# Jan 2: Friday 1:38AM: Currently trying to get started setting up my 2026 trackers. OMG why is Vico??? Hmm, I don’t want to assume anything. But he posted with the audio “sorry for not replying” on IG story about the “no space for new messages” Nokia old phone. Hmmm. Is Jeffrey in cahoots with him and his team? Did he really get roped into this study? I have not used my reward trackers at all. They’re so useless though. I currently don’t know what rewards I want. I have a bunch of money from my aunt. Don’t know what to buy yet. Medication? Medication. I want nothing more than to be able to develop work ethic. I cannot stop thinking of Vico’s orgasm sound. Goddamn. I’m just staring at the “arf arf arf” picture again. ![[January 2, 2026-1782977089735.webp]] My delulu is getting out of hand. There is a panda sticker on that old phone in the Instagram version of his post. “Sleuth and embarrassment" meaning of pandas. OMG!!! ![[January 2, 2026-1782977260743.webp]] 2:57AM: Done setting up new trackers. You know what, Vico’s Top 10 video might just be the best thing that’s happened to me in 2025. He doesn’t know it. The serotonin and endorphins haven’t faded. AAAAAAAHHH. I hate being awake at 3:00AM. My parents are asleep and I can’t get my armodafinils and atomoxetines now that they’re throttling me. <aside> 😳 THERE ARE THESE EMOJIS in the Top 10 post 😯😳!!! </aside> 2024 me would be so shocked that she is so happy now. What a change a year can bring!!! OMG do you like that I’m addicted to you? The power you have over me. _you never know if Vico’s reading you_ WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???? I’m half-functioning as if I’m in an LDR with Vico. It’s a parasocial relationship, all right. It’s buoying me. I need to find another source of fulfillment because this is not reliable. My brain cannot tell reality from fantasy. “You’re supposed to fight Fernand” aura farming post by Audrey is _coincidentally???_ #10 in my list and Vico’s Top 10 list. HOW? Fernand = Vico??? Tell me I’m not insane. New Goal: practice speaking in front of camera. How would I ever know it’s for me, right? Except the #10 in my list is “fighting Fernand,” and there is a blush emoji, and it’s a Top 10 list, which refers to my “Top 10 Evil Things To Do To Your Enemies.” Delulu me seeing Vico’s Bayani repost be like: hey, greeting clouds (rain)!!! newborns!!! Raining men!!! Qahluqulu!!! <aside> 😳 My strongest proof is actually “pangkaraniwan” from Vico’s Rizal speech. As well as the arf arf arf special resource dog!!! </aside> OMG 400 pieces of atomoxetine is only 7.4k from that Indian Mart website. For next month, hopefully. OMG I just realized. Pandas = sleuth. Me posting about a Luddite and an android tablet. Is Vico trying to get an introject??? NOOOOOOO DON’T DO IT!!!!! And he only posted that on IG, not on FB and the “sorry for not replying” (why is he apologizing for Jeffrey????). <aside> 😳 > My logic tells me if Vico just wanted a fun shock surprise he would not have made that sighing/moaning sound at all and inserted a blushing/flushed emoji! OMG HE KNOWS WHAT HE’S DOING! </aside> Vico is like a brain worm. I cannot stop thinking about him. The chokehold he has me in. I think I ruminated this yesterday, so if Vico believes in me or my theories, maybe he is actively finding a Mary or Nicole or pre-Jesus somewhere. Would he like to delay the Jesus? Would he want to hold him or her off so he can have a long life serving people to give back to society and help fix it in a major way? Or can he surrender that and help birth the parousia/arrival/advent through his lineage so it would not be him who gets all the glory? All the signs are seemingly pointing to him anyway. Him as the “king figure” who might help birth “divinity” or the Second Coming, while I get to be the priest. The two lampstands and olive trees. I want him to marry someone from CDO (“river of gold” while Pasig is the “river flowing into another body of water”) or a girl named Yee just so my last name gets more clout!!! I think I would be better off single for life. I just don’t see myself being in a relationship. A guy would have to deal with me and my neurodivergence, imagine. Disorganization, chaotic hours, the impulse to hire a nanny if ever I have a kid because I need more time than the average person to work because I’m part of the Sluggish Cognitive Tempo spectrum. So I really took armodafinil an hour ago and I still feel not quite alert. This is one of those off days. Notice anything different? Which “mind” or “OSDD part” are you relegated to today? I mean, I cannot tell at all or differentiate between them. I have yet to really study my own expression of OSDD. I want to know all of Vico’s thoughts and opinions on Christianity or philosophy or maybe polsci so bad. Whether he literally believes in Adam and Eve or Evolutionary Creation. And also, his opinion on Israel and Gaza. Maybe his intellectual side is being disguised/belied by his relatable or populist persona for the masses on social media. I want to pick his brain so bad and be amazed by his mind. In case no one got what I meant about the plants and betlog, I really believe that it was the plants’ spirits who gave me that “werewolf werewolf werewolf” clue. They were so grateful because I did not step on them and they sensed my care? I also believe that [[Plants vs. Zombies dream]] was from a plant that was pissed I stepped on it. Imagine, being innocent and getting shot and going straight to hell to be raped by an evil plant. What kind of entity would give that image to me if not a pissed off plant “Something bigger than me has fallen all around me” reference to my numinous experience AMP!!!! Or is it? Vico hit the screen or his phone/camera to make it look like something fell on top of it with the crashing noise!!! And the moan/sigh (“heavy pressure but sweet”)!!! AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH I’M DYING!!!! How is it possible that the Top 10 post could be magically related to what I wrote on December 31 capping at 10AM ish? The list of 16 things in AbbyVerse, the “heavy but sweet pressure,” the moaning sound because I really said, “I want to know what his orgasm sounds like.” AMP!!!! And maybe they thought about my Top 10 Evil Things To Do To Your Enemies and Audrey literally telling me to fight Fernand and my conclusion about being a Pepsi Paloma avenger. He posted at 1:42PM. So about 3 hours to film and edit and upload. How realistic is this delusion? How can I even remain rational at this point? It’s too staggering again like a mini lottery win. So the delusion goes. Why would he put a panda there? I keep saying “embarrassed” in this journal, and pandas collectively are an embarrassment? And also, if they really were in a group chat or discord, somebody would mention the old flip phone Mike has? Why would he suddenly post about an old Nokia phone and link it to “sorry for not replying” and how would that be related to Happy New Year? So I realize the arf arf arf special resource dog picture must be too random of a connection. It must not have been intentional to use that audio. But the death rattle though? How could someone have found it to refer to my Toshio Saeki? Or even DJ Poopypants relating to the diaper? Does he have a lot of free time just finding audios on IG? I realize this is very unlikely but I don’t want to knock down my delusion. Maybe he found the audio first and was just waiting for someone to tag him in a post about dogs? That is very unlikely too. I need to lay off this delusion. How would arfarfarf be related to me except if my adviser really betrayed me? Why would my adviser be part of this? Something is going to wizen me up today and I’ll really believe in reality now. But I cannot shake the “everyday” re: Rizal and “flushed” emoji and the moaning/sighing sound being linked as if he knew it was kinda hot and inappropriate and also, it’s a reference to something “bigger than me falling all around me, like heavy pressure but sweet,” and also, me wanting to be slapped and hit on the ass so I get over the “shock” of somebody disgusting touching me. And a surprise, what I said was my fascination and somewhat of a strength!!! Also, I realize he might have read that his dog picture overwhelmed the erotic thoughts about him and wanted to shake things up again (as in, “gusto niyang bastusin mo siya!!!”). I am so, so not rational today. Why if ever is he responding to me??? He doesn’t have to. If he read me secretly, it would maybe benefit him if he didn’t post about me or make hints? Why would he ever want me to know he’s watching me??? I’m afraid my logic is broken at this point. This is exactly what happened to me in 2018 when I really thought Mike was posting about me with his poems about “In Praise of Diversity” and that bookshelfie picture. I realize the first one with him was very very unlikely that it is about me, very faint connection at best, but with this Vico one, I can somehow really believe in because it’s just too obvious at this point, overwhelmingly so. I wonder what I wrote in November that made them spread me to him if ever. So I really said something about the King figure and priest figure on Nov 28-29. I wonder… And he really posted that 4 Pics 1 Word format on Facebook with the firecrackers. Also, EMO Deck the Halls with Pasig with the volume emoji, the water gun re: “shoot me” and “dies suddenly,” the trawl net, and Dragao