# 23, Thursday ## Intentions: 1. Doctor Strange: Multiverse of Madness 2. The Imitation Game 3. More humane and cheaper big pharma = smart drugs to boost cognitive capacities = bioOptimizers are hella expensive right now = lion’s mane, gingko biloba, that memory herb or something i forget which. 4. Imagine what you could do with more computer RAM. Lol on the other hand you really need superhuman self-control before you buy a new computer. 5. Currently can’t really sleep deeply. Still weathering effects of mania from a few days ago. Literally slept at 11:20PM woke up at 2:30ish AM. Can’t fall back asleep. I didn’t even drink a lot of coffee and possibly also because of the 20m exercise. Maybe I need to vary 15, 20m, 10m every few days just to experiment what it might do. don’t want to build a tolerance to 20m every day from wed to sat. 6. The Martian movie 7. bacopa monnieri? 8. East of Eden reread 9. Freezing right now Jun 23 and I don’t use aircon anymore. Weather is really cold. 8:00AM. Maybe it might even snow in Baguio someday lol. 10. Barbie movie greta gerwig JULY 21, 2023!!!!!! OMG Today is June 23. ## Happenings: One: I never expected ever in my life to develop all kinds of mental disorders. It wasn’t just possible to 16-year-old me. It was improbable. It was so alien a concept. I was anxious but hadn’t known anything about it. I didn’t have the vocabulary. I didn’t expect to develop Bipolar at 20/21? All I’m saying is, I was doing completely different things with completely different values and priorities (not completely though). There were patterns. Maybe Hegel-Marx has something to say about this. I could not have foreseen this happening to me. What will happen to me and the world in 2030? I know nothing about history. I know a tiny tiny tiny portion. I don’t know what God has in store. I really am scared yet I can only hope. — <aside> 🔑 Probably a huge reason why you are fatigued all the time: porn withdrawal? Like now, specifically. 5 days in and have not given in yet. Keep at it. Please. You will thank yourself. Withdrawal symptoms for drugs are always going to suck. </aside>