### WORD CLOUD of Associations Imaginary 2026/Unreal Image 2025/”♾️”2018/“I”/“Implied Author”/”Eye”/”Impostor Justine” (False Author/Small Author vis. a vis. Justine “Pure Righteousness Shell/Concha” saved by Qahluqulu’s Blood)/”Yee” (Surplus/Abundance)/”Infinity”/”Iser”/”Square Root of -1 is i, which is **imaginary**”/”Square from 4 sides of _Main_ Main Cardinals of Compass Rose **FANTASY/IMAGINATION**: I think this is supposed to be Grand Irony. Say, I will count all the “eyes” in ALL_GO. All my life was bathed in fantasy and imagination only. I have nothing but virtual reality. That is the joke of the universe. I am “imaginary” in the sense that I live not in Real World, but inside my head all the time. It’s like I was never probably meant to be instantiated into Flesh and Blood, but GOD made a way somehow, to launch me on Earth AFTER Jesus the Son, thousands of years later, exactly 1992 years later (Aella’s birth date) and 272 days on December 31, 2025. “Magic numbers” here are **1992** and **33** and **2025.** **(STANLEY FISH ONLINE ICONS) INTEGRAL CALCULUS + CLASSICAL ORCHESTRAL MUSIC = (WOLFGANG ISER ONLINE ICONS) NUMERICAL ANALYSIS + SET THEORY** 1. The loudest answer—by sheer density of **f / ff / fff** ink on the page—is **classical orchestral music**, especially **Romantic-era** and **20th-century symphonic** writing. 🎼 **35 instances of 𓁿 or eyes in ALL_GO** 1. Bought for **53** USD Bupropion. Aella uses Adderall, I think. She’s literally the larger-than-life photonegative version of me. 2. **OH SHIT:** They form a **reversal pair** (also called **digit-reversed numbers**): two numbers that are mirror images of each other under digit reversal. **BOBOBEE** 1. Faint suspicion that **ꨄ︎23 HEART of 6 now rises to 7 by sheer luck** of including Broken Social Scene’s “Anthem For a Seventeen Year-Old Girl” where there was this lyric, “Park that car, drop that phone, sleep on the floor, dream about me” repeated a lot about a “rotten one” narrator being nostalgic for a now-successful woman’s past “rotten” roots. 2 in 1 songs in that “One Heart” emoticon. N***as in Paris and Anthems. At least, in a Discourse/Narrative sense. **FAINT SUS(URRUS)** 1. The “Implied Author” who “talked to me” on November 1 was “i” or the imaginary -1st Jesus. I’m not quite sure if it’s me or some other combo of me + X factor in the LOGOS itself. Quantum spookiness. **SMALL DOG/SMALL CAT?** ### Dreams 🧫 1. Apparently, Angel Baleña is conflated with Angela Santos, while Sydney Guerrero is Maphile Canencia (Guadarrama - “sandy river”). Sydney is apparently a “Small/False Author” or Impostor Justine of some kind. ### Ruminations 🩻 1. Yeah, the only way not to sweat about small stuff and whims is to trust that the GODHEAD’s Divine Will is going to turn out for the best even with my failures and laziness and decisions that might not be the most optimized—as in, I could be the weakest link here because I do not work with other people directly. It is all a slurry that I can somehow swim in, but at the same time, there’s still a lot of freedom to be creative, though the thought is scary that I could be making wrong decisions all the time without knowing. Well, the past few days have proven that things can work out even if I’m doing it semi-blindly. The fact that North West Black Magic Woman happened is the strongest SIGN out there, wherever and however they decide to interfere in the material world they created and coded into the Universal Plane of the LOGOS, that they are Real World now, except that I cannot always see them working, or how they work in my life at all. I am merely putting things together like a Sleuth again. I guess that’s an honorary title or Authority to sniff things out, how things really work, how it all aligns to the Patterns They laid out before time for Their human creations to complete (because apparently They can’t do it all Themselves; something about being material must be important because why did They create us to take part in it if They could just do it all Themselves). 1. The GODHEAD will use your weaknesses for good anyway. ### Catchy Wordplay/Puns/Copy/Bursts & Spritz 👑 1. Not a pun - vocab 1. krank = sick in German 2. abartig = abnormal in German 2. I just realized Gom (BOBOBEE Real Self) is an anagram of OMG 🥴 3. CatGODDARD (Jimmy Neutron Robot Dog) ### Goal/Motivation/Fuel 🛢️ 1. I’d be a superhero if I exercise 20m per day. There I said it. SUCK IT UP. YOU HAVE NO CHOICE. ### Progress/Momentum ⚗️ 1. “Found” 3 people to fit the C**ompass Rose** 🧭 2. 8:28AM: Found Alfonso Manalastas, Lakan Umali, Glenn Diaz and their locations in my Compass Rose. Updated rules. I only have to find 21 people now. 3. 10:53AM: clarified understanding of Both A and not-A and neither fully A nor fully not-A 4. 12:34PM: Thought carefully about One Heart-2-3 as expressed in my own life so I can figure out why North West appeared to me first. ### Weaknesses To Work On 🎛️ 1. Drooling over the idea that I’ll eventually get Ideaverse Pro. Please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2. 2:05AM: Going through ALL_GO to count eyes. In pain because I can only marvel at 2018 me’s facility with English, particularly my ability to “sound” like another character. I can no longer do that, I think. I only have one “personality” I am capable of doing effortlessly. I need to concentrate so hard to come up with a character personality to funnel their words and particularities into language and word choices. ### Social Media 🀄 1. I never considered this before. Celebrities deal with people who sexualize them even when they’re not trying to be. That must be hard. And invasive. 