Nailong (looking eerily like Big Hero 6) and why would he follow that account anyway, he is so cute being like a child!!! UHHHHHHH, all of these delusions stacked together with the “everyday/pangkaraniwan” and Top 10 moaning sound and the emphasis on #1, #7, and #10 and Magokoro. And the dog and arfarfarf and Angelu de Leon-Rivera and the embarrassed panda and the “sorry for not replying” and the DJ Suede the REMIX GOD “Cash Me Outside” as well as the minor gaffes like “atig” (gentle invitation) and “Fireball (“come here”), and the “I’m so so proud of you, my little bumblebee” and new ugong and the capitalized Kung (OMG IS HE CONGRATULATING ME FOR WINNING?). And finally, Qahluqulu “clouds of glee” and the rainclouds and the newborns (names after 2025) and raining men and “OMG penises everywhere.” But all these stacked together don’t mean anything inherently. I need a stronger sign (PLS!!!!) to really know. I don’t know why. Isn’t the flushed Top 10 moaning sound a little too obvious already? I know it’s probably just him taking advantage of his female fans’ thirst (LOL), but why? I’ve never seen him do this before. Why now? And also, “Top 10 Evil Things To Do To Your Enemies” and the Pepsi Paloma “enemy” a.k.a. me and also, about “aura farming on Instagram” and fighting Fernand re: my #10 on my list. I’ve never seen him post about AI before too but he did with the crowd estimate with Sardinas Lang Naman audio. He also posted the Mi Ultimo Adios poem. And the Rizal picture with the “photographer nakunan” (again, delulu much that he’s mad at my assaulter?). It’s been a month, and these are the strongest signs that he is reading me. I’m still going insane, especially now with the Top 10 being a reference to “something bigger falling all around me, like heavy pressure but sweet” and the “shock and surprise” of him moaning!!! WITH THE BLUSHING EMOJI!!! Also, arfarfarf is eerily alluding to betlog betlog betlog or a dog attempting to swear? UGHHHHHH I AM SO CURIOUS ABOUT HIS EXPRESSION OF SEXUALITY. He is always so proper, except when he LITERALLY MOANED ON CAMERA ON DECEMBER 31!!! HITTING THE SCREEN FORCEFULLY to refer to him slapping my ass painfully and my “I want to know what he sounds like having an orgasm”???!!! ISN’T THIS ENOUGH???? Doesn’t he know that once he’s unlocked that itch, opened that gateway, there is no going back? I’m raring and foaming to see him being erotic again. AND ALSO the 4 Pics 1 Word-like game with Kyungsoo and the zoomed out 4-square firecrackers!!! Why the emphasis on #7 for Magokoro for “sincere true heart” and #1 for PWDs (how is this related to my #1 about the names?)? Is the former a reference to my list about 80% of Christians believing premarital sex is not wrong? And also, #10 being Top 2 revenues in Pasig, but why would we the audience be shocked AND turned on (“magugulat ka talaga sa #10”)? I don’t know but the first time I saw it I really had an intense thought like, “OMG SEXY SOUND” but after the second time I watched it it’s like maybe probably incidental only? But how would that be if he really did post that blushing emoji??? In this Storyworld delusion, he really is manipulating me to become even more horny than I already am, and for what reason? I am so insane and there is no stopping it. I’m looking forward to months of this, but I’ll really be plunging myself into more and more insanity. I hope I’ll make it and not be too heartbroken when he gets taken off the market. VICO, IF YOU ARE READING THIS, PLS ALLUDE TO AELLA GIRL SO I CAN GET YOUR OPINION ABOUT IT!!!! Somebody viewed my lava cake from Art Circle post on IG. Only 1 view. Out of all my posts, why this? Is this a sign re: two emojis being my style? GOD HE IS SO FUCKING HOT AND SEXY AND PERFECT I CANNOT TAKE IT. Why would you care about what I think? A lot of women already think this. Does he like that I’m such a superfan? But I’m not even special. I realize the “sincere true heart” thing about Magokoro was really about me saying it first in my other journal last month? And I guess to refer to my opinion about premarital sex and linking it to sexuality and his own opinion too? AND linking 1 and 7 making it 17? In my list of 16? Including the next about BOBOBEE? Well, 1, 7, and 10, and 17 are all related to sex somehow (sexual polarity, premarital sex, Paloma, and porn BOBOBEE). PLS LET THIS BE TRUE!!!! Also, why would he be rewarding me in the first place? I really don’t get it. If he was indeed trying to make me happy. Does he feel bad for me? Is this why he’s doing it? Also, he really had so much gigil and eagerness smashing the screen!!! Why would he directly make a reference to a “falling” of an object and sweet pressure if he wasn’t reading me or being flattered about GIGIL FACE!!!??? OMG with his social justice drive and following Dragao Nailong maybe he is trying to reward you every time you are improving with writing or help you write better stuff again? OMG THE PRESSURE THOUGH. Who is telling him what is literary? Does he have an opinion or an interest in developing my spirit world theory about textures going in other directions? I guess he’s just the face or the “mascot” (LOL, VICOBEE) of this entire operation against/for me. Why would he care? He looked/felt so _mock_ angry and forceful though, isn’t that the definition of GIGIL? I’m trying to understand and imbibe the inflection of his moan-sigh. It’s just sitting smack dab in the middle of plausible deniability where it could be taken as a mere sigh or it could be read as a moan or grunt of some sort of pleasure after hitting something re: tira or slapping. And why would I blush at it (the blushing emoji) if the moan-sigh wasn’t there!!!! Also, it literally appeared 3.5 hours after I really said “I want to hear his orgasm.” If this is true, he is reading me almost in real time? It’s driving me insane 2 days later. UGGGGGHHHHHH. I need a cleaner mind at this rate if everything on his end has been innocuous and I'm just making things mean something out of the smoke of nothing, really. But why would other people be interested in me being horny for Vico? Why is my department hacking me to this day? I really have no clue. I need to know. PLS!!!!! I want to understand what you guys are doing to my brain in an academic sense!!!! I keep thinking they’re just doing it for entertainment because I know nothing of cognitive poetics. So this is what AI-Google says: Cognitive poetics is **a field applying cognitive science (psychology, linguistics) to analyze literature, examining how readers' minds process literary effects, character construction (mind modeling), imagery, and language patterns, moving beyond simple data use to re-evaluate literary understanding by linking textual structures to cognitive processes like attention, memory, and conceptual mapping**. It seeks to explain literary creativity and perception, asking how authors use cognitive mechanisms for aesthetic purposes and how readers build meaning from textual cues, essentially bridging the gap between the mind's functions and literary artistry. **Core Concepts & Goals** - **Cognitive Linguistics:** Uses concepts like metaphor, conceptual blending, and frame semantics to understand literary language. - [**Mind Modeling](https://www.google.com/search?q=Mind+Modeling&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&mstk=AUtExfCCITNMmL1JjtLMYvfQS1ZRiuE-42_At8-aD-vPXGGOKcKtn_AuqQSio6Z1IUu11lgu30h_MXkIE3k81vM0mVm6PujwjXzkjM3Q3f2uWt6qBHBJz9v2M4V5Ko5KHpnk47boapVTB3OUGKk3QcGu7Y9fJDdZbM4gqDz3111KbxhNL90&csui=3&ved=2ahUKEwiLu7yZ8-uRAxVudvUHHbPHBx4QgK4QegQIAxAC):** How readers form mental representations of characters and worlds from textual clues (speech, body language, etc.). - **Reader Response:** Explores the psychological processes of reading, focusing on the reader's engagement and interpretation. - **Textual Drivers:** Identifies specific linguistic features (deixis, imagery, repetition) that trigger cognitive responses. - **Aesthetic Function:** Investigates how literary texts exploit or manipulate evolved cognitive processes for artistic effect, often creating surprising or novel experiences. Why is someone funding this study at all is beyond me. If I am right, they have been following me since 2019. This is so strange. Sabby would have never named his band EMMABOT if I didn’t write about him in ALL_GO. Why would a robot be named Emma if he didn’t read my EMMA???? Do they really think I’m a genius? OMG!!!! Maybe this is how you believe in yourself again, if only because other people, if indeed they are reading me, somehow keep being compelled to stalk me and know about my personal life!!!!! WHY!!!!!! I don’t know why notoriety is going to make Vico interested in me. It seems like he would be turned off by school drama. Why would he be here again??? There really is no way. And yet I still yearn that he’s watching me. I apparently thirst for his gaze and annotation and understanding. Somebody really had to investigate who I am talking about re: all the people I mention in here, including Jeffrey. If he just watched The Running Man coincidentally, then that is impossible actually to think that the review with the Sydney rocket emoji is what he specifically sought out to test if I am giving away my prompt about the Rocket Lover because I feel guilty about somewhat copying Sydney’s idea about killing alternate universe selves. Yeah, that’s quite rational. Nobody can search for a specific