# DEC 26: FRIDAY I’m up at 4:35AM eating unhealthy amounts of dark chocolate-coated blueberries. Also, Vico posted an EMO REMIX of Deck the Halls with a volume emoji above a nativity scene in Pasig. Nice try shmexy Satan!!! You will never get the best of me!!!!! (would) SO I really went ahead and bought Dihexa from a hopefully-not-dubious China market online, paying thru Western Union. It cost me 5k or so. I hope it’ll arrive soon. Minor setback with Wellbutrin/Bupropion, since my Wise account isn’t receiving money probably because of holiday season. Somebody from US or Russia clicked my novelty website page. Weird, since it’s the first time somebody did that. My sister bought me real Billie Eilish perfume!!!! So so synchronous with my Billie Eilish references in here, the “you should see me in a crown” and “say that again, i like that.” I never asked her to buy me perfume. She is really good at identifying what people want, because she noticed I keep buying fake ones on Shopee. 4PM ish: I fell asleep after 6AM and my dream mom told me to wake up. Weird. That’s the only thing I remember. I also remember my nipples and mound being pleasured by disembodied hands. Felt so real and I was subconsciously inviting it for some reason. Mildly scared. 7:26PM. I really feel like Jeffrey is “in on it.” I know what a “tribute” is re: men masturbating to pictures. Eh? Too bad that’s just a well-calculated angle. Bad bad idea to take atomoxetine. It’s a serotonin inhibitor. Which means I’m happy for no good reason. I can’t wait to get Bupropion. It explains why I’ve been so useless this past month. I cannot wait for Jan 15. Clarion West result. Lowkey trying not to make it a matter of life and death so energy doesn’t get blocked re: reality transurfing. I forgot about it. Looking forward to the harvest!!! 9:18PM Meditated for 30 minutes. Fell asleep for a moment, but then brought myself to focus.