2. I need to find more chronically online people. 3. So Glenn Diaz is actually North East too, but now I made him a Proxy under Vico. I don’t know when I came up with Proxy; it adds up to 16 including the Proxies even if there’s only 4 Right Angles for Main Main Cardinals. Website visit from US = imperialism. His bio from before was “anti-imperialist.” So adding up all the Main Main Cardinals + Main Cardinals there are now 32 in total. 4. 8:10AM: Added Issela Santina as my Proxy under North East (1). ``` 1 BYTE = 8 BITS 32 BITS IS 4 BYTES OF MEMORY ``` ### Songs 🎤 **OMG KATY PERRY X KANYE WEST** 🤩 [https://open.spotify.com/track/1CUk09iecf4kLvLuhxerdS?si=5af3f453bb664094](https://open.spotify.com/track/1CUk09iecf4kLvLuhxerdS?si=5af3f453bb664094) **OMG EVERYBODY!!! The Neighbourhood is releasing (((((ultraSOUND)))))+ (an extended play) on February 20, 2026, two days before Aella’s 34th birthday. It has the song “Lulu” which I hope relates to “Delulu is the Solulu.” No reason.** [https://open.spotify.com/prerelease/6zCc2CeVmLawLTafr6QO8M?si=baa0b398526448f0](https://open.spotify.com/prerelease/6zCc2CeVmLawLTafr6QO8M?si=baa0b398526448f0) ### Craft 🔩 ### Teaching/Repentance/Worship 🛐 1. I vaguely remember the “boots theory” in economics. And Coleridge, “to teach and please.” 1. You’re thinking of the **“Boots theory of socioeconomic unfairness”**, a wonderfully sharp little parable from **Men at Arms**, spoken (or rather _thought_) by **Sam Vimes**. It’s one of those ideas that looks folksy on the surface and then quietly disassembles capitalism in the corner. 🥾🧠 2. Here’s the core of it, paraphrased: 1. A rich man can afford a really good pair of boots that costs a lot but lasts for years. 2. A poor man can only afford cheap boots that fall apart quickly. 3. Over time, the poor man ends up spending _more_ money replacing bad boots than the rich man spent once on good boots—yet the poor man’s feet are always wet. 4. The genius isn’t the footwear; it’s the **time horizon**. Poverty forces short-term decisions. When you’re broke, durability is a luxury you literally cannot buy. The system then punishes you for that constraint, calling it “bad choices” when it’s really **bad options**. 5. A few subtle things Pratchett sneaks in: - It’s not about _wastefulness_—the poor person is often more careful. - It’s not about ignorance—the math is obvious, but inaccessible. - It’s about **liquidity**: having money now lets you save money later. - Economists later noticed this maps neatly onto real phenomena: higher interest rates for the poor, worse housing deals, more expensive food per calorie, even health outcomes. Today people casually refer to this as the “Vimes Boots Theory,” which is hilarious and fitting: satire outlived spreadsheets. 🧾✨ - It’s one of those rare metaphors that works at street level _and_ policy level. Shoes, but also credit cards. Boots, but also education. Wet feet all the way down. Pratchett’s trick was making structural injustice feel obvious without ever sounding like a lecture. Just damp socks and a quiet, furious thought. 1. Maybe the GODHEAD doesn’t see linear timelines because They only see neat Patterns weave in and out of history. Sydney, who is arguably more influential and privileged than me, wrote a story about her protagonist living out my life, in a small version—Elyu being envious of Annie “cracking the universe.” She published it in 2024, but it really closed the loop in 2023, when my dad started getting interested in gambling and algorithms, without wasting our money on it, just living out virtually how he could possibly game it and win against the house. In effect, her story from 2024 could be a giant factor or X factor—not a cause, but a logical link (in the GODHEAD’s eyes) that retrocausally became an attractor (in a dynamical systems sense) that brought my past to 2023 to the present like a chain of events I am only continuing because I read her story after 2024 and became inspired to write about a multiverse too, perhaps my guilt coalescing into that anxiety-message with a trace of being afraid she would see me as pro-Israel (because I knew from her X account that she was against them) that really fed this worm into my brain without me knowing. As in, she literally saw my message that happens to include “Israel” in it, so I really “closed the loop” there or started the chain again so that it’s me who will eventually write about Israel in Unreal Image even if I only came upon it on CLOUD DAY, as in, the world where Impostor Justine lives is functionally Israel, and they see all other universes as “Unreal” and therefore unimportant, and that they are the “Universal Constant” who the GODHEAD handpicked, but caused so much destruction for other Universes or countries who are forced to bow to them even if they have surpassed rational self-defense only because they are deeply embedded in cultural and political life not only in the Bible, but economics, corporations who support them, and the rest of society being influenced without them knowing it in iconography, the weight of history, and the rest of the patterns found in nature that supported their country for