Felt so soft this morning although I don’t remember what about. Something bridge. — Bible study for today got a bit spooky. I don’t know. Decided to use Tecarta devotionals for today out of nowhere. what about the number 9. — kw: mcewan, mcavoy, ts, differánce — Goal for thesis ![[08494280-15FB-49A0-A8FA-82A29647F139.jpeg]] — My exercise efficiency must be working because I only did 4-5 minutes HIIT and I got exercise-induced bronchoconstriction and my lungs and throat feel like they just grew hives I want to scratch so bad. That, or my mileage for HIIT is so low currently. — I really do have a lot on my plate. I feel like eating everything also. I mean food. I have so many tasks that I want to do but I am paralyzed. — 11:20PM. I am so exhausted. Where did all my time go? I did all my chores and though I had trouble with my analysis paralysis again with the infinite wishlist tasks, I was able to accomplish things at least, with this ‘staying on track’ with my habits. I went on a movie bender in the middle of the afternoon. or early afternoon like 2:00PM. Turning Red, then The Impossible, then some parts of French Exit. - [ ] Reminder to talk about work-play-fam-chores-life balance in God’s view and the grand scheme of things. — the day events to help you remember/anchor: 1. woke up early and fought every urge to sleep in 2. did routines tecarta and bible verses 3. **decided to prioritize cognition/memory consolidation-longevity, then input-output process (notetaking methods, progress reports, checkpoints for goals for projects), then the software learning like 2nd brain videos, then the actual data that i’m gonna sift through like shortform books etc. mental models, research, audio training during movies, convos, podcasts** 4. **i don’t know but i think my degree should come first and foremost. i will need to graduate as well as do my ‘cyberpunk renaissance woman’ training lols. CL122 for theory and the wattpad, deliberating whether i should take cw 151 or not this coming sem if i can finish cl122 a bit more. feel too exhausted to start with CW199. I don’t know about Eng 22 or Eng 42.** 5. sister and mom went out to uptown SM and dyed hair bayalage. The word reminded me of nice wigs from nuola wigs on tiktok i wanted a few months ago. I really liked the colors. 6. felt like some part of the exhaustion is emotional at least. trying to keep it together. well, armodafinil i hope is gonna help (they just arrived) with my physical and cognitive exhaustion at least. 7. packages arrived in succession today. 8. spooky day in general. 9. really don’t want to go outside my house anymore. i’ll be saving up for VR gear. I really also want to leave this country because of the movie The Impossible. That movie feels like a more highbrow, more granular, more gritty and more visceral 2012. Felt like my problems were so insignificant in comparison. I feel like a child.