You know, in another life, maybe I could have been a lawyer or something. I have some sophistry skills I can put to good use. I just can’t talk properly. — Very low energy day. I could only exercise for 9 minutes. — Maybe I am insane for thinking people are reading me. — I feel like leonardodicapr95’s message was from a dream. Maybe it didn’t happen. Why would somebody send me that? My instagram got banned because I unfollowed way too many people at once in a spring cleaning spree. Why would those numbers not make sense? Why do I think it’s referring to my spelling mistake? Why would they thank me for something I didn’t do? Why love and support? What love and support? I’m going insane. — I’m already too damaged by this society’s expectations. Part of the treatment is plastic surgery. My mind, my soul operates on God’s will and desperately clings to it in times of temptation. My body is a monster. My neurons thick and diseased with the caustic substance of repeated exposure to pressurized performative physical femininity. Cancer, autoimmune disease, my body’s own cells turning against each other in suicidal fracas and implosion. Held hostage, unless I conform. — ??? Academia Edu sends me really weird pdf papers. I’m going insane or usually notice them but I can’t be too sure. — I’m already a zombie and maybe the cure is plastic surgery. ## Grateful For: 1. I am so grateful I decided to one day randomly try Notion and not immediately give up because of the learning curve. 2. I am also so grateful I discovered the planner template design by Alyanna Ross on TikTok. 3. **Even if God doesn’t give me anything this year aside from those two things I’ll still be happy because of all the benefits they continue to bring like increased organization, finally getting around to actually reading articles I used to hoard as infinite tabs, reading more books, getting focused on the essentials, tracking my habits, the list is endless. My life has significantly improved since the New Year started. I only pray that I manage to stay consistent with the final levels of my undergraduate degree.**