I'm starting my journey towards a procrastination-free life. I'm also really stoked about getting high grades. Also, in order to save P30 pesos today without running out of money too early, I've calculated that I'd have to spend only P140 or so everyday. Or maybe if I could have a deficit every weekend so that I could have some money for more food. But I think I'll survive this. I've read somewhere that fasting makes your brain more alert, if it's done right. Or not, because it's not getting enough nutrients. I don't know. But I'll try to eat two meals a day. And a fruit shake at night. I don't think I'll suffer from any deficiencies, I hope. I also printed my physics questions from chapter 21 today. And I already know who my T-TH teachers are. I'm also currently studying for physics. Also, my parents are planning for the one-week-holiday on March 18-27 because of the Holy Week. I don't know if I'll survive and accomplish my goals by then, because that's the mid semester. --- All right. I took an ample hour's worth of break time to cool off. I can't expect to change my habits overnight. At least I did something today. --- If I were given the change to look inside a portal where my future lies, I would. I don't care if what I see is bad or good, I just want to know what my future has in store for me. I don't like not knowing, and since I believe that our destiny's already been mapped out by God and it's not something that we create for ourselves. But…on the one hand, I kind of also hate not knowing if God really did give us free will. I mean, if He already knew from the start that we're going to do this or that, then wouldn't salvation be His choosing? I mean, we can't really have free will to love God if He already dictated from the very beginning that we were chosen. I've read somewhere that we were supposedly chosen, and that's why we believe, and not the other way around. So that must mean that we didn't have free will in the first place. I get that all of us deserve to go to hell but God only chose to give HIs love to a select few, blessed people. I don't know what to make of all of this. Maybe I'm not mature enough. I'm just glad I was chosen.