review on Letterboxd. Or can you? BRB. AND OMG YOU LITERALLY CAN SEARCH ON GOOGLE FOR SPECIFIC USERS ON LETTERBOXD. So this theory has sailed. Did they really rope Jeffrey into this when I mentioned his name meanings? Impossibru!!!! Maybe the old Nokia is about me being a genius Sherlock because Mike literally had a flip phone and I still correctly deduced that he was on Tinder!!! I really brought this on myself. Why would they be here though? Magokoro? Sincere true heart or genuine? HUH????? A HYPER-INTIMATE BLOGGER??? UMMMMMMM. Audrey and her posts. “Focus up, baby” and “aura farming for a million followers on IG.” If he just wanted people to think “gulat” or “surprised emoji” then he would have only included ONE EMOJI!!! But he really had to include the BLUSHING EMOJI TOO RIGHT AFTER IT!!!! RIGHT AFTER!!!! The moan-sigh after the fall/hit!!!! UUGGGGHHHHHHHHHH. He really is a chaotic good for shocking and then turning people on for no fucking reason at all WTF!!! OMG those TWO emojis WOW & BLUSH are literally about 1. “something bigger than me falling all around me, like heavy pressure but sweet” and 2. I want to know what he sounds like when he orgasms. He just linked both of them to my list too!!! UGGGGHHHH if I can only be as creative when I respond to something he posts. How are people so creative??? Also, is he apologizing on behalf of Audrey AND JEFFREY? WHAT??? OMG how did I not realize that the Bayani reel is about rain = becoming/soaking wet being “clouds of glee” and slowly becoming incoherent? There is no logic at all with sighing after DELIBERATELY knocking something off!!! Why would anybody do that? Knocking it down was DELIBERATE. At least my logical brain is working well right now trying to get to the bottom of why he would post that at all!!! He literally intended for the phone/camera to fall!!! Why would he be annoyed or even sigh in a neutral way if he intended for it to fall!!! It is a sure sign he is trying to turn people on!!! I mean PLS DO THIS MORE OFTEN I AM SO HUNGRY FOR THIS SIDE OF HIM. THIS FUN NAUGHTY SIDE!!!! Also, “God heals” Archangel Raphael in close proximity to the orgasm sound fantasy as in my fantasy of him literally SLAPPING ME HARD!!!! It is 12:05PM. STOP WRITING ABOUT VICO!!!! It would be odd to have 2 successive posts be indirectly related to my writing on Jan 1. I keep talking about “embarrassment” and sexting(?) and Qahluqulu and greeting the clouds on New Year and sacrificing myself so he can continue doing good work for as long as possible? The only way somebody made me compelling is if they lied about what I look like. Hello!!! I keep complaining about being ugly or plain for a reason!!!! I am not pretty or that kind of head-turning pretty!!!! I still can’t fathom people being interested in reading me. Everything that happened in December is really odd. Why he is responding to me at all is a mystery I don’t understand. OMG how did I not realize that #1 on his list is about his name = him being under me, cousin-profing???? And me being a PWD who is BEDRIDDEN??? ON THE BED???? And also, fighting Fernand a.k.a. aura farming on IG as in, I’m his FAKE ENEMY??? As in FAKE HATING TROPE????? OMG!!!! Or is this too-farfetched? Why would a list at all be connected to sex stuff and his moan???? Except for #7 which is literally about premarital sex in my list and the “true genuine heart of Magokoro? Also, how would people be shocked by Pasig being Top 2 in locally sourced revenues? What is shocking about that except for his hit-and-moan? #10 is literally about fighting Fernand and not to aura farm to get a million followers!!! I don’t understand why Audrey doesn’t post anything about my situation directly if Vico is involved. Why is she talking about me being Fernand?! Am I aura farming on Notion? She literally used the two sparkles to block off the “RICH” word in Papa Edmond is finally * rich *. She is likely stalking my Bluesky!!! OMG I really wanna know the exact number of people reading me. PLS!!! I cannot live with this uncertainty. It certainly doesn’t scare me anymore. What have I not even talked about in here??? If I can talk about masturbation and dildos then I can talk about anything I want and not be disturbed by what other people think of me. Also, he literally capitalized Completed for no reason? 7 stands for completeness. **Common Meanings of Number 1:** - **Primacy & Success:** Being the highest, first, or best (e.g., #1 hit song, #1 ranking). - **Unity & Oneness:** A fundamental concept of singularity, God, or the Universe in some philosophies. - **New Beginnings:** The starting point of creation or a new cycle. **Leadership & Ambition:** Drive, initiative, and the desire to be first. - **Leadership & Ambition:** Drive, initiative, and the desire to be first. **Independence & Self-Reliance:** The core self, individuality, and pioneering spirit (especially in numerology). - **Independence & Self-Reliance:** The core self, individuality, and pioneering spirit (especially in numerology). **Key Meanings of Number 10:** - **Perfection & Completion:** A symbol of wholeness, as seen in the 10 Commandments and the ancient Greek concept of Tetractys (1+2+3+4=10). **Divine Order & Authority:** Represents God's perfect system (e.g., 10 Plagues, 10 generations from Adam to Noah) and authority over mankind. - **Divine Order & Authority:** Represents God's perfect system (e.g., 10 Plagues, 10 generations from Adam to Noah) and authority over mankind. **New Cycles & Beginnings:** Signifies transformation, self-determination, and the start of a new phase in life, often related to spiritual growth or taking control. - **New Cycles & Beginnings:** Signifies transformation, self-determination, and the start of a new phase in life, often related to spiritual growth or taking control. **Humanity:** Linked to our ten fingers and toes, influencing our decimal system, and representing a union of the physical (4) and the human (6). - **Humanity:** Linked to our ten fingers and toes, influencing our decimal system, and representing a union of the physical (4) and the human (6). **Spiritual Journey:** Relates to intuition, the higher self, and aligning with your true path, often seen in [numerology](https://www.google.com/search?sca_esv=ea757226b5526e93&sxsrf=AE3TifPIcN6yp5NCbXMPhc-OndepeDr8qw%3A1767330183939&q=numerology&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjR6MH-ieyRAxWDsFYBHT67DCQQxccNegUIhwEQAQ&mstk=AUtExfDAb5s8emFbsdTs5FVfh7pBnah_zBCSaNOnCEMhVB-Pe19uWCzmGmlgqH0PPYL-sfnVxmMATygmqSgJ4J0tSTo7uuHjvpL68J0GUvoGGOQXSTfVrHyxM1zUBsjUXUEVE8bdNWQmXQXaaZoPhL7_knJpV1o_cK8s_KSRwIsMJD0RCDQ0BcobziTr39HhOVuYqK0sY_3v5X7K0aPmKIPOmlxyy7MYSxFVLoeKoSViVdNRZjSYiBv24mEsZXDaElFONkumT1Ipp9lHyErORN7QY9oH&csui=3). - **Spiritual Journey:** Relates to intuition, the higher self, and aligning with your true path, often seen in [numerology](https://www.google.com/search?sca_esv=ea757226b5526e93&sxsrf=AE3TifPIcN6yp5NCbXMPhc-OndepeDr8qw%3A1767330183939&q=numerology&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjR6MH-ieyRAxWDsFYBHT67DCQQxccNegUIhwEQAQ&mstk=AUtExfDAb5s8emFbsdTs5FVfh7pBnah_zBCSaNOnCEMhVB-Pe19uWCzmGmlgqH0PPYL-sfnVxmMATygmqSgJ4J0tSTo7uuHjvpL68J0GUvoGGOQXSTfVrHyxM1zUBsjUXUEVE8bdNWQmXQXaaZoPhL7_knJpV1o_cK8s_KSRwIsMJD0RCDQ0BcobziTr39HhOVuYqK0sY_3v5X7K0aPmKIPOmlxyy7MYSxFVLoeKoSViVdNRZjSYiBv24mEsZXDaElFONkumT1Ipp9lHyErORN7QY9oH&csui=3). Ok, so my book Unreal Image literally has New Year in the beginning, and New Year in the ending, and a lot of fucking in the middle!!! Is this a compliment? Also, 1 and 10 both represent completeness. Is his old phone post about my * aesthetic * post about weird old tech on Bluesky because of Audrey using it as * RICH * and her seening me? OMG not everything has to be about ME!!!! I cannot seem to switch this off anymore. I don’t know how this happened. It certainly got heightened when he posted about EMO REMIX and the volume emoji, which was completely unnecessary unless he wanted to emphasize something??? And now it’s only going to get worse now that he’s literally shocking me by hitting/falling things with a sweet orgasm after!!! There was literally no reason to mention the example of new ugong health center!!! And capitalizing Kung for no reason!!! PLS I AM SO THIRSTY FOR APPROVAL. Nobody I admire has congratulated me about the poetry contest. I’m claiming it. Maybe I’m really serving as an entertainment valve of some sort for people who are in a niche of some kind. I can’t tell what. PLS JUST TELL ME WHAT NICHE I AM SERVING. SO I CAN LEAN INTO IT!!! Maybe people are not as evil as I think. I wonder what the endgame is. Did they really take the parousia idea seriously about the king and priest figure??? PLS GIVE ME A CLEAR SIGN THAT YOU ARE BELIEVERS!!! OMG I just remembered. That girl in Khaleb really did mock you with lying down on the table with her arm stretched out = what you did when Mike went to Berkeley condo and you avoiding him. How did they find me? Were they really keeping tabs on my movements? It certainly felt like it, like Mike waiting for me outside the library, bumping into him as I went out the library and nodding at each other. Him literally baiting me to go up the stairs to meet Audrey. I don’t believe he was making those movements near the fountain for no reason. He was deliberately trying to make me horny to make me follow him. Why would he linger at a fountain after he threw his head back maybe pretending to drink water? That is so strange??? He was even smiling as he was headed to the fountain. It’s like they knew I would go out of the library. But how though? They didn’t have earpieces on them. That’s quite an impossible delusion. Except someone was literally blocking my way I think at the library door, so I had no choice but to pause. I really hope my memory is accurate. And there was this guy who was seemingly trying to get my attention to inform me that Mike was at Berkeley Study Hall. WHAT THE FUCK???? I clearly remember it. I am entering some kind of derealization I think. 