it’s friday and I haven’t even started on the buttload of assignments. i’m just so emotionally and mentally checked out. i woke up with unexplained body aches all over my body like in my back and neck even though i didn’t exercise. wow i must be getting old. i’m only 24. gaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh — whenever i remember watching movies in cinemas i always think of how artificial it is. how the communal audience experience and the larger-than-life blaring of the dolby digital surround sound make you feel like you’re participating in something great and real and eternal. but it turns out when you walk away from the theaters it was all just a cash grab for your attention. then i feel bad because i’m not really part of the story or the team behind the artists and producers and all who made it happen. — i pretend people hacked me to be less lonely. fuck me, right? i mean i am not sure if people hacked me. i am on meds and i still can’t tell what the effects are supposed to be. — ## To function without hope—truly a miracle. “Failure to thrive.” To hope in God’s glory. The antidote to sadness. To hope in a better world.