Struck down with a fever. If I didn't write for October 20, it's because I was too exhausted. --- Also, I was knocked out from 3:30pm to 2 AM. With debilitating headaches in between waking up for useless alarms. --- Still feeling really feverish. --- I feel like vomiting. And yet I'm googling all the food. --- I know I shouldn't be trusted to make decisions when I'm hungry, tired, or sick, but I am all three right now and I just want to step out of this life for a moment and breathe. I wish my life wasn't like this. Where the chances of something going awry is almost too high. In all aspects. Why can't my life be stable? I know other people have it worse, but this rough UP life is really taking a toll on my mental and physical health. I can't even handle 15 units properly. While other people juggle 19 units and extracurriculars without a hitch. I just want to go home. --- I can't bring myself to study for the ME tomorrow. I just can't. --- I feel like I'm too immature to be here. I have no idea why I got kinda okay grades during my first year. I have a feeling that I'll bomb all of my exams.