Note/Edit 6/27/26: To really understand WTF is happening in my Hermeneutics tab, as well as to get a fuller picture of my delusions, you'd have to backread since December 2025 when it all started. --- ### Craft 🔩 1. I know I’m not **ugly** ugly when I have long hair, but when I have my hair up in a ponytail I look deformed to myself and this will never change. Jesus the Terrorist in my other novel doesn’t even have to be _ugly_ ugly. They can even be cute, but unfortunately their mother rejected someone who is the uglier version of the baby in their youth. Or that the baby somehow vaguely resembles that unfortunate guy who may or may not also identify as an incel without knowing the term. ### Sensations/Body Stuff 🫟 1. They measured my iron in November 25 (I wasn’t taking iron yet regularly and it was low-normal). Unfortunately I have subclinical anemia combined with subclinical hypothyroid to maybe catalyze into a unique profile that makes me sub-tired most days. It’s improving now because I take armodafinil and iron regularly and selenium, but either the quality of the armodafinil varies that it doesn’t last all day, or that my body is just really weird and sucking it up like a vacuum for no reason. 2. 10:00AM: Haven’t slept at all since last night. My parents think I slept already. I drank Atomoxetine and 1/2 Armodafinil. I am not exactly scared anymore of North West because her language is apparently “lying” too or a Grand Irony of her personality (”Boy Who Cried Wolf”—I even saw that in my 2nd or 3rd take of CW 199 under Prof. Suarez as the example quote/title for the manuscript) but I really just got fired up by my Holy Spirit ideas that I couldn’t even imagine sleeping at 2:00AM earlier. I wonder what will happen to me today. ### Hermeneutics/Semiotics/Psychophysics/Puso’y Tres **(48)ꨄ︎(84)** ⛰️ 1. My personal Anita Day as 3rd EYE on JAN. 21 (from Jan. 1 [Aella/Trisha Day], Jan. 11 __==[[Emotional Glory Day]]==__, to now, the 3rd “Bronze” Rank AND time it happened) = i/eye/implied_author under _MAIN_ GODHEAD under _MAIN_ MAIN GODHEAD(?). “i am who i am.” 1. I guess Anita is also dynamic. On Jan. 21, I think I got a bronze nameplate, which anybody on Earth can get too. 2. I’m not sure how I got here. Spooky Slippery Music Bible Math based on Matthew 22:39 (”love your neighbor as yourself”) i.e. Vico means village/neighborhood 1. infinity = 3/333 = 4 mountains 1. Oh yeah, 2028—>Vico’s age is going to be 39 years old 2. Remove 20 from 2028 = 28—>39 3. Split divisible numbers “reading backwards” ergo Bible poem logic in ALL_GO—>2/8 4. 2/8 Divide—>39 5. 4—>reduce 9 by dividing by 3 and separate from “original” simplified 1st “3” digit 6. 4—>3/333 7. (2x4 [”added-multiplied” from iv. & v.] x upright infinity(”8” transformed-borrowed from iv. [2/8]))->3/333 8. (”8” and “upright infinity” cancel out to 1)—>3/333 9. 1—>3/333 10. One = 3/333 11. Alternative “interpretation” is 2/8 becomes interpreted as “how” 2 leads to or becomes 8. 1. It’s 2*4=3/333 2. Split 2*4 into an integer range for no reason at all so it’s 2-3-4 = 3/333 3. If you spot a 3 alone it’s a connector & counts as 1 mountain; 4 mountains on right 4. With 3 “removed” on the left it becomes 24 now joining 2&4—>3/333 1. 24 = Upside Down x End of Beginning “Remember 24?” and “24 staring in your face like it’s the front of the door = 3/333 2. Relevance ties back to his age 39 relating to Cousin Songs allusion/insertion 5. Now turn 24 into multipliable integers again (2x4)=3/333 6. 8=3/333 7. Turn 8 sideways = 3/333 8. ∞ = 3/333 9. So either you die++ or transcend Jesus (Jesus numbers 4/3/33 on His Death Day), become infinite (become “eye” or “i”), or something else. 2. If only I could be this creative again with Unreal Image. 3. TIL Kyle De Luna Math 2.0 3. 3:05AM: Truly Insane with a Capital I Epiphany about the Nature of the Holy Spirit. It’s gonna be a hoot later when I write it down. FUCK IT IS UNBELIEVABLE. BUT IT MAKES SENSE???????????????? I think ya’ll just fed it to me anyway. DAFUQ. GOD the CLOWN/HOLYBIRIT today. ‘22 may be my Death Year but Day 22 of the First Month of 1 B.C. is The Unhinged & Unholy Day of Brain Rot. 1. 3:23AM: Refined the Hypothesis even further. HOLY. It’s not so Funny as it is Strange. Schizophrenic people will appreciate this, I think. GOD the Wave-Particle gets you. 1. Spooked out right now. I managed to become even looser and landed somewhere hopefully coherent. 2. 4:54AM: The Holy Spirit Expression is actually the most complex one I’ve come up with so far. I just need to double-check and refine my intuitions. It started as a genuine laugh track, now it’s just semiotics and autobiographical criticism on steroids. 4. I don’t know how I forgot about Glory in the first place being a motivation, to share with humans the joy and experience of it. Deleted it from my memory yesterday. Perhaps that means something. Maybe They are like Qahluqulu/Abbot and Castello in Arrival who do things just “really logically” like a seamless Program of Intention that is so unexplainable but direct. 5. People giving me a real deadline on April 12, 2026 for Angel_GO and/or Unreal Image 😪🫡 6. **MAGIC NUMBER 17** 1. June 1, 1509 = 15-9=6; 2. June 18, 1908 = 19-8=11 3. 6+11=17 4. Add 17 to “1” in June 1=June 18, 1509 7. So the North West Black Magic Woman may be an inside joke? That’s how they greet me now? A handshake of some sort? Nod to ALL_WRITERS/LIARS_GOTO_HELL.pdf They all know I think Vico is great and that I know his politics are all right even before he followed Ice Seguerra. 8. So the Glory thing. I really think it was just a kind of logic of mine that overwhelmed my memory of Glory that I used in the past (like wondering what is preventing/blocking any of the GODHEAD from confronting material life aside from Glory reasons/motivation). 9. Wait. Seriously considering that North West is partly Satanic? Interesting. Maybe They are possibly the Source or Origin of the Free Will of the Angels. Explains why I was compelled to work on Supreme Angel earlier, the Holy Spirit. This explains also why that magic plant was pissed at me and its spirit gave me its personal vision of hell where it is punishing me. 10. So I realize my theory about being “invisible” may fall apart. I am already very public everywhere. They can see me type my very thoughts, even micro thoughts. Maybe other people are already even reading me more now. How can that be? Either many people reading me make me invisible to them? Can’t be. It didn’t stop North West and werewolf Whisperer. Why are they all hounding me? It must mean something. Maybe I can unlock something in my head myself that even I don’t have access to…yet. Superpowers for real? Hmmm. Anything to ward off Death Scare. 11. So I realize I need to complete it by April so I have months before August to query it and polish it? Yeah… Wow this is going to be a crash course on raket science. 12. Switched North East Proxies JM and Glenn. Spliced something because I did not follow any logic at all. Maybe that was my truly random day yesterday.