Reading [[Mind Trek]] by [[McMoneagle]]. Maybe I relate heavily to this book even though I haven’t really had a near death experience. I can’t really say I’m psychic. But I do know I have a skill that enables me to find things unconsciously. I believe I have a special talent for finding books and resources that are extremely relevant to my situation. It’s like I’m a psychic magnet. I found that book [[Gnomon]], I found Mike's accounts, I found [[Her Story]] and [[Telling Lies]], I found [[What It Means To Be Malaya]]. Maybe it’s confirmation bias, or maybe it’s a real skill. I really am just groping in the dark because I don’t know how to harness it or how I even started to train it. Maybe it’s social isolation. — I did it! I was able to focus for 5 hours and 30 minutes WITHOUT MODAFINIL. I can finally spend my money on something else!