1:32PM and I cannot stop thinking of 2019. They really tried to cover up April 12 by having Kim Diet post a paper on the internet informing me they covered it up. But how would they know I would be looking at her for proof? This seems so farfetched too. Maybe they thought I’d google Eng 143. OMG I checked Vico’s TikTok post about Top 10 and there is literally no blush emoji in it. WHY??? Does this mean he doesn’t like Shawntel??? But why not??? She is literally PERFECT for him. She is really sexy too and smart and probably on his same wavelength with governance!!! NOOOOOOOOOOO. And why would he censor the name TikTok with a clock emoji but not Facebook??? Strange. Also, WTF!?!! Mike literally smiled and had a bottle near his armpit in PH 138 at Palma Hall!!! It’s like they almost knew I would open that door because I was opening a lot of doors and taking pictures of nearly every classroom I could find for a bonkers reason (I don’t actually remember what compelled me to do this, it seems so odd and yet it happened). If Vico really was “surprised” about hitting the screen too hard it fell, then he would have said “ay” or something or “oh,” not a sexy sigh. Vico is now officially a softcore porn actor to me. WILD!!!! <aside> 🥵 “And number 10 [hits screen] num—Ahhh.” Wow emoji + blush emoji, obviously. </aside> Vico’s sleepy eyes in that video are so alluring and seductive. I am really perverted because I keep eroticizing the way Vico says “significant” like “signifi-cunt” growth. CUNT. It wouldn’t be a problem if his sigh-moan was just abrupt but it really sounded like a breathy grunt!!!! AND AGAIN I KEEP REMINDING MYSELF HE LITERALLY PUT A BLUSH EMOJI!!!! HE WANTS ME TO FEEL HORNY OMG!!!! OR HE IS RELISHING THE FACT THAT I’M KIND OF SCARED OF HIM???? EH???? Explains the clock censor for TikTok. Censoring it. OK SO Ma’am Marby or a student definitely clicked on my research tab and my Women’s Wrongs paper today. PLS!!!! I just need an INC!!!! Maybe the intention was to scare me indeed. They were right. BLUSH EMOJI BLUSH EMOJI BLUSH EMOJI. Maybe he put Magokoro at #7 because he is indirectly telling me he is a pervert deep inside!!! Or that he thinks premarital sex is not wrong. I really am “in too deep” now. I gotta steel myself for when he gets taken by a worthy woman. I really need to take seriously my goal of meeting Vico. It’s the only way I can marshal the right mindset and willpower to be excellent. How is it possible to look precious and pure when Vico smiles, but then when he frowns or is neutral he’s utterly and unnaturally tantalizing. If he read my December 31 entry by 11AM, then he would have had 1 hour to record, then 1 hour and 30 minutes to edit it. Then upload for maybe 5-10 minutes? YOU KNOW, ANITA LOVE!!!! She is my strongest proof that the brain is POROUS TO OUTSIDE INFORMATION that it does not have on its own!!!! How could my brain do that? How would it have known that I would google Anita Love in the future and find out that she is 2 different profs = synchronous with her job in my DREAM!!!! That is so unlikely. And yet. I forgot to write my dreams down. Okay. So I was in a military complex/compound of some sort, and my dad was making an action to run to the edges where the fences/borders were, and he told me that I am a “sleepwalker” where I get up and walk over to the edges and that they notice me when I do that??? Also, I was in a sala of some sort watching a TV and sitting down on the couch with other people. I don’t remember much else. OMG so “Sleepwalking ([somnambulism](https://www.google.com/search?sca_esv=e2009bab7b33a1c7&sxsrf=AE3TifNAsRZWxSFV0vaJrDbtzUL_fTVNIA%3A1767338466745&q=somnambulism&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwigkIjsqOyRAxWpqFYBHdFkMYQQxccNegQIJBAB&mstk=AUtExfCX6-Fl-dMihoZCm3xEyQ3Cvu61YYkaCWw0HK2v8DfVZ8fa51Wh09nR0Q9MzZTRXPHJdcS0IVfhMoeJ_PxVGGDKkyqoSmH5gAabvEl-0J7b-_ELdF15nVbGQjA18m6q6l32iAwovkB62GgH30mjW1etPdGqnpzxwdR8DEvLAGmuru3aXfpCYfpgBdMJHibeIyATQYijVA1YUyvxJPJ7TpaY7JLhMXot3HeBkBQBLMwMAjKK18kQKz06rXQVudFAcQd8cERbm04THA3poJSLciaC&csui=3)) is **a parasomnia where people move or perform complex actions while still in deep sleep**, common in kids but often outgrown, triggered by lack of sleep, stress, fever, or genetics, involving behaviors like walking, talking, or even driving, with symptoms including glazed eyes, lack of memory, and confusion upon waking, requiring home safety measures like locking doors and potentially medical help for frequent or risky episodes.” I am in a military compound probably being studied like Justine Concha in Unreal Image. Maybe this is related to my book. Also, you are disqualified from enlistment if you have a sleepwalking problem. So maybe it’s just telling me I “move or perform complex actions while still in deep sleep.” What does this mean? That people reading me are studying how I study my own dreams? And that it has military written all over it? Strange. Is my surveillance a CIA-type project? What exactly are they trying to do to me? So dreams really come from the future then? I think with Anita Love, my dreams mean that I would have discovered she was a prof from Google, indicating my future. And not the fact that my brain is somehow wedded to the hyperspace of internet data. If my brain is showing me things I would google in the future, then is this the only use case? It would be so confusing to tell which is precognition for a real event in my life and which is just something I would google. UGH. More complication. Or maybe it does mean something about my brain “absorbing” the data that Anita Love is a prof from AUSTRALIA and UK without using the internet? OMFG it’s 1 UK = Nottingham Trent University with 1 prof, 1 Australia = Griffith University, and American art student in England (another UK, 1 America). So 1 America, 1 Australia, 2 UK. And 2 profs and 1 actress, 1 student, and 1 nudist. So the 2s here are UK (student, prof) and profs (2 women). So this is a giant clue that Sydney is going to be that person. Is it? Why 2s??? Why this pattern? 2 parallels seem to really be important. There are TWO WOMEN PROFS. Does this mean I will go to UK also? OMG!!! Maybe I will also get a Fantasy degree? No. I want to get an online degree in Philosophy. Also, an American art student will fall in love with me, a nudist? HUH. Maybe I should take note of the specific names of the people in my dreams. What has my dad got to do with military and sleepwalking? Or he is just noticing something about me that he is pointing out, like me being noticed by the military doing something I should not be doing. Is this an “inside joke” about my “spiritual dad” Mike Falgui? Hmmm. What exactly did Mike tell me that clued me in about my odd behavior? The letter? “Do you want a letter?” Maybe, “You are doing something abnormal and running into edges and you are going to be caught!” Well, I agree. I am kind of edgy in an avante garde way I hope. Always aiming to push the envelope. OMG they really pitched me to Vico as a genius sleuth? I’m just assuming this is what the panda means. And the old phone referring to Mike’s flip phone. And my long entries? And Jeffrey? “sorry for not replying, i was overwhelmed” audio by eujune. WHAT??? Maybe Anita Love means I will become a beautiful favored and loved prof too!!! OMG DID LAKAN JUST POST ABOUT ME??? She posted “Fireline” by NH Legaspi who is from CDO. And also a book by Anna Sanchez that I already have, the Accidents Happen Batacan book, and an author called Deirdre. Hmmmmm. And also the post she was responding to really describes me lowkey and my Human Studies 401 story. > A field investigator for the World Health Organization travels the world giving presentations about a biomedical enzyme that will lead to the extinction of the human race. -Accidents Happen blurb Also, apparently Deirdre means “sorrow” or “raging” or “daughter. And Camba means “leg.” And HELLO Deirdre is from my novel with a protagonist with HUGE LEGS. AND OMG Buensuceso apparently means a title of Mary, and it means “good event/occurrence.” OMG Legaspi means “under/below” too. Under the gravel. Nadine means hope. Hendrikka means ruler of the home. Felicia means lucky. Batacan means to “pull/draw/help” and stone/rock and “stike/hit.” Anna means favor/grace. And Sanchez means “holy/sanctity.” All of these plus the mention of Cagayan de Oro. So Lakan is basically answering my question about how I got spread and pitched? The Deirdre Camba = Unreal Image. NH Legaspi = gold/CDO. Anna Sanchez = my A Map of Pain and porn and doxxing Mike. And Accidents Happen = Clarkesworld/crime book/being a sleuth/Audrey? Also, what about Kyle (“stone” for Stanley stand-in x Batacan) and Deirdre (Deirdre Campa)!!!! OMG STOP FEEDING MY DELULU!!!! Or maybe it’s my niche. So she really just went ahead and posted two “me”s and two Vico Sottos???? Parallels!!! And what