# 10, Friday Memory realization — you recognize/remember faces but don’t recall the language or name attached to them. Dreams: Nanay and Manang Lydia in a more fancy version of our house, my parents and I trying to entertain guests like rich aunties from another dimension. There was this bleed-through where I woke up sobbing because of anxiety/muteness problems and determined to write a character who has this problem. Also, had an in-dream realization that frisson-like feelings leaking out of my brain is possibly important, as I felt it being siphoned out of my brain in a formation and shape that I can only sense, but not see. Like it had an angle. Demiurge theory ensued. Also, I dreamt of a really good piece of music but can no longer recall it. Had an unexpected beat drop and everything and I rationalized it’s just like AI being able to generate freely and easily without hard work. Because I’d felt again the loss of realizing that I’ll never be able to remember or transcribe it in real life. [So You Want To Be A Working (Creative) Writer](https://www.notion.so/So-You-Want-To-Be-A-Working-Creative-Writer-1777a3cd2fc980e284d6d95dad3e219e?pvs=21) —blog post newsletter idea at the end of 2025 as I blog about what the year will hopefully give me. Crossing my fingers that I’ll place in the PMHA contest. And also waiting for a reply on my flash fiction “Paloma Lane Girl.” Wonder if it’ll ever see the light of day now that Sotto news has resurfaced. I’m also waiting for an update on the Mosaique Minds job, about the onboarding. Can’t wait to list it in my LinkedIn and everything like a real adult. ## Intentions: 1. Finish TBYNTR Jem Poster book 2. FB quotes import to Napkin ## Happenings: Read J. Poster book for about 15 pages and took notes and vocalized/compressed my understanding every time I learned something new. Now for the Anki part tomorrow so it becomes bedrock. I feel like it’s still banal advice so far. Hoping it’ll get better. Also, I started the ice cream poem and it’s coming together I feel. I wish to submit it to Caterpillar Prize if my “Unica Hija (Only Daughter)” poem miraculously places in the National Poetry Competition (results in March). Of course I’ll be disappointed if I don’t win but at least there’ll be a children’s poetry avenue that’s specifically taking children’s stuff. 1st place winner gets 1000 euros and 1 week in a French castle! Plan is to submit both of them because there’s no limit. ## Grateful For: 1. Jeffrey indirectly motivating me. ## Action Items: - [x] Exercise - [ ] Write - [x] Read - [ ] Speak - [ ] Record