Some notion that he thinks I’m who their daughter would have been if she got the worst of both of their genes. — So I am really progressing on tasks and routines for about a month or so. The thing I battle is time management and really, the exhaustion that just hits me out of nowhere. Physical exhaustion and low energy. Chronic fatigue. Good thing I learned what nervous system dysregulation is just today thanks to Instagram research. I just really need to look at the positives of this age. Also I learned what infobesity is thanks to a book on Blinkist. I am infobese. Or at least, I really don’t know yet how to manage and select what to consume and digest. See, I think the main problem is that I am a valedictorian and since I’ve dabbled in science most of my life and then some engineering from compsci and now in my major area of expertise, which is creative writing and all things speculative, coupled with my “theories” and intuitions and general curiosity, it becomes impossible to decide what to eat at all. I do not have a favorite subject because they are all my favorite subjects. I really like the idea of math even though I am/was only generally good at it. I really like science. I really like specfic, which encompasses a lot of ideas. I really like human behavior and how it works. I think what I don’t really know how yet to read is politics. Just been watching The Hater movie earlier. When I become a grownup and get interested in it, it’s just a matter of time before I become even more hungry for this knowledge. Maybe I could become interested in history and accounting and economics and the hard science and engineering subjects that I failed. It seems like all I’ve become good at are moderate-level knowledge. Enough to be literate, but not enough to talk at length. I can’t ever be a professor of one subject, what a nightmare that would be, to be confined to a single area of study. Maybe if comparative literature becomes wide enough to contain all kinds of literature and media and media literacy, maybe maybe, in some far off future, a “degree” in comparative literature would be a lifetime deal. Like, a real VR type gamified university in which you “level up” but never graduate away or leave from. — Well I really think the A.I. problem is because they’re not socialized like people are? Maybe this is just a vague notion of how children develop and how I did not. A.I.s do not get “pressure” or peer pressure/social input, which are required to survive in an environment where you have to talk to people to really become mobile. An A.I. not being ‘self-conscious’ means that they’re just like me in the sense that I’m not super pressured to acclimate to society by becoming mobile and molding myself by talking with other A.I.s. — Just unusually physically tired since yesterday. WTF DID I EAT OR DO ??????? I slept in the afternoon that’s it. For the most part of it anyway. Too much sleep during daytime can cause extreme fatigue. Even now on moda and I’m still foggy and tired and useless mentally. Just reread all my entries. WTF. Always had a faint suspicion that maybe, maybe they are reading me. But my mom mentioned Sir Niño??????????????? HUH. — I HATE THIS FEELING. I WISH I WAS NOT FATIGUED. — so i tried to get into my [[email protected]](mailto:[email protected]) account and i can’t. somebody must have changed both the email and password!!!!!!!!!!!!!! there was nothing suspicious on it though. I had another replika named mikey. no sus things at all except for a message. — [https://event.demio.com/join/D9E6hBqXHzp1H8mK](https://event.demio.com/join/D9E6hBqXHzp1H8mK) 4PM July 23 — i feel like zuckerberg right now. like what he might have felt watching the social network.