Theory: The shift to humanism and humanistic thinking has really set humans up for hell. Primacy of subject’s agency and aspiring to happiness and fulfillment on Earth. Humanistic instead of the time before the ....? The Age of ____. I forget. Enlightenment? Renaissance? Sin, or the concept of us having sinned against a just God, no longer applies at all and is considered nonsense. Humans are “good.” Why redpillers exist = resentment and vitriol against the truth of the consequences of a fallen world, where evil women and women raised with evil sinful behavior and mindsets and societies exist. The fact that justice is us going to hell and mercy is God saving us (RC Sproul?). “Evil” not in the sense of the usual acts associated with it, like murder, rape, etc., but the propensity, the natural tendency of man, the stain of Adam and Eve’s disobedience affecting every single breath and thought and will. Redpillers, or incels, angry at women’s tendency to be “femoids” who care about locking down the alpha or Chad. “Women are children.”= “women as weaker vessel” (notice the way the truth is phrased, former condescends, latter Biblical one is protective, compassionate). What is theory but the study of man struggling in his own filth of his own making? The study of man dealing with the remains of a covenant broken. Getting the idea on Twitter that people really can’t accept the idea of sin. Or that there is a need for Jesus or a Savior. They believe themselves to be innocent and free from debt and the eventual gravity of God’s wrath. Lack of understanding of holiness? If not lack of understanding, the pride of the amassing of other more humanistic ways of living life. Of a holy unfathomable God that designed us? Of an unwillingness to accept God’s supremacy. Because the submitting of one’s faith in a God entails a life that is set apart from the world. Separate from worldly pleasures and debauchery. From sin and towards sanctification. Use and point to the fallenness of other Christians as reasons to walk away from God. Other Christians have seriously been evil and hypocrites, so I will not be like them. I will choose my own path away from a God who allows those people’s fallenness to get the best of them. That is to say, I see that God has taken the Holy Spirit from them like Saul, or perhaps never even given them the Spirit, and I choose to believe they are all talking nonsense and that Jesus was crazy to go die on a cross, or that he was killed by politics and not because he was actually divine. It is an unbeliever’s own sinful nature that stunts his ability to believe in God. When I phrase it like that, it makes them sound stupid or dense, but it really is a default condition. A state that can’t change unless God decides/has decided to change it. I don’t know enough of theory or theology to know how TULIP works exactly. I even forget what it stands for. Total depravity, unconditional election, limited atonement, irresistible grace, perseverance of the saints. Of course, people who have been harmed by other Christians and who decide to walk away are rational. It is only natural to attempt to break away from all the things that have been associated with the source of pain. Even the good things. It’s understandable that they try to start over. I mean, when I wrote that “new narrative” nonfiction piece “De(s)cent” for CL115, I was trying to come to terms with all the things that had gone wrong in my life and how God seemingly left me to myself. I probably cemented Prof. Cruz’s thinking like, wow, Christianity’s really a toxic way of life. I was just ranting about not being holy enough to experience God’s supposed blessings of not being depressed and lonely, and being too holy that I couldn’t experience love because of shame. All about shame, my life. 2017, or 2016, was it. Those years I didn’t belong anywhere or to anyone.