardware and software both matter—but you don’t install Photoshop by adding more RAM. Up to 3g of Omega-3 per day. ### Morning Pages ⚜️ Well, despite all my rage today, I can’t help but gush at money being funneled into the right things like education. I hope the children and teachers use it well. ### SYNCHRONICITIES 🥹 1. 4:46PM. Took a nap for 30 minutes. I was playing chess in my dream, then when I was “taking the king” (illegal move, no one can take the king), the alarm rang and I instantly woke up. I then found out you can only “capture” the king by cornering it and the game is won. It has to be protected at all costs because it is not the most powerful one, though capturing it will make you win. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My alarm rang the exact second I ‘took’ it. Possibility or Sign I will “win” a game of some sort? Not the most powerful piece, but I will win somehow and an “alarm” will go off. — ### Morning Pages cont. Such a Grand Delulu Thought. Maybe the spirits and GODHEAD are attacking/pleasuring/penetrating me because I’m an important piece of the puzzle of the Main Main GOD they’re trying to figure out and study. Explains why my dreams are becoming more coherent anyway. I remember Lucy Liu really said a ghost “had sex with her” in her dreams too.