I'd like to think that I'm not the product of what I'm exposed to but it's just so hard to think otherwise when you know that it's exactly what you're exposed to that makes you, you. I'm the way I am because I've happened to read and discovered things and probably agreed with some of them or become predisposed to because of opinions formed from what I was exposed to before that. --- I am literally sitting here in from of the mini wooden table and my fan is covered in dust. --- Have my sneezes always been this loud? I feel like I could control them better before. --- I haven't written anything meaningful or substantial for the last few months. I was rereading some of the past few entries and I feel like they're more of a play-by-play recount of my reactions to events that happen, but they're not actually the type of introspective reflections that I used to do (and prefer to read). Ugh. I was rereading this journal entry and it dawned on me that maybe I was a better writer before. I mean, I don't really know how to gauge how I write but damn, I liked the way I wrote that journal entry. I mean, she was brilliant. Past me, that is. I wish I could churn out journal entries like that every single day. It actually felt like I was back in that place again. --- I really hate pretentious people like Essa Santos. But then again, I can be pretty pretentious myself. Maybe it's just my hatred for pretty girls who are not total bimbos. She's really really pale. And she's a model. And she also graduated as a philosophy major. And I don't actually know what she does. But she works in Makati acc to her Facebook description. I don't know what to think. --- I don't know if it's confirmation bias but I've seen 11:11 on the computer's clock more than I can count. --- There isn't a month in 2015 that I haven't journaled. I don't know if that counts for something, but maybe in five years, I'll have 5 years of journalling for each month of my life starting 2015. I haven't thought about it that way but it makes me hopeful. --- I only have physics finals to worry about. I also crave a lot of movie-watching even though I'm not completely out of this hell yet. --- I just finished watching Big Hero 6 and my roommate Mitzi just checked out. --- # I am going home in three days. Wow. ---- Dimitri from Anastasia is so hot. For a cartoon, he's just too perfect. He's the perfect combination of gentle and naughty.