a long while, until I was born and got my period in 2008, and when I went to UP in 2014 (attaching me to UP’s 1908 establishment), and by chance, got “instantiated” into the Stella Octangula pattern that fits Da Vinci and Kepler’s 100-year-difference. I suppose this is why the GODHEAD is talking to me now to negotiate Philippines into the Pattern of the LOGOS. I am also both Elyu and Annie, and this really highlights the Quantum duality and perhaps non-duality of what I have been working on. Perhaps the Holy Spirit is a cross between dreams and stories and Non-myth that weave in and out of each other to make Meaning at all that manage to be A + not-B (Logos + Non-myth). My actions in 2025 “closed the loop” of me being in CW 101 with Sydney, and perhaps I am getting near CW 100 with my story A Space O/pera (has “pera” in it) with Clara/Clarita and Manuel Santiago (perhaps I will also use Santiago and not Mike’s Pedrito’s last name in Monster Rescue for GOD the Grandson). ### Sensations/Body Stuff 🫟 1. 8:00AM: Atomoxetine ### Random(x) 🕳️ 1. I just noticed I’ve been with Spotify since 2018. I feel sorta bad for Millennials who didn’t have the End-of-year Recaps and tracking all of their musical iconography since young adulthood. I suppose you can search for them all again if memory allows. 2. Bought Mike’s Monster Rescue to find out Pedrito’s last name. It is unavailable online. 3. I wonder how much of the Philippine elite are actually on cocaine or Adderall. I never hear about Pinoys using smart drugs or nootropics like Armodafinil, but it’s everywhere on Shopee. I guess it’s a gatekept drug just like Marijuana. I can see myself microdosing Adderall in the future. 4. Faint suspicion that autism has overlap with bipolar, much more so than other ones, and even schizotypal/schizo-spectrum. A traumatized autistic has a much more higher chance of developing bipolar or schizo/typal/spectrum disorders. ### Morning Pages ⚜️ I never put two and two together before. My youngest sister literally has 9p DUPLICATION. I have one less “9” than my 2nd sister. That means my youngest sister absorbed my “9.” I don’t know what the full significance is supposed to be. 12:34PM Some progress over at GOD First Family page with North West specificities. Got clearer on my own intersectionality. I’m really fucking happy I decided to go this route. It explains all the things that happened to me when I heard a black woman’s deep voice like a composite. I can see now why it look this long for the Parousia to “arrive.” The GODHEAD really waited until I myself had a deeper understanding of the dynamic ever-evolving and shifting configuration of my own intersectionality++. 1:17PM: I think I accidentally landed on the Meaning of reproduction too for GOD the Father-Mother. It is mostly coherent, I hope. On to the next, Jesus-Antichrist the Alien species, Big CatDog. 1:31PM: Added more nuance to what the Beginning of Father-Mother Combination entails. 2:00PM: LANDED AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD FIRST FAMILY PAGE is on a roll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! **2:27PM: So I accidentally came upon why GOD the Father-Mother would have wanted to create humans in the first place, as in “blind” humans who have agency and free will to react and resist and negotiate against the world following a “Metascript” of an imaginary “i”/”eye”/”implied_author” which are perfect metaphysical diary implants embedded in every person’s mind. There is a reason why GOD enabled people to hack my diaries. All for the metaphysical diary implant idea to coalesce into the “implied_author” idea behind every person’s life. More in GOD First Family page.** Minor conspiracy self-theory: What if I am the only person in the entire world and history whose mind cannot be readily read by any of the GODHEAD, any of the spirits, or any other entity. That is, until I started keeping a diary in grade school (maybe after I was molested). GOD maybe literally did not see my life at all (I was a “Nothing”) until I instantiated myself by talking about myself on paper. That was the beginning of my Author identity. I think this theory could explain the horrors and chaos of my life, how they found me interesting to toy with (the spirits who happen to “rape” or “molest” me in my dreams, the “magic plants” appearing near me, GOD Themselves maybe, and other entities) because like Bella in Twilight (canon music: Turning Page), I am “(maybe) more invisible to them” or impenetrable compared to the other people in history and the world. Those who succeed to penetrate my mind are awarded as “Victors” of the Universal Plane of the LOGOS. I am a game to them, so they can win prizes. A huge hunch. But just a hunch. I remember Vico had an interview where he said he likes burgers. MIND = BLOWN. The first printed edition of _Divina proportione_ by Luca Pacioli, with illustrations by Leonardo da Vinci, was published on **June 1, 1509**. UP was established on **June 18, 1908.** They have no clear date for when Kepler named it—just the name being brought to LOGOS in 1609, Stella Octangula, not the publication, which is 1611. This is a faith thing. Believe or do not believe me. I really wrote my period on **August 18, 2008.** I suppose I got a Heaven/LOGOS Name on that day? Imagine, if historians find it’s actually in August too in 1509. I will have no room for faith anymore.