You cannot be a hedonist. You can’t do anything and everything you want. That is a recipe for disaster. Just because you worked hard for a few hours for three days does not mean you can slack off now. > You must continually stretch yourself. There is no growth without it. None. You will never surpass your plateau. Nothing happens when you’re comfortable. This is all worth it. `Life is very delicate. Anything can happen. People are held together by very unpredictable forces. People can hurt you. The spiritual realm is real. *** 2PM and I tried to nap. I slept 7h and 56 minutes last night. I couldn’t nap. I wanted to because I felt groggy after lunch. Decided to have coffee right now. Also, I watched Enola Holmes and I can’t believe I didn’t watch it until yesterday. I’m too late for the 1st film and I’m too early for the 2nd, which is coming in 2022. I have a slight crush on Tewkesbury. Actually, not really. I’m more into his and Enola’s chemistry. Like I can ship them so hard. — I spent money, 3000 pesos?!?!?!, on a scholarly ebook on Springer Link only to find out it’s on zlibrary **dies**. — I was wondering why I was so fatigued and listless today, it turns out my period is coming in two days. Lesson: You cannot psych yourself down thinking you’re depressed or burnt out and it becoming a self-fulfilling prophecy (possibly my mistake? in the past? I just had extreme anxiety which caused low self-esteem, not full-blown depression).