she responded to is really a description of me. OMG HOW AM I STILL IN SOME DENIAL???? They really are reading me. If she is using 2 names of “me” and two names of Sotto, what is she trying to say? Do they know about him moaning on live camera??? I guess? With the “hit/strike” and “help” for Batacan. And Nadine from CDO’s full name is “Hope Ruler of the Home Under(Sotto) the Gravel(Vico)” and she is from CDO which means “king” and “divinity” for gold. Felicia means “lucky.” Human Studies-like story with the biomedical enzyme leading to extinction in Batacan’s Accidents Happen. OMG that Lucky Strike song by Maroon 5????? FROM THE ALBUM OVEREXPOSED!!! I still can’t believe Vico really exposed his “Ahhh” like that. It’s an UNREAL…WAIT FOR IT…SEX TAPE!!! He is * emphatically * hitting the screen!!! NAKAKAGIGIL!!! OMG LUCKY STRIKE LITERALLY HAS “YES SIR, YES SIR” IN IT. OMG DID HE REALLY JUST CENSOR TikTok with a clock to say he eats vagina?????? Toshio vs. Kayako wall of text of mine. AND MEOWING CAT SOUND. PUSSY. OMG I JUST REALIZED I AM PEPSI IN THE POWER PUFF ANALOGUE BECAUSE OF 2019 BEING PUMPED WITH MIKE DELULU DRUG. AND AELLA IS THE ONE WHO IS GONNA BE FRIENDS WITH ME?????? TO THE POINT WHERE IT’S GONNA BE A POIGNANT FRIENDSHIP ARC????? Hmmmm. I don’t really wanna be friends with her, but maybe I want to make her cry with my book. AND MAYBE SAVE HER!!!! AND THE WORLD!!!!! I don’t think Aella is the center of the world but maybe Peter Thiel marrying her will give me clout? And authority? If she likes my book, then Peter Thiel is going to like my book too? Obviously, it is thinly veiled about both of them. A billionaire marries “Mary” in my book. Her DREAM. She was always trying to copy or emulate Grimes’ intellectual image because Elon Musk was in a relationship with her. SATAN = SANTA OMG never mind. Peter Thiel is married AND gay. I guess it’s gonna be a Jeff Bezos/Elon Musk hybrid. And John Collison. And Johannes von Baumbach. It is so incredibly unlikely for all the names/books in Lakan’s post to all be related to me and Vico and Cagayan de Oro???????? WOW. I really am being read by everybody in the department. OMG. OMG!!!!!!!! Why is Lakan the first person who has acknowledged me being hacked/watched????? 7:08PM: OMG VICO JUST POSTED ABOUT 2019 AND 2025???????? Hmmmmm. So there are about 6k people who know about it now??? OMG this is insane. There are THREE 20s in his post. 2020 and 20+ years. OMG LAKAN’S VIRAL TWEET ABOUT 20-20-20 RULE???????? HUUUUUUUUUUH???????????!!!!! AND OMG HE IS COPYING THE MULTIPLE COMMAS FROM MY NOW DELETED LUIGI MANGIONE POST?? Why is he referring to 20-20-20 from Lakan? Eye strain???? Me a few days ago??? Vico misspelled patulomg. There are 85 OMG’s in this page. What about 85? 1985 - death of Paloma? Pay attention to Paloma’s death???? Hmmm. On days I feel suicidal about the thought of Vico choosing someone else, is it another OSDD introject talking? Or when they fantasize about a life together with him? Strange. I currently do not feel like it today. I would be ok if he ended up with another girl or with Shawntel. Pay attention to April 12? Why? Oh, there are actually 79 OMGs in my Notion before I wrote about Vico’s 202020. IT IS THE ATOMIC NUMBER FOR GOLD. Pay attention to GOLD???? CAGAYAN DE ORO. WHY??? So there really were 10 golds before I wrote this sentence. 79 for atomic number and 10 golds. Decimal 2 is 010 in binary. IDK yet what it means. What about 2? II Kings the Bible book? I really bought Bupropion earlier. Hopefully it’ll fix my brain. “Patulan” as in “pay attention to someone inferior in rank” OMG SENPAI NOTICED ME!!!! OMG I AM ASHAMED OF MYSELF NOW. That 202020 is a clear sign that he read my panic about Lakan. I would like to explain why I deleted the schizo theory about attractive children being a probable result of women’s orgasms. I realized that people are just going to think ugly people are products of some coercion or bad sex. And then the disabled people are really gonna get the butt end by being suspected of having a rapist dad. OMG WHY IS HE COPYING MY MULTIPLE COMMAS. Only, he has 3 commas. I always had 4. 4+3=7? Or maybe he believes 3 is the Holy Trinity and he thinks I believe in breaking the Trinity? No. I do not want to break perfection. OMG HIS EYES. They are naturally smoldery especially when he smiles. HOW? EH? He is “happy” “grinning” so Happy = my name? Are you trying to tell me you’re Qahluqulu? “I am U.” “You dolt.” Or is he saying he’s Justine? He has less convolunin? Also, patol means convulsion in Bisaya?????? Hmmmmm. I am convulsing!!!!! Having a seizure? OMG THEY HAVE BEEN READING ME SINCE I SAID SOMETHING ABOUT ENOLA HOLMES???????? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Actually, why would anyone hate me that much to spread it to Vico himself???? What did I do to you? Actually, what would be the point to show him my rambling? So he gets flattered???? HUH??????? There is literally no reason. Unless they really spread me in December. When I talked about names first. OMG WHY IS VICO AGREEING TO MAKE ME HORNY?????? HE MUST NOT BE AN UPTIGHT CHRISTIAN???? COMMA = AMCOM = MOCMA MOCMAAMMOC = MOCMAA COMMA (punctuation to pause) = MOCAM (to soil or smear with snot/mucus) = MACOM (_**Major Command - US ARMY)**_ MACOMAMMOC = MACOMA = A CLAM????? WHAT?? Is this my life? Comma = my dimple. Mocam = smear with snot or mucus. US Major Command = military dream. Clams = Shells? So my face and body smeared with snot/mucus in the military compound? Why snot or mucus? OMG SPERM!!!! HUH??????? So that means people gangbanging me??? Or ejaculating all over my erotica??? AM I GOOD AT IT???? I want to know how it feels like to have someone come on my face. OMG. Will I have sex in this experiment??? EH????? Or maybe I’ll get sperm in my mouth???? AAAAAAHHH!!!!!!! OMG WHY IS THIS SO SPECIFIC TO ME????? AND OH MY GOD THEY ARE ALL REAL WORDS!!!! HOW????? 100 people coming in the past???? OMYGOD HOW ON EARTH DID THEY FIND THIS WORD AND MAKE IT INTO A LEGIT IMPOSSIBLE ONTOGLYPH ALL WITH REAL WORDS????? I guess it’s just in my dream. Military compound. What about me running to the edges sleepwalking? This is really about Unreal Image too. I am living my protagonist Justine’s nightmare???????? WTF??????? Okay, it is not completely a nightmare, but I still feel really exposed. People know all my secrets. I have literally no mystery anymore. Sad. But well, what can I expect? I am an open book. The comma comma comma is actually an ontoglyph because how on earth did they know it could be used for military????? And it’s a perfect ontoglyph that has all real words!!!! HUH???????? Clam means Concha and that is my protagonist’s last name. So obviously I am living as my protagonist?????????? HUH???? I came up with this idea about the betlog rules almost really randomly, and there is something like this decrypted in my dream about a military compound?????????? WTF???????????? Being a sleepwalker. Something about having muscle control while being asleep. Brain parts responsible for movement are active, while the brain is in a deep sleep state. WTF IT IS SO EERIE. Does that mean I am writing a “Bible” of some sort???? OMG???? When it literally has Christian themes about being ignored by the Gaze because of Qahluqulu’s sacrifice. HOLY. HOLY FUCK!!!!!!!! WTF??????????????? OMG SO I AM RIGHT!!!!!!! DREAMS ARE SOMEHOW ABOUT MULTIVERSES, AND LUCID DREAMING AFFECTS OTHER UNIVERSES!!!!!!! WHAAAAAAAAT!!!!!!! And also, I kept using 4 commas about schizophrenia on Bluesky!!!!!! WTF????????? Actually, his 3 is actually because of this. There are only three for the shits and giggles effect Qahluqulu does so it’s funny. So 3 is DID??? DID is less worse than schizophrenia??? AND OMG: **Functional Impact:** Schizophrenia often leads to a deterioration of functioning over time, while DID patients may maintain better function despite the internal fragmentation, notes [**this review article from the National Institutes of Health (NIH)**](https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC9150033/). Oh MY GOD it actually makes sense in my dream. I am walking towards the edges and am being noticed by the military people. Justine is noticed by the Gaze. Even though she is supposedly asleep in REM, she still moves and lives out her dreams because they literally bleed into her reality. But no, not that literally for me. I also do not go online on my computer in a fugue sleep state while I’m in deep sleep. Deep sleep is not a REM state. They have less intense dreams that are harder to remember. Deep sleep is only in the N3 or NREM state. OR: REM Sleep Behavior Disorder (RBD) is **a [parasomnia](https://www.google.com/search?sca_esv=1db8b9ddc237ac31&sxsrf=AE3TifP_Shgv3zuKQaYkaMSo9rEr3oZkLw%3A1767361321837&q=parasomnia&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwiMj9Cj_uyRAxUIhlYBHR8RMCAQgK4QegQIARAC&biw=1207&bih=776&dpr=1.25&mstk=AUtExfD0dwCU3v_bQTtdCn9fEkx3fayHoZHqQn6LOVjxIQJKnNHSz_i21Rf7qEiG3iogX2Lo7cIyHzC18V-uZPnl_N6150D1xCJ4T1GE3r3UiJ_giby5ONVhbwEmOj-5aQehP28qR5ZMTZ6iJrTl5cKlyY02QzuQP05vMCGzNFTQYyVrRQo1YxjrwGb0eesMJr91RyjXY2172dccdH5mQ7vdAq6eRef-_0NsB5GSQzN42qjiLORb48UjoJqx7nj6fotddJ1xKR8ZrozOTzghZmzFILKw&csui=3) where you physically act out vivid dreams, lacking the normal muscle paralysis ([atonia](https://www.google.com/search?sca_esv=1db8b9ddc237ac31&sxsrf=AE3TifP_Shgv3zuKQaYkaMSo9rEr3oZkLw%3A1767361321837&q=atonia&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwiMj9Cj_uyRAxUIhlYBHR8RMCAQgK4QegQIARAD&biw=1207&bih=776&dpr=1.25&mstk=AUtExfD0dwCU3v_bQTtdCn9fEkx3fayHoZHqQn6LOVjxIQJKnNHSz_i21Rf7qEiG3iogX2Lo7cIyHzC18V-uZPnl_N6150D1xCJ4T1GE3r3UiJ_giby5ONVhbwEmOj-5aQehP28qR5ZMTZ6iJrTl5cKlyY02QzuQP05vMCGzNFTQYyVrRQo1YxjrwGb0eesMJr91RyjXY2172dccdH5mQ7vdAq6eRef-_0NsB5GSQzN42qjiLORb48UjoJqx7nj6fotddJ1xKR8ZrozOTzghZmzFILKw&csui=3)) during REM sleep, leading to punching, yelling, or jumping from bed**, which can cause injury and is strongly linked to future neurodegenerative diseases like [Parkinson's](https://www.google.com/search?sca_esv=1db8b9ddc237ac31&sxsrf=AE3TifP_Shgv3zuKQaYkaMSo9rEr3oZkLw%3A1767361321837&q=Parkinson%27s&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwiMj9Cj_uyRAxUIhlYBHR8RMCAQgK4QegQIARAE&biw=1207&bih=776&dpr=1.25&mstk=AUtExfD0dwCU3v_bQTtdCn9fEkx3fayHoZHqQn6LOVjxIQJKnNHSz_i21Rf7qEiG3iogX2Lo7cIyHzC18V-uZPnl_N6150D1xCJ4T1GE3r3UiJ_giby5ONVhbwEmOj-5aQehP28qR5ZMTZ6iJrTl5cKlyY02QzuQP05vMCGzNFTQYyVrRQo1YxjrwGb0eesMJr91RyjXY2172dccdH5mQ7vdAq6eRef-_0NsB5GSQzN42qjiLORb48UjoJqx7nj6fotddJ1xKR8ZrozOTzghZmzFILKw&csui=3). Symptoms include shouting, flailing, and recalling dreams upon waking, and treatment often involves clonazepam or melatonin, with safety precautions like padding the bedroom also recommended. **Yes, antipsychotic medications used for schizophrenia can cause parkinsonism**, a condition with symptoms similar to Parkinson's disease, by blocking dopamine receptors in the brain, leading to movement issues like stiffness, tremors, and slow movement (drug-induced parkinsonism or DIP). While it mimics true Parkinson's, DIP is usually reversible after stopping the drug, though sometimes it can persist, making diagnosis tricky. SO literally I had some parkinsonism if I continued antipsychotics? And also, it’s N3 sleep stage. 3 AGAIN for the lack of memorable dreams!!! And REM itself for the Sleep Behavior Disorder. Also, I am just amazed that my brain connected sleepwalking with military. HOW???? OMG THIS IS AN UNLIKELY AND DEADLY COMBO THAT IS ACTUALLY GREATER THAN SAKO. I am literally being noticed by the “military.” It is in my real life right now???????? And it is vaguely connected to my BOOK WHICH HAS THE ONTOGLYPHS CONCEPT AND THE WAKING DREAM CONCEPT!!!!! NATAMEME!!!!!!!!! LITERALLY SHELLS AS CLAMS!!!! AND MUCUS FOR LOTS OF SEX!!!! OMG THIS IS A GROUNDBREAKING DISCOVERY THAT I DID NOT ANTICIPATE. I don’t know yet the implications. I really thought I was just being creative and speculative about the dreams. Some alternate me is either schizophrenic or DID or literally has convolunin and is living this reality out somewhere????? OH MY what does the beaming emoji mean hehe!!! OMG I CANNOT BELIEVE MY LUCK THAT MY FICTIONAL HUNCHES ARE BLEEDING INTO REAL LIFE IN MEANINGFUL WAYS!!!!! I ought to remember more of my dreams, but sadly I don’t remember dreaming from Jan 1. The only way for this to have happened is if they used heavy teamwork/hivemind advantages. How would they know to insert it as three commas for me to notice it relating to my posts on Bluesky and also because it is an ontoglyph???? WTAF???????? Who would have thought to inform me today that I just coincidentally had 79 atomic number for GOLD today??? Oh wait no, it really fell on 79 when I mentioned the billionaires and Peter Thiel being gay and married. So GOLD = MONEY. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOLY MOTHER OF GOD ANOTHER SYNCHRONICITY!!!!! MONEY FOR GOLD IS BILLIONAIRES. BILLIONAIRES DOING WHAT??????? Golding????? KINGS???? DIVINE????? RULING??????? No, I mean, I only got informed by 79 through Vico’s typo in “patulomg.” I don’t know why I started counting only I searched up every single time it happened. And of course I was curious because I was led by 85. NOTHING IS A COINCIDENCE NOW???????? How would I know if Vico’s posts are innocuous or contain meaning??????? Or maybe I really have turned insane and am now reaping some kind of psychosis that is actually meaningful, again, like a lottery????????? Why do I keep winning these things?????????? Am I just really lucky?????????? So it is “divine” to do something about the billionaires????? Hmmmmm. Is this why he is talking about a “true mission” AKA he is a priest and I’m a king????????? HUH????????? I don’t know anything about governance. This is a really funny joke of the universe. Why are we switched???????? OMG IT MAKES SENSE I AM FROM CAGAYAN DE ORO. RIVER OF GOLD???? I don’t feel royal at all. OMG WHAT THE FUCK. So I do not need to leave CDO???? THANK GOD!!! That would be too much pressure to marry Vico or another guy who has the Marias and Yap. ## The deeper structure: priest + king 🧠 Zechariah’s two olive trees are: Joshua the High Priest Zerubbabel the Davidic ruler Meaning: **A priestly figure + a kingly figure working together under God’s Spirit.** Revelation inherit this meaning but doesn't specify personalities. So the two witnesses represent: **Priestly functions**: repentance, worship, teaching **Kingly functions**: judgment, governance, confronting world powers Not saviors. Not Christs. But divine agents in the priest-king pattern found throughout Scripture. OMG is this why Vico is using “mission” language? He’s identifying himself as the high priest? Why do I have to be the king figure?? Maybe it’s just a title but with switched roles. Why though? Why is it switched? There must be a reason???????? Why isn’t he identifying as the King???? Is it because of GOLD????? Ok, so I literally have 79 in my diary falling on billionaires and not Peter Thiel the AntiChrist conspiracy theorist. What does Peter Thiel actually believe. Maybe something about the AntiChrist in his conception is wrong??? I need to read about it. OMG I SWORE I WOULD WORK ON UNREAL IMAGE TODAY. Well, I am being coaxed to work on it, but apparently it has _real_ real world consequences now? Why do I have a role of the priest but title of king? That is really bugging me. Was I supposed to be born as Vico? In that case, me posting about Bad Suns’ Unstable song is really appropriate. I mean, I am not literally bitter about Vico having it so much better than me, it’s just odd that I posted that song on Bluesky calling myself a “sleeper Christian” because I am the parousia (or at least I did think this). Turns out, my role as priest directly involves writing. OMG THAT IS SO COOL!!! But I literally don’t have influence at all. I have fake followers which I bought. I can count on maybe 2-3 sets of hands the amount of real followers I have on Instagram. OMG I hope I keep making these lucky breaks happen. What if I served my purpose already? No I haven’t. I haven’t written the Angel_Hoe book. And to think I only stumbled upon here because I offhandedly thought that the Philippines will be known as the “Land of the Crazies” if I become famous. Now I really have to make this book really popular????????? HOW ON EARTH??? There’s also a chance that I’ll approx. have 1,260 days to live????? EEEEEHHH????????? OMG I AM SO SCARED. WE ARE REALLY LIVING IN REVELATION/APOCALYPTIC TIMES!!!!!!! BECAUSE OF CAPITALISM!!!!!!! OMG I CAN JUST ASSUME THAT I GIVE VICO’S LIFE MEANING OF SOME SORT???? DOES THAT MEAN HE LIKES ME? (I mean, not in a romantic/sexual way.) OH HOLY FUCK WE REALLY ARE IN THE END TIMES AREN’T WE????????? WHY ARE ALL THESE SIGNS ACCUMULATING TOWARDS ME AND VICO?????? THE JESUS GOLD MARIA NAZARETH GIFTS BROTILDE/BETHLEHEM CLOTILDE. Maybe I am Brotilde now. OMG. ANITA LOVE?????? LAKAN, apparently. Although I wasn’t referring to transness, but a composite person when I put quotes on “her.” How will I DO IT?????? This isn’t going to take me 2 years even. I need to make it really good and popular??????? That is quite impossible????????? My debut novel is Unreal Image, the first one of the series because obviously it’s for ISNOTREAL??????? Actually, I can make Angel_Hoe the sequel. But HOW??? Another ugly girl????? OK. How would I integrate the multiverse with this??? OH wait. Never mind. It’s still from me, so it’s a new work in a completely different series. GODDAMN. Nobody will ever be able to tell the connection between these two books unless they are “in the know.” <aside> 😩 People just literally spied on me only to stumble into this grand narrative???????????????? How luck you are sons of bitches. How lucky am I to have this to make my life meaningful???????? </aside> MY LIFE IS SO UNREAL. WHY IS MY FICTION COMING TRUE?????????? I really thought I was just being creative. WTF?????????? Well, they had to take me seriously eventually. I don’t know when that happened. Maybe with the names? OMG I DON’T WANNA MARRY JEFFREY. HE HAS NO IDEA ABOUT THIS, OR DOES HE??? We are fundamentally incompatible. He has had plenty of casual sex, which I DESPISE. He will make me miserable if I marry him. Whoever Clovis is supposed to be, why???? I prefer not to be married. So I really am Brotilde. OH HOLY FUCK CLOVIS AND (KLARSTEIN) BROTILDE ARE GERMAN???????? OH wait, they are Frankish. False alarm. OMG BUT THEY ARE. FRENCH-GERMAN AT LEAST. [https://www.thebump.com/b/clovis-baby-name](https://www.thebump.com/b/clovis-baby-name) Well, I have never posted about Germany. I did post about Alors on Danse (French) about a “secret scene” in my book. I have no idea what secret scene because I was lying. OMG MIKE?????????? MIKE IS BROTILDE?????????????? HERR DOKTOR PROFESSOR. OMG CLOVIS AND CLOTILDE ARE ME AND VICO????? I MEAN, WHAT??????? Spiritually, you