# 1, Wednesday 1. Double down on strengths 2. Determine the path of least resistance 3. Growth Mindset - everything is a learning experience **So many choices for dopamine. BOUNDLESS. There’s YT, Reddit, TikTok, [fmovies.to](http://fmovies.to), etc. etc. So you haphazardly let these behemoths of corporate greed control you and your mind because you have “nothing better to do.” I can’t believe this. They robbed me of my self-control and reading comprehension. I used to be so much better than this. And yes I am blaming those companies even though I had a hand in it. Like porn, it is impossible to detach from random novel stimuli. And when you try to limit yourself, it feels like a punishment, your willpower dissipates, that willpower that is actually limited and should be used wisely on other more important stuff. AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 2022 really is the wild wild west because no one knows how to deal with this overabundance. I really want to be better. My habits are holding me back.** — [https://time.com/4277510/porn-and-the-threat-to-virility/](https://time.com/4277510/porn-and-the-threat-to-virility/) <aside> 🚨 Beyond the issues facing these young men, there’s emerging research that should give every porn user pause. A 2014 fMRI study from the Max Planck Institute found that **habitual porn use may have an effect on the brain.** “The more pornography men consumed, **the smaller the brain striatum, the reward center of the brain,”** says Kühn, the author. “And those who watched more pornography **showed less response to pornographic pictures in the same area.”** Another study showed that **more-frequent porn users were more impulsive and had less ability to delay gratification.** And a brain-scan study out of the University of Cambridge in 2014 showed that men with compulsive sexual behavior responded to explicit clips in the same way users of drugs respond to drugs; they craved them, even if they didn’t like them. </aside> — Economic slack is a phrase used to describe the amount of resources in the economy that are not used. Machines left idle in a factory or people who cannot find a job represent slack to an economist. The reason that slack exists is usually due to **insufficient demand relative to what the economy is capable of producing**.Jul 18, 2018 — When my dad saw Liza on TV a few years ago I remember he said something about how tangos her nose is and like he said transliterated, “that kid’s nose is really sharp/pointed/nice” as a way to comment on how foreign she looks and take note he used the word “bata”… WTF and yet we have Dr. Evil over here having her in his secret spank bank somewhere now that he’s got wind of my sleuthing and deleted that fb alter account. WTF man. The difference????????????? I mean I know Liza is sexually attractive and my dad may be attracted to her also, but UGH. WTF WTF WTF WTF ???????????????????????????? If he’s read my essay he’s probably jacking it to not only Liza but tons of big-breasted celebrities like a goddamn rat going crazy over the bounty. I really didn’t think he would read it or if he has read then maybe somebody filtered it for him. pake ko. they never gave a shit about me anyway. POTA. literally no one is gonna be the whistleblower on this and tell Liza that porn of her exists right? I mean how would I even attempt to do that? — You consistently have this problem where everything is important and hence, nothing is important. It is ruining your life. It is why you have so many tabs in your browser and by extension, your mind. Truly, the internet is molding how you think. Some part of my brain cannot prioritize anything. I don’t know what to call this condition [research]. Paradox of choice? Analysis paralysis? Decision-making fatigue? just impulsivity in general? ????????? — ### #GOALS: from notes app don’t know where i got this: **YOU DO THIS UNCONSCIOUSLY NOW STOP IT. STOP IT. STOP IT. STOP IT.** <aside> 🔑 From my own life experiences — if you find yourself developing intense feelings/crushes you can’t seem to eliminate, it’s a sign that you lack self love. If you truly love and value yourself highly, **your mind will automatically modulate the intensity of crushes.** Crushes are sparked and **maintained by fantasizing — fantasies about how great the man you like is, how wonderful it would be to be in love with him, etc.** Instead, your internal dialogue should be about YOU. </aside> **Developing yourself, becoming a better you by investing in hobbies, your mental and emotional health, self-actualization. If you do things that make you better character-wise (meditation, working on improving your negative qualities), put time into developing skills, hobbies, and intellectual pursuits, you will slowly grow your sense of self-worth to the degree that intense crushes are _no longer possible._** You get to a place where your mind won’t let you fantasize about a particular man (which is what starts and perpetuates a crush) because you’re too busy being your best self in the real world. That’s the way. There’s no quick fix to this issue, it requires a consistent, persistent investment in yourself. YOU are your priority, and everything you do should reflect that to yourself. ### **Good luck! I used to develop crushes that were frankly embarrassing in their intensity. Once I began putting effort into self-actualization pursuits, my ability to crush began to fade along with the intensity and persistence of the ones I did manage to still form. If nothing in reality happens to back up those feelings, they disappear real quick — like they’re supposed to. Limerence and months, even multi-year crushes were a recurring theme in my life before I improved myself, so if I can break the cycle and stop doing it, ANYONE can!**