Okay. Christmas just whizzed by and I haven't even written about it. So, actually, on its eve, I mean lunch, we went to balingasag to eat and spend at least 6 hours in the sweltering heat, but i don't really feel like complaining about that because I'm sure it'll be one of the pleasant memories in my memory bank for when I'm stressed out in the second semester which is coming. I'm kinda nervous because I haven't been doing anything substantial for my future. I know I'm supposed to unwind and all that but I see all these people on tumblr being excellent in their studies and just generally being happy, seemingly. Meanwhile, I'm sluggish and lazy and sleep deprived and it's not even fun. I feel bad all day and have headaches for no reason. I have decided to start making a studyblr tomorrow. I am writing this right now in the new master bedroom. Today, my aunt, my sister, my cousins (aya and athena), and I went to SM to buy stuff like my two jeans and two shirts. After coming home, I was browsing ebay because my brain feeds off the feeling of looking at nice stationary. I really really really really want a moleskin (squared) and those Zebra Mildliners, which is why I really really really really want to earn the money, which is why I wanted to make a blog, not that the blog itself would make me more than peanuts. I mean, I would actually have to wait and work hard. And maybe I'll have to make an ebook while I'm at it so I could advertise it to my (hopefully) thousands of followers. I mean, I just actually realised maybe a few months ago that I don't want to run a blog that's useless, like so many other people who do it for fun. I want it to have some purpose. I want it to inspire me. I want money too. I want a space on the internet that I could decorate and cherish and make into something that people would look at so there'd be a chance that I could advertise my book. So that's it basically. I would have to build up my fan base. And maybe someday, I'll have my own iPhone, my own camera, and I'll be able to treat my family every day because they deserve it so much.