i. I can never atone for what I'd done to many people whose lives continue to be affected by what I did. Actual rape victims and the falsely accused alike. I already feel like I lost the license to use rhetoric to convince anyone of anything, since I don't learn fast enough, am too insensitive and sensitive in the wrong ways.  ii. Maybe I should schedule a conference before I write the nonfiction essay. I don't know if I'm on a kind of probation until I graduate or if people are just going along with the "became a lab rat" for 2019.  iii. A repressed memory.  I am not quite certain on the details of whether or not I went through with it, that is, I was again full of envy and spite for Kate in grade school that I either thought about posing as her on Omegle and sending her account to strangers [although I do remember an account on facebook who used her profile picture, which wasn't me—the one where her hair was still in bangs]. I am horrified at the thought now, and I'm sorry for even thinking about it. iv. The hexameter poem in ALL_GO in its first conception I imagined it as a kind of scroll down numerous files and folders, but somewhere it got corrupted and I decided that the innuendo was okay, with the diverging streams cascading into one.  v. Had this headache for most of the day and I don't think it's just from my maladjusted sleep schedule. And also mushier than average poop. It's probably from the aircon water at Mainlib, droplets of said water getting on my Mars bar when I bought it for a mid-dinner [because I thought it was supposed to be my dinner but I ended up buying dinner at Lutong Bahay]. Saw two men talking about anxiety and a woman with wavy hair with Onitsukas to my left side as I ate the Mars Bar. I know I should've thrown it away but I thought it wouldn't affect me [yet again a weird bias with smaller food items like the egg and cheese sandwich]. I threw away the cereals because I thought the bacteria would probably exponentially grow to a point where it could kill me or make me have a life-threatening disease.