i. "Shut out the vile" wasn't an attack on anyone in particular. I don't recall what exactly I was thinking but I felt anxious about offending Gita because she didn't acknowledge my "bye."  ii. I apologize for not being unproblematic about my views on what is attractive or unattractive. By problematic I mean airing them out "publicly."  iii. I'm not going to be able to submit the paper on time. It's not a question of me being resistant or unable to see the urgency but my own mental health and a recent development of some kind of cold/infection. If I submit a haphazardly written paper again tomorrow I don't think it will be training me for next semester. 3:42AM headache persisted since 2AM probably and I can’t sleep thinking/mourning.