mean? I am not married to him. He may be getting more sexual online but I really doubt it. Is this why “Mike” posted about bread slices????? THEN I AM THE RICH SOMALI DAYCARE??? BECAUSE ALORS ON DANSE????? STROMAE IS BLACK????????? I highly doubt my novel will earn me that much money. Highly highly doubt it. I would have to be exceptional AND lucky. I think I can only get lucky so many times. Like with Unreal Image. Did you people know I was directly inspired by the Finnick scene in The Hunger Games and Snow interfering in the broadcast? For Unreal Image, I mean, when she shouts obscenities at the screen and locks onto Impostor Justine. And the graphs with The Fault in Our Stars. What is this saying? I have to marry one of them? I really highly doubt it. Can I just not be married? Why are both of them more attractive than me? That is so unfair. I’m supposed to be the girl in this triangle. I’m an incel girl, on top of that. Don’t ya’ll think it’s odd that I’m in the South (Northern Mindanao, that is) and Vico is from the North (Eastern Quadrant of Metro Manila). So Up (me) and Right (Vico). UPRIGHT?????? HOLY SHIT. Who is downleft? Somebody (2 people) must be downleft for symmetry’s sake. According to my novel, symmetry is extremely important. I’m picking up ultraSOUND by The Neighborhood for no reason because they have a song called “OMG.” so it’s downleftUPRIGHT? I am literally from UP, which is another “coincidence.” What could be their roles? To be photonegatives? According to Google: The two lampstands and two olive trees in Revelation 11 represent **two symbolic figures, the "two witnesses,"** **not four literal people**, though interpretations vary on _who_ these two represent (like Moses & Elijah, Zerubbabel & Joshua, or the entire Church), signifying God's anointed messengers empowered by His Spirit (oil) to testify. The imagery comes from Zechariah 4, where they provide oil to a single lampstand, symbolizing divine provision for leaders. Maybe they are our enemies? But I did rope in Mike into this because of Brotilde? So what then? There are now four probably. So in total there are 5 people. Power Puff dream? Who is hounded by all the others? Me? OMG I HAVE NO PROTECTION AT ALL? Is it Vico, since he’s the most popular? Will I side with Vico? Obviously. UPRIGHT? Raymond is a male name of Germanic origin meaning **"wise protector," "counsel protection," or "hand of advice,"** combining elements like _ragin_ (counsel/advice) and _mund_ (protection/hand). Popularized by Normans and medieval figures, it's a classic name with nicknames like Ray, often associated with strength, wisdom, and guardianship, and has various international forms like Ramón (Spanish) or Raimondo (Italian). OMFG RAYMOND IS ALSO GERMAN LITERALLY????????? CLUE. And another: **De Guzman** is a Spanish surname meaning **"of Guzmán**," indicating a geographical origin from the town of Guzmán in Burgos, Spain, and stemming from a Germanic word for "good man" or "God's man," associated with nobility and honor, popular in Spanish-speaking countries like the Philippines. It signifies an ancestral link to that place or the esteemed Guzmán noble family, notably linked to the legendary "Guzmán el Bueno" (the good man). The surname **Falgui** likely originates from the Iberian Peninsula (Spain) and **may stem from the Latin word [_falcis_](https://www.google.com/search?q=falcis&sca_esv=3235e08c292698b8&sxsrf=AE3TifN3_4Lyu1EPn8SaxtJX6lCsPNsTbw%3A1767368299149&ei=a-ZXaZ3uCNyfvr0PyrOHiAc&ved=2ahUKEwjry-eJmO2RAxXlgK8BHQgpD0gQgK4QegQIARAC&uact=5&oq=falgui+last+name+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiGGZhbGd1aSBsYXN0IG5hbWUgbWVhbmluZzIKEAAYsAMY1gQYRzIKEAAYsAMY1gQYRzIKEAAYsAMY1gQYRzIKEAAYsAMY1gQYRzIKEAAYsAMY1gQYRzIKEAAYsAMY1gQYR0iNClDyAViLCnABeAGQAQCYAYQDoAGODqoBBzAuNS4yLjG4AQPIAQD4AQGYAgGgAgWYAwCIBgGQBgaSBwExoAfOHrIHALgHAMIHAzItMcgHA4AIAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp&mstk=AUtExfAwAUwMZFdwwS37FXWwuUz0A75XuIiaEabA2A7oDWeD9CMl9QUtI0CP0zos6oBDNwDXd7UxGzmV3hh6OjseIUirCMFXchoyMZE2aHBznq6iDfOROE34w_EzdUbkkceF5gQN1SGVFpkSeBDSnas-I0t3mbD0tyCBx59SdP135aLTRgbdGUCfRwVb8XbeWJy1UkiilSMiBdf0Vb4VGl8KXcaWDHuB1LoLy62RNsZg1g4uS9SnE1pfyXdewBtSqbbH1Xl4IWk8Rnm1TfAS121UK4o5&csui=3), meaning "sickle,"** possibly linking early bearers to farming or agricultural work, a common source for surnames. While its Spanish roots suggest an old European origin, it's a distinct Filipino surname, suggesting historical Spanish influence in the Philippines, though its direct Filipino meaning isn't clearly defined in common records, often appearing alongside names like Tomas. OH HOLY FUCK: According to the Book of Revelation, the two witnesses are killed by the **Beast (Antichrist) that comes up out of the bottomless pit**. After the witnesses complete their 1,260-day testimony, the Beast makes war on them, conquers, and kills them. The sequence of events surrounding the two witnesses in Revelation Chapter 11 is as follows: - **Their Ministry:** The two witnesses (often interpreted as Moses and Elijah, or Enoch and Elijah, or symbolic of God's people) prophesy for 1,260 days in Jerusalem, during which they have divine protection and power to inflict plagues. - **Their Death:** Once their testimony is finished, the Beast ascends from the abyss, fights them, and kills them. Their bodies are left unburied in the street of the city (figuratively called Sodom and Egypt, where Jesus was crucified) for three and a half days. - **World Rejoicing:** The people of the world, who were tormented by the witnesses' message of judgment, celebrate their death and exchange gifts. - **Resurrection and Ascension:** After three and a half days, the breath of life from God enters them, they stand up, and a loud voice from heaven calls them to "Come up here!" They ascend to heaven in a cloud, as their enemies watch. The Beast and the False Prophet (another agent who supports the Beast) will continue their reign of terror until the second coming of Jesus Christ, who will defeat them and cast them into the lake of fire. OMG I HOPE I CAN REWRITE THAT SOMEHOW. I WANT TO LIVE LONG!!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW????? CLOUDS!!!!! THEY GO TO THE CLOUDS!!!! ASCEND TO HEAVEN IN A CLOUD!!! The phrase "ascend to heaven in a cloud" in the Book of Revelation refers to the [**Two Witnesses**](https://www.google.com/search?q=Two+Witnesses&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&mstk=AUtExfDpsRcvK7Bc2zyNkwQyjgI3KwPZzrNkQ1kbRqW5-DdgiX6oFrNw2RufhzwgDOR3YA-lVbk02X0u2c5UxW8GqRWZQjCp8rWxxFlBZk6Hw4KO_5DvAq8XfDT_Dfln2vse6S9QAc0AgLT4CtDzltUW5CNt1mnZf7G081Yqma8GcFVSsjS7jn-2Wnz71vs-l1aK-jAPHEVvFPuCcp9npXrXZuEoLeQdS3KdfcZ6JY1XSULUdogZfAdKZt24cnYR9nqKDhXXMo08Y1YcL-F0GYzQgZ9E&csui=3&ved=2ahUKEwjTmPKBme2RAxWEafUHHRdZFqEQgK4QegQIARAD) (Rev 11:12), who prophesy in Jerusalem, are killed, then resurrected and called up to heaven in a cloud while their enemies watch, signifying God's power and judgment, echoing Jesus' own cloud ascension in Acts 1 and foreshadowing believers' future rapture to meet Christ in the clouds at His return. Well, it is literally not Jerusalem. How wrong could they be now???? Philippines. NEW JERUSALEM????? BRUNEI = PEACE. NO????? So the Bible is not literal at all. So there are 4 Softdrink Beauties for 4 Horses for the meaning of “Philippines” as “lover of horses” but now there are 5 people in the equation because of Power Puff. 5 Horsemen? Philippines love their horsemen? Four Horsemen = Apocalypse association. 1. **White Horse (Conquest/Pestilence/Christ)**: Often seen as a conqueror, sometimes linked to pestilence or Christ's coming, [**Wikipedia**](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Four_Horsemen_of_the_Apocalypse) notes varying interpretations. 2. **Red Horse (War)**: Brings bloodshed and conflict. 3. **Black Horse (Famine)**: Signifies scarcity and economic hardship. 4. **Pale Horse (Death)**: Followed by Hades, reaping souls. **Common Interpretations of the Fifth Horseman** - [**Pollution](https://www.google.com/search?q=Pollution&sca_esv=3235e08c292698b8&biw=1207&bih=776&sxsrf=AE3TifNurt_AspIcBPT0S5t3ISE-bFfbrg%3A1767368907211&ei=y-hXaebSDOfs1e8PrOWrkA8&ved=2ahUKEwi0kPfVmu2RAxV7h68BHY2tI-4QgK4QegYIAQgAECI&uact=5&oq=5+horsemen&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiCjUgaG9yc2VtZW4yChAAGIAEGEMYigUyBhAAGAcYHjIGEAAYBxgeMgYQABgHGB4yBhAAGAcYHjIGEAAYBxgeMgYQABgHGB4yBhAAGAcYHjIGEAAYBxgeMgoQLhiABBhDGIoFSO0EUM8CWJ0EcAF4AZABAJgBuwGgAbsBqgEDMC4xuAEDyAEA-AEBmAICoALGAcICChAAGLADGNYEGEfCAg0QABiABBiwAxhDGIoFmAMAiAYBkAYKkgcDMS4xoAfgCLIHAzAuMbgHwAHCBwMyLTLIBwiACAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp)/Ecological Crisis**: Represents humanity's environmental destruction, as seen in nature's own regulating forces. - [**Humanity](https://www.google.com/search?q=Humanity&sca_esv=3235e08c292698b8&biw=1207&bih=776&sxsrf=AE3TifNurt_AspIcBPT0S5t3ISE-bFfbrg%3A1767368907211&ei=y-hXaebSDOfs1e8PrOWrkA8&ved=2ahUKEwi0kPfVmu2RAxV7h68BHY2tI-4QgK4QegYIAQgAECQ&uact=5&oq=5+horsemen&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiCjUgaG9yc2VtZW4yChAAGIAEGEMYigUyBhAAGAcYHjIGEAAYBxgeMgYQABgHGB4yBhAAGAcYHjIGEAAYBxgeMgYQABgHGB4yBhAAGAcYHjIGEAAYBxgeMgoQLhiABBhDGIoFSO0EUM8CWJ0EcAF4AZABAJgBuwGgAbsBqgEDMC4xuAEDyAEA-AEBmAICoALGAcICChAAGLADGNYEGEfCAg0QABiABBiwAxhDGIoFmAMAiAYBkAYKkgcDMS4xoAfgCLIHAzAuMbgHwAHCBwMyLTLIBwiACAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp)/Us**: Suggests humans