Remember, your first love was writing. Re-read your old writing and be amazed. You love writing inside and out even though right now you don’t know how to get back there. You have to do this for the Lord and yourself and your future. Your degree needs you to be an adult. # Intentions Washed dishes morning. Fell asleep in the afternoon. You need to be better than this. What if your dad just decided to not cook dinner because he was exhausted? You do the work even if you don’t want to. No naps. No uncontrolled sleeping spells. # Happenings Did most routines except the really hard ones. It’s 7:31PM and I still have time. # Grateful for 1. Determination muscle. Neuroplasticity --- - Let's face it, your strengths right now hang on your writing skills. I think I may have underestimated myself. I am very resourceful if called to the occasion. Always think you can do better. You are more capable of great things than you know. Confidence is key. - [[logseq-trackhabits2-plugin]] - HABITS: - DONE days away from meds #habit-tracker - DONE meditation for purpose: train attention and all #habit-tracker - TODO write on substack #habit-tracker - DONE short threads twitter #habit-tracker - DONE short exercise for purpose: serotonin, bdnf, dopamine #habit-tracker - TODO gather zettels #habit-tracker - TODO process evergreens #habit-tracker - TODO learn to use finalcut pro - DONE caffeine + l-theanine #habit-tracker - DONE coffee 1 #habit-tracker - DONE flashcards #habit-tracker - TODO: - TODO Relearn how to do zettel - DONE Organize DLs - TODO Twitter bookmarks put in cards those important enough - TODO mental models volume fs shortform - TODO influence shortform - TODO atomic habits shortform - TODO set up email filters - TODO build an audience study - TODO get to less laggy computer 0 state. - SCHOOL: - DONE CW 151 introduction assignments - TODO [[September 8, 2022]] Read 3 Palanca stories - TODO [[September 13, 2022]] Write a short essay of 600- 700 words on the three most interesting things about you. Provide your essay with a creative and interesting title. Note the date of submission. Deadline: [[September 14, 2022]] 11:59PM - TODO pay tuition [[September 15, 2022]] - #card#Dailies What should you aim for every day? - Steady consistent improvement so that you become 1% better. Small wins add up. - #card#Dailies WHAT SHOULD YOU DO AS AN IMAGE BEARER????? - ACT LIKE IT. BE WHO [[God]] DESIGNED YOU TO BE. - #card#Dailies What principle should you memorize about being a beginner content creator? - You actually need an `audience` first before you can sell your things. Nobody will know about them and all your hard work is going to be for naught. `STRATEGY` - #card#Dailies#mentalmodel What is the Helsinki Bus Station? - Stay on the bus. You will diverge from your inspirations if you stay consistent. - #card#Dailies What is average speed and graduation of habits? - In consideration of your goals and average speed (or daily consistency), you should step it up for you to be more productive. Realize it's in your control and realize that small consistent actions are better than maximal effort here and there. - #card#Dailies Why perfectionism will be your Achilles heel: - Trust you will get better by doing a lot. Deliberate practice balance also. It's better to learn from mistakes than to never do anything great at all. You write a lot to hit the bullseye once in a while. You don't expect to win the lottery with just one or two tickets. - #card#Dailies Why is [[Sleep]] such an event for you? - You never know what you're going to get. It's a mercurial black hole. You might discover shrewd solutions presented to you by your subconscious that would have otherwise been ignored by your conscious waking self. - What happened today: - [[Sleep]] log: 3h 9m. Feel relatively okay now 09:09AM. Don't know about later. Slept late-ish because I finished Don't Look Up last night. Again. - [[Meditation]] log: I had a hard time focusing. Probably the anxiety. I believe my family is saved. I pray continually. I try to be optimistic. It's quite hard. - Closed a bunch of tabs and put them in Notion and YT saved videos. Read some of them. Card-ed some of them (JC). - 1:49PM: Done doing CW 151 assignments for now. Next one on Thursday