I don't really need an iPhone, but I really want one though. I want a really nice case to go with it too. If only I had the money. I mean, I need the skills first. One of the reasons why I was drawn to computer science is making apps and games. I really wanted to be a developer. I still do, a little bit. I also want to work at Google. I also want to be a best-selling author. I wonder if any of my goals would be fulfilled within 10 years. I am turning 18 in three days. Three freaking days. Three. I'll be an adult. An adult. I'm done with being a kid. I'm done with being a teenager. I'll be a young adult. 18. When I was 12, someone who was 18 was super old. Now, I'm gonna be old. 18. Wow. Maybe I'll be like this when I'm 21. That's only three years from now. And I'll be graduating by then. I hope I graduate magna cum laude. If not, then maybe I can snag a cum laude, at least. Come to think of it, I'm not sure if I'll have the same goals when I'm 21 as I do now. Or maybe I will. Maybe I think that way because when I was 15, I didn't feel like I had a choice. It was always the medical road for me. Because my parents said so. But now that I actually shifted out of a pre-med, maybe this will be my path. --- Wow. 65 days left till December 10-11. --- Here I am, wasting my time again. --- FUCK MY DESTITUTE LIFE. But seriously. SERIOUSLY. My mom said that they don't have a budget at all except for one shirt and some grocery. --- SERIOUSLY ALSO, FUCK THESE PEOPLE HERE WHO HAVE THE NERVE TO LOOK PISSED WHEN I COLLECT MONEY. I DIDN'T ASK FOR THIS FUCKING RESPONSIBILITY. --- This might probably be one of those days when I just want to jump off a building. Not really. I just want to scream my head off. --- I really want those Sakuma drops. --- Goal next semester: to have all my classes be over before 4. --- # I don't even know what's the point. --- I am once again in the same old predicament. The lazy ass good for nothing ingrate. ---- Look, I know I should be studying Physics right now or some shit. But I really don't feel like being disciplined.