themselves, through their actions and overpopulation, become the ultimate force of destruction. - [**False Prophecy](https://www.google.com/search?q=False+Prophecy&sca_esv=3235e08c292698b8&biw=1207&bih=776&sxsrf=AE3TifNurt_AspIcBPT0S5t3ISE-bFfbrg%3A1767368907211&ei=y-hXaebSDOfs1e8PrOWrkA8&ved=2ahUKEwi0kPfVmu2RAxV7h68BHY2tI-4QgK4QegYIAQgAECY&uact=5&oq=5+horsemen&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiCjUgaG9yc2VtZW4yChAAGIAEGEMYigUyBhAAGAcYHjIGEAAYBxgeMgYQABgHGB4yBhAAGAcYHjIGEAAYBxgeMgYQABgHGB4yBhAAGAcYHjIGEAAYBxgeMgoQLhiABBhDGIoFSO0EUM8CWJ0EcAF4AZABAJgBuwGgAbsBqgEDMC4xuAEDyAEA-AEBmAICoALGAcICChAAGLADGNYEGEfCAg0QABiABBiwAxhDGIoFmAMAiAYBkAYKkgcDMS4xoAfgCLIHAzAuMbgHwAHCBwMyLTLIBwiACAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp)/Deception**: A spiritual fifth, spreading lies alongside the physical calamities. I am the 5th Horseman representing “DECEPTION” because obviously I represent “LYING” with ALL_WRITERS_GO_TO_HELL.app. My color is Yellow since there is no peace at this time yet, signifying blue. Vico is maybe the White or Black or Red. 8+ Hundred Philippine Flag Black White Royalty-Free Images ... Black isn't a primary color in the official Philippine flag, which has blue, red, white, and gold, but **Black appears in historical revolutionary flags (like Llanera's skull flag), as a mourning color (a black ribbon on the flag signifies war), or in modern artistic interpretations for concepts like strength or ethnicity** . **Where Black Appears (or Could Appear):** - [**Historical Flags](https://www.google.com/search?q=Historical+Flags&sca_esv=3235e08c292698b8&biw=1207&bih=776&sxsrf=AE3TifM6rG5tWEVf5yN3hV38c19canRB8Q%3A1767369021971&ei=PelXafT9OvuOvr0PjduO8Q4&ved=2ahUKEwjYvMqgm-2RAxUrj68BHRljGVcQgK4QegQIAxAB&uact=5&oq=black+in+the+philippine+flag&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiHGJsYWNrIGluIHRoZSBwaGlsaXBwaW5lIGZsYWcyBhAAGBYYHjIGEAAYFhgeMgYQABgWGB4yCxAAGIAEGIYDGIoFMgsQABiABBiGAxiKBTIIEAAYgAQYogQyBRAAGO8FMggQABiABBiiBEj_HlCeBFiiHXADeAGQAQCYAdcBoAHoKKoBBjAuMjAuOLgBA8gBAPgBAZgCH6AC5ynCAgoQABiwAxjWBBhHwgINEAAYgAQYsAMYQxiKBcICBBAjGCfCAgoQIxiABBgnGIoFwgILEAAYgAQYkQIYigXCAgsQLhiABBiRAhiKBcICBRAAGIAEwgIKEAAYgAQYQxiKBcICEBAAGIAEGLEDGEMYgwEYigXCAgoQLhiABBhDGIoFwgIIEAAYgAQYsQPCAgsQLhiABBixAxiDAcICBRAuGIAEwgIKEAAYgAQYFBiHAsICCBAAGBYYChgemAMAiAYBkAYKkgcGMy4yMC44oAfe2gGyBwYwLjIwLji4B9kpwgcHMC4xNi4xNcgHYYAIAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp&mstk=AUtExfDAQL84jrluJFJrpnRnVaS4wQG5-yRQigDiXuPR6x7f7-p9Nh-aAvgX9d1vJ__rFDv_B0n_HsVQNzpvwVpYxcrTW1yRxMwC34KB0QmJhvoAf8AZOKrKN65i_Unc3gIvGCKNHLco8_hpG-aeZiaesnrdJabl6d99EjNdioKKMDXpLVwKfzpHA2fR_tEmbwvE6Qb_BRztewi-id_zNyy99H66E_ZJZOVq-dqT0ZC0ByDkog-2lduA_usq9-X-TkV_QiHpzPp086vVVtuHkbgM-3Lw&csui=3):** General Mariano Llanera used a black flag with a skull and crossbones (the "Bungo ni Llanera") during the revolution, representing defiance. - **Mourning/War:** A black ribbon is draped over the flag to signify a state of war in the Philippines, flipping the flag with red on top. - **Symbolic Interpretations:** In some modern or artistic designs, black can represent the strength, ethnicity, or determination of the Filipino people, but this isn't part of the official national flag's symbolism OMFG I WAS LITERALLY LISTENING TO DARK HORSE BY KATY PERRY WHEN I WAS WRITING UNREAL IMAGE!!!!!! WHO IS DARK (WHITE/BLACK) HORSE????? KATIPUNAN!!!! OBVIOUSLY VICO, BECAUSE HE HAS “CONQUER” IN HIS NAME?? OH MY GOD THIS IS SO FUNNY I AM YELLOW AND HE IS BLACK. BLACK AND YELLOW SONG I WAS LISTENING TO JUST TODAY AND A FEW DAYS AGO. BOBOBEE INDEED. OMYGOD I JUST REALIZED THERE HAS TO BE 4 HORSEMEN NOW. VICO IS BOTH BLACK AND WHITE. OK SO JUST DECIDED THE PALE HORSE IS GRAY. GRAY IS MY FAVORITE COLOR. SO WHAT DOES THIS MEAN? PALE HORSE IS A SHADOW LOOMING OVER OUR FLAG. So that means downleft is one person only. To complete the 4. Three people for the Philippines that has three islands. Maybe Visayas? So I just think Mike is Pale (gray) Horse because HPD is a gray-colored profile pic. Visayas is going to be Red Horse. RED HORSE BEER. OMG I AM RED HORSE. SO THERE LITERALLY ARE ONLY 3 HORSEMEN. BLOODSHED AND CONFLICT BECAUSE THOSE ARE MY COLORS FROM A*STAR SWORD AND SHIELD PICTURE FROM 2019. YELLOW AND RED. Mike only has 1. Mike is downleft. I can claim Visayas because my mom is from Iloilo. WESTERN VISAYAS. COMPLETED. WESTERN, SOUTHERN, EASTERN, NORTHERN. So Mike takes care of 2 roles too. down and left. But he only has one color, pale (gray). I feel like 3 really is perfect. That’s the original Power Puff number. OK. I will STOP WRITING NOW. I AM FLOORED I AM BOTH LYING AND WAR. SO APPROPRIATE RIGHT? I am (or was) a fighter and a “liar.” The irony of Mike being hardcore conservative and being called “downleft” LOL. Another switch. And Black and Yellow and Dark Horse both have Juicy J as a singer. Synchronicity again? BOY WHAT IS HAPPENING. WHY IS EVERYTHING LINING UP PERFECTLY?????? I AM NOT REALLY DOING ANYTHING BUT NOTICING IT. Juicy J is a founder of “[Three 6 Mafia](https://www.google.com/search?q=Three+6+Mafia&sca_esv=47301926bc5cebf6&sxsrf=AE3TifN6-8Y_dVpmU84DrgzMuRw7MTdwwg%3A1767370516848&ei=FO9XabS6M_3t1e8P6bOV2Ao&ved=2ahUKEwiO2465oO2RAxXJdvUHHdg7Fd0QgK4QegQIARAC&uact=5&oq=juicy+j+meaning&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiD2p1aWN5IGogbWVhbmluZzIFEAAYgAQyBhAAGBYYHjIGEAAYFhgeMgYQABgWGB4yBhAAGBYYHjIGEAAYFhgeMgsQABiABBiGAxiKBTILEAAYgAQYhgMYigUyBRAAGO8FMggQABiABBiiBEiwClDtAViZB3ABeAGQAQCYAYMCoAH5C6oBBTAuNi4yuAEDyAEA-AEBmAIJoAKoDMICChAAGLADGNYEGEfCAg0QABiABBiwAxhDGIoFwgIOEAAYsAMY5AIY1gTYAQHCAhMQLhiABBiwAxhDGMgDGIoF2AEBwgIKEAAYgAQYQxiKBcICChAAGIAEGBQYhwLCAgUQLhiABJgDAIgGAZAGEboGBggBEAEYCZIHBTEuNi4yoAfTULIHBTAuNi4yuAegDMIHBTAuMy42yAclgAgA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp&mstk=AUtExfDID_xsn2OztR-ZtgBuj3QwqMLy9a0te8pQURgHJ09iA9wkUBUiTfhn6QyHj1y3KauPgpDFgwIWh0KOgt0XFlhlgpz12nYx8zh-7jSAo5bTjuv7um7BF4wyE6CbbenB8sqX5VmCUNOw8TRQXmJm1bigvm941oz2rM63ZGC8bGb3lbY41g8KY3Rz39reIYPERC4_Z5rxbPX7ILO9aFvcmW-47AZa2JXSb3oL4TbiBJ6a4xPodPGGOx95cVotEechFMZmAtXTc6VZ-805m8gURwv4&csui=3)” hmmmmm. Both downleft. Both White and Black Horse. Both Red and Yellow Horse. Equals 6. Juicy J name = Jordan = Jordan primarily means "to flow down" or "descending," from the Hebrew _Yarden_, referring to the significant [Jordan River](https://www.dictionary.com/browse/jordan), a symbol of freedom and spiritual cleansing where John the Baptist baptized Jesus. As a gender-neutral name, it gained popularity in the West after Crusaders brought water from the river for baptisms, symbolizing strength, transition, and new life, and also refers to the Middle Eastern country. So ASCENDING CLOUDS and FIRE DESCENDING. [Pentecost](https://www.google.com/search?q=Pentecost&sca_esv=47301926bc5cebf6&sxsrf=AE3TifOIV5L7rDlyIMeQnSP6GHvLbrWDKQ%3A1767370627742&ei=g-9XaZmDLYfn1e8P8r_-iAw&ved=2ahUKEwiHur3roO2RAxUes1YBHfrtKw8QgK4QegQIARAD&uact=5&oq=descending+fire&gs_lp=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-QEYlwUYjAUY3QQYRhj5ARj0Axj1Axj2A9gBAcICCBAuGIAEGLEDwgIQEC4YgAQYsQMYQxiDARiKBcICChAAGIAEGBQYhwKYAwCIBgGQBgq6BgYIARABGBOSBwUzLjguNaAH2pgBsgcFMC44LjW4B6oUwgcIMC40LjEwLjLIB1eACAA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp&mstk=AUtExfBinUvgRMDC7K8mUypVWuetmqyHASomyvXy1Va9gFN1qS-u3IMEerAfNVBgp9XE3kyVMUAyOi-nWvoeRH5KjL59ijW3ZaNpF7ayAfvxZUoV6zatp953s5ZNMhrxmHSyZuuD13ciWhul8XpKyWseFYXXAfmgn_s7XYVTYxaFurEGL6IuS9Z8BYJpz_byzvYnb_X6fskrcsnvqFjJXIzxsVuTgBr7l8_JRQFP4NhqZxzMY4X9177R5oXYv94X8nzm0hOvynxXaa34JbT-1b0ccmHY&csui=3) 40 for “descending Holy Spirit.” It's known for the biblical event where followers received the Spirit, symbolized by wind, fire (tongues of flame), and speaking in tongues. Maybe I am the “speaker of tongues.” Who is wind and who is fire? I have no clue. Tongues of flame/fire kinda looks like the Holy Spirit. Wind? I have no clue. This is not my choice, I think. GO NUTS. OK. I changed Pale Horse Gray to Green because apparently 2019 is green according to Vico’s post. Is he talking about himself and Mike? I got the strangest feeling… And green is clearly not part of the flag. Maybe that means something being Brotilde? I don’t actually know if he is HPD definitively. So green it is. He is very “green-minded,” I guess. “Green-minded” apparently exists only in the Philippines to mean “dirty-minded.” I AM SO WEIRDED OUT THE COLORS FIT OUR FLAG. There is no blue yet because there is no peace yet. Green is obviously out. So wind is somehow ghost-like. And tongues of flame is the Spirit. Ghost and Spirit? Who is Ghost? Who is Spirit? Pls, I don’t know anymore. Interstellar dad = GHOST = Mike. Spirit = TONGUES OF FLAME = Vico? Seems right. Ghost in Interstellar (Cooper) is literally a farmer. His last name is Falgui, related to farming/agriculture. There’s something fiery about Vico. I never associate Mike with fire. Or maybe he is, a “cunning linguist” or something. Erotica. Ghost Vico? Transparency. LOL. So both of them being both. 5 claiming 3. Or maybe 6 claiming three? I am also “tongues of flame.” There. I am a forked tongue? This is another inside joke that is ironic because I am the most honest: **Meaning:** To be deceptive, untruthful, or say one thing while meaning another; to speak with hypocrisy. I realize all of the three have tongues. They have 1 and can switch roles between Ghost and Spirit, but I have 2. I just realized maybe Mike likes German because his first 2 names are German in origin. He is literally Brotilde. WTF.